An indescribable atmosphere hung over everyone's heads, silent, depressing, and sad, making people's hearts heavy.

Xu Guang is the most understanding of Xu Yao, he was also one of the participants in the events of that year, and Xu Ru's experience made him extremely embarrassed.

Su Yu looked at Qin Ze with pity, she always felt that her life experience was miserable enough, grandma didn't love her uncle, her mother didn't love her father, they each gave birth to a child to take her place, Su Yu felt that she was wandering in the shadows of the lights of the two families.

It is incompatible with the harmonious atmosphere of their family, and they all say that their parents are the closest people in the world, and she also wants to, but her parents don't kiss her, and they may still see her as the failure of the failed marriage in her life.

But compared to Qin Ze, he seems to be very lucky, although he has a happy family, a strict father and a gentle mother, and a charming sister.

But he didn't know his biological mother until she died. And who the biological father is, no one knows.

The encounters are so similar...... Aze and I, sure enough, Wang Ba looked at mung beans, a natural pair.

Su Yu thought happily.

.......

The man did not appear, and he did not appear all the time.

My sister's belly gradually grew bigger, and during the summer vacation, the sister and brother returned to Xujia Town.

In the nineties, an unmarried woman who became pregnant had to suffer a lot of criticism in this remote and impoverished town.

For a time, rumors spread.

Some people say that Xu Ru is someone else's junior outside, so he has money for his younger brother to study.

Some people say that Xu Ru was outside the object, but he was abandoned by others.

Anyway, there's everything to say.

"Bad woman", "casual", "don't know how to check" all kinds of labels hit her.

It's summer vacation, and the sun is scorching the earth.

In the small shop in the town, a group of aunts chatted around, waving fans in their hands.

"Who is that wild seed in Xu Lan's belly, this is about to be born. ”

"There are so many wild men outside, she doesn't say it herself, how do you know whose it is. ”

"This baby who has no parents since he was a child, is so easy to deceive, coax him to bed in a few words. ”

"Who wants her now. ”

"Ah Rong, is that kid admitted to college, hey, you said that when Xu Lan gives birth to a baby, how can there be money for him to go to college. ”

The proprietress of the store suddenly changed her face and gave a few aunts a hard look.

At the door, outside the shadow of the eaves, Xu Yao stood there, his face expressionless, his hands clenched into fists.

"Ah Rong came to get the admission letter, he just arrived this morning. The hostess squeezed out an embarrassed but polite smile.

Xu Yao took the admission letter and left, it was sealed in a yellow envelope.

During the time he came back from the summer vacation, he had heard too many rumors, some of them behind his back, and some of them in person. He never fights, and he often fights with people during the summer vacation.

Xu Yao hated her sister, hated her for not loving herself, hated her for ruining her future.

The kind of madness that hates iron but not steel torments him every day.

He hated the man who didn't recognize people even more when he lifted his pants, and even though he didn't know who he was, his sister never said it.

No wonder the gossip in the town.

The old bus came slowly, and drove steadily on the paved oil road the year before, and finally stopped at the bus stop.

A teenager and a young woman with a big belly got out of the car.

It was Xu Guang and Xu Lan, two sisters and brothers who had been away from their hometown for many years.

"Hi, hi, Arron. Xu Guang waved vigorously, with a smile on his face.

The aunts in the small shops poked their heads out.

Xu Yao looked at Xu Lan deeply.

After many years, I finally saw her again, and now Xu Lan has faded away from the youthfulness of a girl, becoming round and plump, with the grace of a young woman between her eyebrows.

"Why are you in the town, didn't you say that you and Sister Ru moved to the county seat. ”

"Oh, my sister is pregnant, come back and hide, the family planning office has no sons, catch my sister and send her to the hospital, to have a fetus. You see that her belly is so big, can she have a fetus, a group of inhuman brutes. ”

"My brother-in-law didn't come, I sent my sister back, anyway, my dad said it doesn't matter if I go to work or not, I know that I can fish, it's better to come back with my sister and take care of it. ”

Xu Guang was as lively as ever, chattering along the way.

"You say a few words. Xu Lan reprimanded his younger brother, then looked at Xu Yao, and said softly, "What's wrong, Ah Rong?"

She has always been so gentle, so caring, that she can easily perceive the gloom in her eyes.

In an instant, his eyes were red, and Xu Yao said, "My sister is pregnant." ”

.......

That night, Xu Lan and Xu Ru talked about late at night, two pregnant women, two best friends, separated for many years, one married and had children, and they were happy. An unmarried pregnant woman who was criticized.

Just like what happened to them when they were children, they couldn't be more different.

Xu Ru looked at Xu Lan like a little match girl looking through the window at the warm stove and delicious Christmas dinner in the room.

Two worlds.

"Who is the father of the child?"

In the dim light, lying on the same bed, Xu Lan said softly.

Xu Ru hesitated for a long time and didn't say.

Xu Lan gently stroked her best friend's belly, which was bigger than hers, and her due date must be earlier.

"When a child is born, he can have no father, but what about when he grows up? Other people's children have fathers, but he doesn't. Xu Lan said: "My baby likes her father, she is tired of being with her father all day long, the child of a single-parent family is very bitter, you are a person from the past, you should have a number." ”

Seeing that she was still silent, Xu Lan said bitterly: "Carry everything by yourself, are you tired? Even if he doesn't want you and children, at least he can ask for a compensation, and your life will be better." ”

"What should Ah Rong do? He was admitted to Zhejiang University, you have worked hard for so many years, and you finally see hope, so you just give up halfway? You said that studying to change your destiny is the last step, and you will not leave? Also, what about your future, you are not young, with a child, how can you get married? ”

How to get married, in this era, who would want a woman who has a baby without marrying.

Who's going to want it?

After a long time, Xu Ru said: "He just left for something." ”

"Do you believe it?" Xu Lan asked rhetorically.

Silence again.

"It's okay not to talk about this," Xu Ruqiang smiled: "Why are you pregnant again, now you are so strict, I heard that there are five months of superbirth in the town, and they have all been arrested and killed, and they almost left with two lives." ”

Xu Lan said helplessly: "My family wants a son, and his father also wants to, but he always feels that without a son, his old Qin family will be broken." Don't look at his pain now, he hurts his daughter very much, after knowing that I am pregnant, that happy, usually old-fashioned person, jumping and jumping, like a child. ”

Xu Lan's reproachful and helpless tone, but her face was full of happiness, which deeply pierced Xu Ru's heart.

"Actually, I can think of a way for Ah Rong's tuition, but I really can't, I asked my dad if he wanted it, how to say that Ah Rong also called him uncle. Xu Lan sighed: "But you ...... it yourself"

In fact, at that time, it was the time when Xu Lan and her mother's family had the greatest contradiction, the old man of the Xu family was a cadre leader, the daughter of a cadre leader, but he wanted to give birth.

And the reason why the Xu family doesn't look down on the Qin family is because the Qin family is poor and has no money.

"No, what money do you have? The poorest person is a teacher, right? Xu Ru said: "Ah Rong's tuition, I will find a way." I'm an older sister, taking care of my younger brother, as it should. Xiaolan, this is my sister's last dignity. ”

Yes, this is her last dignity.

Yes, the eldest sister is like a mother, as it should be.

.......

Hearing this, Qin Ze felt both melancholy and sad in his heart.

Regardless of whether Aunt Xu still has hopes for that man, the ending is still doomed, the man did not come, and she reluctantly separated from her biological son and married someone else.

In fact, her tragic life was doomed from the beginning.

In my mind, I can't help but think of the song he wrote to his sister:

I once loved such a man,

He said I was the most beautiful woman in the world.

I keep that innocence for him,

Close the door to love others.

It's also this man I love so much,

Turn me into the dumbest woman in the world.....

Have you ever loved a man like this, had hope for him, had longing for him, but was turned into the stupidest woman?

Aunt Xu?

"Then who is that child my mother gave birth to? Qin Ze asked.

From the bottom of his heart, this matter ended here, he knew his life experience, but he was sick.

He got everything he wanted, and the past was unbearable, so he let it be scattered in time with the wind.

But Qin Ze couldn't hold back his curiosity and asked more.

Xu Guang shook his body exaggeratedly, and the whole person seemed to have straddled.

According to them, I should have been born earlier than me, October is my birthday, but it's not really my birthday.

Where did I go, was I eaten by the people of Guangdong?