After Yang Ru'e left Baise, Zhang Yan spent the most memorable semester of junior high school with her grandmother.

Grandma loves him very much, hurts him more than herself. In addition, Zhang Yan has experienced such a big shadow, and Grandma loves Xiaoyan very much, for fear that he will lose confidence in love.

After this incident, classmates always used Zhang Yan as a topic: "Look! He is the boy who was abandoned by his father, and his father raised a junior in Nanning, so he doesn't want him anymore." ”

Another sentence came from behind him: "I heard that his mother also left, and I don't want him anymore, and I don't know if he is his parents." ”

The three-year grades in junior high school have been downhill, because the shadow given by the parents is too big, and every day I am teased by my classmates that it is a wild child, a wild child that my parents don't want.

But he didn't bring his emotions at school to Grandma when he went back, and he still relied on Grandma very gently, and Grandma loved him very much.

She could see that every time Zhang Yan came home from school, he had a forced smile on his face, and he must have been wronged by something, but he still pretended to be very comfortable in front of Yang Xiujuan, he didn't want Grandma to be so old, and he had to worry about him every day, so and worry about that. He just wanted to see Grandma with a smile on her face.

And at night, I realized that Zhang Yan was so aggrieved in his heart: "He was like fighting with others in a dream." With both hands and feet, I said like crazy, you are all nonsense, my parents did not abandon me, they just went to Nanning to do business..............."

"A teenager is an older boy, when others are still coquettish and awkward to his parents, he has learned what it means to be his own emotions. ”

Grandma's second grandma went to school on crutches and scolded those classmates who laughed at him to the point of blood, Zhang Yan was surprised when he was present, but he didn't expect that the amiable grandma would also leave no room to scold others speechless.

She can't see the slightest grievance of her grandson, let alone someone saying a bad word about her grandson, not even a word. ”

No matter what others say about him, he claims that Zhang Yan has experienced everything that his age has not experienced in the past few years, as if he has understood a lot and seen through a lot. The only thing that worried him was Grandma's body: the doctor said that surgery could be done for "brain cancer", but Grandma still refused. She said: "I don't have much left, so I don't need to spend some unjust money." ”

Sometimes Grandma will come to the gate of the school to pick up Zhang Yan from school, the sun sets, the old man is a little bent, Zhang Yan looks at Grandma from a distance and feels very sad, why do people get old. Where has the time gone?

Zhang Yan looked at the old man's tall nose bridge, and his face that had been worn down by the years to only wrinkles, like a painting. Forever engraved in his heart. Grandma: "You don't want to die. ”

He was afraid that if she really left him one day, he would really be a wild child that no one loved.

Grandma looked at Zhang Yan with a smile: "Silly child, people are going to die after all," but you still have your parents!

Mom and Dad? He did, but they were all far away from him.

After his parents divorced, his father also called him, but he didn't answer, and then Zhang Zhongxing didn't call again, Zhang Yan was sad, and the so-called father was just like that, living together for more than ten years still can't withstand the insertion of a third party.

Zhang Yan will never forget the summer vacation of that year, when he asked his father for alimony in Nanning.

That year, it was also his sister Yangyang who was three years old, she was chubby, wearing a little princess dress, and was hugged by Xu Li.

Xu Li saw him and smiled proudly: "Look, Yangyang, this is my brother." ”

Yangyang was eating a snack, squinted at Zhang Yan, and didn't speak.

Zhang Zhongxing held her in his arms, took away the potato chips that Yangyang was eating, and said with a smile: "How many times has Dad told you, don't always eat these junk foods." ”

"Give it to me! Give it to me!" Yang Yang unceremoniously scratched Zhang Zhongxing's face, "Mom and Dad snatched my snacks, and I want to hit Dad."

Zhang Zhongxing was not angry, he was just playing happily, and he didn't pay attention to the child support he came here to ask for, Zhang Yan stood in the hall, feeling that he was an outsider, especially when he saw Xu Li's smug smile, the air was like a spear that couldn't look at home, and it stabbed Zhang Yan's heart.

This time, Xu Li was even more like the hostess: "Is your mother okay lately, there is nothing wrong with her body!" smiled at Zhang Yan and said, "Do you want me to go upstairs and take some masks that I don't use to your mother!"

Zhang Yan stared at her with clenched fists: "What's the matter with you," I almost slipped out the two words of Xiaosan.

Xu Li smiled smugly, not angry. Maybe she just wants to see Zhang Yan's appearance.

On the contrary, Zhang Zhongxing said with a serious face: "Xiaoyan, how do you talk to adults? ”

"Isn't it?" Zhang Yan looked at him with straight eyes, and said coldly: "Dad, I'm here to get child support, if it's convenient for you, you can give it to me, I'm going home." ”

Zhang Zhongxing suddenly stood up at this time, put one hand on his waist and said with one hand pointing at Zhang Yan and said, "Qian Qian Qian," how can you be like your mother, you will mention money with me. If I hadn't been because I didn't want to burden my mother so much, do you think I want to come to you to see your family snub me?

Dad's face looked a little unhappy, Zhang Yan didn't dare to talk back, he said discouragedly: "I still have some homework that I haven't finished reviewing, so I'll review it first." ”

"Why do you review your homework later, do you want to come once, stay a few more days and spend more time with your sister, and cultivate a relationship with your sister, so as not to divide the relationship between brother and sister in the future." ”

Xu Li sat on the side, crossed Erlang's legs and crossed her hands on her chest as if watching the excitement, Zhang Yan didn't understand, everyone, obviously knew in her heart that the other party couldn't tolerate anyone, but why did she see that she was biting him like she had rabies. Later, gradually there was a WeChat circle, and Zhang Yan understood how much people are afraid of lonely creatures.

If you don't show off, if you don't brush your sense of existence, you will die, this successful junior, if she doesn't show off her power in front of her ex-wife, how can she appear successful. She also needed witnesses to tell her opponents, "How happy she is now. ”

Zhang Zhongxing always has a way to make Zhang Yan understand what it means: "Pain!"

The pain is that the father told you very calmly and asked you to take good care of this half-sister, and it was the mother who knelt on the ground and begged bitterly during the divorce, and the man had a disgusted look on his face.

Zhang Yan can be regarded as having seen what it means to be different, one is pampered like the sky, and the other is the air. Even the alimony of more than 1,000 has to be delayed until the end.

Zhang Zhongxing loves his daughter very much, the little sister who only sees herself and is arrogant and unreasonable. She never called Brother Yan, and Zhang Yan didn't pay attention to her.

In order to pay child support, Zhang Zhongxing also deliberately arranged for Zhang Yan and Yangyang to be in the same room, and in Xu Li's mean tone, he said: "Cultivate feelings." ”

During this period of time, Zhang Yan really counted his fingers to live, and he still had to sit in Yangyang's luxurious princess room to accompany her.

It was deliberately arranged by Zhang Zhongxing for Yangyang, and the room was full of rag dolls, large and small, all over the floor, everything. Some are still imported, Zhang Yan looked at the label, his eyes were red, some rag dolls were much higher than his child support for a few months, and it turned out that he was not even as good as a toy.

He looked around the room obsessively, the tears in his eyes swirled in his eyes and almost cried, he looked at Yangyang playing on the side, why is there such a big difference between people.

My sister's thousands of rag dolls are everywhere, and I pay more than 1,000 child support every month, but I have been delaying it again and again.

He casually took a rag doll on the ground and touched it, looked up, and snatched the rag doll in his hand: "Take away your dirty hands, countryman!"

Her voice was still milky, but the tone was always so sarcastic like her mother, Zhang Yan was so angry that she was angry all of a sudden: "What are you talking about........ little brat?"

"What's wrong?" Yangyang took it for granted, my mother said that you were a poor boy from the countryside who came to my father to ask for money.

Zhang Yan snatched the rag doll in Yangyang's hand with a fire: "I'll touch it!

Zhang Yan deliberately pressed on the body of the rag doll, Yangyang was not happy to see this, and ran over to grab it, and in the process of tearing and robbing, Zhang Yan let go of the rag doll and fell to the ground, and his eyes fell out. Yangyang saw the rag doll's eyes fall to the ground and there was a screaming cry, and she was still rolling on the ground.

"You accompany my rag doll, you accompany my rag doll.............."

That night, as soon as Zhang Zhongxing got home, Yangyang ran to him and cried, saying, "Dad! He beat me and broke my rag doll's eyes." ”

In fact, the eyes are not broken, they just fell off, and they have already been put back, Zhang Yan was just about to explain, Zhang Zhongxing accused him with a slashed face: "Xiao Yan, how can you be an elder brother, can't you let your sister a little bit when she is still young?" How can you still beat your sister.............

At that moment, the anger accumulated in the past few days was finally about to explode, and all of them poured into Zhang Yan's incomparable grievances in her heart, looking at her sister who was coaxed in her arms, she was proudly watching herself being scolded, and she didn't say a word of defense for herself.

He clenched his fists, and a terrible thought flashed through his head.

The next day, Zhang Zhongxing went to work, Xu Li went out with the nanny, and he and Yangyang were left at home, and Yangyang was taking a lunch break.

Zhang Yan quietly approached her room to her bed, she slept soundly, her little chest fell together, looking at the really cute and seductive little sister, if only you were not as bad as your mother.

Zhang Yan's hatred for her and her mother was hovering in his mind, he hated them, he hated them, hated his father for being so partial and unfair, and hated everyone in this family.

"Zhang Zhongxing, didn't you drive your daughter?" Then I will take your daughter to die together. Let you feel the pain of losing a loved one.

He gently picked up Yangyang and walked to the two-meter-wide balcony, this is the forty-second floor, if you jump from here, no one will survive, Zhang Yan leaned over and looked down. The person below is as small as an ant, and he is almost a little dizzy when he sees it, and his hands and feet are shaking again, but the hatred in his heart is increasing unabated.

Yangyang seemed to be blown by the cold wind and woke up a little inductively, and asked in a daze, "What are you doing?"

She saw that she was standing on a chair with Zhang Yan's hands in her hands, looking stupidly at the bottom of the balcony, maybe she also felt scared, and howled loudly: "Brother Yan, Brother Yan." ”

She cried and struggled, holding Zhang Yan's hand tightly, it hurt so much, at that moment Zhang Yan woke up like she was scratching the pain.

In the end, Zhang Yan still didn't jump down, he and Yangyang fell from the chair to the cold floor, he looked at Yangyang's red arm that was grabbed by Yangyang, or Yangyang who was lying on the ground crying, he ran out of the door in a panic.