As soon as he crossed the threshold, Yang Ru'e seemed to have won, and felt that she had lost, the victory was her momentum, and the loss was the love she had worked hard for more than ten years.

"She completely lost her combat effectiveness, collapsed to the ground crying and scolding"

"Zhang Zhongxing, you negative man....... You don't want to die well........... You're not going to end well. ”

Zhang Yan stood behind his mother, looking at the broken glass ballast on the ground, and the wedding photos on the ground when they got married, the two of them leaned back to back, like a pair: "jade" The two of them snuggled up to each other, and I looked at each other strongly.

Zhang Yan raised his head, looked at his mother with a cloak, and thought, "Why do people who love each other do this?"

"What does love .......... mean?"

Zhang Zhongxing has been gone for more than half a year, and he went to Nanning, as if he was going back to recuperate and prepare for the next oral battle.

Xu Li never showed up, but her mother would occasionally mention her: "How is that little third late?" Zhang Yan roughly described his impressions in the past few days, and his mother asked repeatedly after listening to it, over and over again, Zhang Yan answered her impatiently.

Yang Ru'e glared at Zhang Yan with a blue eye: "What's the matter? Do you think I'm verbose? I'm tired of seeing me, right?" You have a virtue with Zhang Zhongxing, and if you ask you a few words, you will feel that I am impatient.

Since the start of the war, she began to call him Zhang Zhongxing by name, with a cold face and gritted teeth.

Zhang Yan didn't dare to say a word, for fear of poking the wound in her heart, Yang Ru'e came over and pushed him away: "Then you go, you don't want to follow me, then you go to that negative man and that vixen." ”

Every time, Zhang Yan was so frightened by Yang Ru'e that she shrank in the corner, not daring to make a sound. Seeing her son cowering in the corner in fear, Yang Ru'e seemed to have just come to her senses, and came over and hugged Zhang Yan tightly and cried: "Xiaoyan, mom is not good, mom shouldn't vent her resentment on you." ”

Zhang Yan is afraid to see such a mother, he doesn't know when his mother is good and bad, every time she quarrels with her father, she looks at the wedding souvenirs that her father gave her in the past, as well as those gifts for Valentine's Day, which are full of memories.

Zhang Yan saw his mother sobbing in a low voice: "Why, why do you want to break my heart, break my heart........................"

Zhang Yan looked at his mother very uncomfortable, living in pain every day, his father was so ruthless: "People are really selfish." When he returned to Nanning, he at least had a lover and a daughter, but his mother washed her face with tears every time.

But he couldn't do anything, Zhang Yan was still young at the time, he was scared at the beginning, and he followed his mother to bear it, and then when he came home from school, he could hear the sound of breaking things in the house not far away.

He understood that his father was back, and he was still fighting about the divorce. ”

He stopped, didn't enter the door, and ran out with his bag on his back. He didn't want to go home, it wasn't a warm home, it was like hell, a place of torment. You can only stay in the nearby Zhongshan Park.

With the help of the dim yellow street lamp, I finished my homework, and then sat still in a daze, and when I came back later, I thought that they should have probably just finished arguing. Anyway, the two people in the family both smelled of gunpowder. They would not have remembered Zhang Yan's existence at this time.

Zhang Yan didn't know why his family became what it is today, he was caught in the middle, about to suffocate.

"If only there was something warm to hold" He looked around, as if looking for something, Maomao and his owner did not appear in the park, every time he was in a low mood, he could always meet it, Zhang Yan also tried his luck every time, to see if he could meet.

There was nothing on the bench, "He is usually very mysterious, Zhang Yan vaguely felt that it would appear whenever he needed it, but today there was none, only he was alone.

Zhang Yan shouted helplessly: "Mao Mao, Situ Xuan, where are you? Oh, I need you." ”

Still no one responded to him, but some passers-by saw him full of grievances, yelling and screaming, pointing and saying: "This person is like a madman, what is he calling here, who is he calling................"

After Zhang Yan shouted a few times, he still couldn't see Mao Mao and Situ Xuan, he was very lost and tired lying on the bench they usually sat on, and he didn't come to his senses until a long time later.

He sat on the bench in confusion, and the words in front of him made his eyes lock on the wooden board of the bench, on which were carved a few lines of words, the traces were clear, and the words were beautiful.

He engraved: "Endure the calm for a while, take a step back and open the sky, life must learn to look down, and only then will it grow." ”

Later there will be a chance for us to gather: "Brothers"

After all, he still regards himself as a friend: the two "brothers" seem to be comforting Zhang Yan, and he will have friends who can afford him.

They haven't known each other for a long time, and they haven't said much, but it seems that he understands Zhang Yan, his suffering, and his pain.

Zhang Yan looked at these lines, looked at them, touched these simple lines and said: "We will get together again big brothers in the future" Mao Mao also left and left him, but at least Situ Xuan said goodbye to him.

is not like the unsympathetic Zhang Zhongxing who is indecisive, halfway through love, he lets go, and is ruthless and unrighteous.

After that night, in the next few years, Zhang Yan never saw Situ Xuan again, he seemed to come from the future, a passerby who floated and sank in the sea of people, accompanied him through those lost days, since he knew that Mao Mao and Situ were gone, Zhang Yan was also very little

I went to Zhongshan Park, because they agreed: "We will meet again when we have time." ”

After sitting in Zhongshan Park for a night, it was already late at night, Zhang Yan returned home and saw that his mother was a lot calmer. Zhang Yan looked at his sad and sad mother's eyes swollen and red from crying, and stood beside his mother: "Mom, my good friend taught me something today."

"What's the matter?"

"Take a step back and open the sky, endure the calm for a while. ”

He said, "Mom, you better talk to Zhang Zhongxing." Divorce him! He doesn't want you anymore. "Exit his world.

Yang Ru'e looked at Zhang Yan with tired eyes and said, "Our fate is really hard, Xiao Yan." ”

The mother and son leaned against each other and muttered, "Take a step back............. Sea...... Wide....... Sky......... Empty"

Since then, Zhang Yan has learned to say goodbye to the departure of life.

Situ Xuan also told Zhang Yan that there is no banquet in the world that will not be dispersed, but we must learn to accept the moment of the end.

"To get used to the unaccustomed to life. ”

After the divorce, Yang Ru'e was sad and wasted for more than half a year. She doesn't do anything, she spends her days like the walking dead. Sometimes she sits in a stupid daze, taking some things that Zhang Zhongxing gave her and wantonly destroying them.

Zhang Yan secretly collected a family photo, and was slapped after being found by his mother, and the photo was torn to pieces on the spot. ”

She hurt her heart so much: "Heart-shattering, bloody." ”

They all say that they don't know how to cherish it, and they only know the pain after they lose it, but: "After cherishing and then losing, this pain is only known to Yang Ru'e herself." No one will feel her pain. ”

"Time is also the best medicine to heal. ”

A few months later, Yang Ru'e came to her senses, she said: "I want to resign, I want to start a business." ”

Yang Ru'e has done this job for more than ten years, all of them are in early and late out, and she has always been a good image of the unit, Zhang Yan heard her say that she was going to resign and start a business, and she was both happy and sad.

She has changed a lot, her mother in the past will never be so frank, no matter how big Zhang Zhongxing's business is, she didn't want to quit her job in the unit, but now, she handed over the resignation letter without frowning.

Then I went to dress up again, do hairstyles, do beauty, learn makeup, and when I got home, Zhang Yan thought it was that big beauty, and I was almost unrecognizable.

"Has Mom really come out?" But Zhang Yan still supports Mom, and it's good to change the environment in a different way.

In the eyes of outsiders, she came out of the shadow of divorce, and only Zhang Yan was clear: "Mom is still the original mother, no matter how much she hides her appearance, she still won't forget the man who has been with him for more than ten years." ”

"Otherwise, why didn't my mother go to Nanning in so many big cities. ”

Yang Ru'e is like falling into a swamp for love, she is sinking deeper and deeper, and she can't control herself at all.

Yang Ru'e entrusted her son to her grandmother Yang Xiujuan, and she couldn't wait to set off.

When Yang Ru'e was about to leave for Nanning, she wanted to say hello to Zhang Yan, but Zhang Yan still refused to see her: "Everyone expresses what they don't love in the name of love." ”

Everyone said that they loved him and loved him, but in the end, it was not for their love that they abandoned him, Zhang Yan locked himself in the house.

Yang Ru'e knocked on the door for a long time, but Zhang Yan still resolutely did not open the door, and finally she said to Zhang Yan through the gap in the door: "Xiao Yan, mom is gone." You have to take good care of yourself and listen to Grandma. ”

Zhang Yan was heartbroken in the room, standing behind the curtain and secretly watching his mother pull the luggage compartment and gradually disappear in front of him, how his mother used to scold himself and beat himself and didn't have her very much, because he knew that his mother was hurt by his father, and his mother just wanted to vent her emotions.

But this time, Zhang Yan hated his mother a little, hated him for abandoning him, first his father, and now his mother, will grandma also abandon him. His heart was so confused, panicked, and uneasy.

Grandma knocked on the door: "Xiaoyan, your mother is in the car, come out!"

Zhang Yan still wanted to be like when she was a child, she threw herself into her grandmother's arms and hugged her and said, "Grandma, don't abandon me, don't let me become a child without relatives." ”

Grandma touched Zhang Yan's head and said, "Xiao Yan, don't resent your mother, your mother also has her own hardships." ”

"When you grow up, you will know what parting is. ”

I don't blame her, I hate them, I hate them for being selfish, they all abandoned me and left me alone.

Grandma: "What is love?"

After being silent for a long time, she didn't see Grandma answer, but hugged Zhang Yan tightly: "Xiao Yan is good." ”