In the early morning, the sky was hazy, and the warm orange beam of the sun had not yet penetrated the clouds, and a translucent white light like a plastic film appeared between the sky and the earth. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info This is a cloudy day, the clouds on the horizon are so thick, like putting on a big cotton jacket for the sun, "It is estimated that it is difficult to see the sun today!" This kind of gray and damp and gloomy day is really lazy, Sun Lili snuggled by the window, she looked out the window, thoughtful.

She didn't want to think about it so early, but her stomach didn't allow her to sleep anymore, just now a tight feeling of nausea disturbed her sweet dream, she rushed to the bathroom as fast as she could, after a wild vomit, she knew: It's time to eat! Out of the bathroom, she was still very sleepy, but Qin Dabao on the bed was snoring tenaciously, not disturbed by his wife's actions just now. Sun Lili shook her head helplessly, after all these years of marriage, she had become accustomed to Qin Dabao's baby-like sleep, and at this moment she got dressed and walked to the kitchen and began to prepare breakfast for herself and her family.

I have plenty of time today to prepare some more complicated breakfasts. Sun Lili took out her phone to find her favorite recipe. She was watching, suddenly dizzy, then her heart jumped wildly, the hand holding the mobile phone began to tremble slightly, and accidentally, the mobile phone fell to the ground with a "click". She wanted to squat down and pick it up, but as soon as she bent down, she felt that it was dark in front of her, her breathing became rapid, her legs couldn't stop shaking, she immediately sat down on the ground, and used her residual consciousness to think about the current situation: low blood sugar, it must be low blood sugar! She shouted with all her strength: Qin Dabao! Qin Dabao! But her voice was very weak, like a cloud in the distant sky, drifting towards the bedroom little by little. Sun Lili sat on the ground sweating profusely, waiting for Qin Dabao to appear, but unfortunately it only took three minutes for Sun Lili to realize that her angry voice could not wake up her sleeping husband at all. She struggled to her feet, trying her best not to faint, and then she leaned on the stove to support her trembling body, and moved forward step by step, until finally she grabbed a handful of white sugar from the seasoning jar and stuffed it into her mouth!

By the time she had done all this, it seemed as if a century had passed, and after a while she finally felt more comfortable, and she got up from the ground, staggered to the couch, and sat down on it. At this time, there was a rustling sound in the bedroom, Qin Dabao staggered and sleepy-eyed came out of the bedroom, he walked past the sofa and caught a glimpse of Sun Lili who was lying on the sofa.

"Which tendon is wrong for you today, why did you get up so early?" Qin Dabao walked past Lily, he didn't know what had happened to his wife today: her early morning vomiting, her pale face, her slightly purple lips, her sweating profusely, her soaked hair, the way she sat on the sofa with no breath, and her eyes mixed with disappointment, anger, and even despair - he didn't see any of them.

For Qin Dabao, this is an ordinary day, the sun rises as usual every day, and there is nothing new under the sun. For Sun Lili, this was a day when all thoughts were lost, and her longing for Qin Dabao's remnants collapsed in an instant, and at this moment, she finally understood the meaning of "heart is like ashes".

A man who occasionally doesn't pay attention to you is careless, but if he doesn't pay attention to you all the time and everywhere, he doesn't care. Men are often accustomed to using their innocent gender as an excuse, as if carelessness and informality have become their prerogative, but if he is willing to keep you in his heart, then how can all kinds of changes in you be shut out of his heart?

Sun Lili stroked her slightly bulging lower abdomen and stood up, she didn't want to shed a tear for such a man, she didn't want to do a useless struggle for such a day, she just wanted to give birth to the child in her belly peacefully, so she picked up her mobile phone and dialed her parents.

After receiving a call from their daughter, Sun Quangen and Tao Cuiping immediately packed their luggage and went to the bus station, and their daughter couldn't cry on the phone, intermittently telling Qin Dabao how the whole family mobilized to let her have a baby to this day. "Even if I die in the living room today, I won't be found until Qin Dabao gets up. Sun Lili's words deeply pierced the hearts of the old couple, they had always been proud of their daughter's marriage, especially Sun Quangen, who said to everyone: My Lily is in Hangzhou, she has a house and a car, and she is going to give birth to a second child recently, and the second child is a male baby! If it weren't for Sun Lili's phone call, how would they have thought that their daughter would have lived so wronged and difficult? If they had known earlier, he Sun Quangen would have gone to his daughter's side to escort him!

It was already afternoon when the old couple arrived at Sun Lili's residence, Sun Lili went to pick up Linglong from school, not at home, they ignored the fatigue of the journey, the first thing they did when they put down their luggage was to call Yao Guiying first, "My daughter Lily almost died at home today! You are satisfied with the loss of two lives? It doesn't matter if your son can't take care of pregnant women, from today on, the two of us will live here, and we will take care of Lily's daily life!" Before Yao Guiying could understand what was going on, the other party put the phone down, but with a woman's intuition, she immediately sensed the seriousness of the situation, so she put down the phone and called out to her husband in the house: "Qin Tian, come with me to Hangzhou!"

Every day, picking up Linglong from school is Sun Lili's mother and daughter's favorite intimate time, they talk while walking, Linglong often tells Sun Lili what happened in the kindergarten one by one, watching this little person grow up and become more and more like another little self, Sun Lili will feel that she should give her all her love, spoil her from any grievances, and protect her from any harm.

"Mom, your belly is bulging, like a big frog with a round belly, is that my brother in it?" asked Linglong suddenly.

"Mom doesn't know if it's a brother or a sister, Linglong, do you like a brother or a sister?"

Linglong thought for a moment and said, "I like my sister, I want my sister." ”

Sun Lili couldn't cry or laugh, she didn't know how to explain to the child for a while that she couldn't give her a sister. "Mom can only give you a younger brother or sister, and Linglong is going to be her own sister. She gently stroked Linglong's hairy head, and her words were full of joy and anticipation.

Linglong lowered her head and didn't speak, and it took a while for Sun Lili to realize that the little guy was silently shedding tears. She was taken aback and asked repeatedly, "What's wrong, why are you crying?"

When asked by Sun Lili, Linglong suddenly burst into tears, "I don't want younger brothers and sisters, I don't want to be a sister!" she cried.

Pedestrians on the road looked sideways, and they must have thought it was very funny to look at this pregnant woman with a slightly bulging belly and a child crying for no younger siblings.

Sun Lili was very embarrassed by Linglong's crying, she squatted down and said to the child: "Don't cry, everyone looks at us, go home and talk to you slowly." ”

Linglong cried even louder when she said it: "Don't want younger brothers and sisters, if you have younger brothers and sisters, you will like him, don't like me!"

"Why, mom always likes Linglong!" Sun Lili immediately corrected the child's statement.

"They all said, my mother wants a son, so it's not enough to have me, she has to have a younger brother, because I'm a girl! My mother doesn't like girls! If you have a brother, you don't want me. Linglong cried even more aggrieved.

"Who said that a mother must give birth to a younger brother, and who said that a mother dislikes Linglong as a girl? Mother is also a girl, and her mother likes girls and Linglong the most!" Sun Lili anxiously explained to the child, thinking in her heart, who are they? It must be those neighbors who like to spread rumors and make trouble, they are the best at looking at literature and righteousness, and they think they know the whole picture when they see it! They like to spread false rumors and sow discord the most, and now they don't even let go of a small child! If they want to have a second child, it must be to chase after their son? If they have a son, they will definitely dislike their daughter? What bullshit logic! Now that we are in the 21 st century, how can this feudal mentality of the old society still be so rampant? It is simply sad and ridiculous!

Since Sun Lili became a mother, she was like a hedgehog with thorns and a hen with open wings, everything she did was to protect the child, if someone dared to speak to Linglong like this in front of her, she would have scolded her back! The more she thought about it, the more angry she became, the more angry she became, the more she felt that she had to protect her daughter and prevent her from being hurt by these gossips, so she said to Linglong seriously: " Baby, when we go home in a while, we will go to the person who said these things to you, and my mother must ask him to apologize to you, and tell him that you can't say these things that hurt us Linglong in the future, and my mother will tell her loudly that my mother is not to give birth to a younger brother, and my mother just wants to help Linglong find a partner to grow up with. You tell your mother, who told you that?"

Linglong stopped crying, she sobbed, and said in disbelief: "It's grandma and dad!"

Accidents happen every day in this world, and everyone has experienced unexpected surprises or unexpected shocks. Sun Lili felt that in the past six months, all kinds of accidents have come one after another, which has shocked her again and again. First she was unexpectedly pregnant, and then she unexpectedly found that the whole family wanted her to have a fetus, unexpectedly discovered her father-in-law's illness, and unexpectedly bumped into Su Qing's unsatisfactory life, and now, she ushered in a new accident -- the people who hurt her daughter turned out to be Linglong's grandmother and father! Why did they do this? Could it be that they wanted Linglong to reject the little fetus in her womb, invisibly put pressure on her, and increase the bargaining chips for her to have an abortion!? Thinking of this, Sun Lili was simply mad! Isn't it just a second child? As for hurting a child by such a desperate means in order not to want him? Suddenly, a chill arose, and she couldn't help but shiver.

Sun Lili held Linglong's hand and quickened her pace to walk home.

Sun Lili, who walked into the house, was still slightly taken aback. Although she had anticipated her parents' reaction when they answered the phone, she didn't expect them to come so quickly. At this time, Qin Dabao was standing in front of the sofa, he lowered his head and listened to Sun Quangen's reprimand like a child who made a mistake, Tao Cuiping secretly wiped his tears on the side, and kept saying in his mouth, "Evil, evil!" After Lily entered the door, these three people all turned their eyes to her, Qin Dabao rushed to her side as if he saw a savior, and said with an incredible expression on his face, Are you really low blood sugar in the morning? Why don't you call me? Why did you call your parents from afar? There was obvious complaint in his tone.

What a big joke! Sun Lili originally planned to argue with him, but remembering what Linglong said on the way out of school, she immediately lost interest and desire to communicate with him. She sneered, turned her shoulder to the side slightly, and the person slid silently past Qin Dabao.

Once, Qin Dabao was her lifebuoy in the city, helping her get out of a depressed and embarrassing life, but now, this man seems to have become the weighting device of her life, dragging her to the sea and lower, suffocating her completely. Before marriage, the parents' sentence: Feelings can be cultivated, and they are still as clear as yesterday, but after so many years of marriage, their feelings have not only not been cultivated, but have been increasingly mutilated by the trivial grinds of life. Now she gradually understands that married life is unremarkable, firewood, rice, oil and salt, parents' shortcomings, children's education, everything is like a drop of water and stones, testing the quality of their marriage, only love can become a lubricant, which can make people have reason to have faith and be willing to endure this torture and test.

"Don't yell at Lily, she just called us and didn't let us come over, I came by myself!" Sun Quangen was reluctant to see his daughter being wronged, and parents all over the world want to protect their children, even if the child is in the prime of life and he is getting old.

Qin Dabao didn't want to have a conflict with his father-in-law, he didn't say anything more, but stared at Sun Lili and said, "Where are my parents staying?" There are only two bedrooms at home, one for us and one for Linglong, Linglong is so big, can't you squeeze a bed with us?"

"Linglong sleeps with me, you sleep in the study!" replied coldly. She replied quickly and firmly, indicating that there was no room for negotiation in the matter.

Qin Dabao's face twitched slightly, he didn't speak but chased Sun Lili with his eyes, Sun Lili felt her husband's gaze, but deliberately didn't look at him, she approached the kitchen with her back to Qin Dabao and began to prepare dinner. Fill your growling stomach first, and when you're full, you will have the strength to fight!

Sun Lili has always believed that everything in this world has mutual restraint, and everything will have an opposing side. There is black and white, there is square and round, there is front and back, there is big and small. They are opposites but also coexist, maintaining the balance of the whole world. And today, Sun Lili sadly found that in her world, the lover and comrade-in-arms who should have been the closest to her have unknowingly become her opposites, and they have been divided into two opposing camps since then. Now, her confrontational life and future have slowly unfolded, and the bloody spread is in front of her, who to take, who to give up? She already has the answer in her heart.