243. If He Were Her (2)
When Gao Xi connected the two seemingly unrelated things he thought of, he couldn't help but have a conjecture:
"If I'm not mistaken...... The original owner of this place should be Ran'er's little uncle!
"I remember the last time I saw him, Ran'er also said that she would give him food...... It seems that he will not be here at this time! However, he should not be away for a long time, and he will definitely come back in the short term! Otherwise, Ran Er will not have such a move in this half month!"
Thinking of this, Gao Xi suddenly had a flash of inspiration, and he realized that at this moment, instead of thinking clearly about what he was going to choose, trying to penetrate the true intention in Gao Ran's heart was fundamental! Only by truly knowing her mind could he predict her possible next moves, and only in this way could he more clearly understand the true meaning and value of his future stay with her?!
At least, for Gao Xi, what Gao Ran wants to do in the future is not what he cares about the most;
If he was more valuable in this, she would not have given him up easily, and if his stay or not was insignificant to her, then he would no longer have to deceive himself into continuing to stay with her and serve her!
Now, if Gao Xi can still deceive himself into thinking that one day he can move Gao Ran, then he is really hopeless! Then he will eventually be despised by Gao Ran because of this in the future, and when he is finally abandoned by Gao Ran one day because he is no longer "useful", then he deserves it!
"Heh! I don't think I'm going to be so self-degraded!" When he unconsciously blurted out such an assertion, Gao Xi himself didn't know whether he was summarizing his somewhat messy thoughts just now, or deliberately reminding himself that he couldn't lose his last bottom line?
But there is one thing he knows: no matter what, he has to try! Try to unprincipledly accept the ideas that Gao Ran confessed to him that are actually a little strange to him, and then, as she said, try to see and think from her point of view! He wants to try, if he pretends to be her, will he be able to get a glimpse of what she might do next, and the real intention behind it, as he hoped?
In Gao Xi's opinion, if he is willing to give it a try, then at least he may be able to gain some initiative because of this, and if he completely gives up this last attempt, it is doomed that no matter whether he goes or stays, he will always be the passive one in his relationship with Gao Ran!
And this incomparably "passive" feeling of being like something that is beckoned by someone and lingering like something is the most unbearable for him! It will become a stain that will never linger in his heart!
He didn't want to do this! He didn't want to make himself the kind of stupid person he looked down on the most—the stupid person who was clearly at the mercy of others, but didn't even know it! Therefore, as long as there was still a chance for him to seize even the slightest initiative, he would never let go of such an opportunity!
So, after confirming his intentions, Gao Xi began self-hypnosis: he slowly closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and then took a deep breath...... When he felt that he had finally begun to calm down, he began to remind himself repeatedly, to imagine that he was Gao Ran, he was a person who did not care about life and death, but would never easily ruin his life, and what he really wanted was neither glory and wealth, nor domination of the world, but to stay away from the rights and wrongs of the world, to go to a "paradise" where he could not be disturbed and persecuted, and to live the "free" life he wanted......
Gao Xi kept reminding himself that he had to imagine that he was such a "look" according to the "appearance" of Gao Ran that he had known so far, and then, when he finally became one with the "appearance" in his imagination - no longer thinking about what the real him would think, but imagining what the "he" he pretended to be would think - after that, he began to ask himself a question: "What would happen if 'I' accepted the healing of my little uncle?"
Immediately afterwards, "he" thought about his question for a moment, and then asked himself: "In that case, 'I' can give up my ability to bear offspring in the open and open for a justifiable and uncriticized reason." However, I will also lose almost everything that 'I' was born with as the second lady of the Gao family because of this!
"'I' will never have the possibility of succeeding the Gao family as the next head of the family! 'I' will also be completely snubbed by the Gao family because of this! In the Gao family, 'I' will no longer have a foothold! Unless, ......
"-Unless the Gao family can hide this matter, so that the marriage contract between 'me' and Fu Wenxuan will continue to be valid!
"However, if the Gao family can't hide this matter, or if 'I' myself take the initiative to let the Fu family know about it, then the Fu family will inevitably ask for a change of marriage partner because of this! But this object must not be inherited from the Gao family—— even if the Gao family wants to do this...... Therefore, the Fu family will eventually ask to change the object of this marriage to Gao Qi—— even so, it will make the two sons of the Fu family marry the same wife.
And if the head of the Gao family and Gao Qi are not calm enough, then they will definitely think that when they take the world from the hands of the Yun family and then compete with the Fu family for the last overlordship, they will inevitably have the upper hand—— because the Fu family has no daughter who can inherit everything from the head of the Fu family, and the only two biological sons of the head of the Fu family are married to the Gao family, and they are both married to Gao Qi!
However, if they can look at this matter calmly, then it is not difficult to think: since the head of the Fu family would have promoted this matter even though he knew that such a marriage was extremely unfavorable to him, so as to strengthen the Fu family's strength to seize the world-since she would have been like this, then she must have deliberately left some kind of after-the-fold trick for the sake of fighting with the Gao family for the last overlord position after he won the world—— if she couldn't even think of this, then she would be the head of the Fu family in vain! And it won't be like now, in terms of power alone, in fact, it is still slightly better than the Gao family—— and the Gao family will be willing to join hands with the Fu family to seek a great cause, I am afraid that it is also for the Fu family to be stronger than their own forces—— not to mention, the Fu family has no woman to inherit the family business! This is obviously more beneficial to the Gao family!
"From this, it is naturally not difficult to think that even if the Fu family knows that 'I' can't have children, even if the conspiracy will not change much because of this, there are many details in it and the respective calculations of the two families behind it...... I'm afraid that there will be earth-shaking changes because of this incident!
"And 'I'...... If at that time, what value can 'I' have for the Gao family...... Thinking about it, I'm afraid there will only be one last one left—— marry 'me' to Yun Zhen!
"Even if the Gao Fu family wants to rebel, it will have to wait until the time is ripe. And before that, it was very appropriate to let 'me', who had the right status and had no worries about future troubles, marry into the royal family, so that the two families, especially the Gao family, could not have children! And the identity of 'me' has long been doomed, even if 'I' is not unable to have children due to medical treatment, Yun Zhen will sooner or later use some means against 'me' in order to prevent my relatives from interfering in politics, so as to prevent future troubles—— if 'I' is still 'normal', the Gao family may have thought of using other methods to stop 'me' I'm chosen by Yun Zhen in the future - otherwise, they wouldn't have made a marriage contract for me so early, but after they know that 'I' is no longer a 'normal' woman, then they will inevitably make 'me' chosen by Yun Zhen at that time!
"In this way, 'my's 'misfortune' has become the most suitable person who can fulfill the forces of the Gao family and the royal family!
"In this way, not to mention that Yun Zhen was originally interested in 'me' (after being by Gao Ran's side for so many years, especially in the two years of contact with Yu Qiwen in the mountains, even if Gao Ran never mentioned this matter to Gao Xi, but if he didn't know that Yun Zhen was interested in her, I am afraid it would be difficult!), even if he had no intention of 'me', but out of the consideration that sooner or later he would completely destroy the Gao Fu family, choosing 'me' was also his wisest choice!
"Moreover, if Yun Zhen can really buy 'me' at that time, so that 'I' will turn against the Gao family, then 'I' will be the most useful chess piece for him to deal with the Gao family—— naturally, if it is the other way around, the chess piece of 'me' will be equally useful to the Gao family—— the key is only that 'I' will be loyal to whom?
"But obviously, no matter who 'I' am loyal to, once the dust has settled and the overall situation has been decided, 'I' will not die well!
"Therefore, for the sake of 'me' myself, 'I' must not be loyal to any of them, but in turn must use the value of 'me' to each of them to leverage my strength, in order to finally get out of it and fly away!
"And to do that, then 'I' will have to gain other forces besides them that can rival or even surpass them!"
Thinking of this, Gao Xi understood for the first time that Gao Ran had done many things that had puzzled him......
And he was also greatly encouraged by his "enlightenment" at the moment, and decided that his imaginary thinking so far was correct!
"Okay! calm down, even if I'm right, but I still don't think of what she's going to do next...... So now is not the time to be happy!Calm down!I have to be calm!Calm down......"
After repeating "calm down" to himself a few times, Gao Xi really quickly restrained the inexplicable excitement in his heart at the moment.
He took a few more deep breaths, hypnotized himself again in the same way as before, and re-entered himself, continuing his thoughts that had been interrupted by his sudden outpouring of excitement......