11. Young first love [10]
Although she naively thought that she didn't want Li Xia to talk to her anymore, if some things could be done so simply, there wouldn't be so many red men and green women in the world, who are crazy about love.
Lin Anhan was very angry, although he also knew that this anger was actually meaningless to the two people who had broken up, in fact, thinking about it, although his accusations against Xia Anxin seemed very reasonable, they were very untenable, and Lin Anhan had no right to accuse Xia Anxin at all.
From the beginning, it was him who wanted to invest, regardless of the fact that it was he who was addicted, Xia Anxin didn't ask him to do anything from beginning to end, it was just that he was greedy for this person, how could he be resentful because the other party didn't participate in this game?
But he still felt unwilling, unwilling that she didn't like herself, unwilling that she looked elsewhere instead of looking in his direction, unwilling that she would be hugged and kissed by others, and the unwillingness revealed from the bottom of her heart.
That kind of unwillingness almost overflowed from his heart and penetrated into his soul, so that he could not forget, and even at the same time that he could not forget, hateful and contradictory remembered that he had loved someone without hope, and then was abandoned, like falling into the abyss.
She let him learn to grow up, learn how to treat other people ruthlessly, and learn to disguise, but he still doesn't seem to have grown at all, when he meets the same person, he will still approach, he will still laugh, and he will deliberately provoke her to see her staring at herself, in fact, Lin Anhan feels that he is quite shaky, but what can he do.
Although Lin Anhan felt that he still had to lose his temper a little, but after holding back for several days, he suddenly learned about the deeds of 'cherry' from Xiaomei, who looked at him disdainfully, and Lin Anhan, who had been inexplicably irritable for several days, suddenly felt as refreshing as sweating and taking a cold shower in the summer.
Xia Anxin left.
Lin Anhan couldn't find her, and the events of the year repeated again, and this time she didn't even want to tell him.
Lin Anhan was a little silent and didn't know where Xia Anxin was, and suddenly became a little at a loss, as if the calm and accurate business literacy that he had cultivated in the past few years had been fed to the dog, and he heard Xia's mother's words and fed the dog at the same time.
"What do you mean that she is actually not Xia Anxin's biological mother, what is revenge?" Lin Anhan looked at Lin Linxin, who was also strangely silent, and suddenly didn't know what to say, and felt a little ridiculous.
An An's mother and Xia Dexing are also abusive, both of them liked each other at first, so they got married, but both of them were too strong, so there was often some friction, An An was born and the two of them could get along amiably for a while, but soon they began to quarrel constantly, and finally the two divorced, An An was sentenced to Xia Dexing, An An's mother went abroad, at that time An An was four years old, Xia Dexing quickly married a new wife, but soon divorced again, Xia Dexing's means of doing business are not good, the company's business has been good and bad, he will not take care of the children, as long as he restrains his temper and does not get angry with An AnWhen An An was six years old, An An's mother returned to China and found that An An was not doing well, but she had no way to go back to An An, and finally chose to remarry Xia Dexing for the sake of the child, although they still quarreled from time to time, but the two of them were still together, and An An was also taken care of, but it wasn't until a few years ago that An An's mother accidentally fell to her death.
"Not long after An An's mother died, Xia Dexing got married again" Speaking of this, Lin Linxin sighed, and suddenly didn't know how to say anything about her sister and brother-in-law.
"An An called me at that time, she thought that Xia Dexing killed her mother, and asked me about her mother and Xia Dexing, and I couldn't tell an adult about a child, so the call was only for a few minutes, and we didn't contact each other again, and then An An came to me a few years ago. ”
"That's probably the case, An An, this child usually has her own thoughts, like her mother, but she is easily soft-hearted, so I hope you can stop her and let her not do dangerous things, now I just hope that she is safe. Lin Linxin looked at Lin Anhan with a sincere face.
Since seeing her niece standing at the door of Shengde with a pale face and only a bag four years ago, her eyes are firm and clear, Lin Linxin knows that this niece is the same as her sister who has always had her own opinions, she will not stay here for too long, and she will not be willing to stay here forever.
"She must have returned to Xia's house. Lin Linxin said almost with certainty, and then turned to look at Lin Anhan. "So An Han, can I ask you?"
Lin Anhan smiled bitterly, but he felt disheartened, and felt that Lin Linxin was not a person, so he had some difficulty to speak. "Aunt Lin, you think wrong about my relationship with her. ”
"What, don't you like An An?" Lin Linxin looked at Lin Anhan with some surprise, she had carefully investigated it for a while, according to his observation, Lin Anhan's appearance in the past month or so was not like disliking her niece.
"Why don't I like her," Lin Anhan felt a little embarrassed to say this in front of his elders, but he still had to say what he had to say, lest Lin Linxin's expectations be too high and he would be too important in Xia Anxin's heart. "Actually, it's just that she doesn't like me. ”
"This," Hearing Lin Anhan's words, Lin Linxin instantly relaxed, she looked at Lin Anhan's frustrated look and beckoned to him. "Follow me. ”
Lin Linxin took Lin Anhan to a room on the second floor that was often locked.
The room is in the corner, although he has lived in Xia's house for more than a month, Lin Anhan has never noticed that there is a specially locked room here because he rarely goes up to the second floor.
An An likes to paint, so she changed the original utility room into a studio. Lin Linxin opened the door, and needless to say, a burst of dust came with the opening of the door.
After the smell dissipated a little, Lin Anhan followed Lin Linxin and walked in.
"She used to like to stay here," Lin Linxin opened the window to let the room breathe, and after seeing Lin Anhan notice the paint box placed next to the shelf, explained, "She doesn't come often after you come." ”
Lin Anhan intuitively sensed that Lin Linxin had something to say, but before he could think deeply, he saw Lin Linxin walk to a huge canvas, and then lift the white cloth covering the easel.
The fine dust floated in the air with the sunlight, and Lin Anhan saw himself face to face.
A man who looked very similar to him smiled at him on the other side, the corners of his eyes were slightly curved, and there seemed to be an extra layer of happiness in the air, whether it was the person in the painting or the person who painted him, he must be smiling, otherwise he would not be able to paint such a picture.
That was him before, if there was any difference between the two people, it was probably that Lin Anhan's outline was harder now, and his facial features were more profound, and there was no difference other than that.
Lin Anhan suddenly didn't know what to say, just walked forward in a daze, stood face to face with himself in the painting, looked at it, and suddenly there was something dotted in his eyes.
"Xia Anxin," the tall young man suddenly stopped, turned his head to look at the girl who was taking notes, and suddenly spoke.
"I won the debate competition. ”
Xia An'an was stunned when he heard this, and then turned his head to look at the young man, his hair slid down his shoulders with the movement, and his face was expressionless with the usual underbeating.
The boy was stunned at once. Facing the girl's gaze, fine beads of sweat appeared on his forehead, and his palms curled up unconsciously, but he still refused to give up and stared at Xia Anxin with a serious and stubborn face.
"Do you remember when I said that you promised me one thing if you won the debate competition?" Although this so-called bet contract was made by himself, he was talking to himself from beginning to end.
He choked as if he was about to say something important.
"Paint a picture for me. Actually, I didn't want to say this, but in the end, the boy just smiled stupidly.
Xia Anxin was stunned for a moment, glanced at Lin Anhan, and turned his head silently.
Although he didn't paint in the end, the next day on the basketball court, he saw Xia Anxin, who had never squinted at the passing by, standing obediently on the edge of the audience and staring at him, his eyes were very serious, this was the first time Xia Anxin watched him play basketball, Lin Anhan suddenly felt that it didn't matter even if he didn't paint.
Although there were other people on the field, he just felt that Xia An'an was staring at him, and he didn't accept that you beat me.
That day, Lin Anhan worked hard, like playing chicken blood, and he was very happy to grab the rebounds, although in the end he got his legs sore and sweating profusely, he still felt that it was worth it.
The people he likes are watching him, so no matter what, he has to put his best foot forward, no matter how tired he is, he has to straighten his waist and wave and smile.
Lin Anhan actually felt that the corners of Xia An'an's mouth were slightly hooked, although he was not too confident, it was very likely that this matter was his own self-inflicted sentimentality and wishful thinking, but it was one of his happiest moments, and he was willing to believe that Xia An'an thought the same as him at that time.
Lin Anhan opened the other canvases, and one by one he appeared, with warm or enthusiastic tones, all over his sight.
After having a crush for so long, I realized that it was never him who was alone.
Lin Anhan suddenly saw that although the girl in the long skirt had an expressionless face, after the young man called her name, her steps unconsciously slowed down and the light in her eyes unconsciously softened.
He thought it was sunshine.