Chapter 49: Fear of Sleep
"Why do we insist on it, since the end is so far away?" Zhang Xiaoming asked again.
This question was asked by the audience.
Lu Ran was also asking himself why, but there was only a simple voice in his heart, "Because I want to persevere." ”
Lu Ran muttered to himself, but got a response from Zhang Xiaoming.
"Yes, it's because I want to persevere. Because we have hearts. ”
Everyone felt that there was a brainstorming, and everyone quietly realized what the meaning of this sentence was.
"We have a heart that makes us want to hold on to what we dream of.
Dreams are the contours of our desires in our hearts.
You can't reach the end of the road, but your heart is always there. The end is in my heart.
We want to do better because we have a heart to pursue the end line.
Think about it, why do you want to be a counselor, what kind of counselor do you want to be?
What was your original intention, and are you still on your way?"
"The original ......" Lu Ran tried to recall the reason why he decided to become a consultant, "Probably, I just want to help the people around me, father, friends, and even strangers." ”
"Away from being consultants, we all have a similar heart to help others. This is our original intention as a human being. ”
After Zhang Xiaoming finished speaking, the students were a little sluggish, and they reacted for a long time, and applauded one after another.
"So, Lu Ran, you just need to ask your original intention. The so-called rules are just to help us not deviate from our original intentions. ”
"The original heart ......" Lu Ran's mind spun quickly, and Zhang Xiaoming's words caused ripples in his heart.
"The original intention is to hope that I can help my father and help more people like my father. Don't ask about beauty, ugliness, nobility, or where you come from. As long as we can benefit others, we should help them. Lu Ran said to himself.
"Teacher Zhang, I understand. ”
"It's good to understand, you don't need to ask me about this matter, just ask your heart. ”
Lu Ran nodded, he hadn't completely figured out what to do in his heart, but he had decided to follow his own wishes.
If Zhang Xiaoming asked him now if he wanted to help that Guo Xiaosi, he would say, yes.
Whether they were friends or enemies in the past, he clearly felt that he urgently needed help, no matter how good this classmate Guo was and did not bow his head, but he believed from the bottom of his heart that Lu Ran could help him.
Guo Xiaosi said that he only believed in Lu Ran.
Lu Ran asked himself, "Will I give up on him?"
……
A few days later, Sissi received a call from Guo Xiaosi again.
"Why is this Guo Xiaosi here again!" Qian Qian suspected that this person surnamed Guo was harassing Lu Ran.
"It's okay, let's make an appointment for us. ”
Lu Ran is waiting, he should come.
In the past few days, Lu Ran has been thinking about whether he still wants to help Guo Xiaosi after fading his identity as a consultant.
Is it in his nature to turn a blind eye?
……
"Nice to meet you. ”
They met again.
Lu Ran stretched out his hand and looked at Guo Xiaosi with a smile.
"Are you willing to teach me hypnosis?" Guo Xiaosi was a little surprised, and it was the first time for Lu Ran to look at him with such a smile.
"Nope. Lu Ran shook his head.
"That'...... Are you going to consult me?" Guo Xiaosi was suspicious.
"Nope. I can't consult you. Lu Ran continued to shake his head.
"Then what are you going to do, why are you willing to come to see me?" At this time, it was Guo Xiaosi's turn to be puzzled.
"I can recommend a counselor to you. ”
"Don't. It's not like I haven't seen a psychiatrist......" Guo Xiaosi muttered quietly.
Lu Ran saw that he refused, and knew that he couldn't persuade him with conventional methods.
Now Guo Xiaosi is still reluctant to reveal what bothers him, he is probably not willing to admit that he needs help, if so, even if he recommends the best counselor to him, he will also refuse.
Now, only Lu Ran can help him.
"My idea is simple, I want to help you. Lu Ran said frankly, "You want me to help you, right?"
"Yes, it's not ......" Guo Xiaosi wanted to deny something, but he couldn't say clearly.
Why do I want his help, what's so great about this Lu Ran, I give him money, he gives me what he wants, it's just an exchange.
Guo Xiaosi is still calculating.
Lu Ran said again, "You don't need to pay me, if you believe me, you can tell me about your troubles." ”
Lu Ran is exploring how much Guo Xiaosi trusts himself.
If Guo Xiaosi truly believes in himself, then, without a relationship of money or a confidentiality agreement, Guo Xiaosi can still be honest with Lu Ran about himself.
Guo Xiaosi's heart was a little shaken.
Removing the identity of a consultant and a client, Lu Ran is still willing to help him, which is Lu Ran's original intention.
"What do you think?" Lu Ran stretched out his hand again, testing whether Guo Xiaosi accepted his sincerity.
He knew that Guo Xiaosi couldn't say what he really thought yet, but a handshake could help him see his mind clearly.
This time, Guo Xiaosi did not refuse, he also stretched out his right hand and shook hands with Lu Ran peacefully.
Guo Xiaosi didn't know why, this Lu Ran was obviously his "enemy" one moment ago, but the next moment, he could make himself believe in him.
"I'm ......" They sat down, and Lu Ran waited for him to say the distress that was entangled in his heart.
Guo Xiaosi swallowed.
"I don't know what to say, I'm fine, I'm just scared to sleep. ”
"Sleep?" said that such a big person was afraid of sleeping, and Lu Ran couldn't help but feel a little ridiculous.
"Why are you afraid of sleeping?"
"I'm afraid of dreaming. ”
"Why?" Lu Ran asked again.
"I would have nightmares. Guo Xiaosi closed his eyes, and Lu Ran felt that his fear was like a child.
Lu Ran wanted to further confirm whether his courage was too small.
"What did you dream about?"
"I dreamed of a man. I dreamed of him for years. Guo Xiaosi opened his eyes little by little, as if he saw the person he said again, and there was a fear in his eyes that had never been shown before.
"Who is that person?"
"I don't know, I really don't know. Guo Xiaosi held his head, unable to speak, there was some pain, it could be seen that he was also confused.
"So, what is he doing?" Lu Ran chased after him.
"He ......," Guo Xiaosi frowned, trying to recall, "At first, I sat on a grassy field, there was no one but the wind blowing, and it was empty. ”
"Hmm. Lu Ran responded.
Guo Xiaosi slowly closed his eyes.
And then, he came. He came over and played with me. We looked at the lawn, we grabbed the butterflies together, and I felt happy, and then, and then I woke up. ”
"That's it?"
"No, no, no, you don't understand. Guo Xiaosi was a little anxious. "I didn't see who he was, I couldn't see it all the time.
Also, my dreams are continuous, and this is the first time I have met him. ”