Chapter 27: Seeking Truth from Others Is Not Reciprocated
In conclusion, Xue Xia did not deny the correctness of my proposal, she just avoided the "legitimacy" of my proposal in a special way, although this is really a bit tricky, but it is also in line with the principle of Xue Xia, and there has never been a mistake, even if I forced her into a blind corner through logical substitution.
If it was me in the past, of course, there were other ways to continue to persecute her, but now, I don't care much about this kind of thing that is purely based on the level of victory and defeat.
After all, I do sympathize with Tsurumi's situation, but if Tsurumi insists on doing so, I don't have any room for meddle other than lamenting the birth of another person who has been swallowed up by society. After all, from the point of view of "legitimacy", the part of the people who are trying to make Tsurumi more harmonious is in line with Tsurumi's own wishes, and I'm just a fool trying to reverse Tsurumi's essential needs.
So, after this conclusion under the snow, I stopped talking, and the topic of "how to make Rumi Tsurumi coordinate with other children" was decided.
"So, if you don't agree with this issue, then it's okay to quit from the beginning, Hiratsuka-sensei?" I stood up and looked at Hiratsuka-sensei.
Just as many people enjoy debates, but they can't join the debate team, that's because the team always proves and refutes a definite proposition, but the problem is that under this rule, even if you don't agree with the team's specific debate topic, you will be forced to prove a proposition that you don't support. Therefore, those who have their own specific views on all propositions cannot join the debate team, because they cannot make any attitude in favor of their own side except to raise objections by all means.
Again, on this issue, although I cannot get others to agree with me, at least I need to make my own statement for now. That's it – off-the-shelf processing.
Although to outsiders, this practice will be perceived as a way of acting out of the way or playing with a child's temper after my suggestion has been rejected, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm doing it, at least someone who understands my current attitude should know what I think.
Hiratsuka-sensei looked at me quietly, "Yubihama, if you don't participate in this discussion, it will have an impact on the rating of your club activities!"
"I think I'm making trouble here is the biggest impact, right?" I smiled wryly.
Yes, this kind of discussion about solving an issue is in some sense more sad than the debate team's defense of the identified issue, for which the presence of dissenters can be used as the object of a mock debate, but in this kind of problem-solving discussion, the presence of dissenters can only be a drag on the team's atmosphere.
"Well, since you said so, it's not a mandatory thing anyway, so it's up to you, Yubihama, but it's not early in the day, so don't lose yourself. In the end, looking at my expression, Mr. Hiratsuka, who realized that things could not be changed, had no choice but to face my insistence and showed a helpless expression.
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Deliberately detaching yourself from the group in a group activity is a very irrational thing from a large scale, such as Tsurumi doing the same thing as me in her elementary school group, which will definitely be further excluded.
However, in a group with a large number of smart people, such a move is not necessarily misunderstood—Miura is the only one who thinks I'm too arrogant and resents me.
This can be seen in the words that came faintly from a distance after I left, "Yui, that younger brother of yours, is it too much, isn't it??How do you usually discipline him!", and of course, this kind of complaining is not so concerned after Hayama's "Yukiko, Yuhihama-senpai's attitude is also understandable" and the like. After all, for Queen Miura, she has always been just an ant for the people she doesn't care about, and of course she will complain about the ant's offended mood, but she will not be bothered by the ant's behavior for a long time.
However, to be honest, in this kind of forest with a weak mobile phone signal, if you sit here in a daze, you really don't know what to do - after all, I'm not a daze madman like Qigu.
After carefully observing the movement of the bugs on the ground for a long time, the shop that wasted the flashlight had noticed that the sound of discussion around the campfire in the distance had disappeared— After all, there are only a few solutions that can be thought of, and they may not be suitable, so the discussion ended at an impasse and then ended hastily, which was also to be expected, and it would be nice to say if Hiratsuka-sensei, as an elder, was present to organize the situation, but after I left, the teacher seemed to leave quickly, so there was nothing to say in that kind of situation where everyone present was not convinced by each other.
Thankfully, though, their discussion was over, and I could go back - just as I was thinking this, there was a rustling sound in the woods.
I don't know why, but when this sound came, I had already guessed its owner as a matter of course, and I didn't know how to explain this phenomenon, but the reality I saw next also proved the correctness of my unfounded guess - under the snow, the snow was squeaking, squeaking on the meadow in the woods, slowly walking in my direction.
With long black hair, snow-white skin under the moonlight, and deep blue-green pupils, I have to say that the temperament of the forest is very consistent with the temperament under the snow, quiet, mysterious, and deep, just like the fairy in the forest.
Then, just when I didn't know whether I should break the silence that belonged to the fairies, Miss Fairy spoke first, "Yubihama, are you here?"
"Yubihama, are you here?"
The usual cold tone is completely different, although this sentence does not have too much warmth, but it gives me the illusion that the other party cares about me. It's like the relaxed tone of my sister when she finally finds me.
I'm already a little embarrassed to say anything too harsh under such snow, so I can only use the word "um" to express my mood a little vaguely.
"Don't you know that seniors have to show respect when they talk to you?"
Then, the next sentence under the snow made me completely take back the kind of affection I had for her just now.
"Yes, under the snow!" I shot back, stretching my voice.
"Staying in a place like this for so long doesn't look like Yubihama's style!" surprised me a little, Yukishimoto didn't seem to care about the dissatisfied response in my tone, and instead talked about other topics to herself.
And this kind of practice made me unconsciously have an unexpected sense of guilt in my heart - after all, from the perspective of under the snow, it is not an unreasonable thing to let me call her senior, I seem to understand that request as a provocation to me under the snow, and now it seems that if this is not the case, it is wrong for me to make this kind of poor counterattack without authorization.
"Well, it wasn't too long, so how was the discussion going on the minister's side?" I said, trying to show a soft attitude.
"I didn't come to a conclusion, but it was a matter of course, and if a solution could be reached based on the discussion of just a few people, then this kind of meeting would be too simple, and the so-called meeting should continue in continuous discussion, right?" said Yukishito, smiling softly.
"Attending a meeting like this doesn't feel like a minister's style!" I relaxed under the snow that was rare and not hostile to me, and quipped, "Shouldn't the minister's style be to come up with a solution at once, and then ask everyone, 'Do you think there is anything wrong with this plan?' and then finally pass your plan in silence and solve the problem?"
"yes, I was supposed to do that," Snow looked down, then looked up at me, "but I'm not sure. ”
It was the first time I had met the eyes under the snow so closely, and those blue-green pupils were staring at me deeply, as if they were going to suck my whole body in. It wasn't until this time that I really realized that Xue Nai under the snow is still a beautiful girl who is one in a million, maybe she doesn't have the affinity of Xiao Muxi's predecessors, maybe her words are sometimes not listened to, but maybe it's because of this cold and arrogant temperament that she has a high popularity among boys, right?
And these things, which I had completely ignored before, seemed to have made me ignore many things because of the opposition to her from the beginning, and the hostility that had been exuded from each other because of the opposition of principles.
Yukishita didn't care about my stunnedness, and continued: "So, Yubihama, do you really think that it would be better for Tsurumi not to be attached to a mediocre group?"
"Sa, who knows?" I turned my head and gave an uncertain answer.
"Really?" There seemed to be a hint of disappointment in Yuki's eyes, but before I could confirm whether the disappointment was real or false, she interrupted my thoughts, "But judging from Yubihama's remarks, I think you should be convinced of your point of view." ”
"No matter how convinced I am, if it proves to be wrong, it is worthless, I have made such a mistake before, I can't do it again in the future, otherwise, how should I go on that battle with the minister?" I don't know why.,In front of the snow tonight.,In front of the snow that hides her sharp side.,My attitude has become very soft.,This feeling.,There's a feeling like I'm talking to other senior girls like Yui-san or Kogi Senpai.,Respect.,But there's also a little frivolity that I might not even be aware of.。
"So, why did you act so sure at that time?" the question continued, "at least you were convinced at that time, right? I want you to explain to me your reasons at that time. ”
I looked at the snow, and although her words seemed to contain more elements of the senior's request to the junior, it was evident from her expression that she was pleading, or rather, she was looking for an answer.
What if Yukino under the snow was nowhere near as determined as she had appeared?
There is no such thing as a perfect superman, and there is no such thing as a person who is always right, and I still insist on this point of view, I don't know when she will make mistakes and when she will fail under the snow, but, as a person, she should also be worried about failure, about making mistakes, or, fearful, right?
But she's never shown that – until now.
Although Yukino's appearance under the snow is still very awe-inspiring, she is looking for something.
The solution I set for Tsurumi was based on the snow under the snow as a template—in my previous reasoning, this template was self-selected by the snow, and it was the best solution she had set for herself.
But what if this template is not her choice? What if this template, in a specific situation, because of a variety of factors that cause a maverick result, and then try to optimize the result to the greatest extent possible under the snow?
That means that from the very beginning, under the snow was looking for a way forward in the fear and doubt of the self, and if this is the conclusion, then the skin of "absolute correctness" should have been punctured from the beginning.
"I would like your explanation. ”
This sentence is not asking me to provide an explanation of Tsurumi's solution, but I hope that I will provide a correct explanation for life under the snow.
But under the snow, when you try to ask other people for help, try to find an explanation for your own practices from other people, it means that your own freedom is no longer there, and the result of being forced by society, the so-called beliefs that you have added to yourself in order to cover up the result itself, plus the orthodoxy borrowed from other people, all this is not your own rational decision. And then, no matter how you use your own ability to ******** and prove the truth, in the end you get only the conclusion that you have been deceived.
However, if you really need this kind of orthodoxy, I offer it to you, and there is no big problem.
"If I had to give a reason, I think I just wanted Tsurumi to know what she really wanted in her heart. I looked at Yukino under the snow and replied.
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Suddenly I feel like it's really hard to set up a flag for Xue Nai.,Xue Nai's heart is not too strong but it's not a typical tsundere.,It's really difficult to write the feeling that the protagonist is a little closer to her heart but can't be too abrupt.,I prefer to finish the novel in one go.,But the last few paragraphs of this chapter have been changed several times.,After all, there's a feeling of being a little bit close to what I want.,En.。
And then there's the final supplement.,After this update is completed, it's equivalent to me making up for the white arrears.,So it's still updated every other day in the future.,If there's a change for two days in a row.,That's it.,That's it.,Hmm.。
By the way,I'm going to change the title of the book in the near future.,I always feel that the click-and-recommend ratio of this book is 1:1.,The pot of this title is very big.,The vast majority of people can't see WA2 and the same people of spring just by looking at this title.,Decided to change to a simple and rough title.,That's pretty much it.。