Liuying hugged her knees, buried her head in her knees, closed her eyes and waited until her mood was a little calmer, then she raised her head and said to Lu Yu, "Lu Yu, you have brought me a lot of positive emotions, I can accept autism calmly, but in fact, defects are always defects, and this defect can not be erased by accepting it calmly." I'm used to living a regular life, I'm used to doing things according to my own plan, and once I break those rules, I'm irritable, I'm afraid of all the sound of the brakes, I'm afraid of the sound system in the movie theater, I'm afraid of sudden yelling, I'm having a hard time recognizing facial language, it's hard to communicate with people who speak fast, it's hard to understand books that are too logical, it's hard to understand other people's emotions, and I may forget a lot of important things, maybe it's a birthday, maybe it's something important, and that's not all I have to face。 I don't want to leave you, I've thought about marrying you, I'm more eager to have a complete family than too many people, but I don't dare to think about it anymore when I think of all the problems we may have, you will definitely meet my various needs and carry a heavy life, this is the last thing I want to see, I'm afraid of hurting you, even a little, it will make me feel breathless. ”

Lu Yu's heart was a little moved, and he could even be deeply moved, "So you are afraid that I will be hurt because of your habits or lifestyle? It's not that you don't want to marry me, right?"

Liu Hotaru nodded, and continued, "There is another very important reason, you should know that autism has a certain hereditary nature, and people born with some kind of defect are half destined for their lives. She knows that this kind of nervous defect brings her unusual troubles and different eyes, she doesn't want this situation to appear in her child, in that case, she will be extremely guilty, even if her other half doesn't mind, but it's not fair to the child at all, and she is destined for most of her life from birth.

"I'm also used to a regular life, just like Zhai Ran and you, when I was in college, there was a line at three points, and now I work almost at two points and a line, if you like to make plans, then our life will go according to plan. I don't like the noisy environment, there are too many people in the cinema, if you want to watch a movie, you can install a home theater at home, the sound of brakes is inevitable, but I will try to divert your attention, if someone yells at you, I will cover your ears so that you don't hear it. We still have a long time to understand the books, I can patiently explain to you, even if my emotions are not written on my face, then I will tell you, if it is the emotions of people who are important to you, then I will remind you, and people who are not important do not need to care. I can make you a memo for anything you forget, you just need to check it regularly. As for heredity, it's inevitable, but if you're really worried, we can have no children or adopt one. Lu Yu said lightly, as if it wasn't his own business, he wanted Liuying to feel that he didn't care about these things, it didn't matter to him to come here, the important thing was that he was by her side, and they were enough together.

"That's what I'm most afraid of, overwhelming you in order to fit my life. Liuying felt a little bitter in her heart, like drinking Chinese medicine, and the bitterness could not be dissipated in her throat for a long time.

Lu Yu smiled slightly, looked at Liuying and said: "But this is the meaning of my life, you think I am overwhelmed by cooperating with you to do these things, but my thoughts are just the opposite of yours, this is the biggest meaning of my existence." Meeting you at the age of twelve was like a big gamble, and I gambled on the rest of my life, and I hope that one day we can meet again in the same field, and at that time, I wish I could give you more than I could give you at that time. We met again sooner than I expected, six years after we were separated from Guiye Academy, I was in my third year of high school, and you were a freshman in high school. Don't you want to know why I gave up the escort and why I had to hand in the blank paper when I took the college entrance examination? Because the second turning point in my life is to fall in love with you, I didn't know who you were when I first noticed you, and I fell in love with you without knowing anything, until I happened to know that you were the one who was in my heart, and I realized that there was really such a thing as fate in the world. I gave up because I didn't want to be too far away from you, and I gave in because I knew that my score was good enough to get to the university across the street from high school, and I knew that my future couldn't be without you, so I planned to wait for you in the future. As soon as I entered the university, I began to read a lot of books and literature on autism, and slowly learned about such a disease, but the more I understood it, the more I felt that you had infiltrated my internal organs, and then something happened that I couldn't control, so I never came to you, until you graduated from college, I learned that you were going to participate in the volunteer aid to Africa, I wanted to just drop everything I was doing and go with you, but I thought that I had promised to give you an indestructible future, so I had to give up。 You know everything after that, the reason why I can become the way I am now, and the meaning of my existence now, is all for you. ”

Liuying couldn't calm her mood for a long time after Lu Yu's words, even though she was autistic, she had a heart of seven emotions and six desires like ordinary people, her heart was alive, but she didn't know how to express her feelings at the moment, she only knew that she wanted to cry but couldn't help laughing, the broadcast of the centennial celebration stopped abruptly at this moment, and the sweaty teenagers around were suddenly silent, Liuying didn't seem to feel any breath of time passing, at this moment, the principles she adhered to collapsed in front of Lu Yu, she didn't even know how he did it。

"It's the first time I've ...... Listen to you about these things. A gust of wind blew, and Liuying smoothed the hair covering her eyes in front of her forehead, she looked at Lu Yu, she wanted to imprint his face in her heart, "I can't find any good in me that you like." ”

Lu Yu gently brushed away the hair blocking her forehead again for Liuying, and said in a low voice, "I can't find anything bad about you that I don't like." ”

Liu Ying smiled, "Okay, the debate tournament is officially over, congratulations to the opposing debate friend for winning the final victory of this debate tournament." ”

"Then if I win, do you know that you don't object to marrying me?" Lu Yu stood up and stretched out his hand to pull Liuying, "Then we might as well choose a day to collide with each other, and go through the formalities today, I'm afraid that if you can't figure it out one day and regret it." ”

Liuying stood up and listened to Lu Yu's red ears one by one, "Who is going to marry you?" In the TV series, the male protagonist has to make a romantic proposal to the heroine before getting married, why are you so trouble-free?"

Lu Yu gently leaned over and approached Liuying, only a fist away from each other, he showed a rather charming smile, and said softly: "I'm playing with you, I can't do it if I want to do it tonight." But is this a request you made to me? Then it is better to be respectful than to obey your fate, and you will not be disappointed. ”

Liuying secretly scolded Lu Yu in her heart, sure enough, the nature of the country is easy to change, and people are always shameless, "You really have such a good-looking face." ”

Liuying and Lu Yu did not cause an irreparable incident in the end, she felt that this might still depend on the way the two people got along, and they always knew that if there was any problem between them, they would immediately let each other know, although there was a short interval between them, but because of this short quarrel, the hearts of the two people became closer and closer, and she also had a further understanding of Lu Yu. She was still jealous of marriage, but she had undoubtedly begun to believe that as long as they were together, there was nothing that could not be solved.

"Doctor Chen, it's me, Gu Liuying. After thinking about it for a long time, Liuying secretly made a phone call to her attending doctor.

"Hotaru, how's it going?"

"I'm fine, thank you Dr. Chan for your concern, I have something to ask you about calling you. ”

"You. ”

Liuxing mustered up the courage to continue, "I...... I was in a relationship, he knew about my problems, he brought me a lot of positive emotions during this time, and I obviously felt that my own symptoms had lessened, and I was planning to marry him, so ...... I want to ask you, are there any examples of patients you've been in contact with who are in a similar situation to me? I want to know how their lives are going to be when they get married?"

"In the past, I would also advise some patients with mild symptoms to consider marriage, because a harmonious marriage has a positive effect on psychology and life, and conversely, a discordant marriage is also extremely unfavorable to patients, so I will also warn them to be mentally prepared and not to make hasty decisions at the same time. But last year's wedding at the treatment center completely changed my mind, the bride and groom are both moderate patients in the treatment center, they met and fell in love here, really, they have a special understanding of each other's world, probably because I witnessed their relationship, so I was deeply touched, after the marriage, they have not had any hidden dangers that I thought would appear, but overcame many obstacles, and spent every day of their marriage plainly but happily. Liuying, there are many questions that I have not yet had a clear answer to in my own professional field, and many questions are not black and white, people's potential is often much greater than we imagined, if you both think it through, you might as well be brave to try, I watched you grow up, you have always had your ideas and your choices, and I would like to see your life full of hope and love. Dr. Chan said earnestly.

"Thank you Dr. Chan, I see. ”

"He's... An architectural designer studying psychology?" asked Dr. Chan.

Hotaru was secretly surprised, "How do you know?"

Dr. Chan smiled on the other end of the phone, "It's... Well, there's time to visit the center, and it's time for you to hand over some things. ”

Dr. Chan hung up the phone, he had something to hand over to her, had she left something with Dr. Chan before? The last time she went to the centre was two years ago, and she had forgotten what she had lost. Dr. Chen's words were undoubtedly a force that hit her heart straight to the bottom, and she was always unquestionable about his words, because he was a doctor, and she was a patient, and he had just made her decide.