"It's really over. There is no room for recovery between me and him...... You can be regarded as self-inflicted, Zheng Xiyan. ”

Lin Mingyue glanced at the date recorded on it, she remembered this day very clearly, it was the day when Han Xiaowolf and Sister Xiyan confessed. From between the lines, she could imagine what kind of mood Zheng Xiyan was in when she wrote such words.

She pursed her lips slightly, and her otherwise light-hearted mood darkened, but she continued to look.

"I had this in mind...... But what I didn't expect at all was that it turned out that he was already with Lin Mingyue. ”

"My best sister. and the people I love. ”

Lin Mingyue bit her lip lightly, staring at the words "the best sister", as if it was as heavy as a mountain.

She continued to look, her mind returning to that day with the contents of her journal. It was an unusually difficult day for her, and she made an extraordinarily difficult decision that day.

Now that I think about it, Sister Xiyan is actually not easier than herself.

"Mingyue, how can you do this? how can you do this to me?...... Do you know what it's like to be unable to breathe in heartache?"

“…… My first reaction after I knew this was that I really wanted to fight with you like a shrew, scold you, and then be a stranger from then on, never again!"

"Dream...... It's not that important anymore, but unfortunately I realized it too late......"

After reading it, Lin Mingyue's face showed a bitter smile. Although with the passage of time, she has been able to be calm in front of Zheng Xiyan, but in her heart, the guilt against her has not dissipated.

And now, looking at this diary, her guilt is surging into her heart again.

She took a soft breath and turned the next page.

"It's been a long time since I've drunk liquor...... Lin Mingyue immediately knew that this was the day she apologized to Sister Xiyan.

Every time she thinks about what happened that day, her heart is wrapped in warmth.

“…… It's all over, whether it's with him, or with Mingyue. ”

"No matter what, being able to see the smile on Mingyue's face, my mood can also be happier......"

When Lin Mingyue saw this, a warm smile appeared on her face.

At this time, Sister Xiyan was still thinking about herself.

"I asked you Mingyue at the time, will you give up on him because of me, your answer may be the gap between me and you. ”

"If at that time, I could have let go of my dreams...... But, really, there are really some things that you can't learn to cherish until you lose them......"

"I wish you happiness...... Perhaps, you will never know ......"

"Fortunately, I know, Sister Xiyan, thank you, thank you for your blessings. Lin Mingyue muttered, and a smile of emotion appeared on her face. Originally, she really thought that she couldn't hear Sister Xiyan's blessing, but she didn't expect to see it here.

The regret in my heart has now been made up.

Thank you, Sister Xiyan, I will cherish him well.

It's just that her smile is fleeting.

“…… But in reality, I will never be able to say this. Both for you and for him. Because ......"

"Because...... I'm really jealous of you. Because, I'm afraid it's hard for me to forget him. ”

So at least at that time, Sister Xiyan still hasn't let go?

But she still forgave herself.

But she still sent her blessings to herself.

She's always been thinking about me, but ...... Who really cared about her?

Lin Mingyue's heart suddenly ached.

But even so, at least the ending is good.

Isn't it?

Han Xiaowolf and I are very happy now.

Sister Xiyan also let go of this relationship and regained her own career.

We're all starting anew.

With this in mind, she continued to look back, but she found that things were not as rosy as she had imagined.

"I'm having insomnia again. Obviously he has tried to control himself not to think about those sad things, but those appear uncontrollably as soon as he closes his eyes. Did you sleep for an hour or two yesterday? Hopefully tonight will be better. There is a trip tomorrow, I hope they won't find out, or Jin Xianyun will be verbose again, and Mingyue will blame herself. I really hope it gets better soon. ”

Insomnia?

Sister Xiyan has never said it to herself.

Lin Mingyue's eyes widened in surprise.

However, this was all half a year ago now. She can only comfort herself with such a reason now, and continue to look at Zheng Xiyan's diary.

……

"It's been a week, but there's no sign of improvement. What's wrong with me? I'm going crazy. Moreover, it's not just insomnia, I feel heavy in my heart every day, and I can't breathe, as if the whole world has abandoned me, what's wrong with you......?

“…… I'm losing my hair a lot now, how long has this been going on? a month or two, I can't remember exactly...... The quality of sleep is also getting worse day by day...... What's even more terrifying is that when I stand by the window today, I have an urge to jump down...... I'm scared. But now I'm alone. Maybe I should go to the hospital......"

Lin Mingyue's hand holding the notebook clenched hard,...... The urge to commit suicide? Is this Sister Xiyan? How could this be Sister Xiyan. And Sister Xiyan, you are not alone, you still have crystals, you still have me, you still have our rainbow angels.

"Moderate depression? Fortunately, the doctor was introduced by a friend, otherwise it would have been a big news again. 'Rainbow Angel' Zheng Xiyan suffers from depression?the next actress who commits suicide?But fortunately, it's only moderate, and everything is still in time...... It's just, to put it simply, don't think about those things...... But how can it be controlled? Han Shenyan ...... It's ridiculous. Obviously, he didn't cherish it when he was by his side, but when he was far away, he seemed to be inseparable from him, are you a slut? Zheng Xiyan. Moreover, you have to know that he is now Mingyue's lover. Do you want to be sorry for her?"

No, no. Lin Mingyue shook her head, Sister Xiyan, you didn't feel sorry for me, it was me, it was me who was sorry for you at the beginning.

"So, try to forget him. …… I hope the medicine prescribed by the doctor today will be effective. ”

When Lin Mingyue saw this, she suddenly thought of something, got out of bed and came to Zheng Xiyan's bedside, she seemed to see two medicine bottles when she was tidying up in the afternoon, but she didn't care about it at the time.

It was soon found under Zheng Xiyan's pillow.

Two bottles of medicine.

A bottle of antidepressant.

A bottle of sleeping sound.