Lin Mingyue looked at the two bottles of medicine in her hand.

It was very light, but it was as heavy as a thousand pounds, and it all weighed on her heart.

Heavy.

Sister Xiyan.

I'm feeling the discomfort you said now.

She bit her lip tightly, tears welling up in her eyes.

The sound of Xu Chuqing and Li Jiayin fighting was faintly heard outside the door, and the others were still applauding. They have been suppressed for so long, and today they finally know that Zheng Xiyan did not betray them, it was all for their sake, and they were naturally happy.

It's just that in this small dormitory, there is no soil for happy survival.

She put the pill bottle back into the distance, made it back into bed, and continued to look through the diary.

There was still a glimmer of hope in her heart.

After all, these are things that happened before.

Now, maybe it's different?

She was looking forward to it.

“…… A rare good night's sleep, at least the sleeping pills worked. And I don't know if it's a psychological effect, but today's mood seems to be a little better than yesterday. It would be great if it could go on like this......"

"It's a great feeling that my design has been recognized. The hard work that has been put into it during this period of time has not been in vain. Zheng Xiyan, designer Zheng Xiyan, sounds pretty good. However, it's still the rainbow angel Zheng Xiyan, and the singer Zheng Xiyan sounds better......"

"Mingyue is a birthday in a few days, what birthday gift should I give? It's really tangled, I always feel like I've given away everything she likes before...... Yes, I might as well design a separate piece of jewelry for her, she'll love it......"

Sister Xiyan.

I really, really like it.

Thank you.

Lin Mingyue's slender fingers gently caressed the paper, and her eyes fell on the bracelet on her wrist, which was one of the best gifts she had ever received.

It can be seen from Sister Xiyan's diary that her mood has gradually improved during this period of time, and the number of things like insomnia and hair loss is getting less and less.

It's just that Lin Mingyue didn't feel happy, because she knew what was going on behind her.

At that time, she was already upset with Sister Xiyan, but now she knows how much these things will affect her.

"Looking at Mingyue's smile, she should like my gift very much. And I wore it on my hand on the same day. The hard work of the past few days has been worth it. The other sisters were jealous and amused me. But...... She's not coming back tonight, and the dorm room is a little deserted. ”

She ...... Did you go to him? It's quite uncomfortable. But it's only a matter of time. They are now rightful lovers. It's weird. Obviously, I have slept a lot better recently, and my mood will not be depressed all the time. ”

But why, why can't he always be forgotten? I can't even bury it in my heart like I did before. How much more time will it take to forget him completely? But at least the acting skills are getting better and better these days, at least they have never shown it in front of Mingyue. From this point of view, if the singer can't get along that day, he can also develop in the film and television industry......"

Lin Mingyue's mood was complicated.

Some are jealous, their sister has different thoughts about their boyfriends, and what woman won't be jealous? But she couldn't be jealous, because it was obviously her fault in the first place.

Moreover, Sister Xiyan has deliberately forgotten that Sister Xiyan has nothing wrong with this matter......

A little guilty, Sister Xiyan forgave herself at the beginning. But that doesn't mean you're at ease. It's just that she has been burying this guilt in her heart, but now, this guilt is getting heavier and heavier.

And some heartache. I have found my own happiness, but what about Sister Xiyan? She always thinks about others, but have you thought about yourself?

In fact, Lin Mingyue knew that she shouldn't continue to read it now, this was Sister Xiyan's diary, and this was her privacy.

Although they were close, and although they used to look at each other's diaries as jokes, the situation was clearly different now.

However, she really wants to know how Sister Xiyan is now. She continued to flip through.

“…… Sure enough, happy days don't last long? At least that's how it is for me. Company, company. It's really a little ridiculous, it's always been a place to think of it as a writer, and now it's doing something like this. This online store was obviously developed by me with great difficulty, why did they suddenly jump out? Really, really a little unwilling......"

"I've lost so much so much, but do I still want to do this to me? I've lost my love, I've abandoned my dreams, and now, won't even such sustenance be left for me? ”

“…… But...... But what can I do...... The symptoms from before reappeared, and I was depressed and uncomfortable. It's as if there's a fire in my heart, but there's nowhere to vent it...... I don't seem to be in this world, maybe it would have been better if it hadn't been for me......"

"I just cried, and I was scared to cry. It's ridiculous. is such an adult, and I can still be scared to cry by my diary yesterday. It's just that maybe I should go to the hospital to see it. I really don't know what happened yesterday to write something like that. I'm not nothing, I still have my family, I still have crystals, I still have them...... If only he were still with me......"

"Finally settled the matter with the company. I also want to open it, after all, it's just a hobby, and the most important thing for me is them, or the profession of a singer. I'm not going to tell them how the division came about, and sisters don't need to thank each other......"

Syllable.

The droplets of water lightly hit the paper.

Lin Mingyue hurriedly raised her head, and then wiped away her uncontrollable tears.

Obviously see a warm place.

But her heart suddenly ached.

“…… Something happened again. This time it's the crystal ones. is obviously good, but it was exposed for such reasons. However, I don't seem to have a position to say Xiaoxue. Myself...... Isn't it worse than her? Just looking at Crystal's sullen appearance, I can't be happy...... But at least it was a wise decision not to tell them about my illness......"

"Mingyue went to filming...... Actually, it's good to keep yourself busy...... Now that the online store is the usual thing for the company, I have started to be idle again...... I was a little scared of that. Mingyue often doesn't come back to sleep...... Tired. Obviously I care a lot in my heart, but I still have to pretend that I don't care when she comes back......"

"Every night when she is away, I unconsciously think of him, of the past...... I'm really not a good sister......"