The result of the game naturally ended in my defeat without suspense, Su Mo showed no mercy to his subordinates, and I lost completely. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

I'm not good at chess, and I don't like to think about this thing very much, even if I change others, I may not be able to win, not to mention that this person is still Su Mo.

I am not surprised that I will not be strong because of my fearlessness of difficulties, and this is a chess game that is doomed to the end from the beginning.

It's just that I suddenly regret that I didn't spend my mind on chess before, if I had known that there would be such a day, if I had known that my marriage would have such a major involvement with these black and white chess pieces, I think I would have studied hard.

However, even if I study very hard, I'm afraid I still can't win against Su Mo, I don't have Su Mo's mind, how can I learn as well as he can play chess, which requires a lot of brains.

Therefore, Su Mo's refusal, I can't even find the words to refute it, to insist, everything is my skill is not as good as others, he gave me a chance, I can't do it, why can I blame him? What is there to blame him?

Su Mo knew my temperament so well, so he rejected my thoughts in this way, elegantly, calmly, and politely enough, and rejected my thoughts.

In fact, I know that this is the greatest gentleness that Su Mo can do under his cold temperament, he did not reject me indifferently and directly, it is estimated that it is also because of the relationship we have been with for many years.

I am stubborn and stubborn, and I will never give up easily what I believe, but at the same time, I also have my pride, and I will never go back on what I promised others.

Su Mo knows me like this.

This time, however, I was suddenly terrified, I was afraid to hear him say that I would never see him again, I was afraid that I had chosen to obey my promise out of pride.

Therefore, when Su Mo was about to speak, I ran away very unproductively.

I didn't hear it with my own ears, so I could pretend I didn't know.

After that day, I didn't go to Su Mo again, because I owed Su Mo a promise, and I couldn't break my promise, but I might be able to find a way to make Su Mo forget about it, so I couldn't see him for the time being.

In the past, I didn't know what I thought about Su Mo, I could hook up with him without any scruples, and I wouldn't feel anything wrong...... Well, although we never hooked shoulders, at that time, I didn't need to keep my distance from him, and we were comfortable and natural with each other, at least, as I thought was comfortable and natural.

Later, my inexplicable love for the first time opened, I didn't even dare to look at him, all the things that should have been natural became unnatural, I kept tempting and hinting, guessing and expecting, since the moment I understood that I liked Su Mo, I longed for him to have the same heart as me.

I hope that the man I admire will love me as much, and I am afraid that he will not be as good as I would like. The conflicting emotions make me sometimes happy and sometimes sad, and I can't sleep peacefully because of the gains and losses, and I can't bear it anymore.

I don't want to wait any longer, I'd rather not be a good girl who is subtle, I just want to know Su Mo's intentions, even if he has neither intention nor intention for me, I don't want to continue to be so uneasy to guess a person's mind.

Ever since I was a child, I didn't like to guess, and if there was anything I didn't understand, I usually tried to figure it out.

However, after expressing my heart to Su Mo, my mood was extremely complicated, of course, the complicated reason was that I was rejected by Su Mo in a very tactful way, if he accepted my heart, I think I would only care about joy, and I didn't have the heart to complicate it.

I was very sad to know that Su Mo really didn't have any thoughts about me, I was sad because the person I liked didn't like me, I felt that I was so sad that I didn't need to hide it, it was natural, so I was always in a trance with myself, and I didn't feel anything wrong, this was my normal reaction to the impact of my emotions, and I didn't feel how worried about my sadness.

I often sat in the backyard staring at the trees and grass in a daze, and I began to care about the stones in the courtyard, and whether they would also feel lonely and helpless, something that only a sad literati would care about.

I think I must have read too many books, and I am worried about the sky, and I am worried about the stones.

The reason why I'm so relaxed is not because I'm too lazy to help my father, but because I become more forgetful than my father, not only do I use sugar as salt, but I also occasionally accidentally boil noodles into gnocchi and forget to put soup in them.

From then on, I didn't dare to laugh at others easily, because I found that I was even more stupid than my father, and the consequences of laughing at others might turn me into a joke, and this kind of thing has always been the most profound proof in me.

In the past, I always laughed at those women who were looking for death for their lovers, crying, making trouble, and hanging themselves, making a fuss that was more exciting than the drama on the stage, and I didn't know how to feel feelings at that time, so I couldn't empathize with such sadness, and I thought it was funny, just because, I felt that nothing was more important than my own life.

Unless, it's the one who gave me life, but what is a lover? I didn't have that concept at the time, I was just sure that I wouldn't hang myself for someone other than my father.

Of course, I don't think my dad would want to see me hanged, and if he saw me hanged, I was sure that if I hadn't been hanged by the rope, I would have been beaten half to death by the rolling pin in my father's hand.

But now, although I don't want to hang myself for anyone, I spend my days wondering how to get a man, what is the difference between me and those women who have lost themselves?

I think I'm really losing myself, and this loss is something I can't control.

I miss Su Mo, my heart, my mind is full of him.

However, I was very worried about how he could like me, if I could become the woman Su Mo loved, I wouldn't mind losing myself for Su Mo.

So, I began to wonder what kind of woman Su Mo would like? The time I spent with Su Mo was not short, I did know him better than others, this is my advantage, since I have wasted so much time, I can't waste my advantage anymore.

Su Mo is afraid of noise, so he should like quiet women, Su Mo is afraid of trouble, so he should also like well-behaved women, Su Mo, Su Mo has a cold temperament and does not like words, so he should need a woman who has a seven-trick exquisite heart like an interpreting flower, and can understand his heart without words.

Those who know me say that I am worried, and those who do not know me say that I am worried? Quiet, well-behaved, intelligent, knowledgeable...... Su Mo should love such a woman, right?

But, obviously, I am not such a woman. (To be continued.) )