Chapter 344: Inner Demon
To be honest, Zhang Junyi's mood has not been particularly good recently, why? Hehe, if it is more serious, it is estimated that almost all people will cry out because Zhang Junyi is not in a good mood.
There is still more than half a month to go to Zhang Junyi's birthday, and when chatting with Zhao Yazhi before going to bed two nights ago, Zhao Yazhi asked Zhang Junyi how he was going to spend his birthday this time, and then Zhang Junyi transferred it with a period of time and other things.
To be honest, what Zhang Junyi hates the most is birthdays and festivals, because in his previous life, the shadow of celebrating holidays as an orphan and a poor dick is still there.
When he was just independent, in order to save money, the house was pressed with energy-saving lamps of several watts, especially during the Spring Festival, in a dim room, he held a bowl of dumplings, stood alone in front of the window and watched others set off fireworks outside, because at that time, his pockets were cleaner than his face, so he naturally would not buy consumables such as firecrackers. After eight o'clock, I would go to bed early because of fatigue and loneliness.
The family watched the Spring Festival Gala because they had no relatives. The atmosphere was warm? Candy melon seeds? This is not at all the same as the festival he imagined, thinking of the festival should be festive, beautiful, and bright, but all he feels is cold, dark, and cold. Therefore, the more the festival was in his previous life, the more lonely Zhang Junyi became.
To this day, Zhang Junyi still remembers the conversation between him and Zhao Yazhi that night.
"Ayi, why do you give me more and more the feeling that you are getting close to people now!"
After Zhang Junyi heard the words at that time, he felt quite surprised, and subconsciously touched his nose, Zhang Junyi at that time really didn't know how to answer the woman he loved the most in his life for a while.
After all, because Zhang Junyi has a shocking secret in his heart that no one can say, even the most beloved woman lying in his arms is impossible to tell the secret, can you tell your own woman that your man was just an orphan in his previous life, a poor dick at the bottom of society, and a loser who was betrayed by a woman in his previous life?
Something impossible!
So it is impossible for Zhang Junyi to confide in anyone about this knot in his heart, can he tell Zhao Yazhi that I have instinctive resistance to birthdays and holidays because of those experiences in my previous life?
At that time, Zhao Yazhi saw that Zhang Junyi was silent, so he was smart and did not continue to ask questions, although Zhang Junyi has always been obedient to Zhao Yazhi at home, but Zhao Yazhi has never been pampered and arrogant, seeing Zhang Junyi's current state, he knew that the man around him did not want to mention the relevant topics anymore, although Zhao Yazhi usually shows a graceful and generous appearance in front of outsiders, but it does not mean that she is stupid, on the contrary, Zhao Yazhi's mind is very delicate.
Although he didn't say anything, he comforted his man with a famous quote from Nietzsche at the end: "Ayi, Nietzsche once said that there are three realms of the human spirit: camel, lion and baby. The first realm of camels, endure humiliation and burden, passively obey the orders of others or the arrangement of fate; the second realm of lions, from "you should" to "I want", everything is up to me to take the initiative to strive for, take the initiative to take responsibility for life, and the third realm of babies, this is a state of "I am", live in the present, enjoy everything now. “
After finishing speaking, she also used Zhao Yazhi and her white little hand to put it on Zhang Junyi's forehead, gently smoothing Zhang Junyi's frowning brows.
For Zhao Yazhi's relief, in fact, Zhang Junyi understands, and Zhang Junyi also understands the meaning of Nietzsche's famous sentence.
Silence can make the chaotic heart clear. You don't need to tell others how stupid, naïve, kind, lucky, unlucky, and painful you are, and learn to hide your emotions with silence. Some people may say that you are free and easy, but free and easy is sometimes just an illusion. Silence is the city, wisdom, and connotation, and silence is the last high and the last freedom.
Success is not about difficulty, but about taking action. While action may not necessarily lead to satisfactory results, there will never be satisfactory results if no action is not taken. There is no shortage of opportunities in this world, but there is a lack of hands to seize them. If you have an idea, you should take action quickly, don't worry about failure or difficulties, only in the continuous practice and pursuit, you can surpass yourself and create your own brilliance.
Live your own life, don't imitate others, and don't lose yourself even if they are good. There are the same skies and no clouds. There is the same earth, but there is no same road. There is the same sea, not the same waves. There are the same flowers, but not the same fragrance. There are the same trees, but there are no same leaves. There are the same nights, not the same dreams. There is the same destination, but there is no same ending.
Life is distance, and distance is life. How much distance is there between people, a layer of belly. How much distance is there between people and friends, an inch of sincerity. How much is the distance between people and the sky, one meter of sunlight. How much distance is between man and earth, a footstep. How much distance is there between people and sorrows, a little worry. How much distance is between people and music, put it down at once. How much distance is there between people and life, a cry. How far is man from death, a string of sighs.
Don't find some entertainment methods that are not suitable for you because you are lonely, cater to some groups that do not belong to you, and love some people who are at your fingertips. Everyone has lonely moments, and many people are not the drunken and cynical people you have in mind. You don't see their unknown loneliness, don't disturb your persistence and your thinking because of the emptiness of the moment, we all have to learn to bear the inevitable loneliness of life. After that, we can see the beauty and prosperity.
How can life not be hurt: life is a material and spiritual hope that seeks to achieve a balance in static existence, sometimes painful, sometimes exciting, life is an unavoidable situation, when it is vague, it is like a-for-tat. How can the road of life be smooth sailing, and how can we not be injured as imagined! Shake up your spirit, life is a choice, and life requires hard work.
In this life, it is difficult to have the same opportunities, different causes, smooth sailing, ups and downs, it is their own destiny. Those who have passed, met by chance, met, and parted are all unique. No matter what situation you are in, don't complain about the state of the world, don't give up the bottom line, and don't be jealous of others. If you are not greedy, you will have less desires, if you are not angry, your heart will be calm, and if you do not ask, you will always be content. If you meet, please cherish it, don't pass it, cherish it.
To be honest, Zhang Junyi knows that he is a little too hypocritical now.
What is happiness? How many people are looking for a complete answer. But the answer is different for different people. Someone is happy because of what they get. Some people take pleasure in helping others. Some people are happy because of their work, some people are tired because of their work, etc. Happiness is an activity of people's spiritual experience, and it is the subject's emotional response to the experience of perceiving the object. When there is a harmony and balance between the inner needs and the actual experience, people will feel a sense of happiness. Therefore, children may be happy because of a piece of candy, the elderly may be happy with a warm word, and students may be happy because of a lot of ......
Happiness is actually simple and difficult, it is nothing more than "satisfaction", the easier it is to satisfy, the happier it is, and the greater the desire, the more difficult it means to be happy.
Rubbing some of his forehead, Zhang Junyi found that he was now more and more mediocre and self-disturbing, Zhang Junyi, who was sitting in the car, couldn't help but smile bitterly when he thought of this, in fact, he is already quite successful in the eyes of others.
Just like two nights ago, Zhao Yazhi said to Zhang Junyi, "Ayi, in fact, you are very successful now, in my eyes, you are omnipotent!"
In fact, Zhang Junyi at that time couldn't say anything after hearing Zhao Yazhi say such words of admiration for himself, after all, in front of outsiders, yes, he was already very successful, he was young, in just a few years, he created such wealth, not to mention the generation of the same age as himself, even counting the rich tycoons of the older generation, a large part of them are also not comparable to themselves, this is still their own assets exposed on the surface, but who knows that these things are all given by themselves using the memories of their previous lives. What about the doctrine'?
In fact, everything has a cause and effect, and Zhang Junyi's self-denial this time is actually not abrupt.
Why?
This is because Zhang Junyi foresaw that Atari would experience an earthquake-like shock next year, and he wondered if he would experience the same thing in the future.
How can I say it, Zhang Junyi's problem, in fact, no one can help, after all, this kind of thing as being a person in two lives can only be experienced by himself.
It is precisely because Zhang Junyi's life in his previous life was too much of a failure that Zhang Junyi was reborn so much about failure.
But if you think about it, who in this world hasn't experienced failure?
Not to mention far away, let's just say that the famous Jobs in his previous life was the great master, Jobs was full of scenery in his previous life, and he can be described as a big winner in life, right?
So what? Isn't it still a matter of going through a lot of failures before rising anew?
On April 1, 1976, Jobs, Woz, and Jobs' friend Long Wayne signed a contract to set up a computer company. Later, 21-year-old Steve Jobs and 26-year-old Steve Wozniak founded Apple Inc. in their garage. The name of the company was given by Steve Jobs as Apple. And their self-made computer was posthumously called the "Apple I." computer.
In April 1977, Steve Jobs showed the Apple II prototype at the first computer show in the United States.
On December 12, 1980, Apple's stock went public, and in less than an hour, all 4.6 million shares were snapped up, closing at $29 per share. At this closing price, Apple's top management produced 4 billionaires and more than 40 millionaires. Steve Jobs ranked first as the founder of the company.
In 1983, the next year of his life, because Jobs's business philosophy was different from that of most managers at the time, and because IBM launched personal computers to seize a large part of the market, the general manager and directors blamed Chairman Jobs for this failure, and in April 1985, the board of directors resolved to revoke his management power. After several unsuccessful attempts to regain power, Jobs left Apple on September 17, 1985.
Even Sect Master Qiao has gone through so many ups and downs before he finally condensed the godhead of life, what qualifications do you Zhang Junyi have to pursue smooth sailing along the way?
The memory of his previous life cannot make him smooth sailing forever, it will only allow Zhang Junyi to reduce the twists and turns as much as possible on the road to success instead of avoiding twists and turns!
is still the same sentence, the current Zhang Junyi is a little too obsessed.
What is Obsession?
Obsession refers to insisting on something and not being able to detach itself. When you are attached, there will be resentment, and only by letting go of attachment will you be at ease. Philosophically it is defined in such a way that a person is too focused on something or something, and for a long time he is immersed in a certain emotion, and this complex becomes tangible and binds it.
Buddhism has seven precepts.
In the teachings of the Buddhist scriptures, it is said that many of people's troubles are caused by the confusion of the mind, so they are also called "troubles" as "confusion", among which the five major troubles of "greed, anger, ignorance, slowness, and doubt" belong to "confusion", also called "cultivation of confusion", which can only be eliminated through people's practice.
Among these five afflictions, "greed, hatred, and ignorance" are the most fundamental, called the "three poisons", and they are the root of life's suffering. Greed is what you like, hoping that the more it is, the better, and never losing it; hatred, that is, what you don't like, you will reject and oppose, and if someone does what you don't like, you will get angry; Foolishness is not understanding that everything in the universe is constantly changing, and everything will not be eternal, so you want to grasp what you are greedy for, and you want to resist what you don't want, and everything in the universe simply exists under certain conditions and disappears under certain conditions, and there is nothing that can be grasped at all. Because of this kind of stupidity, greed and hatred arise, and as a result, they become cocooned and seek trouble.
Buddhism teaches people to have wisdom and concentration, and it must start with the prevention of mistakes, so the "precepts" are the basis for cultivating concentration and developing wisdom.
Now Zhang Junyi's experience of this process is a bit like the seven precepts in Buddhism, obsession generally refers to the persistence and persistence of wrong and false things, such as the attachment of greed and hatred, and the attachment to feelings, because these are false and make people fall into reincarnation, so it is said to be obsession.
Therefore, people can only live once, and don't live too tired! If we can hold a normal heart, sit and watch the clouds rise and fall, the flowers bloom and fade, and the vicissitudes of life, we can get a good mood of clouds and water. If we can treat every day with the best mood, then every day will be full of sunshine and hope.
When Zhang Junyi can really understand, he will be able to let go completely.
Of course, getting out of this cycle is not so simple, this is a long-term accumulation process, a bit similar to the accumulation of time in martial arts.
Life has accumulated to a certain extent, and it will naturally come to pass.