Chapter 32: Regret
No matter whether the end of love is happy or sad, everyone's love always starts with sweetness, but I am not. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 info
Qi Ji and I started just to fight for breath, to prove that I am not a half-hearted woman, and I will never be the one who dumps Qi Ji first. This is so ridiculous, because of course I only like Qi Ji alone, of course I can't let go of him first, this kind of undoubted thing has now made the beginning of our relationship.
Early Monday morning, as soon as I got off the bus, I saw Qi Ji on the platform. He took off his headphones and came to me with a blank face and walked side by side with me to the school.
"What, if you want to tell the world, are we dating?" I glanced at him.
"What, are you afraid that everyone will know?" Qi Ji is also not polite.
I rolled my eyes speechlessly, from the moment Qi Ji agreed to my angry proposal, I should have known that he was actually a cautious man, otherwise he would not have been hot and cold and suspicious of me.
Hou Changfeng had doubts about our birth together, and in order to prove his innocence, I said to him in a voice that Qi Ji could hear: "We are in love." ”
"What? You guys? Hou Changfeng's eyes widened, and he couldn't believe it to the extreme, "When are you guys?" How so? Why? Impossible! ”
Hou Changfeng's somewhat overreaction reminded me of what Qi Ji said: There is only one possibility that a man will remain friends with a girl he has not pursued, and that is that he still has hope for her.
Could it be that Hou Changfeng really ...... to me
"Ahem." Hou Changfeng probably also noticed something, he restrained his stunned expression, and made a sparse and ordinary appearance, "I mean, you, a good student, will also fall in love at this juncture." ”
Hou Changfeng's words are right, senior year of high school! Everyone is chasing me and racing against time to study, although my grades are good, but they are not good enough to take the college entrance examination lightly. The important thing is that I came to Shanghai to study with the hope of my grandmother, mom and father, and my goal is to study in the popular majors of the top three universities in Shanghai. Therefore, for me, the college entrance examination is only allowed to succeed and not to fail!
It's not that I haven't heard of or seen a plummeting grade because of early love, and even Lou Junshu didn't fall in love in high school at the beginning. I, a person who was laughed at by Qi Ji and smiled, can I hold it without being distracted?
The day before yesterday, my mind was hot, and I said the words of dating, but now that I think about it, I regret it a little. Dating Qi Ji is something I dream of, but when it happens, I retreat in my heart, not only afraid of affecting my studies, but also afraid of the pain of breaking up. Just like Lou Junshu's love, no matter how lacquery it is at the beginning, there will always be a time when love fades away, and what I'm really afraid of is that the person who fades away first is Qi Ji. When he dated me, he would find that in fact, I would neither be coquettish like a Shanghai girl, nor dress up fashionably, and even a little boring, how could a person like me occupy Qi Ji's heart? If I invest too much emotion and am abandoned by Qi Ji one day, can I guarantee that it will not affect my studies?
Now that you know the ending, it is the right thing to do!
After school, I quickly packed my schoolbag and walked out quickly, then turned around and went up to the third floor, looking down in the corridor on the third floor, only to see Qi Ji, who had chased to the first floor, looking left and right, anxiously looking for my figure.
I clung to the handrail, and my heart felt like a big rock, heavy and blocked. I had to take a deep breath and take it slowly, it would get better, time was the best medicine.
"Senior sister, why did you come up?" Suddenly there was a loud cry from behind.
I turned my head, it was Xiao Yue.
"Oh, I, I'm ......, I want to tell you that Hou Changfeng was left by the teacher to punish him for his homework today, and he may go back late." I had an idea.
"Senior year of high school, I am really nervous, and now I don't usually go back with him, for fear of affecting his studies." Xiao Yue pursed her lips, "I know he doesn't study very well, but now that he is in his third year of high school, he obviously works harder than before, but he still has to be admitted to college...... Senpai! ”
Xiao Yue suddenly grabbed my hand: "Sister, I heard that your grades are very good, and you are sitting with him, can you teach him more, he is a boy, he must be embarrassed to speak." ”
Facing Xiao Yue's worried eyes, I nodded, Hou Changfeng was really blessed in his previous life to find such a good girl.
Saying goodbye to Xiaoyue, I saw that Qi Ji also walked away and quietly returned to the classroom.
Hou Changfeng looked surprised at me when he turned back: "Didn't you go back?" ”
I put down my school bag, took out my textbook, and pretended to be fine: "The books are too heavy, I want to stay at school and go back after I finish studying." ”
"Oh." Hou Changfeng lowered his head and continued to do his homework.
I saw him scratching his head and biting the pen for a while, but he didn't start. I craned my neck and saw that his homework book was full of the teacher's crosses, and he only got two simple math problems right.
"The teacher teaches formulas and laws, you have to apply them, what's the use of just staring at the questions?" I couldn't help but speak.
Hou Changfeng reflexively covered his homework book and turned his head a little embarrassed: "You, you are studying your homework, why do you care about me." ”
"I'm afraid you won't solve the problem until dawn." I flipped through my math textbook and pushed the page with the laws printed in front of him.
Hou Changfeng took it with a twist, adjusted his sitting posture, and turned most of his back to me.
I shook my head angrily and funny, how can boys be so desperate to save face.
When I finish tomorrow's class and finish today's homework, there are only me, Hou Changfeng and a few students living in the classroom left, I look at the watch, the time is not early, because now in the third year of high school, my aunt usually reduces my housework, but after the meal, it is not good.
"Hey, are you done with your homework?" I pushed Hou Changfeng, who was holding his head with his back to me.
He actually lowered his head and almost hit the table, and I glanced at him angrily: "It's really you, you actually fell asleep." ”
"Ahem." Hou Changfeng coughed twice and stretched his waist, "You go back first, I, I'll do it for a while." ”
I grabbed his homework book to see how much he had written, but Hou Changfeng rushed over, I reached back, and Hou Changfeng's whole body pressed over...... We both suddenly realized that the distance between the two of us was only a few centimeters, and his small eyes were on my big eyes, so I was not embarrassed.
Hou Changfeng quickly withdrew his body, pulled off his clothes, and even his voice trembled slightly: "You, you return the homework book to me." ”
I put down the homework book and looked at it, and there was still a lot of blank space in the place where I had changed.
"How can you do this, time is spent, but there is no efficiency at all." No reproach, on the contrary, I was a little worried about him.
"But I won't do it! My foundation was so poor that I didn't even learn math well in my sophomore year of high school. Hou Changfeng frowned and snatched the homework book roughly, "You can go home!" ”
"Since you don't understand, why don't you know how to ask me?" I'm not angry.
Hou Changfeng turned his head to look at me in surprise, and stood up: "I, how do I know if you are willing to teach me?" You, aren't you always cold to me? ”
The more Hou Changfeng said it, the lighter it became, I didn't expect my unconsciousness to be a kind of "coldness" in Hou Changfeng's eyes, yes, I only have Qi Ji in my eyes, and I either annoyed him or ignored him to Hou Changfeng.
"Didn't the head teacher ask me to sit with you to help each other?" A little guilty, I wanted to use a smile to resolve our misunderstanding, "If you don't understand anything in the future, just ask me." ”
"Really?" Hou Changfeng couldn't hide his joy, "Then if I have a lot of questions to ask you, will you feel very troublesome?" ”
"I am mentally prepared to see the efficiency of your homework today, and I will leave me for tutoring after school every day in the future, and bring the math textbooks for the first and second years of high school tomorrow."
"Really!" Hou Changfeng's mouth was almost grinning, "My Chinese, physics, and chemistry are all very poor, only English is slightly better." ”
"I can't do it alone, let your parents hire a tutor for you on the weekend."
"That-" Hou Changfeng looked at me expectantly, "Shall I ask you to be my tutor?" ”
I didn't expect Hou Changfeng to make this suggestion, I was stunned for a moment, thinking that I was making up lessons for Qi Ji on the weekend, if I had already decided not to be with him, wouldn't it be embarrassing for us to make up classes. Qi Ji's family is so rich, no matter how good the tutor is, I was depressed because of Qi Ji's indifference, and suddenly Qi Ji threw an olive branch to me, and took it without hesitation, now that I think about it, his purpose is not to ask me to be a tutor, but since Qi Ji also has the heart to be with me, why should he be sarcastic about me?
Hey, look, Qi Ji is influencing my thinking again, no! I don't want to worry about him anymore!
"I'll just talk about it casually, it's the third year of high school, and everyone is very heavy on academics." Hou Changfeng saw that I didn't answer, so he gave a step.
"Don't talk about this, let's complete today's task first, otherwise you really won't be able to go home."
"Bless, thank you."
I raised my head, and Hou Changfeng smiled at me embarrassedly.
This is the first time Hou Changfeng has "thanked" me, and compared with the previous "apology", this time it seems to have touched me more. In the past, I was really a little afraid of him, because of his domineering and strong, because of his insulting words, in my eyes he was the kind of boy who turned his face and hated when he couldn't get it, so even if he took the initiative to apologize to me and take the initiative to reconcile with me, I didn't take it seriously, because I didn't recognize him as a "friend" in my heart. But recently, I really feel the change in him, he is no longer as aggressive as the little bully, he has become approachable, and even sometimes I feel that it is much easier to get along with him than with Qi Ji.
Perhaps, gradually, I also accepted him as a "friend", a person I thought I would never be friends with him in this life.