146. Save others and yourself

Shandan couldn't understand Mr. Gu's way of dealing with the world, and she couldn't even understand Gu Haiping's narrow-mindedness and selfishness that sometimes appeared. Her mother's teaching since she was a child is: words must be said back and forth, things must be reversed, and more consideration must be for the sake of others, so as to make the road wider and wider. Don't do anything but leave room for yourself and others. And my mother is usually a compassionate person, as long as she has a bite to eat, she will never watch others starve.

When Shandan was a child, there would be small traders and hawkers from other places or monkey tricksters coming to the village, and his mother would often give food to the homeless people, and sometimes vacate a house for them to rest.

Once, in the winter, Tie Dan'er's mother got up early to get matches from the grass yard, and found a person curled up in the haystack shivering. Tie Dan'er's mother was startled, only to find out that it was the southern nephew who came to the village yesterday to sell cloth.

Tie Dan'er's mother hurriedly woke up the man into the house, thinking about the temperature of minus 20 degrees in the north, how did that person survive the night? Tie Dan'er's mother was delicious and drunk, and she was entertained.

Tie Dan'er was a little unhappy, Tie Dan'er's mother said: "Think about it, when you go out, you can't freeze in a leather jacket, he is so thinly dressed, and he has been freezing all night, if his mother knows how distressed he should be?" It's not easy to go out, we keep our homes on the ground, and there is always something to drink, and we can't eat enough for him to eat. ”

Not to mention that the mother gets along with the neighbors in the village. Once, when Shandan was in college, he bought a bottle of "Farmer's Orchard" juice from Hohhot for Xiaoyu, and there happened to be a child playing with Xiaoyu, and his mother actually gave half a bottle of juice to the child to drink. And that child's grandfather once cheated dozens of dollars on iron eggs.

Shandan was a little reluctant and muttered, "Don't you remember that his grandfather cheated my brother for money?"

"He's still a little doll, where can I talk about his grandfather? You don't remember when you were young: you broke someone's grandfather's leg that year, and you were all young. People don't need us to compensate, they don't even need us to feed the cows, they are all fed by individuals. Your brother's dozens of dollars should be used as a remedial report for the kindness of others when we were in trouble. After a while, you will remember the good people have done to you, and you will not remember the bad things of others, so that you can make the road wider and wider. Mother said lovingly as she looked at Shandan.

"Oh." Shandan was still reluctant, only a bottle of juice, which she gave to Xiaoyu.

"You have to be more tolerant when you go out, Mom knows that you have to be strong, but you remember to be more tolerant of others when you encounter everything, so that people can be naturally wide, and sometimes suffering is actually a blessing. The best reward for mom is that you are all safe. Mother's reasoning began again.

For so many years, her mother's truth has been said like this, it has grown up with her, and it has been deeply rooted in her heart, so that she has to empathize with others and consider each other when dealing with others, which has become a habit.

Such habits and ideas make her a popular person everywhere she goes, and she is originally a lively and cheerful person. Even in the hospital, she can have good relationships.

She always thinks that if she is not doing well, her mother will be sad and uneasy, so even if she suffers, she will not let her heart be wronged, she believes that mother and daughter are connected, and she doesn't want her mother to be sad and worried about her.

Although she has always had ideas about what her mother-in-law's family is doing, she has never clashed with them and never expressed herself in front of them. She has always treated her parents as she would treat her parents-in-law, which made Gu Haiping very comforted and grateful.

She never even participates in their family's affairs, she will try her best to do her best where she needs her help, and she has to deal with other family affairs Gu Haiping: such as repairing a house, buying a car, seeing a doctor, and other places that need to contribute money and efforts, Shandan is obedient to Gu Haiping's wishes. There is a degree to everything, if Gu Haiping thinks it is appropriate, Shandan will not object.

Gu Haiping and Shandan have lived together for more than ten years, and they have been influenced by Shandan a lot, and he has seen with his own eyes how Shandan's parents love their children, and how Shandan brothers and sisters get along with each other affectionately, without calculation and calculation at all. Shandan's parents didn't even ask for the bride price and all the gifts they asked for when they hired their daughter (daughter to marry) because they loved each other. He is grateful, and it has also had some influence on his future relationship with people.

So Gu Haiping was furious when he heard his father's "raising children to prevent old age" again. Isn't "raising children and preventing old age" a creditor-debt relationship? Oh, you raise me and I raise you old? Although it is a matter of course, are parents, children, brothers and sisters so careful? Is there no affection and family affection to speak of? If you take it out like this, where will people's emotions rest? Since he was a child, Gu Haiping felt that family affection was so poor, and he had been doing his best to meet his father's never-ending demands for rewards with his conscience.

But after so many years of working alone, isn't it difficult? Is it easy? His father never asked him about his situation, never cared about his life and future, and asked for money whenever he had various needs. Although I try my best to meet my father's requests every time, my dissatisfaction is also growing day by day.

Fortunately, Shandan often comforted Gu Haiping: "If there is a request to explain what they need, and there is no amount of money, just give it to them, after all, it is not easy to give birth to us once, and it is not easy to raise such a big one." Besides, they think you should pay more if you have a chance, I don't care, anyway, my parents don't have to worry about us. ”

How long and how much complaining did it take to make Gu Haiping, who has always been gentle and filial, angry at his father like this?

This is the only time Gu Haiping is angry with his father, he is usually a gentle and elegant person, but Gu Haiping, who is even more obedient to his parents, is angry with his father. But Shandan knew that Gu Haiping must regret it in his heart, he often blamed himself for not being able to take care of his parents, wife and children, Shandan remembered what Gu Haiping said: Self-blame is enough, do you want you to blame me?

Every time I see Gu Haiping's frustration and unhappiness. Shandan will feel very uncomfortable in her heart, and she is willing to bear more for him, because she knows that he has been through so many hardships and hardships for so many years, and all the hardships they have spent together over these years. How depressed and aggrieved should an excellent man be that he often can't give full play to his wisdom and can't do what he wants because of the fetters of his family? Shandan can feel it, and she can empathize with it, how unwilling she is, how much she can understand Gu Haiping's unwillingness.

However, birth cannot be changed, and Shandan wants to make Gu Haiping's life full of happiness because of her, and he can use all his wisdom to complete the ambition in his heart. She has always been behind him to support him.

But after all, pots and pans in life are indispensable for bumps, and when Shandan felt that her efforts were not rewarded, and she did not even have the least respect, her heart began to undergo subtle changes: Gu Haiping was moving forward by leaps and bounds, and she had long been submerged in the trivialities of daily firewood, rice, oil and salt, and she might regress if she did not progress. She began to become a little unconfident and even inferior from a person with a sense of superiority. And at this time, the respect she did not get was magnified, and her tolerance and open-mindedness had been suppressed by her self-esteem at this time, and she took care of it.

But with her self-cultivation, she is not noisy, she has never quarreled since she was a child, she despises the image of those shrews who cry, make trouble and hang themselves, she just wants to use indifference to maintain her poor self-esteem.

She saw Gu Haiping hiding in the room, she restrained herself from feeling sorry for him, and she didn't allow herself to be as uneasy as before, she might have to breathe a sigh of relief for herself.

The brain was very messy, she also hurriedly settled Xiaoyu to sleep, lay down next to Xiaoyu, thinking back to the days that had passed for so many years, but thinking about it, she was still full of his goodness: on a hot day, in order to reduce her walking for a few minutes, he must send her to the bus stop on a ten-minute walk by bicycle to take the bus, and then rush home by himself to take a shower and change clothes to work; Every time the family came back from a trip, he asked her to rest, and he packed his luggage and cleaned up; As long as he goes out alone, a phone call will be made back in time every day; Although he has not been rich over the years, Gu Haiping insisted that Shandan go to the big shopping mall to buy clothes, and every time he bought expensive clothes, his face was full of joy, and he never felt distressed to spend money for her; Every time he left the house, she saw that his eyes were full of reluctance and attachment; Even the sexual affairs are considerate and will take care of her feelings; Every day, when I read a book late, I was afraid of waking her up when I went to bed; Every time she has a menstrual period, he takes care of and regulates it meticulously; He also had to tolerate a few days of her bad temper every month......

He studied tirelessly for so many years; Always tirelessly self-motivated; I haven't slept even on holidays, I always get up early and go to bed late; Isn't he tired? Wouldn't he want to get some sleep and rest? Man's diligence is willpower that inspires an enterprising heart to keep struggling, but doesn't he have man's inertia? In addition to realizing his ideals, isn't he working so hard and for so many years to give his parents, wife and children a rich life? Shandan still returned to her usual mindset and overcame her ego and selfishness.

After thinking about this, Shandan regretted his attitude towards Gu Haiping at night. She gently got up and went back to the bedroom, where she lay gently on the bed, gently caressing his back. Gu Haiping turned around and hugged Shandan tightly.

What he needs is an inclusive, gentle wife, a home that allows him to pursue his career without worry. But he can't force her to give selflessly forever, and he can understand Shandan's inner loss and unwillingness. He knew that she used to be such a strong and excellent person, but now she has to devote herself to the trivial life of firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea, burying her talent and destroying the ideals in her heart. Her little temper or willfulness, he should be tolerant, he should give her the warmest and most beautiful love in the world. He let Shandan suffer with him for so many years, and he couldn't stand her, and he wanted her to be wronged in his heart, and he blamed himself very much. But his parents' lives are still not well-off, and he can understand his father's approach, people need a sense of security more when they are old, so where does this sense of security come from? It's nothing more than a few dollars in hand.

Shandan was crying quietly in Gu Haiping's arms, she was so distressed by him, but she was also so aggrieved. Gu Haiping's chest was wet with Shandan's tears, Gu Haiping gently kissed Shandan's forehead, how could he feel good in his heart? However, what he can do is to redouble his efforts to repay his parents and her, ten, a hundred times......