Kyle sat down on the ground, looking loveless. Pen "Fun" Pavilion .

Lin Yong walked over, squatted down and said to Kaier:

"Now that the situation has become like this, I don't think you should have too many regrets in your heart. I've heard that before you die, you go through everything in your head, have you ever seen yourself as a child? ”

Kyle's empty gaze began to flicker, and her lips moved: "There is ......"

Lin Yong reached out and took a notebook and pen on the bedside table, and seemed to play with it in his hand:

"Isn't it that you didn't have anything you wanted to do since you were a child? Tell us about it, and you'll think it's done. ”

"What do you want to do...... I've wanted to have a dog since I was a child, and once, I took a stray dog home at night, but my father punished me for not going out for three days, and when I came out, the puppy was gone...... When I grew up, I never mentioned the idea of having a dog, firstly, because I was too busy, and secondly, I was afraid that as soon as I opened the door, the puppy would disappear again......"

Lin Yong wrote and crossed out in the small notebook: "Yes, is there anything else?" ”

"Since I was a child, I have been like a princess, and I have become a child star with the stars holding the moon, and I have not suffered any storms. Sometimes I wonder if I really like an ordinary person and start integrating into society from nothing, I don't know if I can survive...... Actually, I longed for the life of ordinary people, but since I was seven years old, that kind of life has been getting farther and farther away from me. ”

"What else? I mean, the individual things that you want to do. ”

"To do it? …… I want to try cocaine once, is it ......"

"Uh......" Lin Yong's head was big: "Count!" And then come. ”

"Since I was a child, I have been exposed to the art of light and shadow by my family...... Actually, I like Martin Scorsese's gangster movies more than my aunt's movies, and sometimes I even think about robbing a bank like in his movies......"

"Huh? Robbing a bank? "Lin Yongxian, this girl can really think of it.

Kyle smiled bitterly: "Anyway, I'm just saying it, I just want to try the feeling of running away with real money." ”

"Again."

"I want to try skydiving~"

"Uh...... You won't like it...... And then come. ”

"By the way, I want to wear 'Girl's Heart' once in my dreams~"

"What's that?"

"A jewel of the Louvre~! Haven't you heard of it~? ”

Lin Yong almost vomited blood: "Ah, don't talk about it, is there a place you want to go?" ”

"I've been to many places all over the world, but I can't go to crowded places and dangerous places, and my biggest luxury is to walk freely on the street with my camera, people won't recognize me, and experience street life. If you have to have a place to go, Provence~"

......

"By the way, I just ate hot pot, I still want to go to China to have a look, this is a mysterious country, I have never been to it."

This is easy to do!

"What about people? Is there anyone you'd love to meet? ”

Kyle's gaze was stunned: "Actually, I've already been to my parents, but they don't know." The one I really want to see may be my aunt. Since I was a child, he almost never said a word of praise to me, but he often said that I couldn't be a good actor, I was unwilling, but I couldn't refute him, because ...... Because even this art guild award is requested by the organizer...... Even so, I still want to see him again, and listening to his words of encouragement, I will be even happier than if I got an Oscar! ”

"So, you don't want to meet, which of you is Mr. Jim?"

"Nope! I don't want to~"

"Nope! I guess that's probably the most important thing you want to do of all of the above. ”

Kyle's tears flowed again: "No, I don't want to, I hope to get as far away from him as possible......"

Lin Yong sketched on the paper, and then handed the notebook to Kaier.

Kyle took the notebook, and there were ten contents written clearly and neatly on it, and Kyle was curious: "What is this~?" ”

Lin Yong smiled slightly:

"Bucket List."

"Bucket list?" Kyle took a closer look and saw that it was neatly written:

1. Get a puppy.

2. Try cocaine once.

3. Rob a bank.

4. Take a skydive.

5. Wear a 'girl's heart'.

6. Visit Provence.

7. Visiting Chinese.

8. Experience street life like a normal person.

9. Praise from Mr. Steven Spielberg.

10. Meet Jim Rogens.

After Kyle read it, tears dripped on the notebook: "Why are you writing it down~, I'm going to die anyway, why don't you let me take them away with my soul forever?" After saying that, I was going to tear off the book with both hands.

Lin Yong hurriedly stopped Kai'er: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry to disappoint you, you can't take it away!" ”

"You...... What do you mean? ”

Lin Yong looked at Kai'er's crying red eyes and felt guilty in his heart, and finally told the truth:

"What you just drank wasn't some death potion! Rest assured, you won't die. ”

Kyle covered her mouth: "That'...... So what am I drinking? ”

Lin Yong smiled slightly: "Two vitamin C, one calcium tablet, and three antibiotics are just right to prevent your wound infection." ”

"Ha~" Kai'er exclaimed, her face was happy and angry: "You actually lied to me!" Do you know how desperate I was just now! You...... How can you do that~! ”

Lin Yong still smiled and said: "I should teach you a lesson, you can't take strangers' medicine indiscriminately in the future, now you answer me, do you still want to end your life?" ”

"You're laughing, you! I...... I'm going to die and I'm not going to die in front of you again, you get out of my house for me!" ”

Lin Yong gave a high-five: "Don't be angry, from now on, I won't lie to you again." I can assure you that all my actions and words have been aimed at saving you from the time I broke into your house until now, and think about how you feel during this time. Now I'll give you thirty minutes to clean up, and I'll wait for you outside the door. ”

"Wait for me? Wait for me. Do? ”

Lin Yong stood up and tapped the notebook gently: "Go and fulfill your last wish." ”

After saying that, he pulled Jack's head and walked out of the door without looking back, closing the door.

……………………

Jack looked at Lin Yong and said in shock, "Why are you doing this?" I couldn't understand it at all. ”

Lin Yong sniffled, followed the smell from a cabinet in the corridor, turned out two Arturo cigars, threw one to Jack, lit it and spit out a smoke ring in the void, and said slowly:

"When we came in, even though she was still alive, she was already dead in a way. Not the death of **, but the blankness of the heart. It's even more deadly than the feeling you feel like you've lost a loved one, you've lost everything, at least yourself, and she's even missing her own personality.

Jim's departure is nothing more than an introduction, and the real reason lies in the void of her life. She is a person who does not have much ego and cannot be independent. You can imagine that since the age of seven, acting has been in contact with acting, which means that a person has been constantly trying the life in the script since he can remember, and all the time in his life is not used to dig himself, but to feel the empty heart of the character in the script, she is simply a person who lives in other people's worlds, and does not have her own sound life. I think Spielberg said that she can't be a good actor, and that's exactly the reason, because she doesn't even have a sound personality, and she hasn't even felt herself well, how can she feel the role?

Later, at her most hollow, Jim collaborated with her on a movie, and after the love affair was born, Jim took over the world that became hers, and then left in a hurry, unbeknownst to Jim himself, and he took all her life.

Later, the suicide movie she made became her last sustenance, but the protagonist committed suicide, and she was overly involved and did not have the support of a self-sound personality, coupled with the emptiness after Jim left, she was naturally taken to this point of no return by the character.

It can be said that this is a dead knot. It is extremely difficult to unravel, and even if she is rescued, she will still kill herself a second, a third, or a fourth time......

So I had to start all over again to help her, and the first step was to let her find the 'feeling' in this hollow!

The most immediate and intense feeling is fear.

We barged in and tied her up, and she must have freaked out, and it wasn't a bad thing, but a good thing, and fear made her feel like she was alive.

After that, he tied her up and left her alone, so that she could calm down and temporarily withdraw her from her state of seeking death.

Then there is shame, everyone has a love for beauty, and the big star is even stronger, and the simple 'bedwetting' re-established her values.

Then there is the instinct of the creature hunger, the strength of her soul is weak, but the need is always objectively strong! I asked her to start from the origin of biology, reconstruct herself**, and let her understand how a simple meal can bring her a sense of happiness.

Later, the trick I used pills was to let her truly experience death, strengthen her fear, put aside everything, and use more than 20 minutes of 'death countdown' to stimulate survival**, and use this power to completely wash her soul clean.

In the end, it is to use the bucket list to rebuild, dig up her own memories and the power in **, and rebuild her own personality. But this is a long-term process, it needs to be experienced, Jim's ambiguity and departure, she has experienced it personally, but the things on the list, she has not experienced it, and she can't find the strength to resist despair in her heart!

If we leave this place now, she will live for at least three months. But if she doesn't do it, she will still remain in Jim's shadow, and over time, she will still want to kill herself. The only way to truly save this person is to help her rebuild herself.

I made an introduction, do you want to continue to help, I ...... Not sure. Actually, to a certain extent, I've got her back, I've done enough. ”

After Jack listened, his eyes radiated with a light of adoration:

"I'm more and more convinced that you are God, so of course we'll continue to help her!"