The sun is blazing, and the cicadas are chirping. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info But the lobby of the Lin Mansion was still quite cool, Lin Chang waved the folding fan twice, stirring the cool breeze, and looked at his son's pensive and daughter's stunned expressions with satisfaction. He thought that this clever arrangement would not only make his children feel the warmth of his loving father, but also get a strong and hot son-in-law.

After he entered the palace, he had a deep talk with his sister, and he also felt that although the Gu family was dominant, it was difficult to manage its huge clan, and it had gradually begun to show a trend of decay, and the internal decay would one day destroy the family. Today, the Jinling Chu clan is in decline.

Although the Shi family is far from being as flowery and brocade as the Gu family, the momentum is pressing, and the family is not prosperous, but because Shi Lie is the one step by step in the army with strength and opportunity to become the governor of Yunzhong at the border of the earthquake, his perseverance and bravery, hard-working, hard and simple spirit is also deeply infected by the next generation, so that Shi Haoheng, Shi Jiaheng or like the sun or like the moon like the descendants, they are like rising stars may one day become a new rising force after the decline of the Gu family, His potential strength is what Lin Chang values most.

If his sister and Shi Jiaheng are really happy, then Lin Risheng really wants to jump up and applaud his father's decision, but he feels that it is inappropriate, the two of them do have deep feelings, but they are brother and sister, I am afraid that half of the children have no private feelings, and he also vaguely felt that Shi Jiaheng may have a lover in his heart, if he forcibly matches the two into a couple, will he not repeat the tragedy of his marriage, so he is determined to speak out.

But Lin Yueyuan always likes to take the lead. She was surprised and asked, "What?" Before Lin Chang could repeat happily, she had already replied categorically, "Even if he is so good, even if he is so good, I can't do it if I don't want to!" You want to force me to get married, dream! ”

Lin Chang's heart was instantly shattered by his daughter's ruthless retort, he was enraged, his face was gloomy, and he said coldly: "I see that you don't want to marry at all, you obviously want to go against me!" You said that Zheng Yu has a bad character, Shi Jiaheng is always a righteous gentleman, and he is a righteous brother you recognize, you are very affectionate, talking and laughing. Why don't you want to get married, you are just angry with me for your mother's affairs, and angry with me about your own marriage, and it is you who will be ruined after all. ”

Lin Yueyuan smiled calmly, stared at him, fearless: "Lin Yueyuan is Lin Yueyuan, I will never be at the mercy of others in this life, I will not accept the life path you imposed on me in the name of love, and I will not be a victim of your politics, even if you are my father." Although I am your Lin Chang's daughter, I am not a tool for you to realize your ambitions and ideals, I am a person, I have my own independent personality, and I don't need to sacrifice my happiness for your selfishness and desire for power. A person who does not have an independent personality and independent thinking cannot be called a complete person at all. ”

"Presumptuous, the order of the parents, the words of the matchmaker, is a matter of course. It is the greatest mercy for me to choose Shi Jiaheng for you, if I really think about the fate of the Lin family, I should marry you directly to Zheng Alcohol. Even if I really want you to marry, it is also your business, you have been supported by the Lin family for almost twenty years, but you have never come out, can't you sacrifice your marriage for the family. Don't say it's you, even as a royal daughter, you have the obligation to protect the country and marry your relatives. Lin Chang said angrily.

Lin Yueyuan was neither humble nor arrogant, and raised his head and said: "If my Lin family really reaches the point of exterminating the clan, don't say that I want Lin Yueyuan to sacrifice my marriage, even if it is to sacrifice my life, I will not hesitate, but now that the country is not destroyed, why do you want me to kill Shengren?" I don't believe that the Lin family has to climb the dragon and attach the phoenix to the dragon and degrade themselves in order to revitalize the new family? Is it true that there will never be a day when you are down-to-earth and honest? You relied on the power of the Gu family to keep your brother in Chang'an, but you haven't gone through the tempering at the bottom, even if you enter the Hanlin Academy, your brother may not be able to take on heavy responsibilities in the future. What's more, the rise and fall of the family is like the rise and fall of historical dynasties, if the Lin family is a real talent, it should abdicate and make way for the virtuous, so that those children of the poor family who have real talent and real learning also have the opportunity to enter the house. Once the Lin family declines, there are those clansmen who are good at striving for the first place to strive for self-improvement and struggle, and the Lin family will have a prosperous day. Always rely on a few of us, and climb the high branches in the palace to protect them for a few years. ”

As soon as she thought of this, she said with some sadness: "You see that now, the children and grandchildren of the uncle clan are all idle, sitting and eating empty mountains, and only my brother is the most advanced. But how can my brother save this useless person, the family is not a one-person family, but a common family of the clan, and the clansmen are willing to fall, and the pressure of the whole clan is piled on me and my brother, I want to ask rhetorically, so why?! ”

My sister's words pointed out the suffocating burden that had been piling up in Lin Risheng's heart. As the son of the Lin family, responsibility and obligation are the mountains that cannot be avoided in front of him, whenever he wants to pursue the life he wants willfully, self-blame will occupy his heart, selfishness, cowardice, these moral tortures that he himself imposes on himself, make him overwhelmed.

But she said another truth, the family, the clan and even the country belong to all the members of the family, so everyone is responsible, everyone should be responsible, only everyone can prosper when everyone works together, how can a scattered family be able to turn the tide with the power of only one person? He wishfully took all the responsibilities beyond his power to himself, and when he could not bear it, he fell into grief and could not extricate himself, and almost lost his heart and lost his faith and destroyed himself. He suddenly felt a sudden lightness in his body, and there was hope again when he looked ahead.

Lin Chang was stunned, in fact, revitalizing the family has never been his ambition, it is just an excuse for him to chase fame and fortune and be greedy for vanity. The supreme glory of a position of power, fear and reverence, is the spiritual source that brings him the greatest satisfaction. Naturally, he couldn't understand his daughter's much broader mind and foresight than him. He scoffed at his daughter's views and conceited to judge them as a woman's opinion and a scholar's anger.

He still wanted to say more, but Lin Yueyuan took out a short knife from his waist, offered it with both hands, knelt down respectfully and said, "Dad, you are my biological father, I am rude in every way, but I can't abolish my ancestors." If you insist on forcing me, I will only die. She raised her knife high, and she was never more devout to Lin Chang.

The daughter's resolute attitude made Lin Chang very puzzled. He kindly chose a husband for his daughter, why is his daughter so disgusted?

Lin Risheng snatched the knife from her hand and said with tears in his eyes: "Father, my son has never disobeyed you since he was a child. But this time, the son also has to do an unfilial thing. ”

He put the knife around his neck, kowtowed, and said, "Please let your son go, the son has already decided to resign from the government, and he will not set foot in officialdom again." The son is unsuccessful, and naturally he is not worthy of returning to the Lin family, and in the future, the son can only wander, and he cannot serve his father in front of the bed to be filial, which is another crime of unfilial piety for the son. The son wishes to carry forward the Lin family's medical skills in the second half of his life, cure diseases and save people, and bless his father with peace and health, and a long life. ”

He fell to his knees and burst into tears, but this time he finally made up his mind to put what he wanted into action.

Lin Yueyuan was also shocked, she never expected Lin Risheng's idea of resigning this time would be so firm.

Lin Chang was churned by the blood of a pair of indisputable children in front of him, he was oppressed by his mother in the first half of his life, and his wife was strong, but in the second half of his life, he was disobeyed by his children, and he still couldn't do what he wanted.

His mind was cold, and he suddenly felt that life was very boring. He was full of joy and planned for them for life, but not only did they not be grateful, but forced each other to die one by one, and he really wanted to roar: "Whatever you want, I will never care about it in the future." But I am not reconciled, I always have to try again before I die.

He stood up tremblingly against the corner of the table, and the wrinkles on his face were squeezed more and denser with a sad expression, making him look much older. He sighed, looked into the distance, his eyes were empty and distant, and suddenly sighed: "You can think clearly, once you step out of this door, you will have no one to rely on, no family, no parents, only yourself." You will bid farewell to this life of fine clothes and food, farewell to the infinitely bright future, and will never be able to stand on the peak of life to enjoy the pride of guiding the country, and you will only be greeted by poverty, dirtiness, mediocrity and grievances. "Renounced the oppression and tyranny of the high, he rarely admonished his impulse with the loving tone of a father for his son.

Lin Risheng heard his father's voice for the first time full of sadness and loneliness, in the past he was always commanding and arbitrary, standing there like a majestic god, so that he couldn't help but tremble when he was close, but now he was only helpless and depressed. He looked at the gray hair between his father's sideburns, he was really old! Then a strong sense of guilt welled up in his heart, and he burst into tears again.

But he still stubbornly said in a dumb voice: "Father, I am not afraid of what you said, you don't know, the loneliness and fear that no one understands and no one recognizes is the real terrible." ”

Lin Chang's heart was shocked, how could he not understand what his son meant? Over the years, resentment and resentment have always lingered in his heart, his ideals, his ambitions have been shattered by his mother who does not understand him, and his love and his marriage have been worn out by his stubborn wife. He was trapped in a secluded place that no one could explore, living alone for so many years, like a sunflower that will never see the sun, silently withering and withering.

But he still feels that all this is insignificant compared to the loss of ideals: "True bravery is not just a decisive choice, but whether you have the courage to bear the unbearable consequences once you choose to be wrong." Son, you have a good family background, first-class appearance, Jinshi background, and work in Hanlin. So you don't feel the value of all this, and the people trapped in the walls always have a special desire for freedom, but unfortunately the freedom you see outside the walls is always accompanied by poverty. Young people always want to be presumptuous, they always want to splurge. But when you are thirty, when you are thirty, and the people who are with you even today are still subservient to others, or they have already made great achievements, or they have become rich, only you are still guarding a tattered medical box, wearing coarse cloth and straw shoes, shuttling through the poor mountains and bad waters, enduring discrimination and white eyes, and suffering all your life in the complaints of patients and the smell of Chinese medicine, then you will regret it! ”

Lin Risheng kowtowed heavily and said awe-inspiringly: "Father, my son's decision was not impulsive, but after much consideration, he boldly violated your expectations. I know that my choice must be an uneven road full of thorns and bumps, although my son is not good, but I also know that people have to pay the price for what they have done, so they dare to take responsibility. Since I have abandoned the official position to practice medicine, whether I succeed or fail is the fruit of today's planting, and my son has no complaints. Since it is my own choice, I am willing to bear both good and bad, and I just want to live with peace of mind in the future, and I will no longer be satisfied with the compromise and disappointing others. ”

Lin Chang was upset by what he said, Huo Di turned around, looked at him and said, "So, you have made up your mind, there is no possibility of turning around?" ”

Lin Risheng nodded and said, "Exactly." ”

"What if I want you to be hired?" Lin Changfa asked fiercely.

Lin Risheng glanced at his sister and said with a slight smile: "Then I can only be with my sister, only death." Even if the body perishes, at least the soul is free. ”

"Pop" A loud slap sounded in the ears of the three people, and Lin Chang was extremely sad, and he could only use violence to show his disappointment.

Lin Risheng covered half of his cheeks, looking like he was waiting to die.

Lin Yueyuan picked up the short knife that fell to the ground and desperately stuffed it into his hand, his eyes were full of anger, and he shouted: "Come on, come on, you ruthless person, you didn't even see your mother when she died, and now you don't hesitate to force your children to death, it's great that you killed us all, and we will reunite with our mother in the underworld." You go to your Lin family alone. With that, she laughed.

"Someone!" Lin Chang's roaring voice echoed in the patio, and the subordinates in the mansion were spoiled by the kind Gu Mengying and Renrou Lin Risheng, and they looked extremely casual. Lin Chang taught them the most severe lesson, which they would almost never forget, but what made them most dumbfounded was that the first order given by the master's master was to put the master and the master's sister under house arrest in the Lin Mansion, and they carried out the order with trembling with the feeling of certain death. In contrast, Lin Risheng and his sister are quite calm, after all, this is not the first time they have been placed under house arrest by their father.

Lin Chang strictly blocked the news of house arrest, and only claimed that his son was grief-stricken due to the loss of his wife, and as for deep thought and fatigue, he fell ill in bed. He and his daughter are taking good care of him, in other words, to tell those who are secretly rejoicing in Lin Risheng's resignation that he has just made a foolish decision because of excessive grief and delirium, and cannot be taken seriously.

Lin Chang grinds Lin Risheng every day, and explains and guides him with hard work. But he would rather be stubborn than do anything, and he will not regret what he has decided. There were even a few times when his words poked him in the sore spot, and he had to end the conversation with a rage.

Finally, Lin Risheng chose the most extreme way of resistance, and he began a hunger strike.

An angry Lin Chang once angrily strangled his head and forcibly poured food into his mouth, but he spit out all the food in a violent cough. Lin Chang looked at his wilting appearance, and sometimes he really wanted to choke his neck and break him. But when his hands were really tied between his necks, he was reluctant.

He also admitted that he was a failure, and his son's indecision was completely inherited from him, how many times did he secretly decide that he must be a ruthless and ruthless person, and only compromise his means in the future. But when his mother kept him with tears in her eyes, he still gave up his ideals, and how many times did he dream back at midnight, remembering Chen Ping, he would still feel bursts of cone-like pain. It turns out that it is so difficult to break off love, and he has not yet had the talent to be a completely bad person.

He was defeated in a contest with his children. The tenacity and persistence of his children made him both hated and envied. When he returned to Shunan, he recalled his failed and bad life, and gained a little comfort in despair: in fact, what he did not do, his children have realized for her, and the biggest failure in his life is not the loss of ideals, but the submission to the authority of his parents. He regarded even the thought of rebellion as a sin, and his resentment against himself and his powerless compromise with the outside world drained his spirit. He became a disgruntled, suspicious and domineering monster, and his children just fulfilled their shortcomings in the process of rebelling against him, and he once smiled in the dark, which was indifferent and seen through after bitterness.

In the confrontation with his children, Lin Chang's dream was completely shattered, and he left with the final verdict on his life. After he left, Concubine Lin Shufei couldn't wait to take Lin Yueyuan back to the palace, in the days when she was away, Li Tan could not sleep well, and she always had to recite her name several times a day, Li Min was also listless, just counting the time of her return over and over again, even Li Can, who was used to being alone, often passed in front of Shifeng Pavilion under the excuse of visiting her back. Obviously, without her, life in the palace is back to the same backwater as before.