Catch the week 1999.10.25 sunny

Baby, before you know it, you'll be a year old. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

To celebrate your first holiday, your parents decided to make an exception for you to have some friends to party with (we don't usually like to celebrate birthdays). Dozens of uncles, aunts and relatives came, probably so many people suddenly appeared and scared you, and you actually cried. You have been very well-behaved since you were a child, rarely crying, many people who see you for the first time can hold you, and many people who don't like children can also be cute by you. I don't know if your crying today is a sign that something terrible is about to happen? I hope I'm suspicious.

When I caught Zhou, I put five things in front of you: apples, 100 yuan bills, books (pens), daggers, and toys, which symbolize peace and health, wealth, knowledge, courage, and playfulness. In front of everyone's gaze, you first grab the apple in your hand, then the toy, the money, the book, and we laugh. But deep down, how I wish it was just a game. I hope you will learn more about culture and base yourself in this world with authentic skills.

Hopefully, it's not just a mom's dream.

Mother, June 1999-August 1999

When you mumbled the word "Mom" out of your mouth for the first time, I was ecstatic like all mothers - that is the most primitive embodiment of life, the price and reward of hard work.

Kissing your pink little face, I burst into tears and got carried away.

You pronounce words earlier than your peers, and you can speak some simple language at 8 months, and you can shout words such as "Daddy" and "Mommy" at 10 months. Ever since you said your first "mom", it was the greatest pleasure to come home from work every day and listen to you say the new milk you learned from your grandmother.

Many people say: Whoever the child calls first will suffer. You call your mother first, then let your mother suffer the pain.

I do.

Divorce 2000 Spring Festival - March 31

During the Spring Festival, everyone is immersed in joy and happiness, but my home is deserted, and there seems to be something wrong. Your father said that he was very busy and never came home, and he didn't even come to congratulate his aunt on her marriage. Slowly, I learned from a classmate in Chongqing that he was having an extramarital affair. At first, I couldn't believe it was true, after all, we have been in a relationship for more than ten years from classmates to husband and wife, and this May 8 is our 10th wedding anniversary.

But your dad admitted. The woman's surname is Zhang, she is a family with children, and her son is 5.6 years old, and she met your father when he was in business. I suddenly remembered a memorial time: when I was 7 months pregnant, I was playing with his friend one day. He followed her halfway through. When it was over, your father asked my aunt to take me home, but he sent the woman back, saying that he was afraid that she would be alone and afraid. At that time, your aunt said to me, "Sister, don't you think it's strange that he doesn't worry about you when you have a big belly, but he went to send that woman?" "I trusted him too much, and I was too confident to take it seriously. Looking back now, many friends actually knew about it in the middle, and it also reminded me indirectly, but my own attention was all on my son and ignored this problem. Maybe I vaguely felt it, but I just didn't want to face it. It turns out that I am really a stupid woman, no different from the last wife who knew that her husband was cheating. Thinking back to the time they met, that was when I was pregnant with you!

At the strong request of his parents, he went home for a year and stayed for one night. What a humiliating night it was! I still don't want to think about it. We were relatively silent, and I cried quietly, and he lowered his head and didn't look at me. The air in the room seemed to freeze, and it took centuries to stay up until dawn. The next day he went back to the woman and never came back, and even when you were sick with a fever, he didn't come home to see you.

I cried, and I really cried, as I had always been strong and confident. I cried for happiness and pain being so close to each other, and silently wept for every night after that happiness was too short and pain was so far away. How I want to jump from the sixth floor and end my life, but what do you do? Who will care about you when I die? I heard that the woman surnamed Zhang cried and made trouble to die in order to be with your father, and she didn't even want her son, and beat her hard. If she becomes your stepmother, she won't beat you to death? Son, my life is not important, but I really can't bear you!

After thinking about it, I decided to choose divorce. Mom would rather be a broken jade than a complete tile. Your aunt wants us to calm down for a year, and at first I wanted to give your father a chance. But when I heard that he left Chongqing to go to Kunming to develop, and that the woman also chased him to Kunming, especially when others described the scene of them frolicking together for me, I really made up my mind. I thought: no woman can put up with her husband for a long time with another woman and leave it alone. Forgive me, son. I can't choose to tolerate it, and I can't sacrifice myself to give you a healthy family.

We decided to go to the Rongchang Civil Affairs Bureau on March 31 to go through the divorce procedures.

On March 31, we went to the Civil Affairs Bureau. I would have expected your dad to apologize because I didn't want a divorce in my heart. But he said: "You won't forgive me if you say I'm sorry, so let's break up." Then he pushed me in, who was rubbing against me in front of the Civil Affairs Bureau. There was no way, we had to leave. I really hate him, does he want to leave us so quickly?

Son, forgive mom for not keeping your father.

Your father is gone, and he doesn't want anything. It's okay, it's crisp, and there's no need to worry about it. Son, in the future, only you and your mother will depend on each other, will you blame your mother for not having the ability to keep your father?

I don't blame him. Everyone has his own principles of life, as long as he is at ease.

Son, no matter what happens in the future, I will always protect you and always be by your side. Father is still your father, and I think he will still love you as much as he did before, but his fate with his mother is over.

Son, from now on, mom will teach you how to face sudden disasters and how to face life with a strong smile. Nine times out of ten, life is not satisfactory, when you are troubled, go on a trip, write something, and sing. Whether I am poor or rich, I will treat you as life and blood, and take care of your healthy growth.

From now on, I will be a strong mother!

In the future, you will also grow into a brave man!