037. No more fear
I haven't spoken to Lin Hao for two days. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ļ½ļ½ļ½Uļ½Eć ļ½ļ½ļ½ļ½
I hid in my room after school every day, and I just sat in my place honestly every night for self-study, I didn't know how I should face Lin Hao, when I realized that I liked him, as long as I looked at him face to face, my heart couldn't help but beat faster, and it was difficult to say what I wanted to say.
The monthly exam has ended, and the results came out quickly, with a full score of 600 points, and I only scored less than 300 points, although I am still in the middle of the class, but with my previous results, this exam should have at least about 400 points.
If he hadn't tried his best to throw Lin Hao's figure out of his head during the exam, I'm afraid that even two hundred points would be an extravagant hope, right?
After the monthly exam, the school has two major events, one is the campus sports meeting, and the other is the audition of the top ten singers on campus.
These two are events that take place every year, except that I am a spectator every year.
No matter what the head teacher says, I would rather die than participate in such a thing as the sports meeting, and the top ten singers are even more difficult, I don't have the courage to sing on stage at all, not to mention, I can run to the edge of the sky when I sing out of tune.
Registration for the sports meeting has begun, and the mandatory requirement of the head teacher is that each person should register at least two, and I chose to write a cheering draft, so I don't need to register.
Lin Hao seems to have reported 100 meters and 400 meters, as well as a 400-meter relay race.
The sports meeting is next week, but there is no atmosphere of the sports meeting in our class, the players in other classes have begun to actively practice after school, our class is still leisurely playing with mobile phones, and even physical education classes are still a group of people lying on the lawn after running and sleeping on their backs and playing with mobile phones, in short, it is a half-dead appearance.
The head teacher has no opinion, in her words, our spring examination class participated in the sports meeting just to relax the pressure of reading, but I really don't know how much pressure it can be to play with my mobile phone every day after class, and find someone to play games in Internet cafes after school.
After all, they are all lazy and used to playing for two years in the first and second years of high school, and they are still studying seriously like a good student in front of the head teacher.
It was about seven o'clock in the evening, and I had already eaten and sat on the ground, my body attached to the small table, plagiarizing the cheering draft needed for next week's sports meeting on the Internet, but it was always because of the figure that appeared in my head from time to time that the cheering manuscript on the manuscript paper was full of typos.
It's really killing people......
I can't concentrate on anything, I wander from time to time, I try my best to control but I can't do anything about it, I write a few words and the whole person will fall into a fugue state, and then the pen will unconsciously slide on the paper, until the whole person stays motionless before suddenly coming back to his senses.
It has completely affected my life, and if it continues like this, I'm afraid I won't even be able to pass the junior college exam, right?
Obviously, he has tried his best to concentrate on doing certain things, but it is still like this, do you really want to ask Lin Hao clearly as the head teacher said?
He pursed his lips, bent his arms against his cheeks, and tilted his head slightly.
What to ask? Ask him if he likes me? But this kind of questioning is completely confessional, right? If he says he doesn't like it, then we may not even be friends, but if he likes it...... But would he really like a woman who was once a man?
Not...... Maybe it will be fine in a few days, right?
But in the past few days, I have dreamed of him almost every day, even if I have tried my best to ignore Lin Hao, and I eat by myself every day, but when I was at school, I still couldn't help but look at him twice.
Frowning, his fingers tapped lightly on the tabletop.
Anyway, he won't die if he asks, and judging by his usual performance, even if he refuses, he won't be friends with me, right?
I made up my mind and got up from the floor and walked towards the bedroom door with a determined face, but as soon as I put my hand on the doorknob, I heard a knock on the door.
It's Lin Hao, what is he looking for me?
After a little hesitation, he opened the door, and the first thing he saw was Lin Hao's tall figure.
I had just made up my mind, and now I began to waver, obviously just looking at him, but I blushed and couldn't speak, my mouth seemed to be sealed with glue, and I couldn't say anything.
After a few hard breaths, I opened my mouth, but I only let out a few sighs, as if I couldn't even speak.
"I have something to tell you."
When I was anxious to meet face to face but didn't say a word, Lin Hao spoke first.
"What's the matter?"
With Lin Hao's drive, I found that most of the tension just now was relieved at once.
But he didn't speak anymore, just stared straight at me, and saw that my face became hot, and I could only look down at my toes.
What did he want to say? I feel that the atmosphere is so strange, not depressing or embarrassing, but a bit like in the movie, ambiguous? Could it be that he found out that I like him and came to make a break? Or does he like me and want to confess to me?
The confusion was like scattered balls of yarn, and his hands unconsciously began to rub the corners of his clothes, and his shoulders shrank inward.
"I have something to tell you, too."
I felt that I couldn't be passive any longer, and the thought just came to my mind when my mouth came out uncontrollably.
But as soon as I finished speaking, I realized that what I wanted to say was no different from confession, and I really didn't think I would say it in such a passive situation, so I was silent.
"You speak first."
Lin Hao's voice was a little hoarse, sounding like he hadn't slept for a few days.
"Hmm." My chin was almost on my collarbone, my body was so tense that I could barely move, I had some difficulty breathing, and my hand that had been rubbing the corners of my clothes just now was gripping my clothes tightly, motionless.
"That ......" I found that my vocal cords seemed to be out of effect, and I couldn't say a word for the rest.
Gritted his teeth, closed his eyes, stepped heavily on the floor, raised his head and closed his eyes, and asked into the darkness in his sight: "Do you like me!" ā
Half a ring, I didn't hear a reply, thinking that Lin Hao had been frightened by my words from time to time, so I opened my eyes cautiously, but I still saw Lin Hao standing with blank eyes.
Must have been scared by me!
"I'm just asking! That one...... That ...... "My mouth stammered again, and the crimson even spread to my ears, and I was so anxious that I almost jumped to my feet, grabbed the door frame and wanted to shut Lin Hao out of the door before he could react, for fear that he would be angry and say something like breaking up with me after he came back to his senses.
But as soon as his hand was placed on the door, Lin Hao's eyes lit up, and he grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him.
It's not going to be angry enough to kick me out, is it?
Resigned to his fate, he followed his strength, but finally found himself lying in his arms.
"I like you."
The whispered statement in my ear made my mind go blank for a moment.
"I've liked you for a long time." It's still just a declarative sentence, as if there is no emotion, but my tear ducts almost burst, tears flow down my cheeks, and finally fall from my chin to Lin Hao's placket, "Be my girlfriend." ā
My incapable brain made me not know how to reject him, and I was reluctant to reject him.
Nodding my head gently, I was comfortably lying in his arms, being gently embraced, a strong sense of security flooded into my chest, and I felt as if I was no longer afraid of anything.
I am no longer afraid of my identity as a woman, and I am no longer afraid that my family may resist me......
As long as he's ......
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Thank you for the tips these days.,The first few days were regularly updated.,There's no manuscript saved today, so I'll come back when I've had enough.ć
Two shifts will continue tomorrow! If I can do it......