I found that habit is a really scary thing, a month ago I couldn't get used to being alone in a rental house, but now I'm used to being alone. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

Going to and from school alone, eating alone, sitting alone at a table in the hall doing homework, solving troubles alone, and occasionally walking out into the street alone late at night to see the sparse pedestrians around and buy a snack in the store that is about to close......

The loneliness has become less and less, and I have become more and more fond of the feeling of being alone, although there is always a faint sadness in my heart, but I have long been used to it.

I still laugh every day, but I always feel that I can't laugh sincerely, and the classmates around me are slowly alienating me.

I also take classes seriously every day, hoping that I can get into a good school by then, so that the gap with Lin Hao will be smaller, sometimes I think, if Lin Hao mistakes in the college entrance examination and I get into a school, it would be good, but it's just thinking, after all, compared to my own feelings, or his future is more important.

My breasts seem to have been swollen lately, and it seems to be starting to grow again, and it should be that the medicine under the lemon has begun to work again, and when I heard it say, my chest will be at least b.

The thin short sleeves couldn't hide the bulge of my chest, but luckily the weather was getting colder, and I put on a jacket, otherwise I would have been in trouble.

I guess I don't have to do anything now, as long as I come out in my pajamas after taking a shower, my family will question me, and in that case, I can only explain it head-on......

It's been a month, and Lin Hao has never called me, not even a text message, so he misses him almost none, and only occasionally thinks of him in his mind before going to bed.

I've only been in love once, and it's still the kind of playfulness in junior high school, and I even wonder if Lin Hao has been away for too long, and my feelings for him have become weaker and weaker.

Maybe Lin Hao doesn't like me at all, or maybe he's really just too busy, so he doesn't have time to call me, or even so busy that he doesn't have time to send a text message...... Even on my birthday, he couldn't give a wish.

It's really self-deception.

This year's birthday is probably the most disappointing for me, I sent my birthday message in the space at midnight, and after a long day, I didn't receive any blessings, whether it was my mother or those classmates I used to think of as friends......

So I pretended to be casual and went to class as before, and then I celebrated my birthday in a daze......

In the class meeting, the head teacher on the stage talked about almost fixed things, and finally informed us that we would have a physical examination in half a month, and gave us a specific time.

I had heard about the college entrance examination for a long time, and I was panicked at that time, because my female body would definitely be noticed by the doctor, and I even heard that I had to take off my shirt for the college entrance examination physical examination, and it was in full view......

Now that the head teacher has set a specific time, my heart is even more confused, and I don't know how to deal with it......

If my classmates know that I'm a woman, will they think I'm a shemale? Do you think I'm a pervert? It's not even so crowded that I can't stay in this class.

The homeroom teacher will think I'm a pervert, right?

The already expressionless face is now a little darker.

"What are you thinking?"

The squad leader next to me noticed that my expression was wrong, so he asked.

"Nothing."

I used to treat him as a very good friend, and I would perfunctory say that I didn't want to have a physical examination or something, but after my birthday, my favorability towards him dropped to a level, and I knew that when Ah Hong was on his birthday, he would always order a happy birthday song for Ah Hong on the school radio, but on my birthday, I didn't even have a "happy birthday".

Lazily lying on the table, I didn't listen to the words of the head teacher, I recited English words with my head sideways, I have scored 400 points in this month's monthly exam, the tenth in the class, if it weren't for the 30 points of English, I'm afraid I would have 430 points anyway, and it was 20 points away from last year's undergraduate line.

After the class meeting, it was the end of school, and he was still alone and left the class at the end, and then he saw the gay pervert in the next class outside the class.

I can't even remember this guy's name, and I don't want to ask, but he just waited for me outside the class every day after he found out that Lin Hao was missing, even if I didn't give him a good face. From time to time, he wanted to invite me to dinner and asked me to go shopping, although even though I simply refused every time, he still persevered every day.

I hated him a lot, and I would tell him every day that I was a man. Yet he still followed me in his own way. There have been many times when I almost turned my face and told him to fuck off, but he didn't do anything too much, but I couldn't speak.

He seemed to be an introvert, rarely chatting with me, only occasionally saying a few words, and mostly silently following me.

The appearance is very mediocre, the kind that can't be found on the street, and the height is not very high, about 175, at least I don't need to look up when I see it, if it weren't for a sunny broken hair that added a little bit to him, I'm afraid I won't find him in the crowd in my life.

"What's your name?"

Walking in front of him, my face was slightly red, I had never called his name for more than a month, because I didn't remember it for a long time, but I felt embarrassed to ask directly...... Just like it is now.

"Ding Hongjie, I knew you had forgotten my name."

"Huh." I walked awkwardly and quickly forward, hoping to get rid of him as soon as possible.

"Shall you go for something to eat in the evening?" He had long legs and big steps, and he caught up with me in two clicks, shoulder to shoulder with me, "Or you can go shopping, do you like to watch movies?" We can also go to the movies. ”

"I don't want to go, I'm a man, I don't date men."

I've been pestered by him for so long, and I always answer this way.

"Just hanging out together......"

"I'm not stupid." I gave him a blank look, and although I was rather sluggish at times, I'm sure this guy is definitely a patient and persistent gay pervert! And I, on the other hand, was his target......

Of course, it's not that I'm discriminatory, I just don't want to be entangled, not to mention that I'm a woman.

Ding Hongjie suddenly grabbed my hand, and I looked at him in horror, and I even forgot about the struggle.

"It's been a month, promise me once." He looked me straight in the eye, and the burning gaze made me look away, "Otherwise, I won't let go." ”

Rogue! Scum! Dead perverted!

shook his hand vigorously, but he didn't break away, feeling the sight of the slow distance around him, his face suddenly turned red, and he scolded him from the bottom of his heart,

I thought he was just a little annoying to follow me all the time, but he actually used such an unsightly method!

nodded helplessly, and then saw the irrepressible smile on Ding Hongjie's face, and his footsteps began to float when he walked.

It would be nice if Lin Hao was like him, obviously very handsome, but he just didn't like to laugh.

I tilted my head to look at him, but I thought of Lin Hao in my heart.

It's been a month, and I miss him so much......

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Military training will begin next Monday, which will last for ten days, and it is expected that there will be a shift in two or three days, and I have already told the editor.