When I woke up, it was already a little dark outside the window. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

My body was soft and had no strength, and I looked weakly left and right, trying to find Lin Hao's figure, but only Lemon was sleeping on my arm.

I took out my phone and looked at the time, it was only four o'clock in the afternoon.

I guess it's not school yet, right?

Today is Friday, and I didn't go to the sports day in the afternoon because I fainted, so I don't know if I will be recorded as absent by the class teacher.

And the afternoon refueling draft was not written......

Holding the sheets in his hands, he struggled to get up and leaned his body against the head of the bed.

I saw things a little blurry, and I felt that my body was a little too bad, and no matter what I used to do, at least I wouldn't faint suddenly.

With his feet on the ground, he cautiously tried to get up, but the moment he stood up, he fell to the ground.

Looking blankly at the floor, I was a little sluggish.

Why, is the body so weak? I really want to be stronger, so that Lin Hao won't want me because he dislikes me and is weak.

"Rachel, are you feeling better?"

Lin Hao suddenly opened the bedroom door and walked in, and saw me sitting on the ground walking over, holding my hands under my arms, and lifting me back to the bed.

"Don't be strong if you're weak, stay in bed."

Lin Hao's tone was not as gentle as before, but more like the coldness during the quarrel in the past few days.

"Hmm."

I nodded blankly and looked up at him, thinking that I should be full of warmth the moment I saw him, but my body was still as cold as ever.

Why is Lin Haoming saying that he cares about me, but I feel that he is becoming more and more estranged from me. It's just like ...... Even the relationship between the original sworn friends is not as good, and it seems to be a passerby.

"What's wrong?"

He sat on my bed, beside me, his arm had touched my body, his body temperature was transmitted to me, but I still felt cold.

It always felt like he wasn't what he used to be...... He seems to have changed a lot, and he doesn't seem to like me anymore......

Even though he was sitting next to me, even though his arm was on top of me, I still felt that he was getting farther and farther away from me.

I rubbed myself closer to him, half of my body into his arms, and rested my head on his shoulder, but the feeling in my heart was still strong, and he seemed to disappear in the blink of an eye.

"I'll cook first and make it up for you."

Lin Hao stood up suddenly, and I fell on the bed unprepared.

He didn't look back, he just turned away, and he didn't wait for my response when I was on the bed because of him.

Perhaps, Lin Hao is really leaving me......

I didn't dare to let Lin Hao out of my sight, I was afraid that he would disappear without a trace if he was not even aware of it.

Forcing my body to get up, I followed slowly, followed Lin Hao to the kitchen, moved a chair and quietly watched Lin Hao busy in the kitchen.

The fear in my heart faded a little, and watching his busy shadow made me feel a sense of security.

If he really wants to leave, then I'll be there for him all this time.

Actually, he did have to leave sooner or later, right? It's just that I was immersed in happiness and deliberately forgot about it.

When my senior year of high school is over, when I finish my spring exams, he will leave me.

I finally realized this, and now I feel even more nihilistic after suffering from gains and losses.

Only by staying by his side will I feel that Lin Hao is a real existence, and the closer I get, the more reassuring I will be.

Even if he really wants to leave me, at least during this time, I want to live happily with him and cherish this time that is only a few months. If he still likes me after college, that's fine.

But I think that's impossible, how could he let a flock of peacocks go, and he had to let me be an ugly duckling?

And it's an ugly duckling who has been transgendered......

My eyes have been looking at Lin Hao, looking at his back, I don't dare to move for a moment, even if my mood is so depressed that I want to curl up.

Staying there quietly, I seemed to have become a shadow, watching Lin Hao walk around busily, watching him hold the meal that had been prepared and putting it on the table, watching him walk past me as if he ignored me.

"It's okay, let's eat, and I'll go for supper at eight or nine o'clock in the evening."

Lin Hao set the chopsticks in place, sat down, and said without looking back.

"Hmm."

His body was much stronger, and he no longer swayed when he walked, so he carried a chair to the table and watched him eat blankly, but he had no intention of moving chopsticks.

Even though I was hungry, I preferred to see Lin Hao more, I was afraid that as soon as I took my eyes off, Lin Hao would disappear like magic.

"Eat."

"Got it."

I saw him look at me, smiled sweetly, when he lowered his head, the smile on his face disappeared instantly, and then continued to stare at him, did not look at the table, groped with his hand to pick up the dishes and chopsticks, and was stunned to stuff the rice into his mouth with one chopstick after another.

"What's wrong with you?"

Maybe he couldn't stand my gaze, Lin Hao put down the dishes and chopsticks and asked helplessly.

"Nothing." Shaking his head, he still had a smile on his face.

"Eat vegetables."

"Hmm."

I stretched out my chopsticks and casually put something in my mouth, and then I was spit out spicy, it was ginger.

"Are you sick?" Lin Hao said in an unwavering tone, got up close to me, and put the back of his hand on my forehead, "It's cold, no fever." ”

An intimate act that should have made my heart blush, but my body still felt cold.

I can guarantee that I still like him and love him, but in my heart I know that he has become estranged from me, and that he used to talk to me with some emotion, so that I could figure out a little bit about his psychology, but now, the cold tone can no longer let me know what he is thinking.

Maybe he just took pity on me by accepting me.

The idea that I had been resolutely reluctant from the beginning still inevitably appeared in my mind.

He doesn't like me anymore.

Maybe he was only willing to do superficial work for me, or maybe he just wanted to play a play so that I could leave him happily in the next few months.

I'm tired.

If that's the case, whether it's him or me, I'll feel so tired.

I don't go to see him anymore, I just want to have dinner quickly, I want to go back to the room to calm down, I think maybe I have a problem with my perception because of the cold war with Lin Hao in the past two days.

Lin Hao has never given me this feeling since I was a child, but now that I have become a couple, I really feel that my identity is intimate, but the relationship is becoming more and more estranged, this must be impossible, right?

I tried my best to hypnotize myself, but the more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable it became.

Unconsciously, after the meal was finished, he put down the dishes and chopsticks and got up to leave, Lin Hao behind him was still eating, and he didn't even want to pay attention to me.

It's a failure to be a woman, why, I have to become a woman......

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