I had a dream, a long dream, I felt like I had woken up, but He Ying's voice was still ringing in my ears, "Nian'er, you're awake." His voice was pleasant, but it was also tiring to listen to. What's wrong with me, how can the feeling in the dream be so real, why is it pitch black in front of my eyes in the dream, "Nian'er... What happened to you? Shadow's voice was still there, and I could even feel his hands on my hands.

"Ei, is that you?" I grabbed the hands that were holding me, and it felt too real.

"Nian'er, what's wrong with you? Can't you see me? Shadow asked anxiously.

yes, why can't I see, it's so dark in front of me, there's no light.

"Nian'er, don't worry, you lie down for a while, I'll go ask for a doctor."

Then the surroundings quieted down again, such dark, so quiet, it was darker and quieter than any midnight in the Golden Flower Palace in my childhood, I think it was that the desperate pill was not completely eaten, but the amount of poison absorbed by the contact at that moment was enough to make me blind, so it was okay, it was really out of sight, I lay indifferently in an unknown place, quiet, calm.

Shadow went to invite a doctor, and the doctor said that it was also poisoned, and he couldn't do anything about it.

"Nian'er, if I take you back to Jinhua, I will definitely cure your eyes." The eagerness and anxiety in his voice made me feel a little distressed.

"It's not tight, it's okay like this, and the life can still be quiet."

"Don't talk nonsense, let's go." He said as he reached out to help me.

"No need, send me back to the wind." I couldn't see Ei's expression at this point, but I knew he would do what I said.

Later, along the way, Shadow was surprisingly talkative, and I just listened quietly, as if our roles had been reversed all at once, I used to be chattering non-stop, and Shadow was always silent, but now it's different. From Shadow's narration, I learned that there is a well-known gang in the rivers and lakes, called the Shadow League, and I know that Xuanyuan Yan is not only a monarch, he is also the leader of the Shadow Alliance, and I also know that Shadow has really become a shadow in the Shadow Alliance, he said that he wants to be called Hokage, because he still remembers that I talked about Naruto, and he also said that now he is in charge of the changes in Zhaoming, so he learned that Xiao Fan came to look for me, so he hurried to follow, but it was still too late, when he saw me, I was already unconscious, and Xiao Fan, ran to Zhaoming like crazy, and kept saying that he loved me.

"Nian'er, senior brother, he... I can only take you back from him, but I can't bear to hurt him, you won't blame me, right? Speaking of this, Shadow's voice was full of apology.

"It's okay, I don't blame him."

"Nian'er... Senior brother may really love you, but he has always acted too extremely, so he will do things that hurt you. ”

"No more talk, I know, I really don't blame him, I'm tired and want to sleep for a while." I closed my eyes, but at this time, my eyes were open and closed, and it was the same darkness in front of me.

Fortunately, when the shadow found me, Xiao Fan didn't take me far, a few days later, I returned to the county lord's mansion, Ah Shuang and they were already crazy looking for me, when they saw me back, they cried and laughed happily, but when she saw my unfocused eyes, there was only sadness left in the cry.

"Ah Shuang, I think this is also good, I can finally be quiet, don't cry, I feel so messed up crying."

"Okay, miss, the slave doesn't cry, don't cry." After saying that, she went up to help me into the house, I really didn't hear her crying anymore, but her tearful appearance always appeared in my mind, maybe it would be fine when she accepted this reality in a few days, I thought so.

Later, my life was much calmer, and most importantly, my heart was much calmer, and by the invisible reason, all the people who came to visit were turned away by me, and now I hold the homemade pen every day, recalling and recording the books or TV series I watched in my previous life, and recording these stories in my own words and understanding, either wise or touching. Although I can't see with my eyes, I can still write some words crookedly, I asked Ah Shuang, she said that she can understand what I write, I am afraid that what she said is just a white lie, and forced her to read me a few pages, yes, I can understand.

Ying must not have given up looking for light for my eyes, although I said to him more than once, this is good, really good, but he still does not see the figure all day long, he has not given up, I don't remember how many days I have been back, because now there is no day and night in my life, I try to follow the rhythm of Ah Shuang, write something during the day, or recall the plot of some stories, and rest at night, but sometimes, I always feel that it is still early, although Ah Shuang has told me many times that it is time to rest, It was late at night.

"Ah Shuang, you go to sleep first, I'm not tired yet." I finally drove Ah Shuang away and began to enjoy the quiet time again. I don't know when I'll get tired of these days, but from now on, everything is fine, it's really fine.

Maybe it's because my eyes can't see, my hearing has begun to be extremely sharp again, as if returning to the early days when I wandered the mountains and forests with the shadow and a wolf, at that time my hearing was also extremely sensitive, at this time there was some noise outside the window, as if a gust of wind blew into the same feeling, and the air was mixed with a faint fragrance of ink, is this my delusion? The smell was so familiar, maybe it was just the smell of the ink in front of me? I wasn't sure, but instead of opening my eyes in vain to see something, I closed my eyes and quietly enjoyed this moment of bliss.

When I woke up on the second day, Ah Shuang still complained that I slept until the third pole of the day, but for me, it was the same whether I slept during the day or at night, and there was really not much difference.

She also said to me hesitantly, "Miss, the emperor is here." ”

"Uncle has been here?" I'm a little puzzled, what is my uncle doing here? I've never been here before.

"No, it's the Emperor of the Golden Flower."

"Is it Xuanyuanyan?" I still couldn't help but feel a stir in my heart, "What is he doing here?" "I wanted to pretend to be indifferent, but I couldn't help but want to ask.

"This slave doesn't know, it's just that he went to the palace early in the morning to see Miss's uncle."

"When did he come?"

"I think it was last night."

He arrived last night, so the familiar smell I smelled last night must have been him, but why didn't he show up? But he's bullying me for being blind, what is he doing when he comes to the wind? Does it have anything to do with me? I couldn't calm down all morning, although I stayed quietly in the room as usual and watched the pen and ink, which seemed to be the same as usual, but in fact, my heart was already in turmoil, and I couldn't do that peace anymore.

Not long after lunch, Beixiang came back, "Niangniang, the master will stay in the wind for a few days, so send his subordinates back to find a place to live, the master said that he will live with you if he doesn't go to the post house annex, Niangniang。。。。。 ”

"Or please go to the post house to live, I am originally deserted and simple here, not to mention that I am happy to come and quiet, and I can't tolerate many people...

"But the master said that he is still a cold colt.

Beixiang's words made me have no reason to continue, yes, he is still a cold colt now, my husband, it is also appropriate to live in the same house as me, in fact, I was kind enough to let him live elsewhere, why bother looking at me all day? I can't see it anymore, I'm afraid he won't be happy. Ah Shuang followed the north to prepare a room for Xuanyuan Yan, and I was quietly left in the room, and after a while, I didn't know what I was thinking about sitting stupidly, and then I knew that Xuanyuan Yan was back, although he didn't speak, but I knew that he was there, and I didn't know how to communicate with him for a while, forget it, don't say it. I turned my head to look out the window, and although it was still the same darkness in front of me, I was used to it.