When I left Director Lan's office with my resignation letter, Shen Jingwen was watching me by the door, and I looked at him, and then walked past him. I thought that if he reached out to stop me, I wouldn't leave! But I know so clearly that he won't stop me, because he is Shen Jingwen, and this is his company.

After all, he refused to do anything that went against his trajectory for me. He is a bear who sells cookies, and even if he knows that the little rabbit loves candy, he will not hesitate to sell the cookie shop and make candy with the little rabbit. The silly little rabbit gave away all her candy, but who did the people who received her candy give it to?

After coming out of the company that day, I asked Liu Xiaowei for Liu Xiyang's phone number. I want to see Liu Xiyang so much, I want to know the candy of the little rabbit, whether it has gone where it should go, whether there is her candy there, and the people who love her.

I have to say that the moment the phone was connected, my heart skipped a beat. I tightened my throat, but I couldn't open my mouth, but the other party waited for me so patiently that there was no sound at all.

"I, I'm Zuo ......," I said in a hoarse voice.

"Hmm."

“……”

“……”

"I want to see you." After a long silence, I finally mustered up the courage, and when I knew what Liu Xiyang had done for me, my heart gradually became confident, but it was accompanied by more and more intense fear......

"Where are you?" He said.

"I'm here, I'm on the company's side. Where are you? I'm going to find you! I said.

"Stay there and don't move, I'll look for you."

He hung up the phone after saying this, and I held the phone tightly, and my heart beat faster! Just like when I first met Liu Xiyang, he came to me on a bicycle and said with a smile that he would send me home, I said no, the bus was coming soon, and he laughed and said that I had just missed the last train when I lowered my head to play with my phone...... He and I were colleagues, but we didn't know each other well until that day when I looked down and played with my phone and missed the last train.

Liu Xiyang came soon that day, and just like before, he parked his bicycle in front of me and motioned for me to get on. We shuttled through the wide streets of the city, with dense plane trees overhead, retreating cement asphalt under our feet, and whistles and noises around us, but my ears, eyes, and heart were full of the man in front of me, this broad back, and his slightly sweaty hair in the sun......

I don't know how long I walked, but Liu Xiyang took me to a quiet park, where we parked our bikes and strolled together in the noisy cicadas at noon. I remember that day we walked around the small park three or four times before Liu Xiyang finally spoke.

"I heard you quit." He said.

"Hmm." I replied softly, "I have failed you in your kindness. ”

He seemed a little surprised, but soon realized that I must have known these things. I didn't care anymore, I just said, "It's okay to leave, it's a pity to be a sales assistant with your ability." ”

I didn't reply to him, and the two of us walked a little longer before I finally plucked up the courage and asked him, "Why are you doing this?" ”

This time he was silent, but he didn't stay silent for long, walked to a bench and sat down, and motioned for me to sit down, before he slowly spoke: "Xiangxiang, as I said, you are not a substitute. You are you, the unique Zuo Xuan, no one can replace you, and you will not replace anyone. ”

"So who the hell do you like?"

"When I'm with you, I really love you." He was silent for a moment and then said, "When I was with her, I really loved her." ”

"Can a person really fall in love with two people at the same time? If we do things with two hearts, often we can't do one well, you only have one heart, but you use it to love two people, don't you worry, both things are messed up by you? ”

"I've screwed up......" he said, looking down.

"You can remedy it!" I said urgently.

"I don't know how to fix it, both things are already in shambles, and besides, I'm tired." He said.

Is he tired? Who doesn't get tired? He can't handle his own affairs, he doesn't know who he loves, he can't seem to choose, so what should I do?

"After all, you gave up me once for her, and if you were asked to give up her for me now, would you be willing?" I asked.

"......" responded to me with a long silence, maybe I know.

"You've already answered me." I smiled miserably, "In that case, then in the future, please don't come near me again, since you have made a choice, you should be responsible for your choice." ”

He didn't reply to me, but suddenly asked me, "Are you dating that Shen Jingwen?" ”

"Maybe." I smiled heartily.

"Hmm...... Bless you ......"

He said he blessed me? He said he blessed me! When he said he blessed me, my tears poured out like a flood that burst the embankment, and I couldn't stop it! He said he blessed me...... Bless me......

"But I don't need your blessing......" I cried, I needed you!

Seeing me crying, he took out the tissue from his pocket and put it in my hand, looked at me sadly and distressedly, I looked at the packet of tissues, and did not cry for long, I returned the tissue to him, and said:

"In the future, don't be nice to me again."

I know that this will be the last time we will see each other, and the last time we will speak.

It was dusk back in the community, and the sunset that day was very good, faintly revealing the intoxicating dusk, and the shadow was very long. Shen Jingwen stood downstairs in my house in a straight suit, her hair was not messy at all, but her face was a little haggard. I stood and watched him from afar, not wanting to come forward or leave.

"Here's for you." We stood by the river in the community, and Shen Jingwen raised his hand and handed me a photo, which was the "first kiss" between the two of us, and the photo of Shen Jingwen's face around his neck.

I stretched out my hand to take it, and suddenly I knew the purpose of his trip.

"You're here to settle with me?" I said, "Well, it's okay, I've caused a lot of trouble for the company lately, and I hope my business doesn't affect everyone." ”

Seeing me say this so calmly, Xu touched his nerves, and he suddenly said with some hatred: "Zuo Yan, you didn't love me at all, did you?" ”

What does it mean to be love? Want to count together? I smiled bitterly in my heart, but I didn't speak.

"I know that in the company recently, Xiao Xiao has wronged you, but she is an ignorant little girl, why do you need to be like her? If you understand the general situation and put up with her, my father will not object to us so much, but even so, you don't even have a word of explanation, and you refuse to listen to my explanation, what do you want? Xiangxiang, don't I love you enough? Am I not doing enough? I made my mother angry for you, why don't you just refuse to forgive me? Shen Jingwen complained bitterly, as if he had been greatly wronged.

"Lin Xiao deliberately framed me with her mother in the company in order to get you, can't you see it?" I couldn't help but ask.

"What if they deliberately framed you? What harm can it do to you? If you don't resign voluntarily, who can quit you? If you leave like this now, it is clear that you are a thief, what will the people in the company think of you? What do you make my dad think of you? ”

"You say I'm a thief?" I laughed.

"I'm not saying that this must be what you did, I just think that you should bear with it for the sake of the relationship between the two of us, since you love me, what is it for me to suffer this grievance?"

What Shen Jingwen said seemed to make a lot of sense, but I was speechless.

"Xiangxiang, I knew from the beginning that you had someone in your heart, but I was willing to wait, I was willing to forget him with you, and then start again, but what about you? Do you really care about me? Have you really loved me? ”

“……”

"I'm really disappointed and regretful...... I still haven't been able to move you after all, because I was too naïve. Shen Jingwen said.

"Hmm." I suddenly laughed, inexplicably, "I see, it's my fault that didn't get what you wanted." ”

"Alas......" he let out a long sigh and looked at the water without saying a word.

It seems that no one is wrong, and it seems that everyone is wrong. After all, we still love ourselves too much, and human nature is selfish. The feelings that sustain us are too shallow, they come and go quickly, and they can't be grasped at all. Just like that candy, before you get it, it's an endless craving, and after you get it, it's just a moment of sweetness, and then it's a long emptiness.