This meeting is the first time in four years.

Maybe it was the hand of fate that finally pressed a pause on the remote control to arrange for her to rush past my life once more.

She was still like that, chattering when I wasn't there, and when she saw me, she immediately shrunk her neck, swallowed her saliva, and called me brother cautiously and flatteringly.

From the first time we met, she called me brother and asked me to think about it, was she 14 or 15 years old at that time? A little girl who hasn't grown up yet, her hair is cut short, and she often runs around in a white uniform, I have hardly seen her walk well, and it is normal for her to be bruised and bruised with injuries, but during that time my father and her mother did not have time to take care of her, and every time she was injured in boxing, she hid and rubbed medicine.

I would also accidentally buy a new bottle and put it on the table when I ran out of bone-setting potions.

It was also from that time that I knew that she liked me, she liked to look at me secretly, and she became blatant after being discovered, but under the education I received since I was a child, I understood that I couldn't like her, whether it was with the false name of this layer of brothers and sisters, she was still young, and when she fell in love, shouldn't she be after college?

Later, when I went to college, she got a boyfriend. I don't know when she started to like people, but she never looked at me like she used to. Then let it go, I also like other girls, and even sometimes tell myself that I can't put her first anymore.

Until one day, the girl I liked and loved the most in my life left me in a hurry.

It's like a deep dent carved in the heart with a sharp knife, and it may never be smoothed.

So I used the most childish method, while commemorating and waiting.

If I had missed it once, this time, I really wanted to grasp it. It's just that it's really hard to change the habit, and I still pretend that I don't care in front of her, and my chest is filled with jealousy when I hear her talk to me about other men.

I wanted to show her affection for a very small thing, but I accidentally lost my temper with her when she burst into my room, and I didn't want to show my other half of myself in front of her, or, from this time I saw her, the soul that had been split in two halves was finally gradually healed. I knew it was time to say goodbye to the girl I loved.

"Would you like us to try it together?"

I am very serious about this sentence, maybe I am not the only one in the world who has just confessed and fallen out of love, but that kind of taste is a little difficult to swallow after all.

I wandered outside the circle of her life again, seeing each other less and less, and I realized that I was the one who was completely replaced, and it was a long time ago, and it was completely replaced, and her gaze at me was no longer evasive, nor would she secretly look at me in a daze anymore.

Tell me about the happiest and most painful time I had.

The real mistakes also started at that time. That day, I knew that she was robbed by the river and even took pictures, so I took the mailbox and found someone to find out the clear sending and receiving records, and finally locked down a person.

Su Green.

Maybe it's intuition, I didn't like this person from the first time we met, she pretended to accidentally create a misunderstanding between me and Sixi, and looked for me a few times after that, and after I refused, I never saw her again.

And this time, what she handed me was a recording. The content in it is something I never thought about. Although I already knew that Si Xi and Xiaoxing used to be classmates and even best friends, I didn't expect that there was such a secret behind the car accident.

I didn't easily believe Su Lu, and I refused to cooperate with her.

I hid for the past few days, and if I could, I wish I had never known about these things, whether they were true or false. Returning to Si Xi again, I deliberately avoided her, and from then on, I began to worry that I would hurt her one day, but she still approached me little by little.

When Su Lu found me again, it turned out that I wanted to use her, and to my surprise, she gladly accepted all my arrangements.

I asked Su Lu, "Don't you hate her very much?" Why help me. ”

Su Lu said, "Let Si Xi stay with you, the demon, and there will be no bones left to be gnawed." ”

Su Lu said this sentence is very right, when I chased to Japan, but heard the word Yu Tian from Si Xi's mouth, the other half of the hatred hidden in my heart finally broke through everything. Even if she doesn't love me, I still want her.

It wasn't the first time I saw her lying in my arms, but when I saw her pale face and my deliberately bitten lips, I had a raging pleasure in my heart.

Isn't it possible to destroy what you can't get without any worries?

I replaced the contraceptive pill with the medicine Su Lu gave me, and many times I deliberately did it with her without a condom, knowing that she was always in a trance for a while, but I was also immersed in the feeling of using drugs to control her.

I like to watch her obediently approach me and nod her head when I ask her if she likes me. I knew that no amount of medicine could really change a person's will, so she still liked me, and I began to think, what if it went on like this? Wouldn't it be nice to let her like me and fall in love with me again?

I think we're just quietly together, and I'm with her wherever she is. It's just that the mistakes that have been made, there will always be a day when they will be revealed, Lin Jing seems to have found out something, I felt uneasy for the first time, I stopped Si Xi from calling him, and then told Su Lu about it, I asked her to find a way to destroy the evidence, but as a result, it was not only the evidence that was destroyed, Lin Jing was injured and hospitalized, and his life was in danger.

I accompanied Sixi back to China, and it turned out that I would still feel distressed when I saw her sad appearance. I stopped giving her that medicine, but luckily she was still as dependent on me as she was before. The things that Su Lu and I did were not revealed, and even Yu Tian seemed to be deliberately avoiding them, of course I understood his thoughts. It's just that if it were me, maybe I would choose to protect my own interests, rather than take on a charge that has nothing to do with me in order to protect Si Xi, he should have seen through everything a long time ago, but he didn't expose it. We met once in private, and he asked me, would you be nice to her? I replied with a sneer, you can't take care of it.

But that day, Si Xi told me something.

It's not the little star she pushes.

There is no need for any proof, as long as it is what she says, I will believe it. Or I never believed that Si Xi would push Xiaoxing, but I just made an excuse for myself, my revenge was never for Xiaoxing and our children, but for myself. I took revenge on Si Xi, just because she missed me and fell in love with Yu Tian.

I left that day before Sixi woke up, I went to see Xiaoxing, and I sat in front of her tombstone for the first time four years ago, looking at her little face on it. Looking at the birthday engraved on it that is completely different from what I remember. I reached out and touched the photo and said goodbye softly.

When I went back to the hotel, I saw Yu Tian and Sixi together, and they even locked the door. My jealousy and cowardice began to flare up again.

When Yu Tian left, Si Xi took out the scarf that Xiaoxing gave me, and she mentioned the blog, I know that maybe everything can't be hidden from her. At that moment, what I was most afraid of was not the ruin of my reputation after the truth was revealed, but the loss.

I brutally asked her again, and I was scared the whole time, and I kissed her while saying in my heart not to leave. When she told me she was pregnant, my mind went blank, knowing that the air smelled of blood. I realized that I had finally destroyed the last bit of care she cared about me.

In the hospital, she looked very calm, and when she looked at me, there was no hatred in her eyes, not even sadness. For a moment, I felt that she was relieved, and I laughed at myself, if the real child was still there, if I tied her up with the child for the rest of my life, would she be more painful when she regretted it.

However, it wasn't until she told me that we should be separated, that I realized that we had really been together. I used to have it.

I remember a long time ago, I saw a signature posted by Sixi on a social software, she said that she would not force herself to be with someone she didn't like, and if she was together, it must be sincere.

She was sincere to me.

This separation, I understand, is already the last. Originally, I wanted to quietly withdraw from her world, but I suddenly remembered another thing, I found the medicine that Su Lu gave me before, and after taking it to the doctor, I determined that this medicine came from Japan, and this kind of spiritual medicine is not available to ordinary people.

By Sixi's side, there is a doctor who can get this medicine.

I went back to Japan and found Zhao Yan. This woman is even more unfathomable than Su Lu, but she is not as bent on torturing Si Xi as Su Lu, Zhao Yan has another purpose, so it will be easier to expose her. I approached her as a man, implying that I had the same purpose as her, and I quickly gained her trust. However, I know that the evidence I have so far is not enough to convict her, and even if she is convicted, it will not be too long, and I will not be able to give her another chance to get close to hurting Si Xi. So I decided to replace Si Datong and convict Zhao Yan of premeditated murder.

It's a pity that everything can't go back to square one, so the mistakes that started from now on, let's end there.

(Lin Yue's extras only have this chapter, and there is nothing to write about.) It's his monologue~ As for the future, maybe it's loneliness............ ）

The important thing is that I will love you

Because I'm afraid of loneliness

You're dangling in front of me

I became in a trance

It feels like this should be me

The ultimate happy life

Actually, you're really hilarious

Screaming in my ear

But you are the treasure in my hand

The pride of my heart

It's when I'm discouraged

The medicine that brought me hope

You have that long eyelashes

Tears fall in the blink of an eye

My heart began to wreak like a knife

Every time I was blamed

I'm a good bad girl

It's a sweet wound in my heart

You are right and you are wrong

Anyway, the rules are yours

My girl who is neither fat nor skinny

You're always desperately looking for a reason to lose weight

It's a very busy day

It's just what you become

We're all in this together

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