When my son saw me coming back, he hummed at the dinner table and said that there would be a parent-teacher conference tomorrow afternoon, and I knew that the results of the midterm exams were out, so I asked him, "How are the exam results?" ”

He said, "Don't you know that tomorrow is a parent-teacher conference?" ”

"How did you do in the exam, didn't you count it yourself?"

I said angrily, "I didn't change the paper, how do I know!" Don't you just want to know the score? Won't you just ask the teacher tomorrow? ”

He said forcefully.

Seeing that I was about to lose my temper again, my mother hurriedly said, "You haven't come back for three days, and when you come back, you get angry, so you can't talk to him well!" ”

"Do you think he wants to speak in a good tone? Okay, I haven't slept in three days, I'm too lazy to pay attention to him now, I'm going to sleep"

I put down the bowl and said.

Dad looked at me and said, "I don't think your face is very good, so go and rest when you're tired."

I felt that my body was so tired that my brain no longer had the strength to think about anything, so I took a shower and fell asleep, and slept until noon the next day.

After a while in the afternoon, I asked for leave to go to the parent-teacher conference, I looked at the report card, there were more than 50 students in the class, and Li Haoyu was still in the bottom ten of the class.

The head teacher, Mr. Liu, left me, Mr. Liu is in her thirties, she is a very elegant woman, she said with a smile: "Officer Lin, Li Haoyu has made some progress in his studies this semester, he has improved from the fifth to the bottom, and he has improved to the eighth from the bottom, Li Haoyu is a very smart child, his conduct is also very good, he likes to help people, and his classmates and teachers like him very much."

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I snorted slightly and laughed: "Teacher Liu, let's not use praise education methods now, you just say the problem"

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Teacher Liu looked at me and muttered for a while and said: "I know that your public security is very busy, but the child is going to take the high school entrance examination this year, with Li Haoyu's current academic performance, it may be difficult to go to high school, and now there are more than two months before the exam, and it is not impossible to be admitted to high school from now on, which requires parents to bother to cooperate with our teachers."

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I looked at the stack of homework books on Mr. Liu's desk, and said with a faint smile: "Mr. Liu, don't worry, I will definitely go all out to keep an eye on him in the next two months, and I will definitely let him be admitted to high school."

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Teacher Liu looked at me with a hint of surprise on her face, although my voice was not loud, but the undoubted posture in my tone must have surprised her.

I put the transcript in front of Li Haoyu and asked him lightly, "Are you going to go to high school?" If you don't want to go to school, I won't force you, you can drop out of school now, find a restaurant or a construction site on the street to work, don't sit in the classroom and waste time, those classmates of yours have nothing to do with you, they go their way, you go your way, you Teacher Liu left me behind today, with your current grades you can't go to high school at all, you tell me about your plans"

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Li Haoyu was no longer stubborn at this time, hung his head and said, "I want to go to high school"

"Okay, if you want to go up, you can take out what you want to do, you must review according to my requirements from today, I guarantee that you can be admitted to high school, okay?"

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"Row"

Li Haoyu replied reluctantly.

I no longer take care of his feelings, whether he wants to sit next to him every day and guide him to study, I must conscientiously finish the teacher's assignment of language, mathematics, English and other subjects, especially history, geography, politics zhì easy to surprise the papers, he is very dissatisfied with me every day sitting next to him and staring at him to study, but I don't care about his face at all, he wants to go around the ground when he encounters a problem, I just don't agree, he throws something and loses his temper, I sit calmly and wait for him to finish his seizure and let him continue.

My mother saw that I was staring at him so closely, and she felt sorry for her grandson, saying that she was too tired.

I sneered: "He's been comfortable for three years, is it more than two months of hard work?" If you ask his classmates, how many parents of students are still able to tutor their own children, he should feel lucky."

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Jiang Xinya called and asked Li Qiutong and them to eat and chat together, but I politely declined, saying that now I concentrate on Li Haoyu's study every day, and I will make an appointment after Li Haoyu finishes the exam.

I know that Jiang Xinya is not worried about me and wants to pull me out to evacuate my feelings, but I don't have the ability to hide my inner pain in front of them now, and talk and laugh with them casually as in the past.

I also knew that Li Qiutong would definitely blame me for letting Li Haoyu go freely in the past, and now I came to make amends, so when I received a call from Li Qiutong, I heard her say on the phone: "You should have been like this a long time ago, if you had been so attentive earlier, Li Haoyu would not have been this achievement"

I wasn't surprised at all.

I smiled on the phone and said, "Okay, Mr. Li, I know you're going to say that, I've realized my mistakes, aren't I changing my ways now?" ”

I went all out to devote myself to Li Haoyu's study and guidance, every day he wrote his homework, I sat next to him and reviewed all his textbooks, and practiced the key points to explain to him, sometimes he had already slept, and I was still thinking and calculating the unsolved questions on the paper repeatedly until I was exhausted.

I could keep myself busy not thinking about him, but I couldn't control my inner depression, and unconsciously, I became taciturn, emaciated, and emaciated.

Xiao Shen saw me sitting in front of the computer stunned, poured me a glass of water and asked, "Sister Lin, why haven't you been happy recently?" People have lost a lot of weight."

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I suddenly came back to my senses, forced myself to smile calmly, and said, "What's so happy?" My son took the countdown exam again, and I was left by the head teacher to give a lecture, I don't know if I can be admitted to high school, isn't it depressed enough! ”

Xiao Shen smiled: "I said, now I see that you are pretending to be unhappy every day, and now the child is not easy to manage, and the pressure of the exam is still so great, I am worried about anyone."

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Looking at myself in the mirror becoming thinner and haggard, I secretly warned myself that no matter how broken my heart is, my body must not collapse, and I must cross this hurdle and never fall down.

I couldn't eat, so I bought some vitamin tablets, cod liver oil and other tonic tablets and put them in the office to eat on time.

I know very well that I will eventually defeat myself, Wu Tianyang's cruel betrayal did not make me give up on myself, not to mention that now I am no longer the Lin Yi I was more than ten years ago, my police career not only gave me a salary, but also gave me a heart that has been tempered by ups and downs.

I'm like a wounded surgeon who sees his wound bleeding, I know how deep it hurts, I know how much it will heal, but I need treatment, I need time, and I have to endure the pain of the wound alone, and I have to make sure that the wound doesn't get worse and doesn't end up destroying me.

I'm working and living quieter than ever, or I'm holding my breath, as if I'm relaxing my nerves a little and my heart is throbbing.

When I drove the car out of the courtyard of the Public Security Bureau and walked to the gate, I saw a familiar figure walking up the stairs, my heart suddenly tightened, and my eyes immediately followed this figure, just at the moment of my distraction, my car almost hit Yang Lei's car that entered the gate of the Public Security Bureau from the outside, I braked suddenly, Yang Lei on the opposite side slammed a direction to avoid my car, and the emergency brake sound made the figure turn around, not him!

I didn't care about the danger just now, but leaned back in frustration because the familiar figure was not him.

Li Hua got out of Yang Lei's car and walked to my car, saw my lost soul and said, "Sister Lin, what's wrong with you?" Why do you always feel like you're in a trance lately! ”

I leaned back in my seat and chuckled at him: "There have been too many things lately, but I'm a little inattentive, so let's take the car and drive it for a while, I'll walk!" ”

Li Hua smiled: "Okay, where are you going, I'll send you, I don't want you to have an accident."

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I didn't let the car pick me up, I said that I want to exercise to lose weight and walk to work every day, in order to be in a hurry, I look at the watch on the road every day and walk rapidly, the strenuous exercise of the body is the most effective way to reduce the pain in my heart, I try not to let my heart have the space to think about him, and I don't let my body have any slackness.

I was running at high speed like a crazy dhara, and when I was sending my son to the school gate to take the high school entrance examination, standing outside the gate, I suddenly felt that I was at a loss, what should I do after tomorrow?

The next day, when the end of work came, I didn't rush home, I knew that today's exams were over, and my special work was over.

Along the way, I stopped and returned home, and saw a pile of torn rolls and homework books on the table, and my son had long since disappeared.

Mom said that the first thing Li Haoyu did when he came back was to shred the rolls and homework books I forced him to make during this time, saying that he never wanted to see these things again, and then said "I'm going out to play"

And he was gone.

I feel like I have nowhere to go, I can't go to work 24 hours, I have no reason to stare at my son and let him study when I get home, I can't keep a calm face at home without a reason, I can't stand alone on the road and don't know what to do, I can't stay with my friends and not reveal the pain in my heart.

It's been seventy-eight days since he left, and I don't let myself think about his departure because I don't dare to think about it, and it makes my heart ache and I can't control it.

This is a relationship that can't see the light, so I can't let anyone else know about my pain, I can only bear that qiē silently, this is the only thing that makes me feel comforted, this pain is far deeper than I imagined, I don't want to add a humiliation to this pain, it will make me feel more embarrassed.