Chapter 230: Letter to Shangyuan II

readx; When it was time to pay tribute again, there was an outbreak of plague in the country of Xiang. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 Info Hyun told his father that he wanted to go to Ningguo instead of his father. My father didn't immediately agree, but came to ask me what I meant.

What can I say? The one who beat you is a virtuous person, the one who makes you praise your courage is a virtuous person, and the one who amuses you every day in those days is also a virtuous person, what can I say? Don't let Xian go, will I, the elder brother, go by myself? Even if I have such a cheeky skin, what can I say to you when I go? In fact, I only know how to like you, but I never know how to make you happy, and even if I go, I don't know how to fight for it.

Xian finally went for my father on the grounds that my father and I were plagued and could not act, and his name was false, but my illness was real, but this disease was not born before he left, but after he left.

I kept thinking, what would I do if Hyun really brought you back? Or maybe you are not as cute as when you were young, and after you came, I found that I was only a reverie for you; But what if not? How I should face you, a person who likes his brother and daughter-in-law, I can't imagine......

I was sick for a long time, until Hyun came back. Hyun was very happy, and kept repeating to me the scene when he saw you in the royal capital, your smile, every move, every word, every sentence, he described it to me in detail, and when he told me that you had asked me about me, I felt that my whole heart was in my throat, and I didn't even dare to listen to what you said about me......

I know you talked a lot, and I was happy for a long, long time, even though I only had one casual mention of it during those days-long conversations.

Not long after Hyun returned, the edict of marriage arrived in the palace, and almost everyone thought it was a marriage for Hyun and you, but no one expected that it would be my name on it.

I should have rejoiced, but I couldn't laugh. Xian shouted loudly that the name was written incorrectly, and the attendant who passed the decree said, this is written by King Ning himself, how can it be wrong?

But if I'm not mistaken, how could it be me? The people I've been getting along with you all these years have always been virtuous, and I haven't even gotten along with you carefully!

That feeling of being mistaken and uncertain lasted until our wedding night, and I looked at you in the red tent, not knowing if I was expecting you to find out what was wrong or if the person you loved was me at all.

I looked at you in a daze, through that layer of red veil, the candle flame danced, reflected on your body, and I could only vaguely see your figure. I don't know if you have changed or I have changed, or maybe we have all changed, we are no longer the same selves we once were, but at this time I still can't help falling in love with you at this time.

"You had the courage to beat me back then, why don't you have the courage to come in now?" You said to me.

Hyun has always been open to me, he is a true gentleman, I used to think I was too, but in fact, I am not.

If I were a true gentleman, I should tell you frankly at this moment that it was not me who beat you at the beginning, it was not me who played with you that year, and it was not me who went to Ningdu to see you, and you may only be my wife because your brother got the wrong name, and no one dares to tell you the truth!

But I'm not a true gentleman, the moment you finish speaking, I just want to take you for myself, whether you make a mistake or your brother Wang makes a mistake, since the raw rice has been cooked into cooked rice, you have no room for regret, you can only be my wife, for the rest of your life, you can only love me alone!

You've been a beauty since you were a child, and when you grow up, you're so beautiful that you don't dare to blink. The joy of the beginning, after receiving it, was like a knife on my conscience, and the slightest stir pierced my heart.

I looked at you in my arms, and the more I loved you, the more empty my heart became.

But you prefer to mention the things of your childhood, but I don't know that every time you mention the little scar on your forehead, my conscience will begin to struggle to accuse myself of hypocrisy and take advantage of it, so that I don't have the courage to face you again.

After getting up in the morning, I took you to see my father and queen mother, but as soon as I went out, I ran into Hyun, I don't know how long he stood there, and you were obviously stunned when you saw him. I was suddenly afraid that you found out the truth at this time, and I didn't even have time to say hello, so I pulled you and hurriedly turned around and left.

Actually, I'm so stupid, the palace is so big, and the brothers look alike, isn't it a matter of time before you find out that something is wrong? But I'm a thief, and I'd rather that moment come a little later.

You questioned it, but I was powerless to deal with it. When I got to my father and queen mother, I saw Hyun again, and if I could, I really wanted to teach him an invisibility technique so that he could disappear completely.

I think you must have found out that something is wrong, although you can't tell who is who we are, but you know that in Ningdu you saw Xian, maybe you wanted to marry Xian at that time, but you didn't say anything.

I think, this is probably the sorrow of women, whether you are an ordinary woman or a princess, marry a chicken with a chicken, who you marry, you can only recognize that person, and you can no longer choose the second one.

I don't know how you noticed it, but I think you must have heard rumors in the palace about your brother's typo, and learned about the problem of virtuous and wise.

"I don't know what you think, but what I want to say is," you touched the barely visible scar on my face, and suddenly said to me, "here, you hurt me, I hurt you, I knew from the beginning that the person I was going to marry was you, and I never made a mistake!" ”

I can't love you more than that moment, your intelligence, gentleness, generosity, contains all my fantasies about my wife, I love you so much, I can't imagine the slightest possibility of losing you.

But you are the one who hurts me, but the one who hurts you is Xian. You think that my weakness of heart comes from the miso of marriage, but you don't know, but what I am worried about is the source of that scar, that you have loved the wrong person from the beginning.

The suspicion caused by the weakness of the heart is like an iron needle in a quilt, I can't take it out to show you, I can only stab you.

I can't stand you being with Hyun more and more, and I can't stand you looking at him more, let alone the joy he gives you. I hate any happiness he brings you, I hate every smile you show him, I want to give you happiness like him, but maybe you are right, I am a stone in a pit, smelly and hard, and it will only bring you pain.

You're pregnant, and it's a bonus. I am the father of the child, of course I am happy, why is Kexian so happy? I know there's no reason at all about this disgust, but I just can't see him being nice to you and to your children.

Before I could prepare something for the child, Hyun brought clothes to the child. You sit on the bed and fiddle with those little clothes, I don't know if the joy on your face is because of the upcoming child, but I know that my anger is all because it was something from Hyun.

You didn't do anything wrong, but I yelled at you, and it happened again and again. Even I can't tolerate myself.