The moment I connected Ade's phone, I almost held my breath, I subconsciously squinted my eyes, and didn't speak, just waiting for Ade's reply, which made him mistakenly think that the phone was not connected, and muttered to himself: "What's the situation, why can't I hear the sound...... Hit it again. ”

"Ade, don't hang up the phone, I'll listen!"

"You scared me...... When you answer the phone, why don't you say anything? ”

"It's okay, I'm waiting for you to say."

"I'm still waiting for you to ask."

I tried to adjust my breath, and after feeling smooth, I finally asked Ade, "What about Xiao Ai, is she still in Hsinchu County?" ”

Ade sighed, and my mood became low, and I felt like I had missed Xiao Ai's message after all the hard work. Now I'm just waiting for Ade to tell me personally.

"Aqiao, I went to Hsinchu County this afternoon, and it took a lot of effort to find a place for Ruyi to live. It's a pity that I went a step late, and her next-door neighbor told me that she left this morning and brought a lot of luggage. It looked like she was going far away, but the neighbors didn't know where she was going...... The neighbor also said that she doesn't like to communicate with others very much, and she seems to be very preoccupied! …… Oh yes, she's really married, because I saw her wedding picture, it's hanging in the bedroom, I'll send you a picture later, you can see who that man is. ”

I was so suffocated that I couldn't breathe, Xiao Ai and I were still a day away after all, if I moved fast enough, I could get to Hsinchu County before she left. But if it's just if after all, I'm still staying in Shanghai at the moment, but she's far away, and she's far away, at the ends of the earth.

In the silence, Ade asked me again: "Aqiao, Ruyi has already left, do you still want to come to Taipei?" ”

I was deflated and replied, "I don't know...... You send her wedding photos first. ”

"Well, if you decide to come to Taipei for a walk, remember to call me in advance, the hotel business has been very good recently, and there will be no room if you don't reserve it."

I answered, and Ade hung up. But listening to the constant "beep" sound, I entered a state of distraction, I couldn't feel the sun, I couldn't feel my breathing, and I couldn't even feel that my biological mother Yang Jin was still standing beside me. My world was empty in an instant, so empty that I didn't want to think about how I lost Xiao Ai.

She was my woman, and I thought it would never change for the rest of my life, but this qiē was completely changed by a fire. I don't know if man will conquer heaven, or if God is playing tricks on our lives in a secret way.

How can we be separated? How can she be willing to forget, and we put the joys and sorrows out of the way, all the things we have experienced?

I couldn't stand still, I was a little dizzy from the afternoon heat, I leaned against a tree behind me, watched the flickering signal, and brought myself a picture of Xiao Ai's wedding.

That's right, I guessed right, the man who married Xiao Ai was Yuan Zhen, who regarded her as his life. In the photo, they were very close, Yuan Zhen's smile was very real, Xiao Ai hugged his waist, but only showed his side face. She also wears a mask in the shape of a sunflower, just to cover her injured eyes. This was a success, as she was more beautiful and mysterious in the photo.

She is really mysterious, because no one can see her feelings after choosing to get married through this wedding photo. Again, all I could see was a side face and an impeccable figure that was perfect for her.

I really want to drop my phone, and then sue everyone that this photo is fake, and the person in the photo must not be Xiao Ai. How could she be willing to leave me who depended on me for my life and let me be sad alone!

However, when I closed my eyes and isolated myself from this false world, I was awake again, and I knew better than anyone how real this wedding photo was, how flawless it was!

Yes, sure! Besides me, if Xiao Ai doesn't marry Yuan Zhen, who else can he marry? After all, she and Yuan really have a foundation. Whether it's brother and sister love, or mutual appreciation and admiration, in short, there is a foundation!

I opened my mouth and gasped for breath, the dry air and dust entered my mouth so badly that my chest was like a soak in chili pepper water, it hurt and heated, I whimpered, but I couldn't cry tears.

She doesn't want me Jiangqiao anymore, she really doesn't want it! The pain of not seeing her alive completely crushed me in an instant of this afternoon.

……

Yang Jin, who had been standing beside me for a long time, finally said to me: "What happened to make you sad like this?" ”

I opened my eyes and looked at her, no matter how much time eroded, I could still find a trace of what she used to be in her face. There was a moment when I was eager to tell her all the things on my mind, like a mother and son who had a very good relationship. However, looking at her lofty appearance, I dispelled this idea in an instant, I would rather be suffocated by these feelings under the hospital tree alone, than not vomit unpleasantly at her.

I said to her indifferently, "I don't need you to ask about my affairs, and your time should not be wasted on me, so I beg you to walk away from me immediately." As soon as I feel your snack, I feel tired...... I don't care who you are anymore and what purpose you are coming back! ”

Yang Jin's expression finally changed, she looked at me, nodded for a while, and replied, "I'm really sad to hear you say this...... However, I am willing to give you time to digest and accept...... I'm going to be staying in Shanghai lately, so if you figure it out, feel free to come to me and tell me what you want...... I'll arrange the rest of the qiē. ”

My love was flammable and irritable, and I suddenly yelled at her: "I want my grandmother to live a long life, I want to go back in time, and you are still like when you worked in the textile factory, like a normal person, and protect me as a son...... Can you give all of this? Please, can you give it! ”

Yang Jin closed his eyes and shook his head in my self-venting...... She's a smart person, so she already knows what kind of scars I have on my heart. However, over the years, she has become accustomed to being in a high position, so she says things I don't like to hear, which makes me feel more and more distant. At least at this moment, she really doesn't look like a mother. She has lost her former gentleness and patience...... And I don't look down on what she has now, all I care about is what she loses.

A moment later, Yang Jin left in the afterglow of the setting sun...... My tense feelings loosened for a moment, and then I sat down leaning against the tree behind me. Just laughing for a while, sighing without tears for a while...... Until night comes. Until the high-rise building opposite, releasing colorful light, reflecting the whole world as if I was the only one left.

I really couldn't bear the pain of losing Xiao Ai, so I decided to go to Taiwan for a walk, even though she was no longer in Hsinchu County. And the only purpose of my visit was to follow in her footsteps.

In a few years, if there is still news of her, even in Europe, Africa and America...... I will follow and feel every mood she feels when she is in the zài.

I think I'm crazy, crazy for the future. I no longer think about whether I want to start a family, whether I want to find a woman to fall in love again...... I'm just going to go after her who is already ethereal. I really don't want to care anymore, in what way time will carve a knife after knife on my body, and I stubbornly believe that my love for her can be soothed.

……

I don't know how many cigarettes I smoked this night, but I saw a very familiar figure, carrying a fruit basket in his hand, wearing very professional trousers and a white shirt. Much has changed during his absence from Nanjing, but the only thing that has remained unchanged is the decisiveness in his eyes and an indescribable stoicism.

It's Zhao Mu who is back...... Presumably, he also heard about the recent qiē between me and Xiao Ai in Nanjing.

He didn't come back sooner or later...... I feel like I finally have someone around me who can talk to me. I'm really tired of facing Yang Jin and Jin Qiu. They don't understand me, and they don't respect me!