In the night, Zhao Mu walked along the path with street lamps to my side, I stood up from the ground, and we faced each other under the street lamps. In fact, it has only been a month since he was transferred to work abroad, but when they meet again, they have the illusion of vicissitudes, which stems from the fact that many things are changing too fast!

"Brother Qiao, I also felt sad when I heard Yu Xin talk about what happened recently...... So I took 3 days to come back and see you and grandma. ”

I forced a smile: "The hardest days are over. ”

"Yes, in the face of nightmares, what people are most afraid of is the days when they can't see the results, now that there are results, all that remains to do is to slowly forget the pain."

I lit a cigarette and glanced at Zhao Mu again, feeling that he looked at the problem from a deeper perspective than me, which was a bit similar to Jin Qiu. They seem to be very good at using some cold truths to downplay the pain in their hearts. Therefore, except for the day when Zhao Chu died, I didn't see Zhao Mu shed tears again. Over the years, he has been living with great certainty and has never been swayed by love. Perhaps, that's why he was able to succeed. This success has already been reflected in his studies.

In my habitual silence, Zhao Mu asked me again, "Grandma, how is she?" ”

"I just finished the first chemotherapy treatment, and there is a long treatment process after that, which is really painful for the elderly, after all, the body function can not be compared with us young people."

Zhao Mu replied with emotion: "Yes, so you must do it as soon as possible to do filial piety, otherwise there will really be regrets in life...... " After a pause, he said to me again: "Don't chat, take me up to see grandma." ”

I nodded, and then led Zhao Mu to the ward where my grandmother lived.

……

In the ward, only Luo Sumei was accompanying her grandmother, she seemed to be ready to help her grandmother go down for a walk, and when she saw that I was here with Zhao Mu, she exchanged a few words with Zhao Mu.

Zhao Mu put the fruit basket on the table, and then said to Luo Sumei beside her grandmother: "Aunt Luo, you are tired of taking care of grandma for a day, or Brother Qiao and I will help grandma go down for a walk, you take advantage of this time to rest for a while." ”

Luo Sumei smiled and replied: "It's okay, it's rare for you to come back once, just accompany the old lady to have a good chat, the old lady was still talking about you just now...... By the way, I haven't eaten yet, my aunt went downstairs to buy some for you, what do you want to eat? ”

Before Zhao Mu could speak, grandma followed Luo Sumei's words and said with a smile: "Let him and Jiang Qiao eat later, these two brothers don't see each other often, and it's not convenient to take me, an old lady, to drink!" ”

Russell Mei responded with a smile and said "yes", leaving the space for us while she lay down on the bed and rested. Since my grandmother was hospitalized, she has been the most tired person, and I have seen all of this. But I don't know how to reciprocate.

In fact, even if the old Jin family has taken care of me for other things all these years, I can't hold a grudge. Because I am used to having them in my city, they make me feel that there are still people to discuss in the affairs of the family, but this is also the reason why I hate Yang Jin and Jiang Jiyou.

……

Shanghai at night, more dreamy than during the day, but also less real, just like those flickering neon, we can see but can't touch, Zhao Mu and I are holding grandma's side and walking on the trail......

In my memory, a similar image happened in the year we sent my grandmother to a nursing home. That day, I carried my grandmother on my back, Zhao Mu took the luggage, and we were like two ignorant teenagers, putting all our worries in the distance where we knew nothing and were very vague.

At that time, Zhao Mu and I really lived a very insecure and directionless life, but the relationship was very good, and we knew that the other party was one of the few relatives and brothers in this world.

And now, time has washed away a lot of the friendship between us. Perhaps, I am too sensitive, in Zhao Mu's heart, he still recognizes me as a brother. No, even if it's a long way away, he's back?

Along the way, grandma kept chatting with Zhao Mu about some trivial life, and learned that he was doing well abroad, and grandma was very happy for him. Zhao Mu also regarded his grandmother as an object of nothing to say, and even told her how much savings he had saved and when he was going to go back to Nanjing to buy a house.

After walking for about 20 minutes, my grandmother stopped, she looked at the inpatient building not far away, and said to me and Zhao Mu: "Don't accompany me, you two brothers, hurry up and find a barbecue stall, you should drink, you should eat...... " Saying that, she turned to Zhao Mu and said: "Xiao Mu, I know that you are a stable child, you don't smoke or drink, but you must have a good time with Jiangqiao tonight...... He is a child, he has been lonely since he was a child, and there are few people who love him in his heart, and there are many people who pit him. If you think about it, why shouldn't you! This is your fate, but it is also your fate, and it is even more of your fate to live in an alley! ”

Zhao Mu nodded.

Grandma put my hand and Zhao Mu's hand together, and asked me softly: "Qiao, do you remember when you were young, Xiao Mu's chickens and ducks laid eggs, and he didn't eat them himself, so he wanted to grab a few and give them to you?" ”

I smiled and replied, "Remember, I have all these things in my heart and can't forget." ”

As I spoke, I remembered the winter when I was about ten years old, when Zhao Mu was holding a steaming egg in his hand, waiting for me to get up. He was really reluctant to eat by himself, always thinking that my parents were gone and I needed care. He is a very sympathetic and kind child, who does not fight or grab!

Grandma patted Zhao Mu's hand again and asked, "Xiao Mu, do you remember that in the year of your college entrance examination, you had acute appendicitis, and you couldn't call a car in the middle of the night, and it was Jiang Qiao who carried you on your back overnight and walked a long way to send you to the hospital......"

Zhao Mu looked at me, with a look of reminiscence, and then said: "I remember, he still broke his foot that day, but even so, he still endured the pain and sent me to the hospital...... In those days, he limped in the hospital to bring me food and laundry, and I will never forget ...... in my life! ”

Grandma held our hands tighter, her eyes were a little red, and after a while, she said, "It is precisely because of your life that you are closer than your own brothers...... Grandma really wants to see the day when you all get married, but she knows what she is sick about, and I'm afraid she can't wait for that day...... If grandma is gone one day, and you two encounter any difficulties that you can't get over, and no one mediates for you, think more about each other's good, and don't blindly care...... Is it done? ”

Zhao Mu turned his head to look at me......

For the first time since Zhao Chu died, I saw tears in his eyes, and he held his grandmother's hand tightly, and the night breeze blew past him and us, which was exceptionally cool.

After a moment of silence, he finally spoke to his grandmother before me: "Grandma, don't worry, except for Brother Qiao, I don't have anyone too close to me in this world, so I will cherish this brotherly relationship...... You are also a good person, and you will definitely wait for the day when Brother Qiao and I both marry and have children. ”

"Good boy, good boy!" Grandma said and said to me very strictly: "Bridge, what about you? You also hurry up and make a statement to grandma! ”

I also turned my head to look at Zhao Mu and replied to my grandmother: "The relationship between me and Zhao Mu for so many years is here, and there is no hurdle between us that we can't get over, so you can put a hundred and twenty hearts." ”

Seeing our respective statements, grandma nodded reassuringly, but still did not let go of my and Zhao Mu's hands, she said to us seriously: "In grandma's eyes, you are all grandchildren, no matter where you go in the future, how much you have achieved, you must keep the five words of home and prosperity in your heart...... That's my best hope for life! ”

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On the streets of this strange city, Zhao Mu and I walked side by side, we listened to my grandmother's words, found a barbecue stall on the side of the road, ordered a barrel of draft beer, and started a rare and indulgent nightlife.

Zhao Mu took me a full glass of beer, poured a full cup himself, and after touching one with me, he said to me sincerely: "Brother Qiao, some things before were that I was narrow-minded, so that I said a lot of bastard things to you, and I also made a lot of trouble...... I shouldn't be so stubborn, so I hope you can forgive me for my behavior and don't worry about my past stupidity! ”

I drank a large glass of beer, then patted him on the shoulder and replied, "Since it's a thing of the past, there's no need to take it out...... I'm sure that grandma's words just now also reached your heart, right? …… Although we haven't lived together all these years, we all have a tacit understanding of the family in our hearts! You know how rare this relationship is, you know me and I understand, so cherish it...... After all, no one knows if there will be a next life, and whether they can be brothers again! ”

"yes!"

Zhao Mu sighed, then held a beer glass and looked into the distance. He seemed to have a little bit on his mind, and just when I didn't guess whether it was good or bad, he drank the wine in the glass in one gulp, smiled and said to me, "Brother Qiao, I decided to be with Yu Xin." I also figured out that it is not easy to meet a woman who loves me like this in this life...... What's more, she is still a woman who has ideals and pursuits, and dares to achieve them! ”

I looked at him with some surprise.

He smiled and asked, "What, don't you want us to be together?" ”

"That's a good thing...... Yu Xin is indeed a very good girl, but I still hope that you are with her because you like her, otherwise it will not be fair to her. ”

"Since we have decided to be together, there must be something I like, and I feel that I can face up to the advantages in her now. This should be a kind of table xiàn like, right? ”

I let out a breath and replied, "Probably." ”

"What about you...... Is there any news of Xiao Ai? ”

My heart was low for a while, and I felt that there was nothing to hide from him, so I replied: "Some time ago, someone saw her in Hsinchu County, Taiwan...... You may not believe it...... She is already married to her senior brother Yuan Zhen, and I asked a friend to see the wedding over there...... It's all true, it's not a dream, it's not a lie spread by anyone! ”

As I spoke, I pulled out a wrinkled cigarette from the cigarette case, put it in my mouth and lit it, I raised my head and smoked it one by one...... Looking at the sky reflected red by the lights, it seems to have seen some information about Xiao Ai's past......

I lowered my head and pressed my temple again. I feel that my body has been hollowed out, and I don't know if it's right to use this numb ** to go to Taiwan to track her who is obviously gone?

After a while, I extinguished the cigarette in my hand, patted Zhao Mu's shoulder, and said to him as a passerby: "If one day, you are sure that you and Yu Xin have a true relationship, hurry up and get married...... Don't go my old way anymore......" Speaking of this, I stopped, and said in self-denial: "Hehe, think about it, you can't follow my old path, I am not confident in life, so I didn't dare to get married to her, so I missed it so completely...... You are different, you are destined to be the elite of society, so you and Yu Xin are also a good match. Since she is a talented woman, where will there be so many twists and turns...... As long as you cherish each other, in fact, there is nothing to miss between you at all! ”

As we spoke, a Mercedes Benz stopped beside us, and then a middle-aged man stepped out of the car, I seemed to have seen it somewhere, but I was not sure.

He walked up to me, took out a room card and bank card from his purse and said to me: "I am Mr. Yang's senior assistant, and these two cards are entrusted to me by Mr. Yang...... Mr. Yang knows that you have strong self-esteem, so you only have 20,000 yuan in your bank card...... She said that if you want to go to Taipei for a while, you must always have some money on you, even if she lent it to you...... When you come back from your distraction, you can return it to her according to your own ability...... The other is the room card of Metropark Hotel, which is booked for two months, and if you stay in Shanghai, you can come and stay at any time. ”

I didn't take the card, but replied with bad words: "Who told her that I was going to Taiwan?" ”

"I don't need you to sue Sù, she also knows a lot of things about you...... She's not as ruthless as you think, and she's just watching you in a way you don't really like...... You can keep these two cards, and I'll go back and settle with Mr. Yang...... If you still feel that this stalk can't get over in your heart, she said, you can not treat her as a mother, but as a friend...... You won't refuse a friend's kindness, right? ”

I subconsciously wanted to drop these two cards, but suddenly I felt deeply sorry for myself...... I can be pretentious in front of an outsider, and I am unwilling to accept the help of Yang Jin, my biological mother, but the 2 million commercial loan that Jin Qiu gave me, at this moment, don't I understand that it is also from Yang Jin's hand?

So, what qualifications do I have to be clear? Or, I have the confidence and ability to slap the 2 million together with interest in front of Yang Jin, and I will have nothing to do with her from now on?

I can't sell myself, so in front of Yang Jin and Jin Qiu, I'm a poor rice worm.

I was silent with grievances...... Zhao Mu beside me kept looking at me and the strange man with unknown eyes. Until this time, he didn't know that Yang Jin had returned, and he still had an identity so gorgeous that I didn't want to look at it directly!