It was already 12 o'clock in the middle of the night, and I had no intention of sleeping, so I just lay on the balcony railing and smoked a few cigarettes, muttered a few words to myself, and then changed my posture, leaned my back against the guardrail, closed my eyes and listened to the California Hotel song that came from nowhere, but I didn't feel that it was an interruption, I just felt that the night was quieter, so quiet that I had to lie in bed, even if I didn't sleep.

I opened my eyes and snuffed out the cigarette in my hand, only to find Qiao Ye standing on the balcony of the inn opposite, he was also smoking, and he was also listening attentively to the singing from a certain bar

I picked up a branch from the ground, threw it at him and said, "Hey, where are you going to go tomorrow, if the weather is good, let's go to the Jade Dragon Snow Mountain." ”

Qiao Ye didn't look at me, and kept maintaining a sideways posture and said to me, "I don't have the spirit to talk to you." ”

I wanted to play with him, so I picked up a branch and threw it at him and said, "Why don't you come and have a drink?"

"Idiot"

"Don't be angry with your buddies, okay, after you and Su Han separated, you got married, so why can't Su Han find another boyfriend in Lijiang?"

Qiao Ye looked at me for a long time before replying: "Yes, it's her freedom to do anything, just like Chen Yi had a boyfriend named Qiu Zi'an when she was in college, and you split a girl named Xiao Ai, this world has never been a fucking serious world, you are also a group of unserious bastards, as long as you settle the loneliness of moaning without illness in your heart, you dare to do anything immoral"

I was stunned by this passage and wanted to vomit blood, and then also scolded: "Don't fucking pretend to be a saint in front of me, in the past few years you have played bars and nightclubs, I don't believe that you have not done anything faceless, you are an old fritter, and my brother pretends to be a pure Xiaoice stick"

"Jiang Qiao, you coercion, brother, even if it's an old fritter, it's a Zheng Zheng man who has been tempered by oil, you are at best a maggot that splits his legs into a dung pit, me, phew"

"Stupid Fuck Me"

"I'm stupid, you're a stinky idiot, I'm stupid."

I was a little angry by Qiao Ye, I just mentioned to him where to go tomorrow, he not only degraded me to worthless, but also insulted me with this very vulgar behavior, which made me very unhappy, I wanted to turn over and fight with him, but I felt that I couldn't care about a person like him who had no self-knowledge and couldn't figure it out, so I gave up the urge to beat him, and spat on him directly, which relieved my hatred

Qiao Ye was still scolding there, but I gradually calmed down, in fact, neither of us is a good thing, if our story will be written into a book by someone who is full of food and support, then Qiao Ye and I will definitely be scolded by the audience, but if anyone is willing to really stand in our perspective, put themselves in the shoes of those who make us feel painful and helpless, maybe they will also sympathize with us as pitiful people, although there are also hateful things.

I have thought more than once: If I had a complete and wealthy family and a good education, I am afraid that if Chen Yi and I had been secretly in love with each other for so long, our family would have arranged this marriage for me a long time ago.

On the other hand, Qiao Ye, if he doesn't bear the reputation of the rich second generation and become a pawn at the mercy of his parents, it would be very good for him and Su Han to come to Lijiang to open a bar, so many people say that marriage is a matter of two families, which I can't believe it, because the best brothers around me, including myself, are acting like this, and we haven't even had time to fight, so we have already become cowards in the eyes of others.

Lying in bed, I couldn't sleep to enjoy the first night after coming to Lijiang, I just stared at the wooden ceiling above my head, thinking about the words Qiao Ye had just scolded me, and I seemed to have a solid reputation for splitting my legs in him, so much so that even I gradually believed that this was a fact.

I feel that my time has been very chaotic, and the purpose of coming to Lijiang is not just to accompany Qiao Ye to find Su Han, I want to empty my emotional world and let Yiqiē start from scratch, so I don't feel that I need love at this stage.

With that in mind, I turned my attention back to my career that I hadn't fully started yet. It's time for me to think about how to do my own wedding company next year, and the "mood coffee shop", I hope to find a better profit model, and in addition to profit, I hope it can become a belief in myself and some people's hearts, believing that love can actually be very pure, can be put aside from those material measures ** growth, although I am a complete failure in this regard, but I have not been disheartened.

I gradually got tired, and fell asleep after a while, and this night I dreamed again, but there was no Chen Yi and no Xiao Ai in the dream, only Lijiang's singing and dancing Shengping and the dreamlike smoke in my hand, I was very calm in the dream, very indifferent, and a little bit of joy, I think this is the Lijiang I want, people come and go, happy eyebrows and smiles, everyone is an angel, everyone is a demon of pastime.

The next day, I stayed in the inn where I lived, slept in the morning, made a pot of tea in the afternoon, and talked to the innkeeper about the experience of planting flowers and grass. In the middle, of course, I remembered that Xiao Ai would come to Lijiang, but I didn't force myself to have a chance encounter with her, although it was beautiful to think about, but I didn't want to sit on the man who split his legs in Qiao Ye's mouth, I felt that I had never betrayed Chen Yi in my soul, and anyone in Lijiang could come, anyone could go, even if we didn't meet, for Xiao Ai, it was also a relaxing trip, and she and I hadn't really been happy in the past six months.

After the day passed, I went to the Ice and Fire Bar again at night, and listened to the boss sing a few songs, I really like her singing, compared to Xiao Ai, although she is not so professional, but the vicissitudes of life contained in the voice, but people are more obsessed, I don't need to deliberately understand her, but her singing has poured out a plot full of loss and gain.

The owner is a very generous woman, I just bought a bottle of beer, but she gave me a cocktail, she said that meeting is fate, a cocktail is nothing. Actually, I knew she was sympathizing with me, because I was the only one who drank beer on this cold night, and I liked to drink beer, and even more so because beer was the cheapest drink here, even if it was cold.

Yes, I've always been so stingy, so even if it's hard to travel once, I didn't spend a lot of money, just a bowl of noodle soup at noon, the inn I stayed in was booked online in a group purchase, 120 a night, if I didn't like the singer of the proprietress very much, I probably wouldn't spend 50 yuan to buy this bottle of beer, anyway, in Lijiang, wherever I am, it's a kind of wandering.

Two days have passed in a blink of an eye, and Chen Yi also took a direct flight from Nanjing to Lijiang as scheduled, and she will arrive at about five o'clock in the evening, but to my surprise, Qin Miao did not come with her, and the reason for not coming is very unclear, although I asked Chen Yi, she didn't say anything to me. In this regard, I can only understand that Qin Miao's heart was deeply broken by Qiao Ye, and she had no way to convince herself to face Qiao Ye, a ruthless man, again.

At 4 o'clock, I went to the airport with the special bus, the plane was about a quarter of an hour late, I received Chen Yi at 5 o'clock, she didn't bring a lot of luggage, only a very small box, which proves that she won't stay here for long, she just came to Qiao Ye to ask for an explanation, she doesn't want to see Qin Miao sad, she doesn't want to see this marriage that has lasted for nearly three years broken.

I took the suitcase from her hand, and looked at her hair, although it was as clean and neat as before, it was already short, this short hair was not playful, it was still very dignified, this may be determined by her innate temperament, but I still felt a little lost, because over the years, I have become accustomed to the way her long hair looks, whether she is tied up in braids or draped in her hair, it is so kind and beautiful, and now it gives me some sense of distance. I dare to think that cutting her hair short is a kind of abandonment after the death of her heart, and I would rather it is her job needs.

Chen Yi was wearing sunglasses, and I wasn't sure if she was looking at me as well, until she opened her mouth and asked me, "Why are you looking at me like this?"

"Your hair is cut short, I'm a little unused to it."

She finally took off her sunglasses, looked at me and said, "I am reluctant to cut off the hair that I have kept for so many years, but people always have to change, to try something new, I think cutting my hair short, I will cut off my troubles, maybe it is a new beginning."

I subconsciously touched my short hair, which was only finger long, and then laughed at myself and replied: "If I think like you, the person standing in front of you at this time should be a monk, so it seems that cutting off your hair is really a change in life, from red dust to six clean."

"I'd love to see you cut your head bald."

I smiled, it seemed like the first time we had spoken in a joking tone since we broke up, we were all too depressed before, but was it a sign that we could be friends again

I'm not sure, I just remember Chen Yi once said to me heartbreakingly that we must be the kind of couple who can never be friends again after breaking up.

Or, in this unbearable pain, she finally selectively forgets, forgetting that we have been together, forgetting that she was my Jiangqiao's girlfriend.

If that's the case, then I accept it, because there's no better ending than this.

I took Chen Yi into the scenic spot, but my mood has changed, I just feel that our short time together is an illusion, and I Jiangqiao is still the same as before, I will lose my temper with her, and I will silently love her, pay attention to her every move, and smile.

Night has come, and all kinds of lights are lit up in the ancient city, with different colors, but without exception, they tug at people's heartstrings. Along the way, Chen Yi and I have met too many couples snuggling up to each other on street benches, and I subconsciously approached Chen Yi at this time, and then grabbed the belt of her blue long coat with my hand

Just this action, the tourists passing by cast envious glances at me, and I was ashamed of it, because Chen Yi was not my girlfriend at the moment, but she was so prominent in the noisy crowd that she was so beautiful that she could satisfy any man's more or less vanity.

The further up he went, the more difficult the road became, Chen Yi stopped, and then looked at the pair of red high heels he was wearing on his feet

"I'll buy you a pair of cloth shoes, the road up there is not easy to walk."

"I have a pair of sneakers in my box, you hold me, I'll change them."

I nodded, Chen Yi then took out a pair of white flats from her suitcase, she held my shoulders, and then took off her high heels, but she couldn't stand firm after all, and she stumbled and was about to fall, so I hurriedly reached out and hugged her

I swear, this is definitely different from the bloody routine in the TV series, because we are no longer the kind of men and women who need this kind of chance to stimulate affection, we have loved and lived together, but at the moment when I held her, I still had a feeling of hugging the whole world, I didn't want to let go of her, I kept looking at her face, and our breaths were about to merge

This unexpected hug seemed to break through a qiē delusion, a qiē disguise and disguise, because I once again really saw Chen Yi's tears overflowing from her eyes, her uninjured right hand tightly pinched my arm, in the night that only us, in the blurred night