In the midst of all the distorted expressions and heavy breathing on the scene, I only cared about everything Xiao Ai said to me. At this moment, my heart is broken, but I also grow a pair of winged pounds, this winged pound is free, it will take my broken heart and my loved ones, break through the iron net woven by reality, and fly to the bluest sky.

This time, I just gently put down the kitchen knife, then took Xiao Ai's hand, looked at all the people present with a calm gaze, and said: "You like to set standards for love, that's your business, all I pursue is that little thought in my heart." Now, I will take Xiao Ai away and go out of this door, if anyone dares to put a cold arrow in the back, don't blame me Jiangqiao Liuqin for not recognizing ......"

I looked at all the people in the room as I spoke, and then left the room without looking back.

However, apart from the freedom to break through the shackles, it was pitch black before my eyes. I don't know if there is such a light that can guide me up the river of life with no end in sight.

I was a little flustered, but when I felt the temperature coming from Xiao Ai's hand, I found motivation in an instant. I just took her hand and stopped at the door of the noisiest bar.

In the bar, the carnival party for the upcoming wedding was still going on, and I once again saw the bright smiles of the man and woman through the window, and Xiao Ai and I were lost in their smiles, not knowing where to go.

In the flickering light, I lowered my head and smiled, and finally asked Xiao Ai beside me, "Do you envy the pair of men and women in the window?" …… They're getting married, rightly so. ”

Xiao Ai looked at it a little distractedly, and only replied after a long time: "I can't be envious." ”

"Then would you like to go back to Nanjing with me now? …… If you want, I'll go and borrow a car from a friend right now and we'll drive back. ”

Xiao Ai glanced into the window again, then nodded. At this time, I also abandoned all distractions in my mind, I asked Xiao Ai to stay where I was, and I went to the manager of the bar and borrowed a Cruze with a Shanghai license plate from him.

After getting the car, I didn't stop for a moment, driving this borrowed car, like a gust of fresh breeze on the highway to Nanjing.

……

The night is getting deeper and deeper, and even on the busiest Shanghai-Nanjing Expressway, there are very few vehicles passing by, and Xiao Ai has been holding my hand and never letting go of it along the long way, and we all seem to hear each other's hearts because of this intimacy. I know she loves me and hasn't changed, and so do I. So we don't need to say much anymore, all we have to face is whether we can be together.

After three hours of driving, we finally got off the highway and entered the city of Nanjing. I pulled over, looked at her and said, "Don't talk about it in the future, are you willing to go with me anywhere tonight?" ”

"I can go anywhere, as long as I'm with you."

"Okay, let's go to the cemetery where grandma is now, are you afraid?"

Xiao Ai shook his head, not even a hint of fear...... She really won't be afraid, because we, who are covered in thorns, don't even care about death, how can we be afraid of a cemetery, not to mention that there is a grandmother who once regarded her as a granddaughter-in-law and treasured.

Maybe Xiao Ai will not know until now what it means for her grandmother to give her a thousand yuan for the New Year's money that year, but I know that grandma needs to get up early and go to bed late to do manual work for two months, and in grandma's eyes, Xiao Ai and I have long been all in her life.

Thinking of this, I pressed the window of the car, then lit a cigarette, and it was not until I was about to finish smoking that I closed my eyes and said to Xiao Ai beside me: "There are some things that I may not say, but when I think of the last days of my grandmother's life, my heart is like being pierced by a thousand steel needles...... I know that the person she wants to see the most is you, because ...... Because when I was finally sorting out her belongings, I found under her pillow the P3 you had given her, and there were a few songs you recorded for her......"

As I spoke, I opened my eyes to look at her again and asked, "Do you remember those songs?" ”

Tears couldn't stop falling from Xiao Ai's eyes, her nails were almost embedded in my flesh, she choked up and said to me, "I remember, always remember...... That day, my grandmother told me that it was the most precious gift she had ever received in her life, and I thought she was just polite...... I didn't expect that in the end, it was this P3 who accompanied her through her life...... I'm sorry for her, I should come back to see her one last time...... Maybe if I come back, Yuan Zhen won't die in an accident, and at least everything seems to have room for redemption......"

I gently held her in my arms and whispered in her ear, "I'm not telling you this to make you feel guilty, let alone repentant...... I just want you to know that even though the whole world is against us being together, in Grandma's heart, you are the girl she approves...... Although she also persuaded me when she was leaving, asking me to consider living with Jin Qiu, this was only based on feeling sorry for my loneliness...... In the bottom of her heart, she still longs for me to find you, because that P3 is a silent reminder, can you understand? ”

This time, Xiao Ai replied after a long time: "You go to the cemetery first...... I'm going to calm down. ”

……

After nearly forty minutes of driving, I drove to the parking lot in front of the cemetery, and it was pitch black except for the row of spotlights at the main entrance, but I was not afraid at all. I looked at the watch I was wearing on my wrist, and then said to Xiao Ai, "Let's sleep here for a while, and then we'll go in when it's dawn." ”

Xiao Ai put the co-pilot's seat down completely, and so did I. We lay side by side, outside the sunroof of the car, there was a large twinkling starry sky, which made me not in the mood to sleep at all, and I imagined that above that starry sky, there would be a world without separation and farewell.

After a long silence, it was Xiao Ai who opened her mouth first, and she asked me softly, "Jiang Qiao, do you know which song grandma likes to hear me sing the most?" ”

I tried to remember, but I couldn't remember at all, because when we went to see my grandmother together, they would tear me apart when we talked about it, so I didn't know what she was singing.

Xiao Ai turned to look at me, then smiled and replied, "It's Miss Teresa Teng's on the water side." ”

I was a little surprised and said, "I thought it was Huangmei Opera!" Although Teresa Teng's song is very old, it is not something that grandma would listen to in that era, she is an old lady who has experienced the defense of Nanjing! ”

After I finished speaking, Xiao Ai's face showed a look of reminiscence, and after a while, he said to me: "That day, grandma chatted with me, and she said: Girl, listen to our family Jiangqiao, you are a singer, what songs do you sing...... Will Huangmei Opera be? ......" Speaking of this, Xiao Ai smiled, and when he spoke again, his voice was much lighter: "I told her that I can't sing Huangmei Opera, but I like Miss Teresa Teng the most, and then she asked me to sing it, and I thought about it, so I picked this one of my favorite ...... on the water side."

Before Xiao Ai finished speaking, I interrupted and said, "I want to hear it, can you sing it to me now?" ”

"Hmm."

After getting Xiao Ai's response, I pillowed my arms and looked at the starry sky through the skylight, I wanted to adjust my mood and listen to Xiao Ai sing this grandmother's favorite song again.

"The grass is green, the white fog is boundless, and there is a beautiful woman, on the side of the water; The grass is green, the white mist is blurred, and there is a beautiful woman who lives by the water; I would like to swim upstream, snuggling up to her, but there is a dangerous shoal ahead, and the road is long and long; I'd like to go down the river and find her way. But I saw the Buddha in the middle of the water; I would like to swim against the tide and talk softly to her. There are dangerous shoals in front of it, and the road is tortuous; I would like to go down the river and follow her footsteps. But she seemed to be standing in the water. The grass is green, the white fog is vast, and there is a beautiful woman, ...... on the water side"

Xiao Ai's voice is a little thinner than Teresa Teng's, but this does not affect her interpretation of this song into my heart. I had a feeling as if she was singing about herself, and it made me kind of unable to get out of the song.

"Jiang Qiao, do you know why I like Miss Teresa Teng so much?"

I came back to my senses and looked at her, and then replied: "Is it because she is a famous diva in the Chinese music scene?" ”

"No, there are many so-called divas, but Teresa Teng has only one...... Have you noticed that there is no resentment in her songs, she never dyes the emotions of the listeners, and does not make the melancholy more melancholy, and the desperate more desperate...... Although, dyeing other people's emotions is a shortcut to win love, pushing people on the edge of the emotional abyss, and making people remember you for the rest of their lives, but she can't do it...... Before, I didn't quite understand, but after going through so much, I gradually realized that this is a kind of morality! ”

I looked at Xiao Ai knowingly, and I felt that she said this not only to praise Teresa Teng, but also to convey to me an emotion, and this emotion contained her decision.