I turned my head and watched in silence at the non-stop rain outside the door, and the wet mood made people not get angry. After a moment of calmness, I turned around and walked straight to the table, saying, "Let's finish eating first!" Anyway, it's the first time you've come to my place, so you can't go back on an empty stomach! ”

Ling Xi didn't say anything more, she saw my evasive attitude and became panicked.

I filled Ling Xi with a bowl of porridge, added some sugar to her bowl, and said with a little apology: "If you don't have a meal, you can only use sugar." ”

Ling Xi nodded, and said softly, "It's okay, I'll eat anything!" ”

……

During the whole meal, Ling Xi's mood had been unstable, and I knew that she must have been panicked before she got my affirmative answer, and such a presumptuous statement had already exceeded her bottom limit. In the end, she is just a woman, and she is different from nursery rhymes and Sun Mengwen, sensitive and vulnerable.

The lunch, which was not considered lunch, was finally eaten in the silence of the two, and we didn't say a word except for the sound of drinking porridge during the whole process.

……

After the meal, Ling Xi cleaned up the dishes and chopsticks, insisting on washing the dishes, and how familiar such a scene is, in the past, Ling Xi always rushed to help my mother wash the dishes after eating at my house. After such a long time, I actually feel a little strange that she is making such a familiar reaction now.

I didn't shirk it, I didn't want to choose to ostracize her because of something, especially now. Everyone has their own pain that they don't want to share with others, so they can only choose to hide, choose to bear alone, cry alone, grieve alone, and then, a person slowly transforms, gradually forgets, becomes a memory, and no longer cares. But after all, it's just a person's feeling, except for your heartbeat, who will understand how much joy and how much sadness is in your story?

I turned the temperature of the air conditioner to a high level, hung Ling Xi's clothes in the house, and sent her home when the clothes were dry.

……

The temperature in the room was a little high, and I sat under the eaves with a stool and nursery rhymes, and the two of us still didn't speak much.

Ling Xi looked at the water droplets dripping from the eaves in a daze, her eyes never left the splash of the raindrops on the ground, I knew that she was preoccupied......

"Are you cold, do you want me to bring you another piece of clothing to put on?"

"No, I'm not cold! Hu Kai...... If you want to smoke, you can smoke, I know you will be uncomfortable if you don't smoke, I will not selfishly ask you to do this and that in the future, I am not qualified! ”

I suddenly had a feeling of being tired of coping, because every time I talked to Ling Xi, I would always be unconsciously brought into her thoughts, so that I was so passive that I couldn't help but interrupt: "Don't say this, it's all over, just let it pass!" ”

"But the memories of the past are still fresh in our minds......"

I didn't refute it, and said: "Actually, I'm not a good recorder, but I like to look back more than anyone else on the way I came. I lost you on the way, powerlessly watching the changes of the years, now the memory in my heart, that respect, will only become more beautiful and valuable with the passage of time, recalling the beautiful memories of your and me, maybe this is the best. ”

"Didn't you ever believe in love? Sometimes I also hate, why did you leave for so long and didn't come back, and a few days after I met Liu Kai, you came back after being drunk by him and bed, and came back so suddenly, I was at a loss. ”

I clenched my fists, gurgled and said angrily: "You are deliberately angry with me because of this, when I went to a taste of Tianxiang?" ”

"I was surprised to meet you at the police station at that time, even if you promised me to forgive my mistakes, I can't forgive myself, the better you treat me, the deeper my guilt, after waiting for eight years, I suddenly became nothing, I also hated, because I used to believe in love so much......"

My heart was stunned, but it didn't react to my face in the slightest, just sighed lightly: "I used to believe in love, but there is no legend of grass growing and warblers flying in this city, it will always live in our imaginary sky, fast drumbeats, hurried figures, numb eyes, false smiles, and I am being assimilated, just as resolutely as you left." ”

Ling Xi looked at me and lowered his head again, the reason why I said it so decisively was because I didn't want to tie up our present and torture each other's future because of our past.

"Hu Kai, I miss the one who didn't say anything to us in the past, I owe you, I will find a way to pay you back."

"You didn't lose any money to me, didn't he take you to Singapore, why did you come back alone, what about Liu Kai's calf?"

"He had something going on in Singapore, he broke the law, and he might stay there for a year and a half, and I had no relatives there, so I came back alone."

"There are really things in this world that money can't settle down, so you plan to be such a person, your belly is getting bigger day by day, and you are being pointed at?" I said that because I was bored, I subconsciously took a cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it.

"The clothes should be dry too, send me back, I want to go back."

I knew that Ling Xi didn't want to talk to me about this anymore, so he was silent for a long time and nodded, although the rain was still falling.

I agreed to Ling Xi's request because I didn't want her to see my downfall at this time, and then increase my psychological burden. I don't want the two of us to torture each other and force each other to laugh like this anymore.

……

There was silence along the way, and we really became so speechless that we suddenly thought of an unknown little poem: Tomorrow's tomorrow, forever forever / The gorgeous youth broke the thread / whose pencil drew the oath of youth on the white paper / knew that it could not be realized, but before turning around it burst into tears / The playground in the sun, your smiling face, like yesterday can only be missed / Time passed through the left side of the face and forgot to say goodbye / Once upon a time, just on that rainy day that can no longer be remembered / The temperature went away from your fingertips.

In order to break the embarrassing situation, I turned on the car music, but the song "The Stone That Hurts" jumped out of Xiao Jingteng, worried that the lyrics in it would arouse Ling Xi's uneasiness again, I hurriedly reached out to close it, but Ling Xi pulled my hand away and said, "Listen to it!" I'm not fragile enough to crash when I listen to a song. ”

"Running through the intersection of the red light, we laughed and turned back together, without deliberately doing anything, the two hearts will overflow with happiness, how to think about how it looks like a dream, small beauty, big touching. How many autumn and winters have passed, reduced to summer movies, and can only be replayed with nostalgia. We are two stones that will hurt, cracked after the violent collision, we will never understand what it means to admit mistakes, I still want to love but turn around and let go, I feel sorry for you You are a stone that will hurt, I want to hug you but I am confused and silent, my stubborn expression flashed with loss, your tears hurt me, my romance is too unqualified......"

After a song was played, we didn't find a suitable topic to talk about, and I took advantage of Ling Xi's distraction and quickly turned off the music.

……

Ling Xi had been watching the windshield wipers move up and down frequently, looking tired and painful, and I didn't know how to comfort them, I suddenly felt that this was very different from the scene when we first met, both of them had aphasia, and they didn't say a word......

Ling Xi was beside me, and as my gaze looked out, he looked at me again and said, "Hu Kai, what if we meet again next time?" ”

My heart tightened, my stomach was sour, my heart seemed to fall into a purgatory, and bursts of pain that could not be soothed instantly surged all over my body......

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