I walked along the eaves to the gate of the courtyard and explained, "Nursery rhyme, you just came back after sending the message?" I was going to pick you up later, but I'm sorry, I forgot about it today. ”

The nursery rhyme couldn't see the joy and anger, shook his head and said to me with a very flat expression: "It's okay, I'm just coming back to get some things, I'll leave immediately, you're busy with you, right?" ”

"Last time you said you liked lilies and roses, the flowers should have been delivered, right? Did you open the wish post-it note? "I couldn't find a topic for a while, so I could only test the mood of nursery rhymes through these little things.

The nursery rhyme was unmoved, and said with a smile: "I'll tell you the truth, in fact, I don't like things like flower surprises, that note was lost last time I changed my hospital gown, I'm sorry!" ”

I just nodded slightly, grinning hard, smiling to cover up my mistakes and embarrassment, but I didn't dare to express too much emotion, I could only watch the nursery rhyme pass by me, and I didn't know what words to use to persuade me.

Ling Xi stood at the door with his clothes draped and looked at me, his face full of apology and self-blame, and said in a slightly hoarse voice: "Hu Kai, shouldn't I come, the nursery rhyme that lives opposite you seems to have misunderstood." ”

I didn't want to see Ling Xi have a psychological burden because of my affairs, so I comforted: "I'm fine, just take care of yourself, drink this ginger soup!" ”

Ling Xi was silent...... I thought it was my lack of subtlety that caused her to be silent and uneasy, but just when I was in awkward and uneasy, she suddenly asked me, "Are you dating?" My instinct tells me that the nursery rhyme seems to like you very much, and I will explain it to her so that there is no misunderstanding between you. ”

"We don't have anything to do with each other, don't worry about it, there's a lot of moisture outside, you go to the bed and lie down!"

Ling Xi stuffed the ginger soup into my hand, rolled up my fat pajama pants, and walked down the corridor to the nursery rhyme room, and I vaguely felt that something was wrong, so I put down the ginger soup and hurriedly followed.

"Hello nursery rhyme, my name is Ling Xi!"

The nursery rhyme didn't look back, and was busy packing her suitcase, but just said: "I know, we have met at the Public Security Bureau, and we have also met at the Jinghu Restaurant." ”

"I want to explain to you today's events, in fact, I have nothing to do with Hu Kai, it's just that he has been dating us for many years, watching me walk alone in the rain, kindly giving me a ride, you must not be angry, in fact, Hu Kai's personality I still know, she is good to everyone, you should be clear about this now."

Tong Yao turned around and walked to Ling Xi's side, and said in a very serious tone: "First, I want to emphasize one thing, I don't know what kind of mood you are in to explain this matter to me, it doesn't matter, but I want to say that it seems a bit inappropriate for you to come to report to me about Hu Kai's matter, right?" Second, I'm very busy now, if I don't have anything to say, I won't say hello, you better take care of yourself, otherwise Hu Kai will be distressed. ”

Ling Xi smiled, then walked up to me and took my hand and said, "Then you clean up quickly, I won't bother you on a rainy day, Hu Kai, I'll make you here at noon today, my best pickled pepper chicken feet for you to eat, okay?" ”

I didn't want to answer, but Ling Xi looked at me with pleading eyes, I seemed to be able to feel Ling Xi's breathing that became rapid while waiting, and finally stopped hesitating, nodded and said, "Okay!" ”

The nursery rhyme changed to the door: "Tom, come and help me carry the box and lock the door!" ”

I knew that I was facing the boredom of sweeping the floor, and when I stood outside the door, the nursery rhyme just took out a box of watermelon cream lozenges from my pocket, stuffed them into my hand and said: "Yesterday you kept screaming that your throat hurts, and today you were discharged from the hospital to help you by the way, pay attention to your throat inflammation!" ”

I didn't know what to say for a while, I just kept nodding my head, wanting to reach out and hold the nursery rhyme, but I didn't dare to make it again, I didn't deserve it.

……

The rain still kept falling, and the nursery rhyme stood in the yard for a while with an umbrella, wiped her eyes with the back of her hand, turned her head to look at me, and then got in the car and left without looking back.

After the nursery rhyme had been gone for a long time, I went back to the house, and Ling Xi continued to lie on the bed in a daze. I put the rice cooker in my room, cooked some porridge, and then I squatted alone in the doorway and smoked, one after the other. If fire is a symbol of rebirth, then the man who smokes should be the phoenix of Nirvana, reborn in the throes, tears, and screams. chose to smoke, and chose the poignancy of this destruction.

"Gu Yuekai, I feel dizzy when I smell smoke, can you put out the smoke? You still haven't quit yet, huh? ”

"Good!" I could no longer arouse the interest of arguing, so I extinguished the cigarette butt and got up and went back into the house.

Ling Xi seemed to have noticed the difference from before, he just looked at me in surprise, but didn't ask me why, and then continued to lose his mind.

……

The pot of porridge had been boiling for a long time, and the lid of the rice cooker had been lifted many times before I remembered that it was time for lunch. It wasn't until the porridge was served that I realized that we didn't have any dishes and chopsticks, so I decided to go out and buy some.

As soon as he got up, Ling Xi saw my embarrassment, and said apologetically: "Hu Kai, it's already very troublesome to you, you don't have to buy it, I can't eat it." ”

"It's okay, I'll just buy it, wait for me here, you are in a special period now, you can't be sloppy." After saying that, I hurried out the door.

On the way, the rain soaked my dry trouser legs again. I often wonder how many times I have to miss out in my life to find the right person and grow old together. I often can't forget some things, today's walking, tomorrow's searching, are like continuing the memory of yesterday.

For Ling Xi, I have never been able to understand myself as an outsider who is on the sidelines, what is it to be with her like this now? Maybe it's friendship, maybe it's love, or even some indescribable little emotions. Reality chased me, and I had to search all the way to find that original source.

But I wondered, what if I found it?

I just know that I can't find it, I am unwilling, and I can't help but embark on the road of tomorrow, but I ignore the people around me. For example, the wounded nursery rhyme......

When I came out of the supermarket, it was almost a little closer, and I had changed my usual life, and I felt that I had no concept of time.

I originally wanted to take advantage of Ling Xi's departure and seal everything related to her as a kind of commemorative commemoration in the future. Remembering the years that have long been lost, remembering the happiness and joy that we once had, I wanted to stop repeating the pain and memories every day, and no longer feel the pain for the pictures that tugged at the heartstrings, but she stood in front of me so fragile today that I didn't even have the courage to push her away.

I thought of the nursery rhyme again, and thought of her lying in my arms a few days ago and saying that she was afraid to return to the villa in Sanyi Garden, and that she was afraid of the coming of night and did not dare to turn off the lights all night. But today she is still so resolute, without a trace of rearsight, she may have really been hurt......

……

Back at the residence, Ling Xi was curled up in the corner of the wall alone, leaning against the wall with his legs crossed. When he saw me open the door and come in, he hurriedly wiped his tears.

Seeing such a scene, I could only pretend to be relaxed and said: "Why did your personality become so fragile, I have the impression that you don't seem to cry as much as you have today in a few years, and you wipe your tears when you are idle and bored, what kind of disease is this?" ”

"Hu Kai, was I very willful before, do you think I was too bad to you some time ago?"

"It's sad, but I know it's not the real you, it's all over. Shedding tears as in the past is a kind of remembrance. But even if you shed tears, you can't go back to the past. I said, half-comforting, half-self-deprecating.

As soon as I finished speaking, Ling Xi lifted the quilt, jumped off the bed barefoot, rushed to me, wiped her tears and stopped choking and asked me, "Hu Kai, if I kill the child and I go to have hymen repair surgery, are you still willing to accept me?" You loved me so much before, will you love me now? ”

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