Mi Cai just shrunk in my arms, this kind of snuggling, really made us feel warm, my heart gradually calmed down, and then fell into infatuation.

"Zhaoyang, your heart is not beating!"

Mi Cai seemed to have been listening to my heartbeat, but this sentence startled me, and I hurriedly felt my pulse, which was very stable, proving that I still had a heartbeat.

was just about to speak, but Mi Cai took the initiative to correct what he had just said: "Don't be nervous, it's slow!" ”

"What am I nervous about, it's you who should be nervous! …… If I don't have a heartbeat, are you afraid? ”

Mi Cai left my body, then looked at me and nodded.

I smiled and shook my head, exclaiming, "You're so daring! ”

Mi Cai looked away, and after a long time, he whispered: "What I'm afraid of is not facing a corpse, but ...... The world is without you! ”

The world was suddenly quieter, so quiet that I could hear her heartbeat, my heartbeat, and I felt that at this moment my well-built fortress suddenly cracked and then showed signs of collapse.

But he smiled and asked, "You care about me very much...... Is it? ”

If Mi Cai nods at this moment, I will hug her again, even if it is just a rhetorical question, "What about you, do you care about me?" I'll also say "yes, yes" and hug her.

But she didn't answer, and then her phone rang, breaking the silence and bringing me back to my senses in an instant.

Mi Cai took out her mobile phone from her pocket, as if it was a WeChat voice, and then heard CC's voice: "Honey, have you slept?" ”

Mi Cai went back: "Not yet, is there something wrong?" ”

"It's about to be the New Year, and I want to ask you where you are spending this year."

Mi Cai just wanted to answer, but I held down the phone to prevent her from sending voice messages, and then said to her: "Don't answer CC first, I have something to tell you." ”

Mi Cai looked puzzled: "What's the matter?" ”

"Daddy said: If you are lonely for the New Year, go back to Xuzhou with me, our family will be very lively during the New Year."

After I finished speaking, I looked at Mi Cai very sincerely, but there was a hesitation on her face, and she said to me after a while: "Thank you for your kindness, I am going to the United States for the Chinese New Year this year...... Wei Ran has not left, just waiting for me to finish the company's affairs! ”

My heart suddenly seemed to have fallen into an ice cellar, and it took me a while to recover, and then I said to Mi Cai in a joking tone: "Is he unsuccessful in confessing in China, and is he ready to transfer the battlefield and do it again?" After all, the United States is his home turf, and it will add points......"

Mi Cai ignored my jokes and said: "Her mother is very good to me, she has always taken good care of me in the United States, and there are some American friends, who have been back to China for a long time, and I miss them a little. ”

Mi Cai's words made me realize: She has to go to the United States, and I have no reason to keep her, but why is my heart so uncomfortable?

In my silence, Mi Cai finally pressed the voice button of her mobile phone again and said to CC: "This year I went to the United States for the New Year. ”

Soon CC replied: "Oh, I thought you were staying in Suzhou!" ”

"What about you? Are you going back to your hometown? ”

"My parents have gone to Hong Kong for the Chinese New Year, and I will stay in Suzhou this year."

Mi Cai thought for a while and said, "Why don't you go to the United States with me, and you should be distracted!" ”

I suddenly longed in my heart that CC could agree, with her by Mi Cai's side, at least I would have Mi Cai's news, but CC replied with a message that disappointed me: "Honey, I won't go, I suddenly want to go to Beijing to find Robben and Le Yao, or there is an atmosphere for the New Year in China!" ”

"Alright then, I wish you a happy new year in advance!"

"Well, you have to be happy too, dear!"

This is the end of the conversation between CC and Mi Cai, but my world is cool, and I seem to have no interest in anything but smoking, so I take out a cigarette from the cigarette case and light it, and Mi Cai is like Janeway, no longer tired of the smoke that keeps coming out of my mouth.

I consciously stayed away from her, found a bar chair in another corner and sat down, and forgot that before coming to the bar, I wanted to invite her to sing the song "Knowing My Heart".

Micai put the guitar back in the box, and I knew it was a sign that it was time for us to leave, and then end the night together.

Sure enough, she said to me: "Zhaoyang, I'm leaving, do you want to be together?" ”

"It's not going by the way, you go first."

Mi Cai nodded and walked to the door, but stopped again and said to me, "It's late, you can go too!" ”

I smiled and replied, "I'll take a look at today's accounts, and I'll be fine in a while, please help me turn on the lights at the bar." ”

Mi Cai turned on the bar lights for me, looked at me again, and finally left the bar with the newly bought guitar on his back.

……

I was a little choked, so I snuffed out the cigarette in my hand, lit another one, and then opened the POS machine at the bar to check today's accounts.

The night was already deep and seemed to be approaching dawn, and after the account, I finally returned to the small stage, and then sat cross-legged on the ground, accompanied by only the guitar that was almost no longer mine.

I was a little tired, so I lay down next to the guitar, but my consciousness suddenly cleared up, and I thought of Janeway again.

If we loved it back then, what would it look like now?

I don't know, but I remember that we used to take love as a belief and love it to madness!

I know: in that failed love, I lost my faith and gained frustration...... I can't go after the next love with pure heat.

Wait, do I still believe in love now?

I don't have an answer, because there is no love at all in my current world, and Li Xiaoyun, the only one who comes together, doesn't seem to have anything to do with love, it's more like a haven after being tired of life!

I sat up from the floor, took out my phone, and took a picture of the guitar that had been with me for many years.

Holding the guitar in his hand again, he plucked the strings gently, but he couldn't hold himself, and when it was almost dawn, a person sang the song "elopement" hoarsely.

However, who did I elope with, my life was only left with me, and I felt lonely!

……

The next day, I slept until noon before waking up, I didn't even want to eat lunch, I was going to sleep until the afternoon, but I received a call from Aji, he couldn't wait for me to give him the guitar, I said I hadn't gotten up yet, and he said to come to my place to pick it up, which made me not understand, I'm afraid he didn't have such a strong desire for his wife at night! But he still agreed to his request to come and get it.

After waking up, just after washing up, before I had time to make myself a bowl of noodles, Aggie had already rushed to my accommodation, and after I opened the door for him, his eyes went straight to the guitar I was placing next to the sofa, and then ran over with a smile on his face, and picked up the guitar like a baby.

"Zhaoyang, you won't regret it, I heard Xiao Wu say that this guitar was given to you by your first girlfriend!"

Without waiting for me to answer, he said, "If we say that we can't chase the horse, we can't go back!" ”

I tore open the bucket and poured boiling water into it, and then said to him, "I'm like a repentant, you take the guitar, and never appear in front of me again!" ”

Aji smiled wryly and said, "We all play music, and a guitar that has been with us for many years means nothing more than that...... I shouldn't have liked it, but I really like this guitar so much......"

I interrupted and said, "You already told me the same thing yesterday, can you control your old girl-like mouth, chatter, chatter!" ”

Aji didn't pay attention to it, and played with the guitar again, so he couldn't put it down, and suddenly put the guitar into the box and said to me: "Zhaoyang, I still have some things to do in my piano shop, so I'll take this guitar first...... I'm sorry, brother! After speaking, he disappeared in front of me like stepping on a hot wheel, and the speed was not weaker than that of the original landlord Lao Li!

Looking at the back of Aggie leaving with his guitar on his back, my heart was suddenly emptied, and this emptiness came so suddenly that I was unprepared.

I seem to see the picture of me singing in the CC restaurant in the middle of winter again, when Janeway will be by my side no matter how late it is, and I always use this guitar to make fun of her.

Now that I've finally lost this guitar, the fullness of my past seems to have been lost, and I'm so empty that I seem to have only a shell left, but who can save the shrunken soul in that shell?

No one can save me, I can only save myself, so I hurriedly lit a cigarette for myself, but in the smoke I thought of Mi Cai again, remembered that she was about to go to the United States with Wei Ran, and immediately my heart seemed to be even more empty...... It was so empty that it was like losing my soul, so much so that I didn't even notice that the bowl of noodles was soaked!

It wasn't until the door was opened, and it wasn't until Mi Cai was standing in front of me again with his suitcase in tow that I woke up from my trance......