The wall fell down and everyone pushed it, in fact, I had long expected such an ending, the reason why Janeway's advertising agency will grow savagely this year is entirely because of her prominent family background, and now that the family is broken, the foundation of the maintenance is lost, based on this, the same thing will make her climb higher than others, and it will also make her fall worse than others!

I finally said to Yan Yan: "I know where she is, I'm going to find her now, you go back to rest early, you just had surgery, don't suffer from the cold!" ”

Yan Yan subconsciously looked at her stomach, there was no longer the child she used to be, the corners of her eyes were moist, my concern touched her sad past, I hugged her shoulders apologetically, and said softly: "Don't think about this matter anymore, only by finding the right man, the child will be happy when he is born, you are not wrong, it is Fang Yuan who is wrong, he will definitely be punished." ”

Yan Yan looked at me: "Zhaoyang, I would rather he not be retributed, just survive in the life he wants"

"Don't you hate him?"

"Hate but we have lived together for 7 years, I also love him and let him go, at least he also wanted to keep that child, he still has us in his heart for 7 years, just forget it, there is no need to talk about it again, you go to Weiwei, call me as soon as you find it."

"Well, you should also be safe when driving on the road."

Saying goodbye to Yan Yan, I didn't leave immediately, I stood in front of a snack bar selling hot dry noodles outside the street, lit a cigarette, breathed, felt that the air here was still so humid, and I didn't like the smell of gasoline in the air, and I didn't like the mood of revisiting this old place, when I stepped on the inch of the city again, I was an untenable person, I seemed to be able to see the soul swaying left and right in my body!

I finally threw away the cigarette butt and reached out to hail a taxi, the destination was the moat that I had been to countless times, maybe Janeway would go there, she would definitely be there, but there, she was ostracized by the whole world, and she had nowhere to go!

The taxi drove me out of the city that seemed to have been imaginary, and I finally came to the edge of the moat, the familiar river still flowing with no end in sight, it seemed to call gently, and it seemed to tell the reflection of the moon about desire, which once made Janeway and Janeway think of this place as a real paradise.

After walking a few steps, I saw the familiar figure, sitting on the guardrail, facing the flowing river, and she had a bottle of liquor in her hand, she raised her hand to take a sip, and coughed violently, grasping the top of the guardrail with one hand to prevent herself from falling into the river, but the saliva and wine that had fallen from her mouth because of her sadness had already flowed away with the river

I stood behind her silently, and then pulled the wine bottle out of her hand, annoyance seemed to be her subconscious expression, she looked back at me and her expression suddenly froze on her face, and then pointed at me drunkly and smiled, "Zhaoyang, I'm dreaming!" It must be a dream, how could you come! Her right hand was on my shoulder, and her left hand tried to snatch the bottle from my hand

I reached out and grabbed her left arm to prevent her from succeeding, and at the same time threw the bottle into the river, she looked at me even more angrily, and reached out to slap me in the face, I subconsciously avoided it, and took her off the guardrail, she drank so much strong wine, it was too dangerous to sit like this.

She looked at me and smiled, and sighed, "Am I stupid?" I can't even tell the difference between reality and dreaming, if only I was really dreaming, then I could throw all the pain in my dream and wake up, I'm still the same empty-eyed Janeway! ”

"I know you don't want to face it, but you're really not dreaming!"

Jian Wei looked at me with a confused look, and she staggered and stood unsteadily: "It's not a dream, it's not a dream, so what are you going to do?" Aren't you supposed to live the life you want in Xuzhou? ”

"I can't rest assured when I heard your news, I rushed to Suzhou overnight, you look worse than I thought, do you know how dangerous you are just now? You could fall into the river at any moment! ”

Janeway suddenly tugged at my collar, dragged me to the guardrail again, leaned over to look at the flowing river and said, "Zhaoyang, do you believe it?" At the bottom of this river, there must be a mysterious passage, as long as you reach the end of this passage, your soul can be rested, but, I know that I can't leave this world, so I sit on the guardrail and drink, it's best to fall, if you can't fall, you will continue to suffer until you don't want to boil, and you will have the courage to jump! ”

"Janeway, you've drunk too much"

"Am I drinking too much? Haha, but people have encountered hurdles that they can't overcome, don't they all like to borrow wine to kill their sorrows? This is what human nature is like to die! Why should I pretend to be calm in this irreversible torrent? ”

"The life of the past must also continue."

Jian Wei laughed even more fiercely: "Zhaoyang, the stupidest thing I've done in my life is to use your hand to find a place called Sky City, but now you're talking to me about life, I can't tell the difference between reality and fantasy" She laughed and cried, and her love was close to the critical point of collapse.

She cried, I was even more sad but didn't have the courage to open my arms to hug her, hugging her sensitive and weak at the moment, and she didn't seem to need my arms, she turned over and sat on the guardrail again, crying, looking at the river flowing under her that refused to stop, the hazy light wrapped her body, but I didn't feel a trace of security, so even the moat in front of me that I had seen countless times seemed to be imagined, and even my relationship with Janeway over the years was out of fantasy, and there has never been a woman named Mi Cai in my life, A qiē and a qiē are all fantasies

How nice it would be if this was a fantasy world, and there would be no ups and downs of fame and fortune, love distress, and brothers turning against each other, but this fucking wind blew so real, blowing away the shell of fantasy, showing cruel fangs, and tearing us apart who were powerless to resist!

Another gust of wind blew, her body was so thin in the wind, my persistence completely collapsed at this moment, I hugged her gently from behind her, she felt this real touch, held my hand tightly, for fear that I would leave, so I hugged her tighter and tighter under the strength she gave, and hugged her tighter and tighter, but what I was facing was only her back, except that the tears that fell on the back of my hand were real, and I fell on the edge of falsehood, I don't like this feeling at all, I've been haunted by this feeling for years, so I've always avoided every inch of my time with Janeway, maybe it's not that I don't love her anymore, I'm just afraid of being strangled by this feeling!! That's why I'm so greedy for the simplicity and ease of being with Mi Cai

Jian Wei choked up and asked intermittently, "Zhaoyang, why did you come to me?" Is it out of sympathy? Or do you still feel like I'm just pathetic? ”

In fact, there is no essential difference between sympathy and pity, and Janeway has always been a logical and rigorous woman, so in the last half of the sentence, she changed her words, she didn't ask what she really wanted to ask in her heart, she was afraid that I would give her an answer that would make it even more painful.

"I'm not sympathetic to you, let alone pity you, I just care about you Janeway, can you have a good chat with me? Maybe things are turning around. ”

"Turnaround? Do you know the strictness of shuanggui? At this time, every character in the relationship network with my mother is busy protecting herself and dissociating herself, who would dare to come forward to say a word for her, hehe, she can't blame others, she herself took the wrong path But Zhaoyang, you know? Her failure is my pain, I don't believe that she always talks about integrity, but she has done so many disciplinary things, I always thought that the wealth in the family was earned by my father's company, but they still haven't gotten rid of the collusion between officials and business, they haven't accepted the punishment of the law yet, but they have given me the death penalty, I am really painful, so painful that I want to die! ”

"Janeway, I'm really sad that you're like this, can you be stronger? You have to know that even if they go the wrong way, they still love you, so you are not implicated in these incidents, you must live well, and then wait for the day when they clear their sins, you will still have a complete family, if you can't take care of yourself, they will be more uncomfortable, they will blame themselves more, how can you wash away your sins with peace of mind? ”

Jian Wei raised her head and burst into tears: "Hehe, I'm just the daughter of a corrupt official!" I don't know what kind of courage and face I have to live with. ”

"It's not your sin, why should you torture yourself?"

The wind is blowing stronger and stronger, and the stars and lights are sprinkled on the river, like blessed fireworks, but the tragedy will not stop at dawn tomorrow and I am leaving Suzhou

Jian Wei finally let go of the hand I was holding her, and she whispered to me: "Zhaoyang, can you come up and sit with me for a while, after an hour, you go where you should go and don't look back at me again, I can't promise you anything, but I will definitely work hard to support it Of course, I will not sit on this guardrail dangerously with a wine bottle like today, because you have been here, it is already a comfort to me, just like a kite flying across the sky, the wire is not free, and there is no shackle of the line, Waiting for the crash after indulgence! ”