I couldn't refuse Janeway's request, and I also turned over and sat on the guardrail, looking at the river below me that Janeway said had a mysterious passage, we heard the sound of the wind blowing through the flowing water, and every qiē seemed to be fast-forwarding, just a blink of an eye, in an instant, the season changed, we walked through spring, autumn and summer, and fell into the cold snap of winter by mistake.

"Are you going to smoke?"

I looked at Janeway, it was the first thing she said to me after I sat on the guardrail, I swallowed a mouthful of saliva because of the sour feeling in my nostrils, I nodded to her, and she rummaged through her handbag, not finding a lighter or cigarette, but accidentally shook a lipstick into the flowing river, causing a ripple

"Lipstick!" The corners of Janeway's mouth trembled, and she looked at the river as if she had lost her soul!

"It's just a lipstick, so why should you care too much?"

Janeway looked at me, her eyes shifted to her handbag again, and finally found the lighter and a pack of Zhongnanhai that had been opened, she took a cigarette from it and handed it to me, I took it from her hand, she helped me light the fire, the familiar smell of mixed smoke spread around us, and the smoke changed shapes in the light!

I took another deep breath, and subconsciously looked up at the black onyx-like sky, the stars flattered and flattering, and the light swayed and fell into my sight, in fact, this night has its own beauty, but our mood is shattered in this world, at least, for Janeway, her eyes are still shining with tears, and she has been looking at the place where the lipstick has just fallen into the river, and the ripples have been erased by a gust of wind, turning into waves and continuing to extend into the distance

The cigarette in my hand was almost burned to the butt of a cigarette, but time seemed to stand still, and I couldn't feel it pushing forward, and I finally said to Janeway, "Do you see a star thousands of light-years away?" ”

Janeway's attention was not on the river, she looked up with me at the starry sky shrouded in night, but did not answer, because it was not a luxury or difficulty, and as long as she looked up, she could see the relatively eternal star.

I asked her, "Are they small in comparison, or are we sitting here small?" ”

"Compared to them, we are just two specimens of dust falling from the world."

I gently put my arm around her shoulders and asked softly, "And how much pain can we have?" No matter how big it is, it's no bigger than two specks of dust! Is it? ”

Jian Wei nodded for a long time before replying: "Our pain comes from taking ourselves and the people around us too seriously, but pain itself is an illusory thing, after a few decades, we no longer exist in this world, and these pains that pierce us are incomplete, and there is no evidence of our existence, so we are very bored and naïve!" ”

"Yes, why don't you take a single qiē lightly, no matter how good you live, no matter how bad you live, you will end up on a dead end, sooner or later!"

"Are you teaching me that my mind is free of distractions and that the four major are empty?"

"No, I just want you to look down on the pain of the present, remember all the happiness we have since we came into this world, we do things in happiness, feel happiness in doing things, and then grow and age in the changes of the seasons, isn't it great?"

Janeway finally smiled and asked, "What is the happiest thing in your life?" ”

I remembered the old days, what else in this world was happy, and the person I had a crush on was also secretly in love with me? Yes, Janeway and I used to start like this, she always paid attention to my band intentionally or unintentionally, I would also ask her friends about her movements, pay attention to every club activity she participated in, until we confided in each other, I knew that there was such a happy thing in this world About that year, what I remember most is the special bloom of rape flowers, we talked a lot and did a lot in the field where there were only two of us in that group outing organized by the club, I was so excited that I even held her hand, and I was trembling!

But can I still talk about it now?

No! Because it was too far away, because I no longer expected that life full of pursuit and discovery, I smiled and asked Janeway, "What about you?" What's the thing that makes you feel the happiest? ”

"I asked you first, so you say it first."

I finally said to her with my original intention: "The happiest thing is nothing more than eating, drinking and having fun with a group of brothers in college, there were really no worries in life at that time, and I lived with a thousand yuan a month!" What about you, what is the happiest thing about you? ”

"Hehe, I thought that when Mi Cai agreed to be your girlfriend, it was the happiest thing that made you feel the most, but it turned out that this is not the case, maybe love and women are not the most important things in your life!"

"I'm also happy, but we're together now, so this kind of happiness seems very thin, people, always when they lose, they know how happy and happy they were at the beginning!" After a pause, I urged again, "I've finished speaking, but you haven't said anything that makes you feel the happiest, don't think about cheating, we've always been fair between us." ”

Jian Wei lowered her head and looked at the river again, and said for a long time: "What makes me happy is also the past, when I went shopping, shopping, chatting, and doing activities with my sisters in college, it was a very good memory, and there was no burden at all!" ”

I nodded and said, "Well, when you are in pain in the future, remember to think more about these things that have made you feel happy, sometimes good memories, it is also a kind of strength!" ”

"I know, thank you for coming to me today, and I hope you have come to Suzhou and won't cause you trouble!"

"Isn't it just to comfort each other when friends are in trouble, even if there is some trouble, I don't regret coming to Suzhou tonight, I hope you take care of yourself, I have to go back, there are still a bunch of things waiting for me to do in the newly opened coffee shop tomorrow!"

Jian Wei lowered her head and responded, "Well, pay attention to safety on the road." ”

"Yes, you should go back and rest early, I heard that tomorrow will be a good day!"

Janeway suddenly grabbed my arm: "I'll take you to the train station." ”

I smiled and replied, "You've drunk so much wine, I don't dare ask you to send it."

"We're going to fight together, and I hope you can accompany me to the mall to buy a lipstick, my lipstick just fell into the water."

I looked at her, today she obviously has not dressed up, and her skin is not as shiny as it once was, and now she is willing to care about a lipstick, which proves that she has the mind to dress herself, it is much better than indulging in pain like this, of course I agree with her request, and now I also have some time to accompany her to the mall to buy a lipstick, so it is also a friend's responsibility, because in addition to comfort, shopping is also an essential link, although it is late at night, But it's not hard to get a lipstick, because it's close to the end of the year, and large shopping malls are extending their opening hours

Sitting in a taxi with Janeway, the lights shining from all directions accompanied us all the way through the city that had never slept tonight, and after a while, we arrived in the city center, standing side by side on the street between Polaroid and Jumei, I don't know what kind of mood I felt, Janeway seemed to understand the emotional shock brought to me by these two malls, and waited patiently for me to make a choice.

In the city, the starry sky has been replaced by all kinds of neon lights, I am surrounded by lights, I think of myself as a speck of dust, and finally signal Janeway to go to Polaroid Department Store because Zhuomei has too many acquaintances of Mi Cai, I am not sure if these acquaintances will spread the news of me and Janeway shopping together to Mi Cai's ears, so Polaroid Department Store is really safe, and I will not stay too long, so it should be safe.

Polaroid Department Store is still one of the most popular shopping malls in the city, even if it is 12 o'clock in the middle of the night, there is still an endless stream of customers coming and going, Janeway and I stopped at a counter selling cosmetics, and then under the construction of the shopping guide, she chose a moisturizing lipstick, I helped her pay, as a gift for me to come to Suzhou to see her, when the shopping guide packaged it, we really ushered in the moment of farewell

Outside the mall, I stood face to face with her, I handed her the box with lipstick, and said, "Say goodbye here, don't be too sad when you go back, and talk to Yan Yan more if you have something on your mind, you know?" ”

"I will."

Her answer finally reassured me a little, I nodded, and was about to turn around and leave, but I didn't want Fang Yuan to walk out of the mall with Mi Lan and several major shareholders of Polaroid Department Store, we met face to face, I was shocked, and I was a rejection from the bottom of my heart, but we were close at hand, and there was no way to avoid it, it seemed to be another encounter deliberately arranged by fate.

My face was ugly, Fang Yuan was silent for a long time, then he looked at the Polaroid Department Store behind him and said to me: "Zhuo Mei is planning to acquire a part of the shares of Polaroid Department Store, Mi Lan and I came here to participate in the cooperation meeting, it was a coincidence that the meeting just broke up, and I actually met you and Jian Wei here!" Haven't you already returned to Xuzhou? ”

I was stunned, and my heart was filled with disgust for Fang Yuan, but I was even more worried that Mi Lan would tell me about the scene where Jian Wei and I were together, and I would be at a loss for words!!

Jian Wei said to Fang Yuan, who didn't have any expression: "Yan Yan has some adverse reactions after surgery, he came to see Yan Yan, is there a problem?" ”

Mi Lan looked at me and Jian Wei suspiciously and said, "He came to see Yan Yan, this woman, why did he mix with you?" Isn't it supposed to be in the hospital? ”

Jian Wei's expression had the urge to smoke Mi Lan again, but in order not to cause trouble for me, she patiently explained: "Yan Yan has already gone home after a check-up, Zhaoyang and I came out to help her buy some rehabilitation supplies" and then said to Fang Yuan: "Fang Yuan, do you still have the face to let this fox spirit ask again?" If she dares to talk nonsense again, do you believe it or not? ”

Mi Lan replied to Jian Wei without giving in: "I also remind you to see what your current identity is, and really think that you are the former daughter?" Hurry up and pray that your parents will be sentenced a few years less, moths of officialdom!! ”

"You" Janeway looked at Mi Lan tremblingly, holding back her tears.

I finally couldn't bear it anymore, and said to Fang Yuan: "Fang Yuan, you should let your wife take care of her own mouth, feng shui is in turn, accumulate more oral virtue, so as not to be left into the well by others in the future!" ”

Fang Yuan didn't seem to have any intention of arguing with us, he didn't respond to anything, he pulled Mi Lan, while appeasing her feelings, telling her not to be angry, while walking in the direction of the parking lot, and Jian Wei's tears that she was holding back finally fell when she couldn't see them, Mi Lan just stabbed her heart in the most vulnerable place with her aggressive words, this was Mi Lan's revenge for her, she had slapped Mi Lan twice, but these two slaps couldn't stop her from being with Fang Yuan, A qiē and a qiē all happened in our unconsciousness and powerlessness!

Jian Wei's tears made me feel very distressed, but she stubbornly wiped away her tears and said with a smile: "The more others look down on me and ridicule me, the more I must live an appearance to show her Zhaoyang, you can go with confidence, I will live a good life!" After returning to Xuzhou, if Mi Cai knows that you have come to me, you say that you came to see Yan Yan, and I will ask Yan Yan to cooperate with your statement, no matter what happens in the future, you don't have to carry Mi Cai to me again I know that you treat me as a friend, but I hope you can live a good life Thank you! ”

I looked at her thin body under the light, and felt reluctant and unbearable in my heart, I really didn't want to leave like this, but I had to leave, I held back the tears that were about to flow, smiled, clenched my fists and said to her: "Come on, I believe you will be able to regain your strength, because you are the strongest, most independent, and bravest woman I have ever seen!" ”

"Well, come on"

I nodded, but I couldn't turn back, I walked to the taxi waiting for the customer not far away, when the door was closed, the moment the car started, I looked back and saw her looking at the farewell figure from afar, and finally couldn't hold back, but as soon as I closed my eyes, tears fell down my neck into the placket, I was in pain, very painful, because I couldn't do anything and suffered!

I finally lost her sight, but the scenes of the past became clearer and clearer, and her fall deeply inspired me to hide feelings for her, but I couldn't speak