After Jun Wuxian finished reading it, his expression was surprised, this Qi Buyang was actually a * madman with psychological problems, Jun Wuxian was also a strange person who had seen it, and after being a little surprised, he continued to read it.

February 13, light rain.

The sky is raining lightly, the road is wet, the air is wet, my mood is as bad as the weather, last night my aunt called me, asked me to find a job for my cousin who just graduated, my aunt said a lot on the phone, saying that now the employment situation is severe, it is difficult for college graduates to find a job, she thinks that my ability must have a way to help my cousin find a suitable job, but I know that my ability is limited, I don't even have few friends, let alone connections, I blame me for loving face too much, Every time I go back to my hometown, I like to decorate it very beautifully, so that my relatives think I am amazing, but in fact, I am just an ordinary doctor, and I am even looked down upon by other doctors in the hospital, but in the eyes of my aunt, my nephew who is a doctor is decent and capable, and under my aunt's repeated requests, I agreed to come down, but I don't know how to find a decent job for my cousin......

I worked carefully, sorting out the patient's information and doing ward rounds...... But it still provoked Director Lin's scolding, it's not that I made a mistake, but I didn't do well enough, I couldn't make her satisfied, Director Lin has very high requirements for everyone, but how many people in the hospital can meet her requirements, I can't find any reason to blame Director Lin, because she treats others like this, not specifically for me, I just hate myself for being so useless, I have studied in medical school for so many years, but I can't even do a good job as an assistant, and I am more and more inferior in front of her, Although I am in the same hospital, I feel so far away from her, she is a high fairy, but I am a humble ant, I can only fantasize about her beautiful body to satisfy my inner desires and impulses when I am alone.

In front of Director Lin, I felt tremendous pressure, every moment was terrified, in front of her I was like a useless waste, I became less and less confident, my life and future were dark, I couldn't see any hope, I was very tired, I didn't know what the purpose of living like this was, was it to repeat this unspeakable perverted satisfaction.

Walking into the office, colleagues in the department are discussing, a new colleague came to the department, the personnel relations of the hospital changed quickly, and it was a common thing to go one after another, but this time they seemed very excited, when I saw this new colleague, I immediately understood why they were so excited, Xiao Na is very beautiful, her figure is as graceful as her name, I was stunned at the moment I saw her, and my heart was suddenly pounding fast, Director Lin's beauty is amazing and full of oppressive force, but Xiao Na is different, her beauty is so soft, showing the gentle side of a woman as much as water to the fullest, at this moment I seem to see the light, see hope, a dark heart is suddenly full of vitality.

Cortana smiled at me and reached out to introduce myself, I seemed a little unnatural, and finally took her hand, even though her hand was so soft and smooth, I wanted to hold it like this for the rest of my life, and as a courtesy, I let go immediately after a gentle shake.

The first acquaintance between colleagues, Cortana and I just had a few words of conversation and then separated, but she didn't know, I had fallen in love with her at first sight, I had never felt this heartbeat, I admit that I was as horny as other men, and even more perverted than them, but this time it was different, I wanted to love her, not to possess her.

I was in a very good mood for the day, I couldn't sleep at night with excitement, my mind was always her shadow, I had never been so eager to go to work, I looked at the ceiling, hoping that time would pass a little faster.

February 15th, fine.

The arrival of Cortana has cured my perverted psychology, I no longer impulsively want to steal women's underwear to satisfy my sexual impulse, I no longer desire to peep at the bottom of their skirts when I see beautiful women wearing short skirts, and even I can control myself not to prostitute myself, the only thing I can't control is that when I am alone, I will fantasize about Cortana's body*, because of Cortana, I think my psychology is actually very healthy, maybe because I want to be an upright man, not a man with low self-esteem, so that I can deserve to be beautifulMaybe I'm too whimsical, because her beauty attracts more than one man.

Xiao Na has been in the hospital for a month, just a month, there are many male colleagues to her Xiàn show a close and friendly attitude, most of the male colleagues hope to pick this delicate flower, including me, but I know that I don't have an advantage, I look very ordinary and not handsome, my family back. The scene is not as good as others, the only thing I can change is my career, I have become more hard-working and serious, ironically, I have gradually been recognized by Director Lin, although Director Lin will still scold me loudly sometimes, but the number of times is much less than before, my efforts are serious just in line with her serious and rigorous work attitude, Director Lin began to teach me something seriously, and instructed me in my work, maybe she finally began to treat me as her assistant doctor, rather than a temporary substitute under the shortage of manpower, I feel that Director Lin is still a good person, in addition to this short temper, gradually, I dare to meet her cold gaze, I think this is an improvement, but Director Lin's beauty makes men crazy, whenever I see her beautiful face, I can't help but fantasize about the body in the white coat, at this time I think of Cortana, my heart gradually calmed down, oh my God! I was able to resist Director Lin's beauty, I believe that I am the only man in the hospital who can do it, thank you Cortana.

Among Cortana's many suitors, I also have the advantage that I am still single, and many of the male colleagues in the hospital are either married and have wives or boyfriends, which has made them lose their competitiveness, and I think that I have been single all this time just to wait for Cortana, who is also single.

Because in the same department, Xiao Na and I naturally walked closer, in our spare time, we made an appointment to go shopping and eat together, I felt that I was getting closer and closer to her, she was mine, no one could take it away, and my heart was completely fascinated by her.

March 19, fine.

The relationship between me and Cortana has become more and more ambiguous, and the colleagues in the department have also seen it, and teased me from time to time, and I don't know why the relationship between me and the colleagues in the department has become better and better, maybe because I am Director Lin's assistant, with Director Lin's big backer, or I have become cheerful and talkative, my life has changed dramatically, I think this qiē is because of the appearance of Cortana, it is he who makes me energetic and confident, and she makes my life full of bright hope. Instead of immersing yourself in that perverted and filthy darkness.

I went to the night market with Cortana, and she bought me a pair of gloves, and I was very excited, and I felt that there was a drama, and I should pierce this layer of paper and make her my girlfriend......

March 20, fine.

I deliberately picked out a pair of beautiful red gloves to give to Cortana, I didn't expect that as soon as she saw me give gloves, her face turned green, she threw the gloves aside, saying I don't want you to give me things, her attitude hit me, is it always my wishful thinking, but I still care about her as always, she buys her medicine when she is sick, she buys her supper when she is hungry, although she looks reluctant, but I think this is a reserved table for girls, she has never been a casual girl.

Cortana and I had the best relationship in the hospital, and I thought that as long as I brought it up, she would definitely accept me, so I was wholeheartedly ready to find an opportunity to confess to her.

April 8, fine.

A few days ago, a new doctor came to the department, graduated from the University of Tokyo School of Medicine, I heard that he was poached from other hospitals with a high salary, Director Lin seemed to value him very much, especially in the office and talked to him for a morning, he was about the same age as me, but I immediately felt the gap between myself and him, he was tall and handsome, and young and promising, he was like a bright star.

What worries me finally happened, Cortana talked to me about this newly arrived Dr. Song, when talking about this Dr. Song, Cortana's eyebrows couldn't help but fly, I secretly comforted myself in my heart, girls like handsome guys, but how can it be compared to the deep friendship between me and Cortana, friendship takes time to accumulate but it can't be replaced by a handsome face alone.

May 18, fine.

It didn't take long for Dr. Song to be very familiar with Xiao Na, Dr. Song is a delicate person, not only is he very familiar with Xiao Na, but also has a good relationship with other colleagues, I heard that he just came to perform a heart surgery alone, Dr. Song proved his worth, no wonder the hospital will poach with a high salary, Xiao Na no longer I go shopping with me these days, eat, and later I learned that Dr. Song took my place, I hate him to death, why rob my Xiao Na.

Until one time I found out that Dr. Song's target was Director Lin, he wrote a love letter to Director Lin, Director Lin tore up the love letter in front of Dr. Song, and said lightly, Dr. Song, I hope you put your mind on work, don't think about something that you don't have, Director Lin is still like this, do things without mercy, if I am rejected in this way, I must be ashamed and embarrassed, but Dr. Song has been smiling, until Director Lin shouted the word "roll", Dr. Song walked out of Director Lin's office in a gloomy manner.

This Dr. Song is so ambitious, he actually dares to fight Director Lin's idea, although his conditions are very good, but he has not figured out that Director Lin is a piece of ice that will not melt for thousands of years.

After this incident, I no longer hate Dr. Song in my heart, as long as I don't fight Cortana's idea, what he does has nothing to do with me.