In a person's life, there will be many dark moments, and the most impressive darkness is the darkness in the mother's womb. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

Think about the ten months before the fall to the ground, every day was like experiencing a total solar eclipse, and it was a 24-hour uninterrupted, 360-degree total solar eclipse. Thinking of this, Tian Donkey not only sighed, being born as a human is really a difficult journey, because darkness is the first scenery that accompanies your birth. Gradually, the growing pains came to my face. Every sad moment that sheds tears, every confused moment after frustration, and every frustrated moment after frustration are like the umbilical cord that is constantly cut in life. And, the long night after the day, it is precisely because the black and dark copper wall is as strong and thorough as the iron wall that the little starlight will shine brightly, right?

However, for Tian Donkey, he can't afford to talk about the whiteness and blackness of life, he just wants the darkness in front of him to pass quickly. The dark and long moment of the day was the time to wait for Ah Xia to give way to the toilet, and at this moment, Tian Donkey was holding his legs, bending over, holding his stomach and begging outside the toilet.

"Ah Xia, please hurry up, I can't help it, I'm about to come out......"

Tian Donkey pleaded and knocked on the door.

"Ah Xia, didn't you hear, hurry up, I'm dying...... Please hurry up."

"Hold it for a while, I haven't come out yet."

"Then you have to work hard."

"I'm struggling, my intestines are about to pull out, but I can't pull out the"

"Or ...... You come out first, let me squat for a while, I'm really about to hold it back, I'm very fast, when I'm done pulling, you can go back and continue squatting, okay? ”

Ah Xia in the toilet did not answer Tian Donkey, but reluctantly lifted her pants, looked back at the empty toilet and frowned, she really didn't pull anything out, so she symbolically pressed the flush button to flush the toilet and walked out of the toilet, and then saw Tian Donkey rushing into the toilet like a wind and bursting into the toilet.

Ah Xia shook her head, touched her round belly and returned to the house, falling on the bed and curling up. This time, she felt very bad, she knew that her constipation was related to the drug test, and this time it was not swollen or fainted like before, but severe constipation, and what made her even more depressed was that her belly was as round as if it was inflated overnight, swollen and uncomfortable, which had to worry her. She carefully recalled the experience of the previous few drug tests, and there was no constipation and bloating, thinking of this, her brows furrowed even tighter.

"Ah Xia, do you still want to go to the toilet, I'm done" Tian Donkey, who had solved the internal emergency, came to Ah Xia's door and asked with concern.

"No need, I'll lie down for a while, my stomach is uncomfortable"

"Or you rub your stomach, the in this person's stomach, sometimes he has a temper, it's too hard, you rub it, it is estimated that it will be pulled out in a while"

"It's okay, maybe it will be fine in a while"

"Oh, then I'll go out first, if there's anything else uncomfortable, call me"

“……”

Tian Donkey saw Ah Xia lying on her side, and did not answer, so she turned around and went out of the house, and gently closed the door for Ah Xia.

It was almost noon, the door of Ah Xia's house was still closed, Tian Donkey was a little strange, how could a person who shouted that he had a stomachache and wanted to go to the toilet, how could he not move all morning? Is it asleep? Tian Donkey thought for a while, then came to the door of Ah Xia again, and probed his head to investigate.

"Ah Xia, Ah Xia......"

No one in the house answered.

"Ah Xia, Ah Xia, are you better?"

Tian Donkey shouted Ah Xia's name twice more into the house, but there was still no movement in the house, and Tian Donkey, who was a little surprised, had to push the door and enter.

When Tian Donkey entered the house, what he saw was that Ah Xia was still lying on her side, motionless, looking like she was asleep and dead. Tian Donkey, who is always frightened by the surprise of life, didn't dare to imagine that there was a sudden tragedy in front of him, so he tiptoed close to Ah Xia, reached out and tried her snort, it was breathing, so he secretly breathed a sigh of relief, and then gently pushed Ah Xia with his hand.

"Ah Xia, Ah Xia......"

Ah Xia opened her eyes in a daze, raised her heavy eyelids, glanced at Tian Donkey, and asked.

"What's wrong?"

"Are you asleep?!"

"Oh, it seems that yes, I don't know what's going on, it's like I can't wake up, I always want to sleep" As she spoke, Ah Xia turned over and suddenly screamed.

"Ah......h

Ah Xia's scream almost burst Tian Donkey's eardrums, and he hurriedly asked.

"What's wrong? What's wrong? ……”

"My belly!"

Ah Xia's belly is bigger, like she is ten months pregnant! Tian Donkey was also taken aback by Ah Xia's unusual big belly. It seemed that Ah Xia's round belly was about to break her clothes, and Tian Donkey was very surprised.

"Ah Xia, you ...... Your belly ...... What's wrong? Isn't it...... Pregnant? ”

When Tian Donkey stumbled this sentence based on the most primitive cognition of a woman's body, he regretted it a little, and he couldn't wait to slap his mouth to answer his stupid question. Because Ah Xia, who was fine yesterday, couldn't get pregnant overnight like magic, not to mention that the arduous process of pregnancy, which requires pregnancy in October, cannot be completed overnight. And Ah Xia's words next surprised Tian Donkey even more. She glanced at her white and round belly like a steamed bun, snorted coldly in her nose, and said lightly.

"Hmph, I won't give birth to a man in my life, and I can't give birth to a man"

"Why?"

"Because I've been sterilized a long time ago, it's impossible to conceive a child"

Although Tian Donkey is a man who can't have children, he at least knows what it means to have that kind of surgery, so he questioned Ah Xia again in disbelief.

"Why? Ah Xia, but, can ......"

What he wants to say is that there is still a long way to go in life, and she should not give up the right to pursue happiness and choose a devastating life like self-destruction, but this kind of thing sounds like a joke when she says it, what is the meaning of Ah Xia?

"But you can't choose to hurt yourself, do you hate men? Hate the men who bullied you? ”

"It's not hate, they are not men to me, they are pieces of money, they are money used to support my life, so I did that kind of surgery for that kind of work."

“……”

Once again, Tian Donkey didn't know what to say to Ah Xia's life, because Ah Xia, who said those words, looked expressionless and cold. Her words were even more chilling than the screams just now. He looked at Ah Xia silently, as if he saw a flash of melancholy on her face.

"That's why I don't want to bother you, Sanjun, I know you're a good person, but we shouldn't meet each other......"

"You didn't bother me, Ah Xia, it's just that what you said today is so strange......"

"Forget it, you don't understand, it's just what I think in my heart"

"Oh"

Tian Donkey felt that Ah Xia was right, it should be right to do that, at least, he had no right to comment on her and her life. At the moment, he just wanted to warm her. Although it was the hot season, Ah Xia looked like she was in the North Pole, the fine sweat on her face was freezing, her body was a little stiff and cold, and she was still shivering.

"Ah Xia, do you want to go to the hospital? You see you're in a cold sweat and your face is very bad."

"No, it's useless to go to the hospital, it's all wasteful money, I know what's going on, Sanjun, do you have extra clothes?"

"Huh?"

"Give me a piece of your dress, I can't seem to wear any clothes"

With that, Ah Xia got out of bed, walked straight to the donkey's house, opened the wardrobe, and without saying a word, picked out a wide dress from inside, took it in his hand, and turned around to leave.

"Ah Xia, what are you going to do?"

"Of course it's a change of clothes, you can't see it, by the way, you are not allowed to come along, sometimes, I just think you are too good, too caring about people, I can't stand it, Sanjun, I'm not that kind of woman, I don't enjoy the kind of good life that men love, but if you don't bother, can you buy something for me?"

"What's that?"

"Kassellu"

"What are you buying that for?"

"It works, you go buy it first anyway"

"Oh"

I heard that Ah Xia was useful, so Tian Donkey didn't think much about it, and hurriedly walked towards the clinic. Ah Xia watched Tian Donkey walk away, then changed into Tian Donkey's loose clothes, turned around and went out again.

The sky, a little gray, I don't know if it will rain. The air is filled with all kinds of smells from life, which are wafting wantonly.

Ah Xia came to the door of a low-rise house in a shantytown, what did she do when she came to this poor rooted land that was far away from wealth? Of course, Tian Donkey has no way of knowing all this.

Ah Xia stretched out her hand and knocked on the door, and the creaking little broken door in front of her opened from the inside, and Ah Xia walked in.

"Sister Xia, are you here?"

It was a thin and weak girl with yellowed eyes, and although her facial features were clear, she had a sickly aura.

Ah Xia gave her a quick look, then looked into the room as if her eyes were searching, and asked.

"Lili, where's your mother?"

Obviously, Ah Xia and her are familiar with each other.

However, the woman named Lili, looking at Ah Xia, suddenly had tears in her eyes, and she couldn't say a word in a choked voice.

"Lili, what's wrong? What happened? ”

"She's Dead"

The answer was a long-faced, waxy middle-aged woman who had just come out of the back room, and seemed to know Ah Xia.

"Don't ask her, poor boy, ......"

As she spoke, she glanced at Ah Xia's stomach and continued.

"Died yesterday...... It looks the same as you, Ah Xia, you hurry up and think of a way, your stomach will swell you to death in a short time."

Ah Xia ignored her, but turned her head and asked Lili again.

"Is it really dead?"

Lili nodded.

"What about you? Did you have any bad reactions in your body this time? Have you ever been sick? ”

Lili shook her head.

Ah Xia seemed to breathe a sigh of relief. Then, as if comforting, he patted Lili on the shoulder.

"It's okay, don't be afraid, I'm worried that you'll have a bad reaction, so come and see, your mother's body, I know, it's okay, it's okay......"

Lili just kept sobbing. The long-faced woman walked over, sighed heavily, and said to Ah Xia.

"Ah Xia, don't do it, you see that Lili's mother even took her life, why bother?"

"But I have to live."

"Hey, I see that you and I are both medicine friends, so I just said a few more words, Ah Xia, don't be stupid, we are women, making money, living, there are many ways, we are better than men, you don't look at the men who tried the medicine together, hey, I really can't say, I don't want to do it anyway, I want to leave here tomorrow"

"Sister Zhang, wait one more day, you take care of Lili for another day, I'll go back and think of a way, or tomorrow, I'll pick up Lili"

"Hey, okay, then you can hurry up, I can only wait for a day at most, besides, I'm also afraid of this place where people have died."

"I know"

After speaking, Ah Xia looked at Lili, shook her somewhat cold arm, and didn't ask too much, because she knew the fate of people like them, and when they died, most of them were thrown away or buried casually, silently as if they had never lived. What they should be worried about is tomorrow and living.

Ah Xia turned and left the place again.

She didn't go straight home, but walked around casually. Walk past the city's parks, iron bridges, and sidewalks. On the way, she was treated as a pregnant woman several times, and Ah Xia also smiled with satisfaction. Yes, she's still alive, she's not dead anyway, and being alive is the problem. They are ants, a group of ants that live or die without any difference and no one cares, such a fate is really sad. But, beyond that, how should she live? How do you deal with your fate? The easy way to make money in Sister Zhang's mouth is nothing more than to put aside human dignity and lie down to make money, that kind of road, I have walked before, so I don't want to go again, at least, she is worth living. She couldn't help but think that perhaps, she could really try a better tomorrow by trying medicine, at least, she also made a contribution to the medical industry. Thinking of this, Ah Xia smiled at the corner of her mouth and walked home.

Tian Donkey, who returned home, found that Ah Xia was missing again, a little puzzled, but then he was relieved, think about it carefully, where Ah Xia went, he never knew, and she never told him, except for the last tracking. It seems that in front of men, women always have some little secrets.

When Ah Xia returned home, Tian Donkey didn't ask anything, looked at Ah Xia, who was bloated and struggling wrapped in her clothes, and just silently brought her the dinner that had been prepared. Ah Xia looked at her dinner, then at her stomach, smiled helplessly, and said.

"I may not be able to eat ......"

"Oh, I'm just, worried you're hungry"

"I know...... Three armies, did you buy it? ”

"Bought"

"That'...... In the evening, you can accompany me to the toilet."

When Tian Donkey heard Ah Xia's words, he was so shocked that he thought he had heard it wrong, or that there was something wrong with his ears, otherwise how could he hear such a sentence? Ah Xia invited him not to eat together or go to the hospital together, but to go to the toilet together, which was simply too strange and embarrassing for him. Because no matter how you look at it, Ah Xia is not a child, she is a woman, and in his eyes she is a woman with a different body structure from herself, so he really can't believe that Ah Xia can say such things.

"Together? Ah Xia, did I hear me wrong? ”

Ah Xia shook her head, also embarrassed, she lowered her head and said to Tian Donkey.

"I need your help"

"Oh"

At dinner, Ah Xia kept herself in the house, and Tian Donkey ate a simple dinner alone, and then came to Ah Xia's door, and when she knocked on the door, she found that the door was open.

"Ah Xia, are you in there?"

"The door is not closed, come in......"

Tian Donkey entered the house and saw Ah Xia standing naked in front of the mirror, her stomach like a small hill, seeing this scene, Tian Donkey hurriedly turned her back.

"It's okay, Sanjun, you don't have to do that, I know I look ugly now"

"No, it's not ugly, it's, it's ...... It's because you're not wearing clothes."

"Then turn around, I'm dressed"

When Tian Donkey turned around again, he saw that Ah Xia had already draped a slip on her body to cover herself. She said to Tian Donkey with a firm look in her eyes.

"I'm ready"

"Oh, Axia, I, you made me here...... So...... I'm coming."

"I know, let's go"

Ah Xia looks like a warrior, her eyes are firm, and she has a hard spirit that will never admit defeat. The two went to the toilet one after the other. Ah Xia stood still with her back to Tian Donkey and said.

"Sanjun, tonight, I'm not a woman, I want you to see me as your brother, or, as a genderless person, I'm going to uncover the sheets again now, don't mind, just be ...... It's like you're healing me."

"Heal? But I won't, I'm not a doctor."

"Yes, you are now, Sanjun, if you don't save me, I may die soon"

"But, but, shouldn't we go to the hospital?"

"I said, it's useless to go to the hospital, it will cost a lot of money, you and I don't have money, and besides, I know why I'm doing this now, so don't say anything like going to the hospital, I won't listen"

"So what should I do?"

"You help me rub it first, and when I feel that my stomach is a little less hard, I'll tell you what to do next, like this, you can help me, I'm struggling myself, I can't reach the stomach below"

"Good"

Tian Donkey rubbed it on her round belly according to Ah Xia's instructions, and at first the thing was like a round ball, Tian Donkey couldn't find his posture several times, and he didn't know whether he should stand or kneel and rub it, and finally, he had to half kneel in front of Ah Xia, rubbed his hands for a while, and then he was tired and sweaty, he looked up and asked Ah Xia.

"How?"

Ah Xia bit her lip tightly and replied, "It hurts more and more......

Tian Donkey was so frightened that he hurriedly stopped and asked.

"What then?"

"Medicine, Sanjun, bring the Kaiseru you bought"

"Good...... Give"

"Don't give it to me, I'll turn around, you just pour the medicine into there......"

Sweating profusely from pain and shyness, Ah Xia leaned against the wall with one hand, twisted her body with difficulty, and pouted her buttocks. At this moment, Tian Donkey had to put aside the embarrassment of the difference between men and women and the naked opposite, solemnly and sacredly opened Ah Xia's snow-white buttocks, poured Kaiserw into her **, and poured three bottles in a row. Then, Ah Xia tightened her buttocks, turned around, and asked Tian Donkey to continue rubbing her belly.

"How about now? Do you feel like you're coming out? ”

Tian Donkey asked while rubbing it, observing Ah Xia's face.

"Like...... It doesn't work."

"What then?" Tian Donkey stopped again and looked at Ah Xia helplessly.

Ah Xia held Tian Donkey'er's hand and said solemnly.

"Three armies, now, only you can save me"

"I ......"

"I said I want you to treat me as a brother, which means I want you to treat me as a relative, can you do that?"

Tian Donkey looked at Ah Xia and nodded sincerely.

"Okay, then...... Please help me out of it."

"Huh?"

"That's it...... It's just to pick it up with your hands and dig out the feces, otherwise there is no way"

Yes, only relatives will have this kind of honesty with each other, only relatives will erase this so-called adult shyness, and only relatives will completely trust and give themselves to each other. Tian Donkey knew that it took a lot of courage for Ah Xia to achieve such trust, he understood Ah Xia's pain, and loved her like a relative, so he stretched out his hand.

In the end, Tian Donkey knelt behind Ah Xia's buttocks, closed his eyes, and then, slowly inserted his right index finger into Ah Xia's **, and gently probed left and right for a while, the narrow field of the anorectum, seemed to feel a small particle that was hard like a stone, but after careful exploration, there was nothing, and he then reached in a finger, two fingers together, pinched, kneaded, pressed, and pressed the tense muscles everywhere he went, kneaded, pressed, and pressed for a while, and finally, he heard a dull "bang", and a smell blew in his face, Suddenly sprayed onto Tian Donkey's face, and immediately, the thin green-black liquid feces continued to splash Tian Donkey's face.

In this way, Tian Donkey's life has a real baptism of feces and urine.