I have many cousins, and when they see me, they all compete to give me the best things, and they all kinds of tricks up against me and please me, except for the best-looking Ning Chaolai. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

The first time I saw Asarai was in my backyard, and I was rubbing mud with my other cousins, and Ah Weng came up to him with another handsome man of the same age as Ah Weng and said,

"Lan'er, come and meet your uncle-in-law, your brother-in-law is going out to run errands this time, passing through Jiangnan, and coming to sit at home."

The man is Ning Xiang, and Ning Xiang is holding a female doll carved in pink and jade, which is Chaolai.

She wore a peach-colored jacket, and the snow-white collar set off her more and more pink, making people can't help but want to touch that pink and tender face.

I didn't want to pay attention, pretended not to hear, and continued to knead the mud in my hands.

I think that there are more people who come to sit in the house, and most of them are also for money.

At that time, I didn't know that Ning Xiang's reputation was so big, and I didn't know that the doll of a few years old was a talented girl known to everyone in Chang'an City, and I really thought that they were also here to borrow silver taels.

Ning Xiang and Ah Weng didn't have time to care about my behavior as a child, and the two of them didn't know what to say, but they laughed.

Ning Xiang let go of Chaolai's hand and said,

"In the morning, if Ah Weng has something to do, you will play with your cousin."

As soon as Ah Weng left, it was my world again, and I yelled at my cousins to pinch the clay figures, and threw them directly if they didn't look good, and had a lot of fun.

Gradually, I found a problem, we threw away the dirt, she picked it up, and held it in the palm of her hand like a baby. I wondered what kind of way she was going to join us, so I simply stopped what I was doing and looked at her intently.

Her fingers were very nimble, and she turned rapidly, and in a few moments she pinched out a clay figurine, turned her head and handed it to me.

Seeing the appearance of the clay figure, there was no one who didn't laugh, just because she was pinching me, with a fat head and big ears, and a round body, like a juju, but it was much uglier than a juju.

I was ashamed and annoyed, and I wanted to smash the clay figure in her face, but she looked at me like a nobody, and said seriously,

"If it's ugly, it's going to be discarded, and then the round ball in my cousin's hand can't be left."

I was still wondering if I should throw the clay figurine in her face, and she raised her hand and knocked it off in my hand without hesitation.

Looking at the broken round, I felt very uncomfortable, I don't know if she took me for a round, or if I thought I was a round, she fell it, like she dropped me.

At this time, someone was singing outside the house gate, she raised her lips and smiled, and ran out with her Luo skirt, as soon as she ran, I also ran, and when I ran, others also ran, and more than a dozen children stood outside the house gate, looking left and right.

The singer was a young monk, wearing a costume, with no makeup on his face, and when he saw Chaolai, his eyes lit up, and he raised his orchid finger and sang,

"Whose little lady was born like this with red lips and white teeth, she is worthy of being the best in the world. When I see that the Iraqi people are mistaken for life, if I can look back and smile, it is already a lifelong blessing. ”

The drama sings well, if you can get her to look back and smile, it is a good blessing, but since it is a blessing, not everyone can get it, for example, I don't have this kind of blessing.

At that time, she smiled sweetly at the monk who sang the opera, like a peach blossom blooming in the world, beautiful and unique.

After that, whenever I have spare time, I will go to the Prime Minister's Mansion, not for fame and fortune, not for a career, just to meet her, but she is always very busy, busy doing homework, busy practicing literature and martial arts, and repeatedly, only when I take out the famous calligraphy and painting, she will stop and look for the good in the calligraphy and painting with me, and will play with me, but I always know that it is not because of love.

Day after day, she has become the first talented woman in Chang'an, and the limelight is above the Tai Shuhuan she chases, although she does not admit that she likes Tai Shuhuan.

She wrote to me that Uncle Tai had a woman she liked, a gentle and considerate girl, and that when Uncle Tai held an umbrella for others, she knew that wooden people could also laugh, and she said that the woman was good at dancing and could be called the second in the world.

said, I thought Uncle Tai would like a heroine, but he was still fascinated by the gentle woman.

I can imagine her lost appearance, except for her, probably only I know that she can't dance, she has been practicing martial arts desperately since she was a child and injured her body, she can't dance like Jinghong, she said to me, cousin, the title of this woman is worthy of it.

Everything she has done is revolving around Uncle Tai, and all the fame she has worked hard to earn is just to compare with that person, just like me, painstakingly learning calligraphy and painting, just to catch up with her pace, but her steps are closely chasing Uncle Tai, too fast, when I know calligraphy and painting, she already knows the art of war.

The difference between me and her is not one step or two, nor a thousand steps, we are separated by the end of the world, she is at the end of the world, and I am at the end of the world.

It was my dream to marry her, even though she didn't mean to marry me, and I chose to ignore her fake happiness because of my own selfishness.

Looking at the red lanterns hanging high in the Zizhu Tower, I actually have the luxury of going on like this, I never hide my love for her, it is really a lifetime mistake at first sight.

That day, Uncle Tai came to me, he said to bless us, he was sincere, sincere blessing, but because of the pain in his eyes, he forcibly turned that sincerity into a false meaning.

He should have said to me proudly,

"I have only met her this time, and if I insist on obstructing you, she will not forgive me. But Liu Lan, you should know that she doesn't like you, even if she marries you, it won't be yours, I will take her back, and she will enter the general's mansion sooner or later. ”

But he didn't say anything but blessings.

Later, Wu's Xiaolou also came, and the whole person was shrouded in dark color, he put a jade bottle on the table, and said calmly,

"It's not going to kill you instantly."

I laughed, "Why do you think I'm going to listen to you, human life is precious, how can I say don't want it." ”

In this world, except for Ning Chaolai, who will threaten me.

He took out a piece of silk cloth, the content on the silk was very inexplicable, but it was sure that it was his uncle's handwriting, he said that he wanted me to die, if I didn't die, he would let my uncle die, where would I have a choice.

That day, our big day, I watched Chaolai put on a red wedding dress, and listened to her show her heart to me, this day, I waited for a lifetime, with a lifetime, to change such a day, I don't know whether it is fortunate or unfortunate.

When she worshipped, she really put her hand in my hand, cold, like ice slag under the eaves of winter.

I really wanted to spend the day smiling, but after three worships, I couldn't pretend to laugh anymore, it was useless to cry bitterly, crying and laughing again, and she asked me what I had done, what could I say, and I couldn't say anything.

I cried and laughed, scared the people who served, and I told her that I liked her, and that I didn't dare to say love, for fear of becoming a burden to her, until the end, I only dared to say that I liked her.

She said she liked me too, with clear eyes and no distractions.

She calmly drank with me, and when she was done, she put a kiss on my lips and slammed the glass.

She said that one by one couldn't wait to leave her, and she told me to get out.

No, it's not that I want to leave her, if I have a choice, I will definitely give up my identity and name, and I will give up everything, regardless of relying on her for the rest of my life, and I will not let go of my hand when I die.

Unfortunately, I didn't have that kind of blessing.

Blood gushed up in my throat, my internal organs were torn apart like pain, I knew I was leaving, from now on, there was no day to see each other, I liked it insignificantly, I liked it as always, and it was almost over.

In the morning, I silently called this name in my heart that I had called countless times in my dreams, one by one, with all my affection, and became more and more desperate.

I stretched out my hand, I wanted her back, I wanted to covet the last bit of tenderness in her arms, I wanted to see her tears for me, I wanted to hug her as a husband.

I want her back, because she is Ning Chaolai, my Alai, my Alai.

She loves to sing, so I learned to sing for her, looking at her back, I sang with all my obsession,

"You see, this is my ruthless lady, who left me alone."

I don't even have the strength to laugh, I feel the black vortex swallowing me up little by little, I can't get rid of the force, it seems, the soul is slowly turning into nothing, but I can't help it, I can't just close my eyes like this.

The smell of blood in my mouth grew stronger, and I struggled to open my eyes.

The maidservants helped me, and the exclamation came to her ears, but she still couldn't give up, turned her head slowly, and cried,

"It's you who don't want me, cousin, like a beautiful flower, it's you who don't want it, it's you."

Her voice was small and still shaking, and she said I didn't want her.

It's okay, if I let her go again, it will be as if I abandoned Ning Chaolai, and it will be as if I didn't want her.

I followed her figure, watching her form blur in my eyes.

All the strength in my body was drained, and I could only trace her eyebrows and eyes little by little with my fingertips in my heart.

I forgot to tell her that she is as elegant as Lamei on weekdays, but she is full of charm and charm under the background of her wedding dress, no matter what she looks like, no one in my heart can replace her.

If I have an afterlife, if there is me in the next life, I don't want Ning Chaolai to come again, I don't want to have Liulan again, I don't want Ning Chaolai to meet Liulan again with the same identity and status in this life.

In this life, I am dead, and I can't say what I will do, but after I die, I am willing to endure all the pain and torture in exchange for becoming the cinnabar on her heart, like a shadow, never abandoned.

I couldn't see the lantern clearly, and the joy of the sky was obscured by a black curtain. The monk's drama came to his ears again, but this time he sang - whose little lady is this, born with such red lips and white teeth, if there is an afterlife, it must be for love.

She is my beautiful lady, but not my little lady.