But even if I hurt everyone and make this family uneasy, I still can't get rid of it, my soul has long been judged, and I have long been shackled! I was getting thinner and thinner, and I did not dare to allow myself to stop, to work frantically every day, to let my soul and mind be free to escape that judgment. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

Finally, one day, my madness went to the extreme, and I almost collapsed completely when I suddenly woke up!

It was two months after my father's death, and that night must have been fifteen nights, but the sky was surprisingly dark, and the whole sky was probably covered by dark clouds, and there was no moon, let alone starlight, and the north wind cried out violently, making a sharp and strange sound. In the middle of the night, everyone was asleep, and there was no light in the heavens and the earth. In the small courtyard where we rented, a black shadow was moving slowly, her movements were a little stiff but not hesitating at all, holding a cold iron weapon in her hand, and walked towards the second floor of the small courtyard step by step.

This is a small courtyard with two rooms up and down, which is the most common kind of old-fashioned small narrow courtyard in the county, and the two large rooms on each floor are divided into one large, two small and three rooms, the large room is the living room, and the two small rooms are the bedrooms. After my father died, my mother and I lived on the first floor, and my brother and sister-in-law lived on the second floor. And now the black shadow was walking towards the second floor without hesitation, every step of her was filled with heavy resentment, and there was always a woman's sharp laugh and mournful cry in her ear, "It's him, it's him, it's him who caused you to lose your father!" It's him, it's he who caused you to lose your lover; It was he who made the company bankrupt and make you lose everything; It's him, it's him, it's him, it's him, it's him......" The woman's voice kept screaming in her ear, slowly snatching away all her consciousness.

One step at a time......

She climbed slowly, standing at the door of the second floor, a gust of wind rolled up the long hair of the black shadow in the cold night, making her look extremely miserable, a residual red moonlight suddenly broke through the thick clouds, shining on her pale face, the eyes were pitch black, without any look, in her hand, in her hand was a cold and shining kitchen knife! The fleeting moonlight seemed to give her some strength, and the door didn't open, and she pierced through it.

Her steps were strange, gently fluttering and soft, she could hardly see her moving, she had passed through the guest room, standing at the door of the first bedroom, standing at the door she seemed to hesitate, her body began to tremble, she didn't move for a long time, as if she was arguing against something, a woman's voice kept ringing in her ears: "Quick, go, kill him, kill him and you will be free!" You will find your happiness again. But the shadow didn't move, and she felt a force that was always controlling her mind and even her body.

But there is always a trace of sobriety, maybe this sobriety is the instinct of the soul, and it keeps saying to the black shadow: "Can't, can't, you can't!" But this sobriety was so weak, and the black shadow suddenly lowered its head, as if in great pain. Yes, her soul seemed to be torn apart under the dispute between the two directions at this time, and she felt a hot burning sensation at the center of her eyebrows, she raised her head in pain, opened her mouth wide, she wanted to vent her pain to the sky, but she couldn't make any sound, and at this time the bedroom door opened silently!

The dark shadow's eyes suddenly widened, looking painful but also fierce.

Her figure suddenly appeared in front of the bed almost as soon as the door opened, as if she had been there all along.

Two people in the bed were sleeping soundly, and one of them was breathing heavily, apparently sleeping very unsteadily.

The black shadow stood like that, not moving for a long time, but if you look closely, you will find that her whole body is shaking even more, and the cold light in her hand is already raised above her head......

"No!" I suddenly shouted wildly, and there was a "bang" sound of a heavy object falling to the ground, and the lights were bright......

"Continued? ……”

"Continue!"

Two exclamations rang out one after the other......

The black shadow disappeared, I was drenched in cold sweat, almost crazy, how could it be? How did I end up here? How could I be in my brother's bedroom! I was sitting on the ground with the sharp kitchen knife beside me, my whole body trembling, my headache splitting, and the constant burning sensation from the center of my brow burned all my thoughts, and all I had in my brain was a fiery red and a woman's piercing laughter.

I heard my sister-in-law's frightened and high-pitched screams and the quarrels with my brother, but I could no longer hear what they were arguing about, but I knew that my brother and sister-in-law had almost never had an argument since they were married, and although I knew that the person my brother loved might not be my sister-in-law, he was always obedient to his sister-in-law, just as my father was tolerant of his mother, which I once thought was the best tradition of a man in the family. But this time they obviously had a fierce argument, and my brother was always protecting me, and he hugged me tightly, comforting me, telling me not to be afraid, as if it was me, not them, who had almost been hurt and severely frightened......

And I can't afford to go through the door anymore......

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I was alone and tired in the dark corner of the store, afraid to turn on the light, I was still shivering, I was still afraid, what the hell was wrong with me? Am I crazy? The cold wind was howling outside the store, it was dark and there was no light, I didn't know how I ran and hid there, what the hell was I going to do, what was I going to do?! I couldn't face myself, face the disaster that had just happened.

I cowered in the darkest corner, I heard my brother knocking on the door outside the store, tears flowed freely, I have never been so afraid, even if it is a nightmare, even in the face of my own death, I am afraid that I will really hurt my brother! What the hell is wrong with me?! And who's to tell me?!

My indifference made my father depressed, and now I'm going to kill my brother with my own hands?!

"Continue, continue! Continue to open the door! There was an anxious clapping sound outside the door, "I know you're inside, you open the door for me!" ”

“……”

"Boom!" The door lock was broken, and the tall and long figure of the elder brother rushed in, and then the lights were blazing.

"Please, don't turn on the lights." I got emotional and buried my head deep in the crook of my knee.

Then the lights went out, and the sky was already dark, but the room was still dark, and my brother and I sat in the darkness for a long time.

He took my shoulders and pulled me into his arms, I refused, but then I cried and fell into his generous and warm embrace, how long has it been, my brother and I have never been so close again, strangers like passers-by, and even few words have made friends. I'm not even used to his care anymore.

There are so many things that I can't understand, let alone laugh, that I am far away from him.

My brother is the kind of boy who is tall, handsome and sunny, and his former brother behaves elegantly, talks well, is funny and humorous, is a standard warm male type, and is a male god in the minds of girls from childhood to adulthood. He is my protector.

When I was a child, I was his faithful follower, but he never annoyed me, he was eight years older than me, so he protected me everywhere and accommodated me. So I know a lot of his little secrets.