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The sun was shining on my face, it was very comfortable, and I slowly opened my eyes, winter is approaching, and warm sunlight will not be too common.

I had a long dream all night, in which I leaned on Gu Liansheng's arms. Gu Liansheng took my hand and said a lot of words, hazy, but when I woke up, I forgot all about it.

Is this just a dream, a beautiful dream that I'm going to wake up to after all?!

I turned, slowly turned, my arms exposed, sunny but still cold, the man I had been with last night was long gone.

The air was filled with the smell of cigarettes and alcohol.

I inhaled the air, and there was still a little bit of Gu Liansheng's body fragrance in the air.

Gu Liansheng left, and left without saying a word to me.

Didn't say good morning, didn't say goodbye.

In my heart, there is infinite loss.

Did he leave again like last time and never come back? However, it was me, not him, who left last time, and this time, is it him who left me?

That's fair, Gu Liansheng, right?

My body was in the air, my face was on the quilt, and I was trying to breathe the smell of Gu Liansheng on the quilt, his smell was getting weaker and weaker, was he getting farther and farther away from me?

It was cold behind me, and I got up and looked for my clothes.

At the head of the bed, last night's clothes were neatly folded there, lying where Gu Liansheng had pillowed last night. Gu Liansheng didn't forget to help me tidy up my clothes when he left, thinking of this, I smiled secretly.

Looking at the bright sunshine, I was so happy that I felt like I had seen the flowers of heaven bloom on earth.

Get up, get dressed, put your shoes and lie quietly on the floor next to the bed waiting for my toes.

I smiled again, no wonder so many girls expressed their love for Gu Liansheng in front of me in high school, and he was still called An Yi at that time. No wonder Gu Liansheng will become a public lover, Gu Liansheng is so good, how lucky I am to be so ordinary.

"But, what does Gu Liansheng like about me?"

I was thinking while putting on my shoes, and suddenly remembered that Zhang Xiaoxian once said in her book, don't deliberately ask a man what he likes about you, because he may also leave you for this reason in the future.

I forgot the original words, but I remember what she meant.

Forget it, don't think about it, otherwise Gu Liansheng will say that I am cranky again.

I smiled, I was in such a good mood today.

When I came to the living room, there was no him in the living room, I pouted, I must talk about him when he came back, why did he leave without saying a word?

On the table, there was an open notebook, I walked over, isn't this my diary? How here, I distinctly remember that I kept it under my pillow and slept with it night after night. What's wrong with being here now? Gu Liansheng? I thought of Gu Liansheng, who ...... last night Did he get it here?

"Oops!" I cursed in my heart, and hurriedly ran to the table, it's over, I'm done, if the notebook was really taken by Gu Liansheng, he must have read the contents, it wrote my secret love for him, missing, and more scolding him for being stupid, I'm finished!!

With his eyes closed, he walked over.

The notebook flipped through the new night, and some words were written on it, and the dragon flew and the phoenix danced.

I picked up the notebook, and the handwriting was so familiar to me that I didn't even recognize it.

Gu Liansheng's handwriting, I remember that his handwriting was very sloppy, but now this character is relatively neat, it seems that he deliberately wrote neatly. I smiled, it seems that I have to supervise Gu Liansheng to write the handwriting, and I will be able to recognize what he wrote in the love letters he wrote in the future, hehe......

"Flowers in Dreams, Blooming in Dreams"

Hover in front of your window with your hands in your pockets.

The bright sunlight on the glass is like your warm eyes.

Looking up, sorrow overflowed the heart.

Where are you? Would you like to open the window and wave at me?

The lights reflect the moonlight, and the shadows grow.

It's late at night, and your lights are still not on.

The flowers on the rooftop bloom uncontrollably.

I'm still here, stretching out my hand, leaving nothing in the cold moonlight.

I'm still here, waiting for that dream miracle.

A fallen leaf falls at your feet.

Leaning down, only the tips of cold hair remain, and I don't know how to be sad. ”

What is it? I hold the notebook in the palm of my hand, poetry? Word? Or a love letter to me?

I don't know, but I do know that he describes a teenager standing outside the window of his beloved girl, waiting from dawn to dark. Very simple statement, very familiar tone, forget it, I don't want to.

The next page of the notebook was folded in a corner, and I opened it to read.

"Su girl:

I was in a hurry, so I left first, and I didn't say good morning, I'm very sorry.

There are small porridge greens in the kitchen that you can try.

Will be back tomorrow morning and ...... again

Girl, you must remember to be gentle with me, my brother is injured because of you.

You have to wait for me to come back, obediently.

Mercy. ”

I looked at the words Gu Liansheng left for me, and remembered my rough self last night, and ...... to him In the end, he bit his lip and bled out, haha, who made him treat me so much, hum!!

My mobile phone, put on the table, I opened it, and there was a text message left by Gu Liansheng for me: "Su girl, why did you change your number?" No wonder I couldn't get through to your phone before, I saved my number in your phone again, and I ordered you to memorize my number. I deleted that policeman's phone, I hate that you are good to other men! Remember to call me when you miss me, well, I'll call you too, hehe. ”

My heart is warm, it turns out that Gu Liansheng is also going to be jealous, hehe.

I'll call him when I'm done.

I walked towards the "heart".

"Sister Qiqi, I have done a good job of the plan, I think we can promote Phantom to do charity. Phantom has never been in love, and I can testify to this. ”

I pushed the plan in front of Sister Qiqi, I stood in front of her desk, Sister Qiqi sat there thinking, Uncle An Ran came over drinking coffee, stood behind Sister Qiqi, and did not speak.

After a while, Sister Qiqi turned her head and asked, "An Ran, what do you say about this?"

"Whatever you want, I have no opinion." Uncle Enron glanced at me, drank coffee with a blank face and left.

I still have no bottom in my heart, I can't dig into the privacy of my good friends to help "Xinyi", as soon as I go to work, I am under pressure, if I don't go to work, I have no goal, and I am muddy all day long, alas.

Sister Qiqi casually flipped through my plan, raised her head, and asked, "What is your entry point?"

"Huh?" I was asked, "In short, what do you mean by that?" Sister Qiqi pushed the plan back to me, looked at me, and waited for my answer.

"Uh...... Charitable...... Oh no, hold on. I lowered my head and waited for Sister Qiqi's criticism, this plan must be terrible, and I began to regret changing it.

"Susu, do you know ......"

Sister Qiqi raised her voice and said: "Shopping malls are like battlefields, and a good entry point can often lead to better breakthroughs. But, charity, Susu, what do you think is its gimmick? You have to think about whether people will buy our magazines. ”

Sister Qiqi put down the pen in her hand, looked at me, and asked, "Are you sure it's done?"

I looked up, not sure how to answer.

"Haven't thought about it yet, have you?" Sister Qiqi's tone was a little displeased, "Then go home first and think about it before you come." ”

"I ...... "Alas, how to say, I was originally a person with a intestine leading to the end, but I let it out, so I replied affirmatively: "Think about it!" I also stood up straight and waited for the leader's criticism.

Silence, how is it still silence?

Sister Qiqi looked at me, I looked at Sister Qiqi, and I felt weird.

"Okay, then you think about it, go ahead and prepare now. You go and communicate with Miss Li again, and then come back to give me a definite answer, and I'll spread the news first. "I saw Sister Qiqi smile, and suddenly I understood that she was putting pressure on me to give it my all.

I smiled at her and walked out of my mind.

It is said that women in love are very courageous, and this is true!!

......

"Arnold, why can't the phantom phone call get through, where is she now?" I couldn't find Phantom for a long time, so I had to call Arnold.

"Huh? Sister Susu, Sister Phantom she went back to the orphanage, the master sent me to catch the thief, I couldn't find anyone to help, Sister Phantom said she went back. She also told me not to look for her in the past few days, and she also gave me her bank card, saying that she wanted me to hand it over to you, you ......"

Before Arnold finished speaking, I hung up the phone, why did Phantom give the bank card to Arnold and then ask him to hand it over to me? Is she going somewhere? Still is?

Forget it, I don't want to, I look up at the sky, why is the weather so gloomy all of a sudden? Let's find the illusion first.

I felt weird in my heart along the way, could it be because something happened to the illusion, or Gu Liansheng had an accident, no! But why is my heartbeat not beating properly? What's going to happen again? My head started to mess up again, alas, thinking too much, my head hurt.

By the time I arrived at the orphanage, it was already dark, and I looked at the time at 22:22, and I didn't even have time to eat dinner to find the illusion. I feel weird in my heart, and I can only feel at ease if I find her.

The orphanage was quiet, I pushed open the door and walked in, wondering, why is the door of the orphanage unlocked today, did Phantom forget, or did Arnold not give the key to Phantom?

The orphanage stipulates that the children must come back before 19:30, have dinner on time at 20:00, go to bed at 21:00, and are not allowed to run around.

In the past, there were always children running around at night and not sleeping, but then I stipulated that they supervise each other, and if they were caught running around, they would be punished for cleaning, and children who did not make mistakes would be rewarded with accidents every month.

So now the orphanage is quiet, and there is not a single child running around. Only the dim street lamps illuminated this bleak night alone, and the wind blew, so cold.

It looked like it was going to rain tonight, and I looked at the flickering lights and thought I had to stay here tonight.

I haven't found the illusion yet, alas, in a hurry.

It's very cold, I want to get into the bed, and the wind in early winter is chilling.

It's actually a bit scary to climb the stairs with the dim street lamp, but I'm used to it because I often come, but when I see the faint street lamp, I plan to change to some bigger and brighter bulbs, so that it is safe. Luckily, the kids don't run around at night now, so what if they fall!?

While thinking about it, I went upstairs, the wind outside was blowing, and I heard rain hitting the roof, which was the top floor, so the sound of the rain sounded clearer, and the lamp on the porch stretched my shadow like a ghost.

Stop at the doorway on the far left, where our orphanage keepers live. From the outermost window of this room, you can see the orphanage in its entirety, and it is the only place where you can see all the creepers, which I also discovered by accident.

Quietly, without a sound, I stood straight at the door, missing Phantom inside, reaching out to knock on the door, but after thinking about it, Phantom must have fallen asleep so late, so don't disturb her. I'll go to the cupboard and find some milk biscuits for the kids for the night, I'm not in the mood to cook noodles anymore at such a late hour.

Since Zheng Xiaoyang's perfect image collapsed in front of me, I haven't cleaned up the house much, and I'm too lazy to get used to it, it seems that now I have to learn to clean up the house with Gu Liansheng, otherwise he will dislike me for not liking to clean up, and I am not a good wife and mother.

My heart warms when I think of this.

Take out the key and open the door.

The room was quiet, and through the walls of several rooms I came to the door of the last room.

This room has a window, it is the last room in this room, it has a window, it is my favorite room with Phantom, so although the room is not big, I asked Arnold to help move another bed in. I live with Phantom and I can say something intimate about women......

Why is there a light in the house, is it that Phantom forgot to turn off the light or Phantom hasn't slept yet?

I was happy in my heart, and finding the illusion meant that there was nothing wrong with her, and it proved that I was indeed cranky this afternoon, and I smiled, but why did my heart still tingle for a moment, like a needle suddenly piercing my heart.

I raised my hand and wanted to knock on the door, but I heard a voice coming from inside the room, I listened with my ears sideways, it was an illusory voice, could it be that the illusion was with someone, or was it talking on the phone? I thought it was weird, and I couldn't help but listen, it was......

I stood in the doorway, and the phantom voice grew louder, stimulating my nerves, "Sorry, thank you.... Thank you...... Ahh

The mercy she called, could it be Gu Liansheng?

Could it be my Gu Liansheng? Gu Liansheng, who was lingering with me last night?

My heart suddenly became more flustered, so scared, so scared, if it was really Gu Liansheng, what should I do?

I want to go, even if the person inside is really Gu Piansheng, I can deceive myself, as if there is no such thing, I will still love him, but my love for him will be devalued from now on.

I wanted to run, I wanted to run, my tears flowed, I bit the muscles next to my thumb, trembling to keep myself from crying. If he finds out, if I am really sure that it is Gu Liansheng, then how can I deceive myself?

However, I couldn't move my steps, and I wanted to know if the man inside was Gu Liansheng, how could he be happy in me last night and my best friend today, why would all my friends around me have something to do with him?

First it was a dream, and now it's a fantasy.

Why is this happening, why am I being deceived by Gu Liansheng's gentleness again and again, I'm so stupid, I'm really stupid!!

I bit my hand so hard that tears fell from my right hand, my hand hurt, it hurts! But how can such physical pain compare to the pain of my body?!

Tears blurred my eyes, and I wished I could see again at this moment......

"Phantom, don't thank me...... Just don't let the girl know, I'm ...... Alas....." Gu Liansheng's words came from the room, intermittent and out of breath.

It's really Gu Liansheng!!

Gu Liansheng, why are you lying to me again? What exactly am I doing wrong? You're going to treat me like this!!

I hate, I hate it, I hate Gu Liansheng and he lied to me again!!

However, I can't hate Phantom, because Phantom doesn't know that Gu Liansheng is my beloved man, but I don't want to be friends with her anymore, my mood at the moment is like the mood of Mengmeng back then!

Two years ago, I treated Mengmeng in the same way, and now I finally understand Mengmeng's mood at that time, is this retribution? I want to hide in Mengmeng's arms and cry now, but she doesn't pay attention to me now.

Gu Liansheng, I hate you, I hate you for ruining the friendship between me and my only friends!!

My body trembled and I kicked open the dilapidated door......

In the hazy eyes of tears, Phantom and Gu Liansheng maintained the ambiguous posture of me and Gu Liansheng last night.

I looked at them, tears rained down, Gu Liansheng took off his blindfold and looked at me in horror, I opened my mouth: "No need, I'm sorry, Gu Liansheng, I, already, know!!"

I looked at him hatefully, watching him give the body he gave me last night to this best friend tonight, and strangely I was so calm, I looked up at him and gave him a mocking smile.

"Su girl, I'm ......" Gu Liansheng ran over naked like this, I looked at the man who gave me the warmth last night, and didn't wait for him to speak. I looked at Phantom, she knelt on the bed with her hands supporting her body, and turned her face, still with a look of horror, as if she had been frozen.

Gu Liansheng grabbed my hand and said anxiously, "I'm sorry, Su girl, I'm sorry......"

I looked at him, still smiling, I pulled my hands out of his palms, how I missed the warmth of these hands last night, but tonight he stroked my best friend's body, I felt disgusting, disgusting!!

I raised my hands and gave myself two loud slaps, I was like a fool, I was deceived by Gu Liansheng. It's because I'm too stupid, I know that Gu Liansheng is deceiving me again, I can only blame myself for being stupid, what a stupidity!

"Su girl, you ......" Gu Liansheng looked at me and wanted to grab my hand, I took a step back, raised my face, pulled the corners of my lips, and said, "Gu Liansheng, I only blame myself for being too stupid!!"

The clenched fist wanted to hit him, but after all, he was still reluctant, just that......

Turn around, and no tears can be shed again......

Running down the stairs as fast as I could, getting hit, falling, hurting, but where could there be more pain than my heart at the moment?!

Raising my face, the rain mixed with tears hit my face.

I think of the sentence "Holding sand in your hand, raising the flowers; Touching face, your eyes", it was originally written to Gu Liansheng, but at this moment, it is so ridiculous and so sad to think about it!!

I was deceived by the tenderness in Gu Liansheng's eyes.

What a ridiculous red dust!

When is the end?

The heavy rain of the night wet my memories.

Smile wryly, lift your feet, and run to the opposite.

Gu Liansheng, whether you look for me or not, I won't let you find it again in this life!!

The voice of "Su girl...... is getting farther and farther away from me, farther and farther away......

A heavy rain drenched me so wet that I didn't say a word and turned around and left.

This pain is not enough, I still long for you to appear after the rain.

The rhythm of lovers is too fixed, and I can't understand it when I have been in love with Hongchen for too long.

Pour yourself a glass of wine, different moods and different feelings.

I laughed at Hongchen, a little sad.

If you can't love it, you won't give up.

Since you turned around and wanted to leave, don't look back, and leave me alone to taste that cup of poisonous wine.

Hongchen laughed at me, too worried.

Is it enough to shed tears for love for a lifetime.

It's all because you can't get rid of the taste after love, so you have to pursue it desperately.

Jacky's song can't sing about my current mood, my sadness.

The rain drenched my whole body and cleansed my mind.

I remembered too much, too much of the past.

I was wrong, wrong from the beginning.

I want to go home, really, really want to go back to where I live.

Even if it wasn't my home in the first place, at least I could stay for a while.

Forget it, forget it......

Maybe!