"Gu Liansheng, I'll dress and put on makeup for Phantom first, you go out first. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 info" Standing at the door with tears in my eyes closed, I said softly to Gu Liansheng behind me.

Gu Liansheng didn't speak, just walked away quietly. I listened to Gu Liansheng's footsteps getting farther and farther away, farther and farther away, and finally disappeared into my ears......

I couldn't control it anymore and crouched on the ground and cried loudly.

My favorite fantasy, I left angrily at this door, but I will never see you again, my best friend.

Fantasy, if time comes back, I won't leave. I won't leave no matter what, I'm going to mess with you, and I don't want you to die even if it's a fight.

Do you know? I don't like you now, you're so cruel, why don't you keep your promises? Why did you leave me, are you angry because of my departure? Now that I'm back, you get up, okay, don't be angry with me, okay, I'll be scared......

Phantom, I'm afraid of life without you.

How I wish you had suddenly disappeared like you did two years ago, and then you would appear in front of me in a different way. I'll miss, I'll blame you, but at least you'll not be lying cold in front of me like you are now.

Phantom, I'm so sad, do you really bear it?!

I looked at Phantom, she was probably tired and didn't want to move anymore, so she slept there quietly. It's like just coming into this world, no clothes, no worries, no sorrows, no worries......

Pick up her clothes scattered on the floor, all the clothes she took off.

There was no smell of Gu Liansheng in the room for a long time, and there was only my boundless sadness......

One by one, they put them on her.

Phantom, you love beauty more than me, then, let me put on makeup for you again!

Do you remember? I've never done makeup, but I love to play tricks on you. At night when you are asleep I will get up alone and scribble on your face, wasting those favorite cosmetics and in the morning I will gloat at you screaming in the bathroom.

I'll laugh and you'll chase me from room to room. When you finally get caught, you will get angry and say that you want to turn my face into a panda, but you will never, because you know that I am allergic to cosmetics, and I will still come to play tricks on you......

Fantasy, I don't know how to wear makeup, will you blame me for painting you with panda eyes, blame me for painting you ugly so that my mother-in-law can't find you?

Fantasy, don't you want the cosmetics that the men who love you give you? Those are your favorite brands! Why don't you wait until you run out before leaving, do you know you can't run out and leave me?

Fantasy, fantasy......

"Sister Susu, Sister Phantom, she ...... Arnold stood behind me, already crying.

"Shhh, Phantom is asleep, don't make a noise about her, Arnold, look, did I paint Phantom beautifully?" I raised my face, "Sister Susu, Sister Phantom, she's gone, she, uh-" Arnold stood behind me and cried, "Woo-Phantom, look, look, even Arnold thinks I've painted you ugly, woo-"

"Su girl, let me carry her to cremation." Gu Liansheng stood behind me, his face calm, "No, Gu Liansheng!" Arnold, you can walk away with the illusion! You hold her, she won't be afraid, I know you have always wanted to protect her, you can protect her for the last journey. Arnold nodded with tears in his eyes and picked up Phantom from the bed.

Her body has stiffened, and she is no longer that beautiful.

Illusion, I painted you ugly, your face is full of my tears, how can it be good-looking? Don't blame me for being sad, okay?

One last glance at her, closed her eyes, and turned around.

Illusory, forgive me for not being brave! Let them give you one last ride!

On the sheets, that pale red......

Phantom ......

Vegetarian:

I was no longer there when you read this letter.

Forgive me for saying goodbye to you in such a selfish and cruel way.

Actually, how much I want to live.

I cherish every day with you, you are not my oldest friend, but the one who accompanied me on the last journey of my life.

I agreed to do an interview for Heart of Mind because I knew my time was running out, and you didn't know it!

I have congenital heart disease, Susu, you don't care enough about me, but I also hope you don't care about me so much, because you will be sad and sad because I am gone. However, I want you to remember me, and please forgive me for my selfishness.

What do you say?

Let me tell you why I don't fall in love! Because the boy I love died many years ago, and I don't remember him anymore.

His name is Zhenzhen, and his name is what he gave me. You're going to remember him for me, okay? Because he was the first person I came to this orphanage who was willing to talk to me and be nice to me. Do you know? The dean of the year wanted to make money with us orphans, but fortunately, my mother-in-law found out later......

Susu, I am destined to be a poor child, without a home and no relatives. I've always thought of you as my relative, but we can't always be together.

When I found out I had congenital heart disease, I was really dead, probably 14 years old, and I didn't want to live anymore.

So, I live alone.

I have a lot of friends because I'm afraid of feeling alone.

But they didn't understand me.

I want to find a man to accompany me, but I'm afraid that there will be another person who will feel sorry for me, it must be a man who loves me very much, and I would rather not.

However, I am afraid of blaspheming the feelings that the truth gives me, I know that it is very likely to be just family affection, but no matter what kind of affection is good, I will remember you for the rest of my life.

You were the first friend who was willing to stay with me when I was angry. They will all leave, and only you will be with me, crying, or, laughing.

Life is like that.

There are those who want to live, but they die; There are people who want to die, but they are still alive.

It's a very unfair world, and how I want to live. Later, there was money to do the operation, but it was too late.

Actually, I want to tell you that Gu Liansheng cares about you very much, and when I first saw the look he looked at you, I knew that he loved you very much, and loved you very much. But, Susu, why don't you know how to cherish it?

I'm really afraid that he will walk away from you and stop loving you. How I wish he could always love you and continue my yearning for love.

You're going to be together, you know?

Perhaps, I am also in love with Gu Liansheng, I say this, please don't be angry, okay?

Perhaps, what I love is just the real shadow of Gu Liansheng!

That day, I went to see an open-air show. The protagonist is Gu Liansheng, he sang a lot of love songs on stage, some of which I don't know the name of, but he cried at the end of the song......

Then a singer changed him, and perhaps, on a night like that, I was the only one who saw the tears in the corners of his eyes.

I was standing not far away, and after waiting for him to change his makeup, I walked up and said, "You sing a good song, but you can't control your emotions." A singer must control his emotions well to sing well, hello, my name is Li Huanhuan, I just saw ...... You're crying! ”

I reached out, but he didn't come to shake my hand, just said sorry softly and left.

I followed him.

"I need your help."

I said it out loud, and then he looked back, and finally we met.

That day, I felt that Zhenzhen had returned, and the Zhenzhen in my memory was also so gentle, and I also had sad eyes.

I introduce him to you, in fact, I am reluctant to let him go, but I want to share my happiness with you.

In Haole Dili, I saw your angry look, and Gu Liansheng looked at you angry and speechless, I knew that what he cared about was you.

At that moment, I was lost, I regretted it, and I was happy......

Later, you came to tell my mother-in-law that she couldn't do it.

My world has been dark since then, and I thought I would leave this world before my mother-in-law, so I told her about my illness. I wouldn't let her tell you, but then my mother-in-law left this world before me, and I knew I was going to leave this world too.

My regret is that I will be complete until I die.

Virgins, who don't know the beauty of sex until they die, what a pity it would be.

I hesitated, losing my virginity would be a desecration of my true feelings, but we would not necessarily meet in another world. Keeping the virgin body until death, I think it will be another regret for myself.

Then, I found Gu Liansheng, I said that he was the only man I had a heart for in this life, and I put my medical records in front of him and asked him to fulfill me.

He disagreed, he said: "I'm still a virgin, I've always had only a plain girl in my heart, I can't be interested in other women, I can't ......" I understand what it means, I laughed, Susu, you know what? A good man like this is more rare than a dinosaur for a woman.

Do you know? How I envy you, and I also know that there is no bed between you and Gu Liansheng.

I saw his face, as red as a peach blossom in March.

I know that such a man will never be met again before I die, so I will not let it go.

Later, I gave him the idea to drink and come back to you, and you will not be able to refuse him.

I also secretly told him that you love men to kiss your earlobes the most, because you once told me that you are most afraid and love men to kiss your earlobes, and you said that you will be very excited and will love that man very much. Forgive me for my selfishness and tell this man your most private things.

I knew you weren't a virgin for a long time, so I asked him if he would mind, and he replied, "It's just a pity that I didn't be the first man to be a vegetarian girl, but I want to be the last man to be a vegetarian girl."

I looked at his serious eyes and was happy for you.

He was afraid that you would hate him and that he would do that to you without your consent, and I told him, "To love her is to capture her heart, to grasp her body." If you don't know how to cook, take both to the extreme. ”

In the end, he was embarrassed to say: "I didn't expect cooking to be so difficult, I still haven't learned well after so many years, and the vegetarian girl always complains that the things I cook are unpalatable."

Actually, he didn't agree, but then I said that I didn't have much time, and that it was my last wish in this world.

And then came the thing you saw, and I just wanted it to be a secret forever, but Heaven meant it for you to see.

Do you know? He said he had to wear a blindfold for him to feel because he couldn't see. He said that he could miss your body in the dark, so that he could give me happiness and I would have no regrets.

I told him to turn off the lights, and he said I couldn't see when the lights were off. He said he only wanted to be with you, not with other women, he said he loved you very much, but he didn't dare to let you know, he said he felt guilty......

We did the same position you did last night, he said, it will make him miss you, he said it will make me happy.

Actually, it feels really good.

Thank you so much to him that I could change from a girl to a woman before I die.

Susu, I'm sleepy, I want to sleep.

Susu, I'm going to die without clothes, with nothing, without taking anything with me.

Susu, please take care of Arnold for me.

Su Su, you must love Gu Liansheng well, because I want you to love him.

Susu, I'm sorry for the man who took possession of you.

Susu, I'm sorry, I didn't keep my promise.

Susu, goodbye......

"Illusory, goodbye. In the next life, we are still good sisters, in the next life, I will give you all my love, in the next life, we, goodbye......"