I thought I was going away quietly, packing up my stubbornness and taking it away, leaving with apologies for the people I had hurt, and not alarming anyone. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info However, some things are destined to happen and cannot be escaped.

After the graduation ceremony, I walked out of the auditorium and suddenly felt like a dream. One person came up to us, it was Wang Yi, and we greeted each other.

"The graduation ceremony went well, right?" He asked.

"Smooth, when will your Finance Academy be opened?"

"Tomorrow morning."

"Well, I wish you a bright future!"

"Let's talk." His expression was different from usual, there was a faint murderous aura, and I instantly had a sense of foreboding.

"Okay."

Wang Yi and I came to a coffee shop at the school gate, his expression was serious, which was very different from the temperament of a warm man on weekdays.

After sitting down, we each asked for a cappuccino.

He took the diploma in my hand, and it should be said that he took it by force.

He touched the stamp on the certificate, as if testing the authenticity, and said: "This is the certificate of our liberal arts university, it is genuine, it proves that you have not wasted these four years, without this certificate, once you enter the jungle of Beijing, you and the hunter did not bring a shotgun, so you can only sit and wait to die." ”

"It's okay, it's gold that shines everywhere, and a piece of paper doesn't prove anything."

He changed his words, raised his voice and said: "You can't finish graduating, what can you do to take care of Wenxin, will she live in the basement with you every day in the future, and she will be destroyed by the years before she is 30 years old and become a yellow-faced woman?" Can you bear it? I advise you to let go! ”

I never imagined that these words would come out of the mouth of the good man Wang Yi, his voice was so loud that it could be heard in Mars, and the people in the café turned their heads to look at us.

I was stunned.

He continued: "Where do you think your certificate came from, it's not for Wenxin's face, just my father's words, otherwise you are a high school student, go back to your countryside to farm and raise pigs, do you know?" You think about it, you weren't meant to be together, and she has better options. ”

I was still stunned, and I didn't come back to my senses at all.

Wang Yi threw 100 yuan to the waiter and said that he didn't need to look for it, turned around and left the coffee shop.

I sat there as if I had been hit with a heavy hammer, and my whole body disintegrated, and I felt powerless.

I didn't know how to get out of the café under the astonished gaze of others, but I felt that the whole world had turned into a gray background.

Dark clouds gathered overhead, and the sweltering capital urgently needed a downpour to wash away the smog and dirty stench in the air.

I called Fu Wenxin, and she said that she had just finished the graduation ceremony, and I said that I needed to see her immediately.

At the old position by the mirror lake, she looked at my tense face and asked, "What's the matter with you?" Is there anything urgent? ”

I thought about Wang Yi's words repeatedly, and the more I thought about it, the more aggrieved I became, I grew so big, I thought I was tall, and I was a scholar, although I also knew my stinky temper, but I just didn't change it, and I had never suffered such humiliation.

I couldn't take it anymore, and the breath I was holding back finally exploded: "Why are you begging him?" I don't need a diploma or any bullshit degree! Why did you ask him? I don't need your sympathy, I don't need his help, in the eyes of you magnates, we are pugs without dignity and need to survive on your handouts. You follow him, you go! ”

I pointed to her nose, and after speaking, there was a burst of pain in my heart, and there was an electric drill cutting wildly in it, which was extremely cruel.

She was stunned, speechless, and my familiar eyes were full of strange and incomprehensible colors.

I cared so much about her that I felt indebted to her for a heavy word, and this time, I yelled at her like a fucking mad dog, barking incessantly.

The rain, the warm rain, the dirty rain, which contains all kinds of heavy metals and dust, crackled and hit us.

We used to sit in the rain and tell stories warmly, but I knew that this was the last time I and this girl would be in the rain. When he turned to leave her, tears flowed uncontrollably.

I went back to the dormitory without a soul, ready to sleep with my head covered, but before I took off my clothes, Fang Xiao called me and asked me to go to the office of "Tide" to help.

Although we resigned and broke up, the school leaders said that there must be a beginning and an end, not unorganized and undisciplined, and the "graduation season" topic of "Tide" must be finished before everyone can disperse.

I said hello to Yuan Zheng and went out.

When I arrived at the office, Fang smiled alone, she said that there was no way for everyone to go their separate ways after graduation, only you and me were left.

Looking at the place that once inspired youth, now people go to the empty building, and it is surprisingly quiet. The ground is full of books and periodicals, and the graduation is imminent, and the song is over, and my heart is extremely sad.

Fang Xiao said: "I broke up with Su Wei, he went home to be a civil servant, and I want to go to the United States to continue my studies, Columbia University." ”

I let out an "oh".

"I don't know why I want to say this to you, actually...... Actually, I never loved him. ”

I let out another "oh" and pulled over a chair and sat down quietly.

I stared at Fang Xiao, she was as beautiful as ever, with a slightly familiar charm of early autumn.

She stared at me too.

We laughed at the same time.

"Why are your clothes wet, take them off first."

"It's okay, it was raining a little just now, and I didn't have time to change it."

She came over to help me take off my shirt, thought of graduation, thought of Fu Wenxin who was about to leave me, saw Fang Xiao's handsome face and proud twin peaks, smelled the faint fragrance of her body, despair, sadness, anger, all kinds of emotions mixed together like a tornado stirring in my body.

Without saying a word, I grabbed her hand and hugged her into my arms.

We glued together in a forgetful manner, panting.

Fuck the first kiss, fuck the chastity, I didn't think about anything at that moment.

Our tongues were entangled, and she was very skillful, sometimes accepting and sometimes attacking, but I was like a stunned young man who had just started farming, panicked, and rough and disorderly.

She pressed my head desperately into her tender country, and I sucked greedily.

Her breasts are like autumn waves of wheat in the wind, and the fragrance is like a wildflower in her hometown, with a little honey in it, sucking it, it is very sweet.

Her head was thrown back, breathing and panting deeply, her long hair scattered over her shoulders.

A fire was blazing, and I slammed her up and put her on the desk, her soft, slender legs wrapped tightly around my waist.

At this moment, a figure flashed in the doorway, and I knew this figure even if it turned to ashes.

In an instant, I was like a machine running at full speed and suddenly cut off the power, I put down Fang Xiao and ran out, Fang Xiao didn't understand the situation.

I caught up with her.

She said, "It's okay, you go on, I'll say goodbye to you." ”

"What you just saw...... Was it a misunderstanding...... I do not know...... I don't know what I'm doing, I don't want to explain! "I'm like a grumpy bull.

"Misunderstanding? A misunderstanding of hugging each other? You don't have to, and you don't need to explain. ”

"You want to go with Wang Yi?"

"I don't follow anyone, my future parents have already arranged that I want to go home and marry the second generation of officials in a provincial town, for my father's career. I've been willful since I was a child, and I've never thought about my parents, for them, I have to be not willful this time, after all, they are the closest people. ”

"Political marriages? Is it what you want? ”

"There are things that you can't get if you want them, I wish you happiness in Beijing and find the life you want."

"I ......"

Looking at Fu Wenxin's distant back, what happened that day was like a long nightmare. I pounded on my chest to wake myself up.

I began to run desperately, I don't know how long, I ran to the wild mountain near Xiangshan, panting, sweating profusely, and my back was soaked.

With no one around, I roared recklessly, and at last the roar turned into a wail, and I slowly crouched down and sat down on the ground, like a wounded and helpless beast, unable to find shelter in the dark forest.

I know it's not in a dream.

Since coming to Beijing, we have fallen into a melting pot, and not everything has developed according to our imagination.

Innocence, like fine sand that can't be grasped, slowly passes between our fingers.

The sincerity and purity that I used to take for granted have become penniless garbage. The purity and sincerity pasted on the surface, but there is an ugly core of power and money, including her, who was once so beautiful and simple, and did not escape this doomed catastrophe.

We have to learn to slowly thicken our skin, to fight, to grab.

From that day on, I realized that I was not so obsessed with solitude, and without her, I needed to learn how to get used to real solitude, to the noisy world outside the ivory tower, as the stubborn brother of law law said.

Goodbye, college; Hello Beijing, we are really here.