Chapter 37: The First Intimate Encounter

For the needs and self-restraint of the opposite sex, how to balance the "id" and "superego", so that they can live in peace in the body, I have discussed this philosophical proposition with the vegetarian Yang Chenjun many times. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

The unanimous answer after the discussion was: masturbation.

I asked him, "How often?" ”

"Do it once in a while," he said. ”

I said, "It's okay, you can masturbate if you want, prostitute your left and right hands and don't break the law, I see you counting the beads." ”

He was overjoyed and said, "Those who study Buddhism are not allowed to have sex outside of marriage, and they are not allowed to have sex. Moreover, the Buddha did not say that anyone who studies Buddhism must take vows. You can consciously keep the vows, but if you don't keep the vows, you can't practice to a higher realm, and whether you want to be liberated or not is completely voluntary. ”

"Got it, so you're going to find a girlfriend to go to a small hotel to be warm, right?"

He said solemnly: "The 70th volume of the Abhidharma Mahabhasha Treatise describes in detail the importance of sexual desire to life. First of all, when 'the father and the mother are both lustful and united,' the living beings in the state of 'being' will see the state of their parents' intercourse due to the karma of their past lives, and they will 'manifest in the love of the father and the mother.' Without sex, there would be no reproduction and evolution of species, and we should look at this thing correctly, right? So let it be. ”

Chatting with Monk Yang is quite brain-burning, as if he is shouting to a master in another world.

Yuan Zheng was different from us, when he was 18 years old, he broke out on the roof of the school with a female classmate with a mohican haircut, and the teacher was explaining the use of comeon in the next classroom, and the teacher was explaining the use of comeon, and the students read comeon with him, and he came on with dozens of classmates.

He said that he was an old virgin in his circle of friends at that time.

I said that the people in your circle have very fucking tastes, they all grew up eating hormones, all of them breed \ horses, and they grow fast.

He said I was too young, too simple.

I admit that my too young, too simple Tucson is broken.

All of my experiences as a woman came to the classroom in high school, and late at night, her body hung over me in the darkness, and I curled up in horror like a lamb to the slaughter.

I longed for love, but I despaired of it. Kafka said: "It is difficult to live with a woman. People do this out of strangeness, compassion, sensuality, timidity, and vanity. Only in the depths is there a stream, it can be called love, this love cannot be found, it is fleeting. ”

This poison of idealism has maimed me, and for so many years, I have not held a girl's hand, or even written a love letter, as if writing a love letter to a woman can also make her pregnant.

The crush from dawn to dusk, excessive longing is like a sharp cone chiseling open the heart, and the blood seems to have flowed out.

When I reunited with her at the University of Liberal Arts, my heart became calm.

Jinghu is a moist treasure of the school, there are countless mandarin ducks at night, it is said that as long as you roar, you can startle countless mandarin ducks, and some even run out with their pants.

Alone alone will never go there for a walk at night, the picture is six clean, out of sight and out of mind.

On the day of the reunion with Fu Wenxin, there was a shining moon in the lake, and we paced to the mirror lake.

She asked me to grant her a request.

"What do you ask? Don't let me find four shamrocks, I won't do this kind of boring and stupid thing! ”

"I've always wanted to pinch your nose."

"Why?"

"I just want to pinch it."

"Okay, you pinch."

She leaned over, the fragrance on her body came to her face, making people feel a faint drunkenness, and her eyes were bright and attractive under the reflection of the lake.

This girl was too ruthless, pinching my nose until I opened my mouth to breathe, and she let go of her hand as if she was very happy.

I asked, "Is my nose fun?" ”

"It's so fun, I want to pinch your pig's nose." She said with a smile.

After she pinched it, there was a fragrance on her nose for a long, long time.

I can't imagine that the first time I come into contact with her body will be my nose, I really want to touch my nose and say to it: "How many lifetimes of blessings have I cultivated?!" ”

The girl in front of her is wild at heart, sometimes she likes to be unrestrained like a wild horse, and sometimes she is pitiful like a cute cat.

She's not a goddess, just a real and unpretentious girl. We are very similar in some ways, and it is precisely because we are too similar that we have hidden strong emotions for so many years of passing the buck to each other, allowing the prosperity to fall away, and finally slowly growing old, and finally looking at the end of the world.

Many years later, in countless starlight nights, I would involuntarily fall into the abyss of memories with her, self-absorbed and self-tortured. Even though I know I'll never be able to get anything back.

We talked for a long time that night, reminiscing about the people and events of our high school years, and we were full of feelings. Sorrow and joy are destined to exhaust a lifetime of romantic feelings to remember.

The tip of his nose was against her lingering fragrance, and when he returned to the dormitory with inexplicable excitement, Yuan Zheng pounced like a hungry lion: "What's the matter?" Damn, every time my brother is optimistic about the sharp fruit, you take the first step, and recruit from the truth, what is your relationship with Miss Wenxin? ”

"Don't get excited, we're just ordinary classmates."

Yuan Zheng straightened my head and said, "Look into my eyes with your eyes, and then tell me honestly, what is your relationship?" How many times have you rolled the sheets? Don't be a fool, I can see if you're lying. ”

I pushed him away: "Pervert! I don't look into your eyes. We're really just ordinary classmates, believe it or not. ”

Yuan Zheng believed me: "Okay, you useless child, brother is going to do it!" This time I'm going to come for real. ”

I said, "Whatever you want." ”

He began to look cheap again: "Brother Xiaoyu, you classmates have known each other for so long, tell me, what color does Wenxin girl like, what do you like to eat, do you have any special preferences, please help me, okay?" ”

"Aren't you just trying to be happy? If you soak it in an instant, how much money do you think this girl is worth? Don't you have a sense of accomplishment yourself? Take your time, see if you can soak in Miss Wenxin, I won't hit your confidence first. ”

Yuan Zheng thought about it, and said, "Eh, you're right, then wait to eat our candy, haha." ”

As winter approaches, the air in Beijing is drier, and the smell of earth wafts through the wind. On campus, the yellow leaves fell to the ground, and when the wind blew, they flew like frightened butterflies, and it was very warm to look at, because in this autumn, she was miraculously with me.

The ancient literature teacher is telling the story of "sitting still" in "Xunzi", and this old man lecturing on the stream of consciousness and wants us to explore the human nature in it.

The allusion of "sitting still and not messing" first appeared in "Xunzi Da Luo". The story goes like this, on a cold night when the water drips into ice, Yanagishita Megumi stays overnight at the Express Hotel. See a woman homeless. Yanagishita Hui felt pity and was afraid that she would freeze to death, so she unbuttoned her clothes and let her sit in her arms, and the two sat together all night without having sex.

After the Han Dynasty, this story has been widely praised and has become a well-known joke. Megumi Yanagishita has also become a model worker who cares for women's health. In "Mencius", he is even praised to the sky, "Liu Xia Hui, the harmony of the saint", so he has the reputation of "harmony and saint".

Makelove, in the ancients, was not the free choice of the body and soul, it was related to the rules and laws of the clan, and the male root was inserted not only into the lower body of a woman, but also a family and a country. These clan rules and laws are extremely sick from the perspective of universal civilization, and they make young people very tired and tired.

I analyzed this legend and came to five possible conclusions.

First, there is a problem with Yanagishita's sexual orientation, and she has the goodness of Longyang and the habit of breaking sleeves.

Second, Megumi Yanagishita's sexual dysfunction.

Third, this woman is so ugly that Megumi Yanagishita can't have a physiological reaction.

Fourth, for propaganda purposes, Hui Yanashita was portrayed as Lei Fengxia. Megumi Yanashita may have done everything that this woman should or shouldn't do, and has made countless appointments, but someone wants to set an example to achieve the purpose of educating society, and deliberately deify Megumi Yanashita as a moral saint.

Fifth, Megumi Yanagishita reacted, but out of faith or conviction he took control. In the end, I couldn't help but in the latrine.

The fifth myth of "sitting still" may happen to my roommate Yang Chenjun. During that time, it happened to me as well.

I have a deep habit of cleanliness in the relationship between the sexes, and in the past, a glance at the third-level film was tantamount to ending the virgin body, which was the sin of being struck by lightning.

In the end, at the instigation of a few unscrupulous teenagers, I entered the video hall, and the place was smoky and filled with musty smell, and the blood was surging, and I knew that this was the grinding of growth.

I don't give this kind of cleanliness to others, as Wang Xifeng said: "The children are so old, they have never eaten pork, and they have seen pigs run." ”

Think about Lao Tzu is also a person who has seen pigs run, as long as he doesn't eat pork, even if he hasn't broken his vows.

But I understand and respect Yu Yue, Jie and Yuan Zheng who love meat, I don't eat pork, it doesn't mean that I don't want to eat pork, but I regard eating pork as too sacred, and I can't eat it casually like worshipping my ancestors.

I think the first pork meal will be eaten with the person I love on the wedding night.

Yuan Zheng asked me if I was serious or if I was fooling him.

I looked at him earnestly, and said seriously, seriously.

This guy suddenly clutched his stomach and laughed, almost laughing out loud.

The most desperate thing is that even a monk like Yang Chenjun, who wants to cultivate to become an immortal and break through the sky, said that he understood my idea, but he thought that this idea was not operational. He said he would eat pork with the girl he liked, but not on the wedding night.

So, I was fucking in utter despair, really in utter despair.