The characteristics of the approaching college entrance examination: first, students tear books and get nervous; Second, teachers engage in pyramid schemes every day. On the podium www.biquge.info pen ~ fun ~ pavilion, there are spittle and passionate speeches all the time, which makes people panic.

Liang Yunsnake combed his silly one-nine partial hair style with his hands, and at the same time advertised his college entrance examination sprint cram school, 1,000 yuan per course, and you can get a 20% discount if you apply for four courses.

Geng Hao said, go to your mother's cram school, after graduation, let's beat up this goods with a sack bag, and ask the parents of students for money and gifts every day, Tian is shameless.

I agree.

Fu Wenxin turned his head. I thought she would say how we coercion are so violent, can't we be civilized?

And she said, "Give me a place to punch."

I'm still half alive in a fresh world. A writer once said that loneliness is a fence, and only with a fence can there be a garden. Seeing that the teachers and students were not doing their jobs, thinking of them during the May Fourth period, I suddenly felt sad alone.

The day before the college entrance examination, I dragged my tired body out of the school, walked to the school gate and heard a whistle, following the reputation, Yu Yue was putting his hands in the trouser belts, and his feet were beating.

As always, the tone is evil, but the skin is a lot darker, and the face is a little vicissitudes.

I said, "I thought you were abducted by aliens." ”

He said, "You don't have a **, do you?" ”

"As always."

"I can't find a girlfriend for a virgin in college."

"Then find a boyfriend."

"Ouch, I'm rubbing, I really didn't see how good you are."

I said, "Fuck off! I'm just talking nonsense to you. ”

We laughed.

He said that this year he hiked to YN, HN, XZ, QH.

Once, when I was sleeping in the wilderness, I was almost raped by a big man with long hair, and a temporary police car scared the big man away. Another time he was bitten by a poisonous snake, and he cut the wound open and bled before he could pick up his life.

He once looked up at the flying eagles on the side of the Grand Canyon of YN, and looked at the endless whirlpools on the river by the muddy Dadu River to think about life.

The condoms he bought in XZ were all opened by the master, but the eggs were not used, and the condoms fell apart when he made them, and finally the girl took the pregnancy test paper and put him in charge.

He had no choice but to use all his savings to let the girl make the child, but he didn't use the torn underwear that he had worn for five years as money to give her.

He witnessed the secrets of the world, slept with many girls, broke the hearts of many girls, gave birth to several girls, and then returned to this place, like a mandarin fish that eventually cruises to the place where he was born.

I sincerely criticized the chaotic private life of this guy and prayed for the unfortunate women.

Yu Yue is such a person, it is impossible to listen to anyone's preaching when the sky falls. I have a premonition that he will die on a woman's body in the future, as the price of so many small lives he has mutilated, so I am not going to preach.

He said that he would come to encourage me before the college entrance examination, and said that BJ would look at me later.

I said, "I really hope you don't come to see me, you soak your girl, I'm alone, we don't go together, how about it?" ”

He said evilly: "Can I leave you alone if your personal problems are not solved?" Besides, we were still the OK combination of the basketball team back then, so how could we be separated? I heard that BJ's girls are very coquettish, and they are all waiting for me. BJ will spread my legs apart! ”

"BJ will make you impotent and kick you away. How do you say I would know a scoundrel like you. ”

"Pull it down, I understand you, you're also a slut, you love to pretend, you drank some ink, and your brain was stuffed with tofu dregs, you may not know, in fact, we are all people of the world."

"You know the."

He laughed lewdly twice and then took out a cigarette and smoked it crackling, knowing that I hated the smell of smoke, so he deliberately leaned over and sprayed Lao Tzu in the face.

Yu Yue will always be haunted, and the dragon will not see the end. Just as he appeared suddenly, he disappeared suddenly, saying to buy cigarettes and let me go first.

I walked a long way and looked back to find that he hadn't left, standing there and looking at me stupidly, I stretched out my middle finger at him, and he smiled stupidly again. When I looked back, he was gone. After that, in a state of complete disappearance.

How I don't want to use these two words - youth. The sky in that county town was always pale and pale because of the billowing smoke from the coking plant, like the color of.

The telephone poles outside the school are covered with advertisements for psoriasis, "Indian god oil" for impotence, and "Akira Kurosawa" for hair loss.

So when I think of youth, I always have the illusion that youth is also yellow, and there are all kinds of cheap small advertisements floating.

"Adolescence is like a bowl of hot and sour noodles, sour and spicy." Yin Deji once wrote this sentence in his composition, and he was proud of it for a long time, and we used this sentence to ridicule him in the future.

Yu Yue said: "Youth is equal to piston movement." ”

For me, youth is like the torment of fire and ice, and the herbivorous man's personality and the carnivorous man's personality constantly collide in the body, which makes people anxious.

Youth, a pretentious word, is always closely associated with youth, ignorance, rebellion and powerlessness.

This is the moment when people have the best energy and the most dreams, but they have no capital to consume energy and chase dreams, and the end can only be corruption in despair, and finally bloom a flower of evil in the soil of reality.

People have given the word too many illusions, seeing through all these disturbances, the confusion of youth is nothing more than the decadence of middle age and the hopelessness of old age, full of loneliness, confusion and despair.

From a biological point of view, the beating of chicken blood during adolescence is a physiological activity that maintains the balance of the body through the secretion of hormones, the metabolism of proteins, sugars and fats in the body, and the metabolism of water and salt.

Adolescence is like a long nightmare, in which you carry a boulder on your back, and all your desires are accumulated in your heart, and you can't find a breakthrough.

When I woke up, I found the key to unblocking – a personal body.

Freud came at it again, arguing that this instinct was the most basic of all instincts, and that love was nothing more than an expression or sublimation.

He even mercilessly expressed with a strong medieval paternalistic style that satisfaction is an anti-social behavior that pits the individual against society and abandons contact with others.

According to Freud, in the riotous years before the college entrance examination, I was an anti-social element and should be punished by Ling Chi.

I did all the "anti-social" things, rebelled against everything around me in this way, and all my rebellion and dissatisfaction turned into bodily fluids that ejected into tissues and in the air.

When he was young, he seemed destined to endure a kind of grinding under the stone, which is called the end of the world. Years later, I still don't understand the life of the legendary hermits, and I confess that I am a layman. God has given you a body that has been wound up before, and that is desire.

However, I will also repent and hesitate, and ask myself, especially when I think of the face of the girl in the front row, my sins are like yeast on them, and they swell rapidly.

I think of the children in the British aristocratic schools in the Victorian era of England, at that time, the school regarded ** as a crime, and they dealt with this crime in this way, letting the chickens do it with the boys who broke the precepts, and they would rather the students do it with the chickens than allow them to do it themselves.

This culture of seeing desire as a flood of beasts can be traced back to medieval Europe, where Europeans were born merchants, and some false Taoists saw a business opportunity and began to sell the medicine of abstinence.

This medicine is expensive, and the common people can't afford it, but after the Renaissance, this medicine was cheap to the level of 9 yuan and 9 free shipping.

If there is such a medicine, I am willing to try it, take it to relieve my sorrows, and wash away the dirt of my body.

In the evening, thinking that the college entrance examination is imminent, I am both scared and eager. Repeatedly imagining the aroma of cleanliness, cleavage and body in the classroom that night, I fell into an endless ** unable to extricate myself.

The endless sadness and anxiety that accompanied the pleasure made me sober up a lot. I forgot what year it started, and it wasn't appropriate to talk to anyone.

I only remember that after learning that Fu Wenxin was going to study in the United States, I indulged myself more and more. In the middle of countless dark nights, I felt like a kite with a broken string, swaying in the dark air, without expectation or concern.

The ** and the flesh collide on the screen have become the most direct, vivid and specific signals, without any cover-up, naked**, savings, and explosions.

After that, there was a lingering remorse, at that time, I thought I had soiled myself, and I sometimes didn't dare to raise my head to look at her in front of Fu Wenxin.

Why can't you live casually like Yu Yue, don't read if you don't want to read, travel if you want to, and pick up girls if you want to.

People are always in the ego, the id, and the superego at different times, and I voluntarily jumped to the spiritual level of the superego at the beginning, holding the lonely hand.

Nietzsche can still hold an old horse and cry when he is lonely, and I can only masturbate to the wool.

As for Geng Hao, Yin Deji and Lu Zejun, the relationship between us is too close, so intimate that we know the roots, like brothers. Some of them are lonely and they can't see them, and in the same way, some of them are lonely and I can't see them.

The college entrance examination is like a meat grinder, a huge melting pot. We are all insignificant carp crossing the river, no one cares about your dedication and bitterness, no one cares about your personality and perseverance, no one cares about your howl and resistance, and the final score and list are the destination.

When Wang Xiaobo was sixteen years old, he cut the queue at YN, and often got up in the middle of the night, and used the moonlight to write and write on a mirror with a blue ink pen, write and paint, and scribble until the whole mirror turned blue.

The force that controls Wang Xiaobo controls me in a different way, and if writing is the product of his indescribable loneliness, then the college entrance examination is a thorn that I have to step on for the sake of my ideals.

In those days, the air was always sticky, I only remember that the radio and television were full of news of the college entrance examination, those who forgot to bring the admission ticket, those who were late, those who jumped off the building, those who jumped off the building accompanied by their mothers, and those who jumped off the building with their grandmothers.

The college entrance examination has finally passed, and we will face a different future and accept the arrangement of fate.

Brother Mei is the most confident, and the estimated score is almost 100 points, but all the subjects are added together.

Her parents did not expect her to be admitted to Tsinghua University and Peking University, and it was enough to mix high Chinese and take over from the ancestral cold noodle shop. Dress yourself up, maybe you can mix it into a cool Shih Tzu or something in the future.

Although she wanted to go to BJ with us, her parents were too strong and could only stay with them.

Because Lu Zehuan was escorted, he planted flowers and grass and drank tea with Uncle Lu at home every day, and he was so idle that his eggs hurt. From time to time, I greeted Geng Hao and whether the notice had been received.

We said it's going to be soon.

When I said the word "soon", I didn't feel much confidence. We began the long wait.

What kind of torment was that, maybe what was waiting for was a disappointment and disaster, and as a result, I had to go to my senior year of high school, facing all kinds of eyes and tongues, although I didn't care about those, but the year was wasted, and I couldn't bear it. The problem is to endure the inhuman devastation of one year, and maybe the results of the second year will be even worse.

Mr. Xunzi said: "Those who know themselves do not complain about others, and those who know their fate do not complain about heaven." "But which one can do it. When tragedy and tragedy happen to us, we all shout "Oh my God", but Westerners have changed the expression "GOD".

But every time we call "Oh my God", God won't say, "Baby, I'm here, do you have any wishes for you to fulfill?" ”

We made an appointment not to jump off the building no matter how bad the test is, it's better to die than to live, it's a big deal that we will take the test again next year, and if we don't take the test again, we will continue to take the test the year after that, and finally die in the examination room. It's also much better than jumping off a building.

Because we all agree that jumping off a building and dying is too painful, too miserable, it will really hurt his grandmother, who is not afraid of pain?

Finally, one morning, I secretly got up at three o'clock in the morning to call to inquire about the admission situation, and when the robot aunt on the other end of the phone slowly reported the results, my heart was in my throat, and I was so anxious that I wanted to slap the robot aunt twice: "Damn, I made Lao Tzu nervous breakdown." ”