During that time, my life was very messy, with trigonometric functions, three-dimensional geometry, Tang and Song poems, Qin Emperor and Han Wu, endless test papers and endless desires...... There is cleanliness, there is Fu Wenxin.

There are also fantasies and panics. The www.biquge.info of the pen "Fun" was a mess of things mixed together, and often in nightmares swooped at me, and I melted in the midst of them, unable to move as if I were dead.

There is also the math teacher who wears a wig in the whole school who is known for making mistakes, and I still miss his domineering wig, which is more fake than the wig.

This math teacher's greatest ability is to rub mahjong and talk about wrong problems, and likes to play mahjong all night, with double panda eyes to class. Coupled with his humble size, we call him a giant panda, or a national treasure.

When the giant panda lectured, he liked to complicate simple questions, so that he and his students fell into a fog, and then he suddenly realized, "the willows and flowers are bright and another village", and suddenly wiped off all the formulas that had been calculated for most of the class, started anew, and repeated repeatedly, and finally went crazy, broke his muscles and veins, and fell into the fog with the students again on the podium and couldn't extricate himself.

Although the giant panda has poor professional ethics, he is amiable and honest, and before graduation, we wanted to see his true face under the wig, but in the end we could not succeed. He said to leave us some room for reverie.

Our youth is no longer obscure, the hair pieces are flying everywhere, we no longer have to look at "**" like our fathers and put it back on the pillow and blush for a long time, and we no longer have to work hard to find a male and female copulation part in "Golden Vase Plum".

Any store that rents VCD discs, you just need to look at the boss when you enter the door: "Boss, that kind of film, you know." ”

The boss smiled lewdly, understood, and pulled out a box from the hidden place for you to choose.

The unequivocal times roared in, and we bumped into them head-on, and the flesh and blood of the discipline were blurred.

A buddy couldn't help but watch the happiest time at home, took off her pants and began to entertain herself, and her grandmother just broke into the door when she squirted. The old woman was so frightened that she didn't recover for a few days, and soon she died and hung up.

There are many ways to die in the world, and being scared to death by Sun Tzu in this way is as rare as the morning star.

Later, I watched an American sex comedy, and there was a scene that was exactly the same as this scene, and I quickly called and told this guy that the Hollywood screenwriter had plagiarized your life, and you had to collect copyright fees.

At that time, he was at home from school and was already a father of two at a young age. He said that this masturbation, regret for life, this is his calamity.

My calamity is clean, I pinch my fingers and count, before the college entrance examination, this calamity cannot be escaped.

That night, the rain kept noisy outside like a clown, and in the school classroom, my face was hot next to Jie, as if I had been roasted by a charcoal fire.

It is said that his father is the boss of the underworld and the "godfather" of the county, and the gangsters in the school dare not provoke her, otherwise she will be beaten by her father.

In the past, there was a Lai Pi who harassed her at the school gate every day, and one day she broke her patience and told her legendary father, but the next day the Lai Pi broke three ribs, and was carried to the hospital with his pants full of stool, and he only got out of bed and walked for two months.

The police finally closed the case, saying that Lai Pi accidentally fell, and everyone believed it at the time, including the principal.

I was strange, and never thought I would end up like Narepi. Because first, she took the initiative to harass me; Second, I was a little silly confident that she wouldn't let her dad do anything to me.

However, alone with her in the classroom, the slanting wind and drizzle outside were aphrodisiac, and to be honest, smelling the fragrance on her body, I admit that for a moment I began to doubt my perseverance.

The fragrance on her body is rich and unbearable, different from the faint lotus fragrance on Fu Wenxin's body, her fragrance has a bit of industrial punk atmosphere, which is a bit violent and rude for me who is little fresh.

She leaned against me without a fuss, my elbow touching her limp body slightly. I had a bit trouble breathing.

When she found out, a strange and contemptuous smile flashed across her face, what was the point? I wondered at the time, is it the same in his eyes, a stinky man, who will be hooked as soon as he catches a fish.

, I'm really a little messy.

She deliberately breathed into my neck and ears, and I felt ants crawling in my collar.

My soul is out of body and irretrievable.

I thought of Lawrence's woman who looked like the sea, and I couldn't resist the scent of purity, and she suddenly hugged me.

This is something that I have not calculated in a thousand calculations, and I silently thought in my heart, do not have the next action.

I didn't resist there, only my heartbeat remained, until when her head moved closer to me, a certain image quickly flashed through my mind and hit me like lightning - Fu Wenxin's smile.

The whole person was like being poured from head to foot by a basin of ice water, and suddenly his soul returned and his sanity was restored.

I pushed Jie away, ran out of the classroom in a panic, and ran home in the rain.

That night, thinking of the fragrance of cleanliness and the softness of the body, I started a game of oneself. Finally, after a brilliant white flower blooms in the night, everything is calm.

After the event, Fu Wenxin's figure appeared in his mind, it was my pure blue lotus. I felt disgusted, and the sense of shame and guilt lingered in my heart for a long time.

Zhang Ailing said that the passage to a woman's soul is underneath her. I think that when a man gets underneath a woman, he is responsible for her soul.

I can't be so hasty in connecting the soul of a woman I don't love. **, get the spirit meat to pack, which is also what Lawrence means by his old man.

I remember it vividly, not only because of Clean, but also because the next day another woman brought sad news.

The next day, the dark circles under my eyes were super serious, and Geng Hao not only didn't sympathize, but also asked me if I went to steal cattle last night.

Fu Wenxin was in a good mood, and she said that she would announce a good news to us in the afternoon.

Brother Mei couldn't wait, he had been harassing Fu Wenxin all day long, trying to get out her good news.

Brother Mei asked, "Do you have a boyfriend?" ”

Geng Hao and I were shocked, our hearts were half cold, and we were about to stop beating.

Fortunately, Fu Wenxin said: "Of course not, I told you everything, it will be announced in the afternoon, you can wait." ”

Geng Hao and I both breathed a sigh of relief.

So, we are all looking forward to the end of the day.

After school in the afternoon, we went to Brother Mei's house to eat cold noodles as usual.

As soon as he sat down, Brother Mei was sitting upright, putting on a deferential posture and said, "Lord Goddess, hurry up and say, what's the news?" ”

Fu Wenxin smiled and cleared his throat: "I solemnly announce that I have been admitted to three universities in the United States. ”

Brother Mei's girl suddenly jumped up, let out a piercing scream, hugged Fu Wenxin and kissed him: "Great, congratulations, I have a treat for today's cold noodles, and everyone has two bowls of them!" ”

In stark contrast, Geng Hao's face was gloomy, and he couldn't give up.

I pretended to be shocked and happy at the "good news" and said, "Congratulations, I haven't heard you talk about applying to schools before." ”

"I don't say anything that doesn't work out to my good friends."

"Okay, how about I'll help you sweep the floor when you're messed up in the United States in the future?"

"The great writer swept the floor for me, and I can't afford to pay a salary?"

I said, "It's OK to eat with beauty." ”

Fu Wenxin showed a good-looking smile again: "It's beautiful for you." ”

In fact, the moment I heard the news, the loss and sadness that I had never felt before came from all directions, and my whole person seemed to be hollowed out.

I couldn't bear my sadness, because seeing Fu Wenxin's smiling face blooming like a flower, her smiling face was so pure that I thought of the green mountains and valleys and the morning twilight in Qiaobian Town, and I was obsessed with them, so why not be happy.

I finally understood Werther's thoughts about Greenty in "The Troubles of Young Werther", which was not only about love, but also about some kind of philosophical belief and belief.

Brother Mei really asked her mother to serve us two bowls of noodles by herself, and everyone was on their backs.

There are things that can't be grasped, why not let go, life always has to go through countless ups and downs, good friends are good to go abroad for further study, should be deeply blessed to her. Thinking of this, I began to binge eat cold noodles, and it was so spicy that tears flowed out.

When I saw Geng Hao, he was stirring around with chopsticks, staring at the noodles with his eyes, and he didn't eat.

I asked, "Haozi, what's wrong?" ”

He didn't respond.

"Geng Hao!" Brother Mei yelled.

He suddenly reacted and said, "Oh, it's okay, I'm not hungry today, you guys can eat." ”

Fu Wenxin said: "Geng Hao, are you really fine?" ”

"Really...... It's really fine. "He's stumbling.

It was a long and awkward meal, but fortunately there was Brother Mei chattering and talking to the sparrow who had been beaten with chicken blood, otherwise the atmosphere would have turned into a funeral.

In the next few days, we began to fight hand-to-hand, and only Fu Wenxin was able to read idle books. It also helped us see how to fill in the volunteers.

On the day I filled in the application, when I was about to hand in the form, Fu Wenxin suddenly jumped next to me and said, "I'll check it for you." ”

I gave her the volunteer form.

She looked at it and said, "Yes, it meets the taste of a great talent." ”

I said, "If I get into BJ, I can still eat SC's cold noodles, but you can't eat them on the other side of the ocean." ”

Fu Wenxin said: "Then you are responsible for sending it to me." ”

I said, "It's all instant noodles when it arrives." ”

The college entrance examination is not easy, especially for those students who are in early love. In fact, why there is the word "early love", I have never been able to understand.

When I was in high school, I went to Nietzsche's "The Birth of Tragedy" and half-understood that the head teacher named Liang Yunlong was our "god of the sun", a cunning power player who grinned and grinned like a man and a woman with a belly full of laughter and half-steps all day long.

He kept saying that he wanted to "catch the adulterer", instigating his classmates to fight in the nest, reporting each other and exposing the young lovers in the class.

He used reason to restrain nature and prevent the natural eruption of the life energy of a sick society. He said that before the college entrance examination, Lao Tzu was "God". At the time, I wanted to punch him in that disgusting face.

We are all healthy children, shouting "God is dead", and secretly, we call Liang Yunlong Liang Yun Snake. He is the serpent who has been forsaken by "God."

I'm against stifling puppy love. No matter how big or small you are, as long as you fall in love before the college entrance examination, you are characterized as a puppy love by parents and teachers.

Although I am against early love, I am not in love. I consider myself a child, and love and affection are out of my reach, far away on Mars. Whenever I see the cuddle and hug and feed each other, I feel like I want to vomit after eating hundreds of flies.

The college entrance examination is like a collective activity of alienating human beings, distorting and stifling the nature of people, and breaking the blood of youth. But life is crazy, like a crazy tree growing in the town, unrestrained.

So, I began to read the works of the British writer Lawrence in the name of literature.

He begins "Lady Chatterley's Lover" by saying, "Our time is essentially a tragic one, and therefore we have to fight against it." When I saw such a sentence in my third year of high school, I was quite easily bewitched and became an abnormal human being in the eyes of teachers and parents. Coupled with the poetic description in it, ** and rebellion have a certain social tragic connection.

There is a description in the book: "She seemed to be like a sea, full of dark waves, rising and expanding, expanding into a huge wave, so slowly, the whole dark her, was moving, she became a silent, obscurant, stirring ocean." ”

I read it as a yellow book, and I read it like a dream. These poetic descriptions are much more clever than the straightforward and vulgar "Waste Capital", the former is sexy that goes deep into the soul, and the latter is similar to a tissue, at most it is a necessary material for masturbation.

Lawrence's women are alienated by reason and morality, they want love, but they are ashamed of their carnal desires under the pressure of male power, and the end is often tragic.

One writer said, "Sex is not simply physiological. Sex is power in the sense of society. I prefer to change this sentence to "Sex, not just physiology." Sex is equality and rights in the social sense. ”

Therefore, I never felt that Yu Yue, who was addicted to picking girls, was a scumbag, nor did I think there was anything wrong with Jie seducing me so sharply.

They have their rights, and I have my own perseverance.

Just when we were fighting to the death with the monster of the college entrance examination, there was good news that Lu Zehuan was escorted to BJ Mining Institute to study for a bachelor's and master's degree in mining processing, and he finally realized his dream, and we were all happy for him.

The college entrance examination is getting closer and closer, and BJ seems to be getting closer and closer to us.

Like a flower about to burst into a calyx, whenever I vomit blood when I'm exhausted, the light of hope and joy swirls in my mind, and I think: BJ.

Kao is going to be carried to BJ for burial if he dies,, these are Lu Zejun's words of encouragement, and they sound really desperate.

The city is like a magical light that shines through the cramped crevices into our dark hearts.