There was little room for negotiation, and a month later, Ane quit his job as a warehouse manager and successfully entered the local town government through the connections of his father's colleagues. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

He was like an ignorant child who entered the adult world and had to pretend to be mature.

Dressed orthodox, carrying an old leather bag, looking around for a leader.

However, the confused eyes still attracted the attention of some cadres and leaders.

It felt like the first time he went to school.

Dazed but cowardly.

"Who are you looking for?" A bespectacled leader from the Party and Government Office asked.

"Hello, I'm looking for Secretary Xu."

Ane said humbly.

"What's the matter with him?" The leader asked solemnly.

"Oh, I made an appointment with him to meet today." Ane said cautiously.

"Then you wait a minute, he's in a meeting now." The leader said expressionlessly.

Ane waited for an hour, but still didn't see Secretary Xu.

Later, I finally waited for his call.

Tell him to report directly to the director of the trade office.

Ane finally entered the government as a temporary hire.

In the agency, he is careful everywhere and observes his face every day.

Every day, I eat in the office and canteen, surf the Internet, and sleep.

It has almost become a solidified law of life.

He did not dare to have too much contact with cadres and leaders.

In addition to the necessary communication during working hours.

The communication in life is only a few minutes after tea and dinner.

And it's a few polite words in the style of coping.

After that, I hurriedly hid in the office to surf the Internet.

This is a good way to avoid making mistakes.

The government is perhaps a relatively "sensitive" place.

Some sensitive topics can only be kept secret.

But more often than not, he has a humble identity, no sense of belonging and security.

can only be confined to a corner and get a moment of dignity.

However, there are two things that he must face even if he wants to be dignified.

The first is to give gifts to government leaders to show their acceptance.

The second is to give gifts to my father's colleagues to show the grace of the introduction.

So, he took great pains to collect some high-quality souvenirs from his family and went to visit the government leaders first.

It was rare to see the secretary come to the office of the office, and Ane saw a rare opportunity, carrying a bag of marijuana, step by step, and his heart was like a deer.

"Hello, you're Secretary Xu, right? I've been wanting to meet you these days, but I've never had a chance. Today I brought some souvenirs from home, a little meaning, these things are available at home every year, it's okay to ......"

Ané faced a middle-aged man in a suit, a flat haircut, and a calm expression of leadership, and said the words that he had been holding back for many days were incoherent and self-talking.

There are actually two leaders in Secretary Xu's room, one of whom is the deputy mayor.

Ane, who was already embarrassed, was even more embarrassed.

"Mayor Wu, you're also there." Anene sneered.

Busy handing cigarettes to the leader.

"Secretary, this is Xiao Chen." Mayor Wu introduced.

"Xiao Chen, haven't you known Secretary Xu after being here for so long?"

"Hehe~~ I've always wanted to visit Secretary Xu, but I didn't have a chance, I've only met a few times." Ane said humbly.

His tone was hurried, in contrast to the calmness of several leaders.

Secretary Xu glanced at Ane with that slightly eternal look and whispered something.

Ane didn't care what he was talking about, and hurriedly said goodbye to him: "That...... Secretary Xu, I'll leave first if there's nothing to do. ”

Secretary Xu nodded slightly, and Ane fled as if he was running out.

After thanking the leadership, Ane finally felt at ease to work in the trade office.

The director is a talkative and cheerful middle-aged man.

His short and round figure resembles his sleek personality, and he looks like a shrewd businessman.

Ane is very different from his personality.

But I had to pretend to be very harmonious in order to please him.

When the director and his subordinates make yellow jokes, make them laugh, and call him a hooligan in a joking tone.

Ane has always been accustomed to acting as a good old man: "The director is a man of temperament and has a personality. ”

When he said this, his colleagues seemed to swallow a fly and took back their laughter.

All of them seem to be secretive.

The director looked at him in astonishment.

"Chen Nei, how old are you this year?"

When Ane heard this, he felt a great sense of shame.

No matter how gregarious he pretended, he couldn't escape their sharp eyes.

It seems that the feeling for them is - pretend.

It doesn't matter what he says, what matters is the tone of his voice.

Isn't it bold enough.

Therefore, if he tries his best to say some flattering words, if he does not have the confidence, others will not take it to heart at all.

In turn, he will be questioned.

Even if he doesn't have the confidence, he has made a great sacrifice for the introverted.

In the final analysis, things are like and people are grouped.

It is often said that you need to communicate more to be gregarious.

But they are invisibly aggregating or rejecting with their innate individuality.

What's even more embarrassing is that even the director's son, who is still in elementary school, seems to have discovered Anemune's introverted personality and can't help but come to "communicate".

His personality is the same as that of his father, clever and cunning.

They seem to have a natural super-perceptive instinct.

For an honest person, you don't need to talk to him at all, you can recognize it at a glance.

And then "explore" him without any scruples.

"Hey, why are you talking so quietly? Still blushing easily? The director's son said to Chen Nei, who was immersed in work, in an adult-like tone.

As soon as the words fell, the colleagues in the office all looked at each other and snickered.

Chen Nei was stunned for a moment.

It's like having lost memory.

I don't know how to reply to a child's doubts.

If he scolds loudly, he is afraid that others will say that he is bullying children and is useless.

If he is silent, it shows that he has opinions about children and has no stomach.

Although he felt a great shame in his heart, he could only reply in a very stiff and kind tone: "What grade are you in?" ”

But his disguise was quickly seen through by the child.

"What do you say? I can't hear clearly. Why is your face red again? ”

Facing a child who doesn't know whether it's naïve or provocative.

Ane was completely speechless and embarrassed.

He felt that he had become a weakling person in front of a child.

However, a time-traveling force seems to pull him back to his distant childhood.

At that time, he was immersed in serious play, when suddenly his mother called him.

"Konai"

"Mom!"

Ane threw down the toy in his hand, called out to his mother with joy, and ran to her side with joy.

……

It's such a short episode.

The "self" that people often talk about but don't see is brought back.

Ane seems to have regained that part of the lost good memories - no matter what time it is, he will always be a child in his mother's eyes, and his virginity will always be there.

There is never a need to grieve yourself and pretend to be mature and kind, even if it is for a naughty child.

If a child sees an adult as weaker than himself.

Then the maturity and kindness of this adult must be excessive and disguised.

He can also seriously refute the child and seriously defend his mother-child relationship, without pretending to be a pandering and tolerant smile.

The "self" is those incomparably beautiful, fleeting moments.

In the morning, Chen Nei was returning from his home to the agency's car.

After a while, the director called him and said in a serious tone: "Chen Nei, Secretary Xu, Mayor Wu, where is the chief...... I tell you to hurry over and report on the work during this time! ”

"Where?"

Chen Nei was shocked in his heart.

This is the noble person who introduced this job to his former colleague of my father.

His heart was like a huge wave rising suddenly on the surface of the silent water.

Gratitude and trepidation are rising.

Will you be late?

Arriving late for so long? What will the leaders think of me?

Going home is a private matter, and going to work is a business matter.

Will the leader criticize me?

Will you suddenly change your mind and fire me?

The more Ane thought about it, the more anxious he became, and when he was on the bus, his heart had already drifted to the secretary's office.

This feeling of waiting for a verdict is nothing short of tormenting.

Finally, the car finally arrived.

Ane hurriedly got out of the car and ran towards the agency.

The anxiety in my heart is no longer enough.

Ané felt that the short distance of a few hundred meters had become blurry and distant.

"Where is the chief, Secretary Xu, thank you for taking care of me......"

Words of gratitude had been brewing in his heart.

But the more grateful I was, the more anxious I was to think of the right language.

"Ane, you have met a noble person who is rare in decades, you must cherish your work!"

"Ane, where did the chief find you such a good job, you must give him a big gift to thank him during the New Year's holidays. What a kindness! ”

The chattering voices of his relatives echoed in his ears.

Ane is even more six gods and no master.

"How can I repay him for his great kindness!"

Sometimes, there are people who suffer almost as much when they receive grace as they do when they suffer suffering.

Because that powerful sense of indebtedness can be unsettling.

Ane is that kind of person.

However, since those moonlit nights, there have always been some magical fragments of memories that have stumbled upon and guided Ane to find happiness and lightness......

At that time, his mother took him to meet the guests from his father's unit for the first time.

He was so resistant, he finally met, and his expression was so stubborn and unyielding.

No matter how they joked about him and teased him, he snuggled up to his mother. Stared at them with wide eyes.

As if defending his mother, he is also protecting himself.

When this fragment of memory appeared, his uncertainty and anxiety about meeting the leader suddenly vanished.

It's like when he leaned against his mother and kept a distance from the adults.

His body and mind were pulled back to his mother, and the road in front of him was no longer far away.

Fragment 3: Organs organize cadres to travel.

Along the way, Ane has struggled to laugh with his colleagues, trying to blend in with their convivial atmosphere.

This kind of happy atmosphere is so rare that it has not been seen for a long time.

The lonely Anne cherishes it very much, for fear of losing.

However, his words are still not very noticed by his colleagues.

Although there are jokes, he mostly agrees.

Colleagues are a little secretive about him.

However, this is already a rare joy for him.

It doesn't seem to affect his appreciation of the scenery.

However, just as he was about to return after the game, Ane inexplicably felt a pang of sadness.

He was always prone to sadness at the end of a joyous moment.

Just like when he graduated from college, his classmates' sentence "The banquet that will not be dispersed in the world" made him sad for more than half a year.

However, this time. Fortunately, this sadness did not last long.

A fragment from a distant childhood evokes his fondest memory: the crowd has looked for her thousands of times, and suddenly looks back, but the person is there, in the dim light.

But I suddenly remembered that when my mother took him to play in the mountains and rivers as a child, the wonderful feeling of infinite curiosity.

There is no feeling of dependence on others, and all the beauty is discovered by himself.

It's as if everything is wonderful and flowing, and there is no concept of an end at all.

Mountains and rivers are one kind of wonderful, and going home is another kind of wonderful, hidden and revealed, reflecting each other. (To be continued.) )