How deep and complex is the human heart. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

People often use the universe to describe the human mind.

The sea is greater than the mountains, and the sky is broader than the sea; Wider than the sky is the human heart.

Throughout the ages, countless wise men have tried to explore the human psyche.

So he left many famous sayings and philosophies.

However, no matter how reasonable the language and how gentle the comfort is, when encountering the "stubborn disease" of the soul, it seems that it is like a stone sinking into the sea, swallowed up by people's vast hearts.

Maybe stir up a little wave, give people a little joy and solace for a while.

After that, it was as stubborn as before.

However, Ane inadvertently discovers that his mother has given him a primitive memory.

It can be miraculous enough to dissolve all the pain and sadness that outsiders describe as "terminal illness of the soul".

People's stress and pain seem to be everywhere and all the time.

There are almost no signs at all.

Ane finally dissolves the pain of disguise in the town government.

I encountered the sorrow of love again.

His parents were in shame and sorrow because he was still single at the age of 30.

Ask people everywhere to say that the matchmaker is pro-marry.

Once, Ane went on a blind date dozens of times, but still did not escape the fate of not being able to fall in love.

The girl always fatally avoids him after seeing him, and there is no reason to analyze it.

If I have to say the reason, it is - a person of his character is not born for any woman, and will not be loved by any girl.

This kind of fate seems to have doomed him to a sad life of loneliness, and even he feels that he was born at the wrong time and does not belong to this world.

He used to be infinitely beautiful.

Romance and play with your loved ones.

However, this kind of beauty is eaten up little by little by reality and "fate".

So much so that he now thinks about romantic dates with girls, and he has an inexplicable tiredness.

However, when relatives help him introduce objects.

His lonely heart can still beat after all.

The girl was on the other side of the mountain.

When his relatives took him, he was still excited and nervous.

The girl is relatively small and delicate, generous and decent.

In contrast, Ane is a little wooden and reserved.

After some politeness, the relatives said to Ane in front of the girl and her parents: "I have said everything that needs to be said, and it will depend on how you develop in the future." ”

"That is, the master led the way in, and the cultivation is in the individual."

Ane said with a pretended lightheartedness, disguised humor.

Then, relatives and the girl's parents deliberately avoided it, leaving Ane in the same room with the girl.

The atmosphere suddenly became awkward.

"What do you call it?" Ane asked softly.

"Allie."

"What about you?"

"My name is Chennei."

"Are you studying accounting?" Ali asked.

"Yes. I just heard from your mother that you are also studying accounting. ”

"Yes."

"Do you have an accounting certificate?" Ali asked.

"Yes, I just took the test. What about you? ”

"I'm preparing for the exam, is it difficult?"

"It's not difficult, as long as you read more books, the topics are all in the books." Ane said flatteringly.

……

The two chatted for about ten minutes, not angry.

The girl's tone was calm all the time.

In contrast, Ane was a bit of a rush.

He seems to feel good about himself.

At least not yet.

As they parted, Ane and the girl's family smiled goodbye.

His smile is a bit ambiguous and flattering.

Camouflaged with generosity and nature.

The girl's family was not angry, and politely smiled and said goodbye to him.

However, after being far away from her home, he suddenly felt that this smiling goodbye was so hypocritical.

In his memory, he had encountered it many times.

Every time he said goodbye to the girl's family, they almost always said goodbye with that patterned smile.

It can't be said far-fetched.

People like them, who have been in society for many years, will not be as reserved as Ane.

But it can't be said to come from the heart.

Anyway, it's the most ordinary, courteous kind of return.

There is no temperature.

Every time the girl smiled and said goodbye to him, she almost stopped replying to his messages.

This time, I'm afraid it will be no exception.

Life is impermanent, and it is difficult to be permanent.

But in Ane, in terms of love, the constant "lovelessness" and "loneliness" have always been with him.

Ané suddenly became disgusted with this falsehood, and he was disgusted that he had imagined girls too perfectly every time, and that he was too active and humble to please them.

Deep down, the original memories from his mother seem to pull him into a magical and familiar "world".

At that time, there was only his mother in his world.

It was as if I had descended on a strange planet, and I was hazy and curious about everything.

The only one who is familiar is the mother.

And the ironclad so-called "consensus" and "common sense" in the real world are all because his mother gave him life, so he can get in touch with those "common sense".

He only seems to be responsible for his mother.

So, he doesn't have to assimilate too much to those "common sense".

What - Cancer is a terminal disease; The leaders are great and noble, and what they say is all truth; Celebrities are admired by thousands of people, and ordinary people can only watch from afar, not close to them; To do a job, you must have the corresponding "certificates", otherwise it is "not the right name, the words are not good", and it is "the side door"......

If, when he is too assimilated to these "consensuses".

His usual inexplicable pain and despair have their roots.

When he feels physically or mentally unwell, as soon as he hears outsiders' descriptions of "depression" or "cancer", he firmly believes that he is "dead" and "incurable".

Because, so many people can't escape, what is special about you?

If you escape, you will be detached from society and spurned by society.

In his true memory, he went to school for a physical check-up, accompanied by his mother.

As a result, all the children were successfully examined.

Only during the examination, he was startled by a flash of light and fell.

Since then, he has been unwittingly assimilated by modern medicine.

It is as if not fully following the definition described by modern medicine is as shameful as being the only one to fall among many children.

And he only needs to remember the memories before he fell, and he will understand that the only person he needs to rely on and be responsible for is his mother. Because life was given to him by her. Without life, no matter how great medicine is, it is empty talk in front of him.

All he needed to do was recover the memories that had been hidden for a long time, and all physical and psychological despair would soon vanish, and all outside descriptions would not have a negative effect on him. As for what "not facing the outside world squarely, it is an escape, and it does not mean that there is no ......" is just a description.

His instincts are naturally responsible for his body and psyche.

That long-hidden memory is sometimes revealed through a magical heart-to-heart dialogue.

When he is immersed in the seemingly "ironclad" laws or nouns of the outside world, how deeply he believes.

If these laws are pessimistic and unfortunate to him, he will naturally think that he will not be able to escape the shackles of doom and will have to sit back and wait.

For example: CT, pathology laboratory, radiology department of the hospital......

The arrangement and structure of DNA molecules described by medicine and the infinite replication lead to diseased cells engulfing normal cells until they die......

Immunodeficiency causes one's body to do nothing and be powerless to recover......

In daily life, people often talk about: what disease is detected by so-and-so, there is no cure, and he is about to die...... So-and-so also got this disease and died; There was another so-and-so, who also got this disease and died; Another one, who was diagnosed with this disease, was also dying......

He is extremely prone to sinking into these unfortunate descriptions or characters. If there is some inexplicable discomfort in his body, he feels even more that he has been unable to escape his doom and is powerless.

Friends, relatives, classmates...... will pay attention to him with extreme fear and incomprehension, and exclaim: "At a young age, how did you get this disease?" ”

A neighbor or fellow villager said to him, "So-and-so also got this disease, and the result was ......."

A more professional person said to him: "You need to be hospitalized for this disease, which is maintained by XX drugs, and you need to be treated with XX instruments, so it can only relieve the symptoms......

It's human nature.

Anyone caught up in this description is despairing.

However, there is something miraculous that can magically resolve even this kind of tragedy that hundreds of millions of people cannot escape.

This magical thing is the call of the mother.

When he fell into these pessimistic descriptions of outsiders, deep in his heart he suddenly heard his mother gently calling: "Ane. ”

It's a call from the depths of the heart, not the everyday.

It's such a simple and ordinary name.

It was as if he had been awakened from a dream—close to the feeling of waking him up from a dream.

It finally dawned on him!

That's right!

Why should I surrender to these pessimistic descriptions and definitions?

When did I become so acquainted with these people?

When did you come to these people?

When did you start listening to them?

My mother brought me here!

I was so dazed that I forgot that my mother existed.

Now, I'm going back with my mother......

Those pessimistic and ironclad descriptions have returned to obscurity.

When he meets a tall and sexy "goddess" with a beautiful appearance.

His subconscious seemed to have to love her, to have 'sexual' fantasies about her.

And this kind of empty fantasy is the most torturous.

But he had to "fantasize" again.

If he didn't fantasize, he seemed to be able to imagine that the fans of the 'goddess' would attack him in droves: "What are you?!" Don't you dare to worship our goddess? ”

The anger of the fans seems to make him lose money, and he has to fall into the fantasy of beautiful girls.

After being ignored by the "goddess", it will be the ridicule and guidance of fans.

So, when he was rejected by the girl, there was always an inexplicable and powerful sense of shame, and it was shame in front of seemingly irrelevant people.

This is a world full of all kinds of "fans", and if you don't integrate into the tide of "fans", isn't it the enemy of society?

But when he traces his memories back to the original memories of his first time with his mother, he understands that the only one he needs to rely on and be responsible for is his mother.

As for socializing, instinct naturally teaches him how to get along with people. Communicate with people exploratory and persuasively, rather than compromising and pandering to "fit in".

In his real memory, he vaguely remembered that his mother was once at home, and it seemed that she was besieged by many people for violating a non-legal rule in society.

It was after this that his subconscious mind unconsciously overintegrated into the tide of "society" and fell into the psychology of "fans".

Those who besiege his mother are the symbols of "fans", and he and his mother are unique beyond "fans".

He's finally outraged!

This anger comes from the most primitive instinct to "protect his mother", and no amount of "fans" can stop him from protecting his mother! Nor could he be forced to accept all kinds of drug-like temptations.

After the anger, there is endless beauty.

No matter what kind of girl you treat, it's just the state of mind when you play with the girl next door after leaving your mother for a while.

Even if there is any shame on the outside.

Just the thought of going home to see your mother will bring all the shame to zero.

The surroundings will be so quiet and peaceful, and there will be no more hustle and bustle.

The distance between him and his mother seemed to be close, and the surroundings were so hazy, he was running to his mother shouting without any obstacles......

He finally understood that love is the state of mind when he looks at the girl next door when he is closest to his mother.

It is a secret transfer of maternal love.

When he was disillusioned by the loss of love, his memory told him that falling in love was a process or feeling of finding a "mother".

Falling out of love is mistaking a girl for a "mother".

This will not be sad in any way, but will immediately divert attention and continue to look for "Mom".

Love is intimacy, not the tension and heartbeat that outsiders describe. (To be continued.) )