In the graduation season, the campus station loses its former hustle and bustle. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

There were only a few dozen people shuttling up and down the car.

Most of these people are students in the lower grades who did not go home for the summer vacation.

Or a student working a summer job.

There are even a few graduates who are about to leave school like Xiao Nei.

Xiao Nei was carrying an old schoolbag full of clothes, but he felt that he was carrying a thousand pounds of burden.

This station, which symbolizes departure or parting, has memories of his yearning and even more of his sad memories.

He has traveled back and forth between the city and the school many times, dizzily shuttling through the major talent markets.

It was during the time when he and Ah Wei stayed in the dormitory.

At that time, he was like a bird with its tail on fire, flying in panic.

Just to find a job that matches his major.

But until his plastic bag full of resumes broke, no company hired him.

The situation is almost the same as the pursuit of love, he always thinks that politeness and humility are the first elements of being a man, but they can be used in love and work, but it does not work.

Employers seem to prefer aggressive and extroverted people.

It's like girls prefer evil guys.

He had also picked up and dropped off the girl he liked at this station, even though the girl was indifferent.

In addition to Ah Wei, the most common thing other students say to Xiao Nei is: "So many people don't agree with you, you should reflect on yourself, what is wrong." ”

This is probably the best advice for a person who often makes mistakes and does not want to repent.

But it doesn't work for Xiao Nei. Because his heart is already extremely inferior, and if he wants to reflect on himself, he will almost deny himself completely.

He could only hold on to the last shred of faith that he was not useless.

But reality has proved his beliefs.

Like he now has to leave this school with endless regrets.

This is not the first time he has experienced the melancholy of leaving school.

Each time it is diluted with curiosity about the school of the future.

And this curiosity, without hesitation, is inseparable from the fantasy of girls.

But this time it was fundamental, leaving school forever with shattered illusions.

Love, school, career.

It's almost a complete loss.

He could never have imagined that he would leave school with such an ending.

Perhaps, for many people, even if there is no love and work, it is very normal.

Because for them, the journey of life has just begun.

However, for Xiao Nei, his life does not seem to see a future.

Because he never imagined life after graduation.

All that comes to mind is the concept of campus and home.

That's why when it's time to look for a job, he's so anxious.

This time, when he came to the station again.

It's no longer about love and work.

There will be no more tension and anxiety, only endless loneliness and loneliness.

He even felt like he couldn't afford to make the journey home.

Almost slumped in his seat, letting the car carry him down the road.

The journey home was painful.

Xiao Nei is almost always in a trance, getting on the bus, getting off, transferring, getting off......

I finally saw my long-lost hometown.

The blue brick and red tile building is located in the green mountains and green waters, and that is Xiao Nei's home.

In the paddy fields on both sides, some farmers are already working in the fields.

Those are all familiar villagers and neighbors in Konai.

On the green grassy slope of the back mountain, cattle herders are leisurely leading their cattle to swim.

This rural landscape can no longer inspire the joy of Xiaonai.

He even kept his head down.

"Uh~~ Isn't that Xiao Nei?"

A sharp voice broke his lost state.

When Xiao Nei looked up, it turned out to be an aunt who was working in the fields.

"Fourth aunt." Xiao Nei answered weakly.

"Yo! College students are back. Your mom stewed a chicken and was waiting for you at home. ”

Another loud voice sounded in the field.

"Third uncle." Xiao Nei said with a wry smile.

He didn't seem to have the strength to say anything more.

I could only say hello symbolically and bury my head in the pace home.

The moment you step through the door, a familiar smell greets you.

But this evokes Xiao Nei's sadness even more.

Because he really can't afford this kind of gap.

Or that they can't afford to keep their homes.

Only now does he seem to understand: the warmth of home is conditional.

Having achieved nothing, he simply did not deserve this kind of warmth.

Although Mom and Dad never said that.

But the fact that they were worried about his studies until his hair turned gray was the best proof of this.

"Dad, Mom, I'm back." Xiao Nei shouted in a low voice.

"Xiao Nei is back." Out of the back room came a simple middle-aged woman, medium height, slightly cloudy eyes, slightly curly hair, and a sallow complexion.

But none of this can hide her former youth and beauty.

A sense of guilt swelled up inexplicably in Konai.

He barely dared to look her in the eye.

Like a child who has done something wrong, he whispers, "Mom." ”

"Come on, let's put our luggage away."

Mom took Xiao Nei's backpack, for fear that he would be tired.

"Where's Daddy?" Small internal problems.

"He~ only knows how to play outside all day long. I'm going to call him back. ”

Mom shouted a little hurried and delighted, and finally called Dad back.

"Xiao Nei is back." As soon as Dad entered the door, he said with a little joy.

The father, who is usually silent and introverted, saw Xiao Nei go home, and his cloudy eyes were faintly shining.

He was very thin, but from the way he walked in like a gust of wind, it was clear that it was a joy for him that his son had come home.

Nothing has changed.

Dad and Mom are still so gentle, kind, and unpretentious.

I was not displeased with his stupidity.

On the contrary, it is a long-lost joy.

"Don't go get some food yet, Xiao Nei must be very hungry." Mom feigned anger and said to Dad.

"Oh. Good! Dad replied sharply, his joy palpable.

"Xiao Nei, where's your luggage?" Mom asked in surprise.

She seemed to remember that Xiao Nei only came back with a bag.

"Oh, I've sent it to the post, I'll get it in a few days." Kouchi responded.

"Can you receive it? I won't lose it. Mom asked, slightly worried.

Just like when she used to tell Xiao Nei to take care of his money.

"No, don't worry. I'm just waiting for the mail when I come back. ”

"Xiao Nei, you have lost weight, go home and make up for it, my mother stewed chicken for you." Mom said with care.

"Oh." Kouchi responded.

He turned away, not wanting his mother to see the tears in his eyes.

He didn't expect his parents to say a word about his future.

Perhaps it was a telepathic feeling, and the mother seemed to know that her son was injured outside, so she did not mention his sadness. (To be continued.) )