I don't have a house, I don't have a ticket, I don't have what I should have, but we have youth, and I have a job. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 Info was really lost at the time, and I felt that the road ahead was a little bleak. My husband is very confident and optimistic, and he has become my support and the pillar of my life.

Although the family is particularly disapproving of my marriage, but it has never reached the point of being cold, not optimistic about it, my mother still made two beds and two covers for my newlywed (two beds and two mattresses), of course, excluding pillows, I use idle clothes to make pillows. The quilt was covered for a few days, the quilt surface was originally like a sack piece, after use, some places exposed the filling and some places were piled up, and then look at the quilt cover, all rolled up, and got the stall where the cotton was played.

When people looked at it, they kindly said to me: "You are not pure cotton, and you have no value in playing." "I was saying in my heart: I have to play if it is worthwhile! Otherwise, what do I cover when I sleep at night? Feeling embarrassed, he said to the one who played the cotton: "It's all here, you can help you play it again." ”

Later, every time they went back to their mother-in-law's house, the two of them poured quilts home in large bags, so they didn't have to worry about being frozen at night.

Shenyang was a strange city to both of us, with no one to rely on. Fortunately, I have a unit as a backer, at least I can rely on my monthly salary to make a living, and I will not die or go hungry, and my monthly salary at that time was less than 200 yuan.

Fortunately, a relative of a colleague in the unit heard that my husband had worked as a cook in a restaurant, so with a monthly salary of 300 yuan, I asked my husband to cook in the restaurant. After two months of work, the hotel's efficiency is not good.

My husband discussed with me privately: "This location is too remote, not only can I not make money at the end of the day, but I also have to lose money, people are embarrassed to say, let's take the initiative to leave, right?" "When I think about it, there are well-wishers in the unit, and I can't make it difficult for my family. The two of them moved out of the house, and we started looking for a place to live.

We went to the edge of the city to find the cheapest dilapidated house to rent, which was the lower house of the people - the wing room used to store the belongings, and it was specially converted into a living house for the purpose of collecting rent. Low and dark, a kang occupies most of the space in the house, only a narrow ground, on the kang, can only cat waist, the roof is too low. We pasted the kang mat with paper, and the only modern fixture in the house was a light bulb with a red glow.

Spend 40 yuan to buy a full load of honeycomb coal from a donkey, and then light the stove to cook every day. At that time, it was almost impossible to see the oiliness, and the market would buy whatever food was cheap, and even eating a piece of tofu was a luxury. I solemnly said to my husband: "In summer, kidney beans cost a dime a pound, let's eat kidney beans, and when the vegetables are expensive in winter, let's eat tofu again!" ”

My husband's face was a little embarrassed, but he didn't say anything. Of course I know that he is sad in his heart, he feels that I have suffered and suffered, and he silently says sorry in his heart! At that time, my husband's body was very thin and weak, and he had a cold and fever at every turn, and I felt even more frustrated and dazed when he got sick.

When his husband was seriously ill, he returned to his home, because his unit was there, and the unit was responsible for the injection hospitalization. At that time, I was the only one left, going to and from work every day, and when I returned to the low rental house, I was unspeakably lonely and helpless, and I really didn't know what tomorrow would be like. Will you still worry about the trivial things of life?

When he came back from his illness and appeared in front of me, he didn't need any words, didn't need too much explanation, he just smiled faintly at me: "I'm back!" ”。

I have an indescribable feeling, joy and unspeakable loss, and a bottomless panic in my heart. I wonder when this wandering day will end? Don't know when you will be able to live a carefree and free life? But in the face of her husband, she is still a carefree and silly woman. Or maybe the power of love is really too great, right?

Because you don't even have a TV, you can't stare at it all the time, right? And it's not convenient to go out, so I bought an old bicycle, but the two of them were having fun, and when they were free, they rode a bicycle around, and when they encountered a paid premises, we only looked outside. We'll go all over the places where there is no charge. The deepest impression is that the two of them were tired of shopping, gritted their teeth and walked into a snack bar, and her husband said: "One tendon cake, two bowls of tofu brain." ”

The two sat facing each other, looking at each other while eating, at that time my weight was 7 pounds heavier than my husband's, and the amount of food was larger than my husband's, so I ate all the cakes on the plate in one go. I feel that the cake and tofu brain are so delicious! My husband looked at me lovingly, and the gentleness of his eyes like water warmed my heart. In this way, the life of the two seems to be good.

Many years later, the two of them looked for gluten cakes and tofu brains N times, looking for the taste of the year, but they couldn't find that taste and feeling anymore!

When I first arrived, my eyes were black, and my husband couldn't even find a job, and now I think about it, I really lacked life experience and was too young and ignorant. There is a saying that makes sense: "The broken ship is against the wind and rain", and here they are struggling to find a job and struggle on the poverty line.

However, there are many things in his family, and it is not far from Shenyang to Huludao, and it is not a short distance. At that time, the transportation was not as convenient as it is now, and almost every once in a while he came to his house to send a telegram (at that time the phone was still very scarce): "return quickly", and I don't know what happened at home? My husband was in a hurry to take a long-distance bus back home, and of course, I had to take most of my monthly salary with him. Of course, we must keep in mind the ancient adage of the poor and the rich!

A few days later, my husband returned, and he told about the family, "The roof was dewed, the asphalt was re-scalded, and the linoleum paper was laid out, and I was busy at home for a few days, and my mother gave me 100 yuan when I was leaving, and my sister gave me the only dozens of yuan in her hand." "I was really moved by this, and I firmly believe that blood is thicker than water, after all, it is a family.

Soon, there was something at home, and when my husband came back, he explained the situation to me: "My mother saw that the chalk factory was very profitable, so she asked me to go to Chaoyang to buy a set of equipment, and after learning there, I went home and installed it, and then taught them how to use it." When I came back, my sister went out and borrowed money from me. I just nodded meekly.

When my husband came back from home for the Nth time and told me how much money the family had taken from me, I couldn't help myself, and I had some questions: "You always say how much money your family gives you, why don't I see a penny?" I didn't see the rest of the money I gave you when you left? ”

My husband was a little dumbfounded, and quickly said: "When I went home to run errands, I spent all the money you gave me, and I didn't even have the money to come back, and you also know that my family is indeed too difficult, and my sister is now giving Zhang Luo the money." ”

In fact, it's as simple as that, he just needs to tell me the truth, it doesn't matter if it's money or not, I hope he can let me know anything, at least I have the right to know. And he always coaxed me like a child over and over again, don't I know how to count?

Actually, I don't care what he does for the family? Or how much money to give to the family, as a son, he should do anything, it is all right, all I want is for him to tell me the truth, live with me sincerely, we can share weal and woe!

I won't let him be an unfilial son, I won't let him do anything against his family, and I won't let him feel embarrassed in the slightest. If he knows me and understands me, he should know my heart.

Because the rented house is in the suburbs of the city, some distance from where I work, every morning my husband prepares breakfast, and after the two of them have eaten, he rides a bicycle to take me to the unit, and then he goes around to look for a job, and when I get off work, he will pick me up at the unit and go home with me.

I never ask him, "Did you get a job?" "But I was also a little anxious and a little puzzled: Is it so difficult to find a job in such a big city? But I can't show the slightest anxiety or displeasure, for fear of hurting his self-esteem or making him distracted, thinking that I am disappointed in him and seeing him as a burden.

In this way, we live a poor but happy life. Every night after dinner, the two of them rode their bicycles around, and occasionally I rode, and he sat in the second class in the back, and we wandered around one after another.

The most impressive one: I rode and encountered a crowded occasion, I didn't know how to ride a bicycle, because my husband sat in the back so he was very bold, when I saw that there were people on the road, I panicked all of a sudden, and I didn't know the brake, screaming and rushing to the crowd. When I saw that I bumped into someone, my brain went blank, and I closed my eyes and had to resign myself to fate!

At this point, the bike came to a stop with a clatter, and after screaming, I opened my eyes to see the ending, and it turned out that everything was still the same, the pedestrians were not disturbed by my shouting, they were still busy, and no one fell under my wheels.

It turned out that the car stopped before hitting someone. My first reaction was to laugh and show off to my husband: "This car has an automatic brake, and it stops automatically!" ”

Seeing that my husband's face was green, he took the bicycle from my hand, glared at me dissatisfied, and said angrily and funny: "What automatic brake?" I shut down the car in the back. ”

I probably talked about fasting a lot, and I always believed in the existence of ghosts and gods, and when there was a situation, the first thing that came to mind was not my husband, but what was the will of God? As a result, providence made my husband pull the car to a stop, and we were all safe and sound!

After all, it's not a good thing for a big man to have nothing to do all day long, and the time at work is not short, and colleagues are gradually getting acquainted, and they make jokes together from time to time on weekdays. Someone actually laughed and said: "I really convinced you, I went to work by myself and let my husband stay at home, this is the authentic wife of raising a man, and the old man is really strong enough to support his wife at home!" ”

Listening to these jokes, my heart is really sore, I don't know when these days will end? I didn't dare to ask my husband, I knew in my heart that he was the kind of person who was heavy-minded, and if I said anything, it would definitely increase the burden on his heart.