My husband has been at home and has not found a job, so we often go back to my parents' house to see and stay at home for the night, or go in the morning and come back in the car in the evening. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 Info tries his best to help the family with some of the work, from cooking and cooking to washing clothes and bedding, and doing farm work in the fields.

Because I married my husband, my family is not optimistic, especially our living conditions are so poor, their attitude is even more conceivable. Every time I came back from my parents' house, my mood was so bad that I even cried and said to my husband, "I will never go back again!" ”

But after a few days I began to think about going home again, Dad just rarely spoke, Mom often led a room of people to play mahjong, my husband and I didn't even have a place to sit, once I was really angry and cried to go home, Mom and Dad quarreled about it, Dad was very angry at Mom and said: "I know how to play in a day, don't do any work, don't live this day!" ”

Mom yelled confidently: "What's the other work? Leave me alone every day? Still make people live? "I felt even more uneasy.

When we went home again, our situation had not changed. My husband is a very face-conscious person, and I know that he must feel particularly uneasy and embarrassed, but he didn't say anything, even though he was unwilling to do so, he still accompanied me home, and then comforted and exhorted me who was disheartened and depressed.

The four of us sisters have settled in different places, and whenever we want to go home, we all make an appointment to go back together, and I don't understand why we want to join in the fun.

At that time, the eldest sister's family was in the countryside, and she was a well-known farmer, and her family had reached the level of all kinds of modern machinery, hiring workers when she had work, and commanding her with her waist straight, not to mention that the family was piled up with gold, at least the grain was piled up like a mountain.

When the eldest sister's family comes home, Dad is always the first to greet them out: "Decai is here, come into the house!" The wrinkles on my parents' faces shone with joy, and my eyes stinged a little.

The second sister married the middle-level leader of the most dazzling popular enterprise, and every time she went home, she was picked up by a special car from the unit, and that kind of scenery made her parents even more energetic, and her father's words were never so much, and she never found a confidant with a common language, which will finally be found. "Baoli, are you busy with work now? Parents are in good health? ”……

Mother is even more adoring and fond of it, now she is even more proud in the village, she will hold her head high to show off to those neighbors who have not seen a car a few times: "My second aunt is a big leader, not to mention how much she earns, she will be equipped with a car when she goes out, and I will enjoy it by borrowing the light of my second daughter!" This life has not been in vain! ”

Mom is also thoughtful, she will enthusiastically say to her second brother-in-law: "Li, there are all kinds of dishes at home, but our dishes are not medicated, they are pure green food." It just so happens that you are coming to the car, pull some back, and bring some back to the driver and unit leaders! ”

The third sister and his wife are both well-known large enterprises in China, and they have a pivotal position in the unit, with bright and gorgeous clothes and rich gifts, and their family is naturally impressed by their parents.

Mother's fun is gone, no longer a cold face, her smile is so sincere, so open, hugging a few years old grandson, there is really no false love from the heart: "Grandma, do you want to die, do you want grandma?" "Even I have some doubts, is the face I saw before and this face belong to the same person? Why do you look more and more rusty?

Every time I go home, it seems to be the same, nothing more than a sore heart, not only others look awkward, but I also feel disgraced, no matter what, except for the occasional comfort in my husband's place, there seems to be nothing abnormal, and I don't pay attention or find my frustration and pain. In fact, there is really no difference, the sun still shines on everyone's body, and the moonlight still shines so freely in every corner.

In the autumn, my husband and I were at home, and my father suddenly fell from the sky, and I was a little flattered that my father could come to my little hut, and the thatch was really glowing with purple light. Dad swept my shabby "home" with his eyes. Then he talked to me about family life, which is unique in my memory, and my father should be high or serious and taciturn in front of me.

Dad said: "The autumn harvest is coming soon, and our family's more than 20 acres of land are really unbearable, and we want to spend money to hire people, but now we can't hire people." Of course, I didn't think much about it, but my husband didn't speak, and of course he immediately thought: "It's the time when the farm is busy, and Dad is not busy with the autumn harvest, but he comes here to talk about common things, which is really contrary to common sense." ”

Sure enough, Dad was silent for two minutes, and then his eyes fell on his husband: "Chunming is idle at home, go home and help with the autumn harvest, and I will pay the wages then." "I think Dad's words make people feel very uncomfortable, their own children should help their parents, and it is really unacceptable to put money first." What money do you receive for work at home? It's all as it should be. ”

My husband didn't speak, so I directly agreed for him: "Okay, let him go home and harvest the autumn, I don't have anything to do." Let's go tomorrow. ”

When Dad heard this, he immediately replied, "What tomorrow?" Now that I'm so busy at home, let's leave right away! One day earlier, one day earlier. My husband silently followed my father to the autumn harvest.

What I didn't expect was that this autumn harvest would be more than a month, and of course I couldn't have thought of it: after my father brought my husband home, I asked my brother to work with my husband, and then the old couple took a car to Fushun's third sister's house.

Later, I heard the third sister say: "That time someone in the car played three playing cards, in fact, it was a fraud money, my mother didn't care about thirty-seven twenty-one, always thought that her eyes were good, her brain was more flexible than others, and the person who played saw that her mother was interested, so she asked her mother to take out the money first, and then return the money to her after trying, and her mother really took out the money, and the money went into someone's pocket." How could Dad give money to someone else so easily? So he had to get the money back, and a few strong men over there punched and kicked, and finally beat his father so that he couldn't speak. When the father with a blue nose and swollen face appeared in the third brother-in-law's unit, he attracted many surprised eyes, those people must be strange, what kind of person is this, how can he have such a respectful appearance? Mom can still shout loudly, afraid that others will not know that she is my family. ”

Dad stayed at the third sister's house for a few days, and when he returned home, the family's land was almost harvested, and his husband had never done farm work, and his hands were blistered with blood, so he gritted his teeth and persevered. Seeing his parents come back, my husband said his thoughts: "Dad, Mom, our land is almost finished, and I have been out for more than ten days, Dayan is home alone, I really don't worry, I will go home tomorrow." ”

Dad's face sank suddenly: "What's the matter with you coming home?" A day is dry, is it always so dull? It's better to do some work in this gang, and when the rice is finished, I'll get you two bags of rice, so you don't have to buy your own rice to eat." At this time, he didn't mention the wages anymore? It seems that my husband is a cheap laborer, and he only works for his two bags of rice.

Or Dad said it unintentionally, he didn't think too much, but he didn't know how much this sentence hurt his husband? When my husband talked to me when he got home, there were tears in his eyes, and he looked humiliated and helpless. Back then, Tao Qian's old man didn't bend his waist for five buckets of rice, after so many years, my husband, a dignified man, would actually bow his eyebrows for two bags of rice like a little daughter-in-law?

Seeing that his father was unhappy, my husband didn't insist on going home. The next day, his father led him to harvest the autumn for the second uncle, and then the third uncle and the sixth uncle finished this and that, and told people in front of her husband the day before: "Let Chunming help you do it tomorrow, he has nothing to do, and he is idle." My husband felt that he was being auctioned, he never thought that he would be embarrassed to such an extent, but he had to bow his head and endure it because of his feelings.

Of course I understand the humiliation, maybe my parents didn't think much of it, they just thought that relatives should help each other, but I didn't think so, why didn't he let my brother go? Don't you just think that your husband has no job and no money? Should you swallow your anger if you are poor?

Of course, they don't think about things from their husband's point of view. My husband's patience at one time, the only thing he can think about is not to embarrass me and get angry, of course he doesn't know, if I don't approve of his patience at all, there is no need and no room for negotiation, when I hear my husband say these things, my anger is indescribable!

After the work of the seven aunts and eight aunts in the village was finished, they called the eldest sister in the countryside again: "Chunming will help you work, won't it save money by hiring one less?" "My husband is already very dissatisfied, but when I think of not going, not only my father is unhappy, but the eldest sister must also be picky, and I don't know how to explain to me when I go back, so I have to endure it again.

My husband thought too much, and if I knew these things at the time and understood the situation at that time, I couldn't say: who do I love! If you don't treat me as a human being, why should I be afraid to tear my face? Of course, this was just an over-the-top thought when I was angry, and of course I didn't care about the consequences when I was angry, and I didn't need to think about the consequences! I really won't let my husband suffer this wretched up there.

When my husband came home, he was already thin and small, but now he was even thinner, and it was black and thin, which made people feel distressed. The pain in his heart is even more unpredictable and unpredictable, and sometimes I am even angry with his excessive thoughts, I shouldn't bear it, why should I bear it?

Listening to what my husband said, my heart was already cold. Although I can't forget the misery and humiliation of my childhood, since I went out of the house to go to school in other places, my psychology has changed, I no longer regret and resent, although I often wake up in the nightmare of dreaming of my mother's evil eyes or running towards me with a kitchen knife, I still don't want to take how my mother treated me in the past.

As for my father, what I can think of is: if it wasn't for my father's insistence when I was a child, my mother would have replaced me with the boys in the village a long time ago, and it was my father's emphasis on flesh and blood and that mountain of fatherly love that I could grow up in front of my biological parents, and I always firmly believed that my father was: a person who pays attention to family affection with flesh and blood.

My deepest impression was that my father carried me in the water, that not solid, not tall back, that deep imprint, more than enough to counteract all the unhappiness and contempt. Dad will always be my dad, he is the dad I have always loved!

It's all in the past, and I don't want to say anything more! After all, my parents gave birth to me and strongly supported me in studying, and this great kindness cannot be repaid.

Sometimes I am so sad that I even think when I am soft and painful: I can't choose my background, let alone my parents, but I can choose to be a good daughter with a clear conscience.

Of course, this kind of thinking only comes when you are sad and desperate, after all, the nurturing grace of your parents cannot be repaid no matter what. If I had been born in another family, maybe my life would not be as good as it is today.

No matter how wrong your parents are, they are also parents, and they are never wrong!